Seize The Day
Turn The Other Way
SHANNON’S POV
When we got back to the house the guys immediately popped open a beer and sat in front of the tv flipping through channels. I took this time to let Johnny cool off more so I hopped in the shower and took my time. I needed to figure out a way to get Johnny and Zacky to get along again. I knew it wasn’t going to be easy. I loved Johnny and how he made me feel. But I don’t know what’s going to happen if they can’t get past this little glitch.
I let the water run over me as I shut my eyes. I thought everything would be different here, but there ending up the exact same way that they did with my ex. They all knew some of what I went through with my last relationship, but they only knew it to an extent. I know they want me to open up about everything but it’s just not that easy to do.
I must have stayed in the shower longer then I thought. I could hear the guys in the other room. God I wasn’t ready to listen to anymore arguing. I was beginning to think that it was a bad idea moving here.
I stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around my waist. Opening the door to the bathroom, I walked the short distance down the hall to my room without the guys noticing. I dropped my towel once I was safe behind closed doors and looked though my dresser for clothes to put on. But it wasn’t long before there was a knock at my door.
“Just a second.” I replied to whoever was knocking. I put on a long shirt and threw my hair up. “Come in.”
The door opened and Matt peeked his head in.
“Hey babe. You doing ok?” Matt asked.
“Yeah.” I replied with a sigh. “How’s everything out there?”
“Well, Jimmy and Johnny are drunk. Zackys having a beer and Brian, well, Brian is just Brian.” He told me and plopped himself on my bed.
“Do you think this was a bad idea?” I asked as I slid on a pair of short shorts.
“Do I think what was a bad idea?”
“Me moving here.”
“No! Not at all. Do you think it was?”
I went and sat by Matt on my bed, sitting Indian style.
“I don’t know anymore. It feels like I’ve ruined everything by coming here. Zacky and Johnny are constantly fighting now because of me.”
“It’s because they both like you. Zacky is just mad because Johnny beat him to asking out out.”
“I can’t take this anymore Matt. I’m seriously thinking about just moving back to New York.”
I laid my head against his arm as he put his arm around me.
“I’d hate to see you go. I love having you here, and so do the rest of the guys. And besides, what if you move back there and your ex comes and finds you?”
“I don’t know Matt.” I told him as tears began to flow. “I love Johnny, and I do want to be with him. But I don’t want him and Zacky to end up hating each other.”
“Maybe you need to sit them both down and talk to them, either together or separately.” Matt told me.
“I’ve already talked to Johnny. I told him he needs to stop getting so offensive or he’s going to end up losing me.”
“Well, then you need to talk to Zack. Set him straight and tell him you’re with Johnny and you want to stay with him.”
I sat up and wiped my eyes.
“Honestly Matt, I just feel like walking away from everything. I don’t know how much of anything I can take anymore.” I began to cry more, almost to a point where I was hyperventilating.
“Ok, babe stop. Just calm down. Take a deep breath.” Matt told me as he kneeled down in front of me. “Don’t say things like that ok?” He placed his hands on my shoulders, kneading them a bit to try to calm me down. “You are going to be ok. Thing won’t always be like this, you have my word. You just need to figure out what’s important to you.”
“I know.” I managed to say in between deep breaths.
“I think you need some sleep.”
“I don’t want him coming in here if he’s drunk Matt.”
“I won’t let him. I’ll make sure he goes in his own room later. You just lie down and get some sleep. Things will be good in the morning.”
Matt stood up and pulled the covers back for me. I lied down in the bed and he pulled the covers over me, making sure I was tucked in well.
“I’ll see you in the morning hun.” He said as he leaned down and kissed my forehead.
“Thank you. I’ll see you tomorrow. I love you Matty.”
“Love you too squirt.” He said with a smile.
He left my room then, closing the door behind him and leaving me with my thoughts. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep, but sleep didn’t come easy. I tossed and turned for about an hour or two. I guess it was a good thing that I couldn’t hear the guys in the other room. It gave me time to settle my thoughts and my nerves.
I finally fell asleep around midnight. Johnny never came in my room so I guess he either passed out on the couch or Matt did what he said he’ll do and kept him away. Either way I was glad because I just wanted some alone time.
I ended up waking up around 2:00am and made my way into the kitchen for a drink. Zacky was up still, sitting at the table nursing a beer and eating a sandwich. I looked at him and gave him a small smile.
