An Epic of Time Wasted

~~~ Bella's pov ~~~

i sat with my knees hugged to my chest rocking slowly back and forth as I listened to Matt and Brian talk outside. This was all way too much and I was creeping Into insanity with each passing day. I racked my mind trying to find a resolution to all of this, there had to be some sort of remedy.

" How ya feeling?" Brian whispered cautiously as he walked back Inside, startling me as he did. Just then a lightbulb flickered to life in my brain.

" Brian you have to go! Just stay away from me!" I screamed, throwing him off guard. I grabbed his jacket off the back of the couch and hurried over to him, pushing it Into his chest as I tried to shove him out the door.

" Bella! What the fuck is wrong with you?!" He screeched in shock as I pushed against him. Which wasn't doing me much good being that he just stayed cemented in the same spot.

"Bella!" He yelled once more, this time grabbing my upper arm harshly.

" Brian I don't have time for this, you have to go and stay away from me!" I spat as warm tears flooded my eyes. His features softened at the sight of my tears and he dropped his hand back to his side. He opened his mouth to speak, but I beat him to it.

" Brian, none of this started till we were around each other...... It's the only way I can think to stop all of this..... Please just go" I sobbed, hanging my head. Even though Brian and I haven't always been on the best of terms, I still felt horrible about pushing him away. He stepped closer, pulling me tightly into his arms.

" I'm not leaving you Bella, especially not like this..... It kills me to see you this way." he softly said as his voice broke at the end. As much as my heart ached, I had to do what I had to to get him away from me. Not only just for me, but for his own good as well. I ripped myself from his arms and stepped back as I stared him down with the coldest glare I could muster.

" Well Brian! I'm a big girl, I don't need you to worry about me! Why don't you go home and worry about your wife and your sorry excuse for a marriage! That's if you even still have one!" I spat, venom dripping from each and every word. I saw the hurt that clouded his eyes as he just stared back at me like a lost puppy. Even though it killed me, I kept my glare harsh and hateful. Without a word he turned and walked out the front door, leaving me to break into a million pieces as he did. But I knew it was for the best and besides no matter the situation he is still my sisters husband. I walked into the kitchen and pulled my emergency bottle of jack from the freezer. Not even flinching as the sub zero frosted bottle stung my hand. I ripped the cap off and stood in the middle of the floor, drinking from the bottle like my life depended on it. I heard a faint knock at my door, causing me to slightly choke in surprise. I woozily shuffled to the door and threw it open, but no one was there. I stepped out slightly and looked around, but it was just me and nature.

" Oh fuck em'" I slurred as I went the step back Inside but kicked something in the process.

" My phone?" I hiccuped, reaching down and picking it up. With all the craziness that's been going on, I had completely forgot that I had lost my phone. But due to my liquor lunch I was partaking in I didn't give much thought to who even had it and to be honest I really didn't care. I pressed the home button, bringing my phone to life showing the countless amounts of missed calls and texts. But despite the fact that my screen was full of alerts, I could only focus on the picture of jimmy and I behind all of it. A twinge of hurt speared my heart as I stared at it. I needed him right now, but for some unknown reason he pushed me away, and it still hurt.

" fuck!" I yelped as my phone vibrated in my hand, signaling and incoming call.

" What!" I spat into the receiver, but no one spoke, just silence on the other end.

" Hello?!" I yelled in annoyance, but still no answer. I pulled my phone from my ear and looked down at the screen. It was a blocked number, of course.

" if this is you Brian, fuck off!!" I screamed, throwing my phone against the wall. I was almost positive that it was going to bust Into pieces, but it just simply bounced off the wall and slid right back over to me as if it were a yo-yo. For a moment all I could do was just stare at the phone in horror. But a few moments later I rushed out the front door and began walking until I reached my destination.

" Hey bell........" Zacky began as he opened his door, until his words faded as he looked me up and down.

" You know your naked right?!" He gasped as he yanked me inside and slammed the door quickly. He threw me his jacket as I saw the blush creep into his cheeks.

" and have you been drinking?" He added as he stared at me puzzled.

" just a little" I hiccuped as I shot him a sloppy wink.

" Ya.......... And so what's up with the whole nudist colony look?" He asked becoming amused.

" Well ya know, it's a nice day out. Why not?" I responded as I fought not to topple over. We stood in silence for a moment before I couldn't stop the word vomit that was to ensue.

" why don't you like me zacky? Do you think I'm ugly? Is it because Im not blonde with huge boobs?" I slurred as I watched him become more uncomfortable by the second. He sighed and walked over to me, putting his hands on my arms.

" Bella......... Your beautiful just the way you are. I just don't think it's a good idea" he simply said, dropping his hands back to his sides.

" so if I decide to just hang around here naked, it won't tempt you then?" I said as I dropped his jacket to the floor, leaving me fully exposed to him.

" No, not a bit. Whatever you wanna do is fine with me" he squeaked as he swallowed the visible lump In his throat. I smirked deviously as I walked to his fruit bowl and grabbed a bannana and slowly peeled it down. He pulled at his collar as though to loosen it as he sat back on the couch, pulling his laptop back onto his lap. I perched myself as seductively as I could for being a sloppy drunk at the moment on the opposite side of the couch.

" God zacky, this is such a big bannana" I purred, trying not to chuckle at my horrible sexual pun as I slowly brought the banana into my mouth.

" uhhhh, uhhhh it's just a everyday banana" he shrugged nervously as he peeked quickly at me. I could see beads of perspiration begin to form at his brow, signaling to me that I was starting to break his will.


" It's just so big, and juicy" I purred as I ran my tounge along the fruit. Without warning he threw his laptop down and grabbed me, straddling me on his lap, kissing me hungrily.

" Fuck, your so hard headed" he growled as he took a fist full of my hair and leaned my head back so he could suck and bite my neck.

" No one has to know baby. Just fuck me!" I demanded as I broke from his hold and ripped his shirt over his head.

" Yes ma'am" he sneered, slapping my bare ass harshly. I slightly raised myself up so he could rid himself of his shorts and boxers.

" Do you want me zacky?" I cooed as I lowered myself onto his rock hard clock only letting the head inside me, teasing him.

" Yes Bella! Please baby!" He cried out. With that I dropped myself down as he filled me completely, making the both of us cry out in pleasure.


" what the fuck?!?!?!" I heard someone growl from the door.

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