“Hey hun, what are you doing awake?” He asked.
“Just getting a drink. Having kind of a hard time sleeping tonight.” I told him as I poured myself a glass of juice and went to sit by him. “Are you drunk?”
“No! Not at all. I’ve only had two beers. Johnny and Jimmy on the other hand, they are completely shit faced.”
“Oh great.” I said shaking my head.
“I’m sorry about earlier tonight. I didn’t think he would of reacted like that.”
“No, it’s fine Zee. Don’t worry about it.”
“Well, I just wanted you to know that I am.”
“I know you are hun.” I said and looked at him. He smiled a bit and looked down.
“So…” He began, but didn’t seem like he knew what to say. “That’s a nice ring on your finger.”
“Thanks, Johnny gave it to me for Christmas.”
“Can I see?” He asked, holding out his hand.
“Yeah.” I told him and placed my hand in his.
He looked at the ring closely, I watched as he looked it over. He looked up at me and smiled a bit then continued to look at it.
“God, can’t you ever leave her the fuck alone?”
We both looked up to see Johnny standing in the doorway. Teetering a bit from being drunk, he walked over to the table. Zacky dropped my hand.
“Chill out man, I was just checking out her ring.” Zacky told him.
“Don’t fuckin’ tell me to chill out ok?” Johnny replied.
“Seriously, you need to back off.” Zacky said to him.
“Fuck you.”
Johnny grabbed Zacky by the collar of the shirt, pulling him up out of the chair and pushed him against the wall.
“What the fuck are you going to do Baker? Are you gonna fuckin hit me?” Johnny asked getting close to Zacky.
“Johnny, Johnny stop.” I told him as I tried to pull him away by his arm.
He pulled his arm away and continued to go after Zacky.
“MATT, BRIAN.” I yelled to get the other guys attention.
“Back the fuck up Johnny before I hurt you.” Zacky said to him.
“Then fuckin’ hit me.” Johnny told him. “HIT ME.” He yelled in his face.
Matt and Brian came running into the kitchen and pulled Johnny away from Zacky.
“Calm down man.” Brian told Johnny.
“I don’t fuckin’ need to calm down. Fuckin’ let me go.” Johnny told them.
“Not until you calm down.” Matt told him.
“I swear if someone else tells me to calm down… just one more person I’ll fuckin’ lose it!”
“Johnny, please stop. You’re scaring me.” I told him and walked over to him as tears ran from my eyes.
Jimmy walked in then, stumbling just like Johnny from being drunk.
“Whoaaaaa, what’s going on in here?” Jimmy asked.
“Nothing Jimmy, everything’s ok.” Brian told him.
“No! Everyhing’s not ok.” Johnny said, still heated.
“Whoaaa short shit. Don’t bite my head off, calm down.” Jimmy told him.
“Don’t fuckin’ tell me to calm down.”
Johnny pulled away from Matt and Brian and pushed past me so I hit into the wall. He walked over to Zacky, standing close to him again.
“Are you going to fuckin’ punch me? Go the fuck ahead. Fuckin’ get it over with.” Zacky told him.
Johnny raised his fist but hesitated a bit.
“Johnny don’t.” I told him.
Instead of punching Zacky he instead punched the wall, hard enough to leave a dent in it.
“FUCK!” Johnny yelled, holding on his hand as he stumbled out of the kitchen and down the hall to his room.
“Someone wanna tell me how this started?” Brian asked.
Zacky explained everything to them as I stood at the sink trying to calm myself down. I can’t believe what just happened, I can’t believe he took it as far as he did. This is definitely going to change a lot now.
“Matt, can I stay with you in your room tonight?” I asked.
“Sure, of course you can babe.” He said as he walked over to me and embraced me in a hug.
“I think everyone just needs to go to bed, forget tonight ever happened and move on with their lives.” Jimmy told us.
“Yeah Jim… that’s what we need.” Brian said as he patted Jimmy on the back.
“Good to know you agree with me.”
Jimmy walked, or should I say stumbled out of the kitchen and to his room.
“Go get some sleep hun. We will talk about everything later alright?” Brian asked and gave me a hug.
“Alright.” I told him, hugging him back.
He too went to his room.
I looked at Zacky, who was still backed against the wall.
“You ok?” I asked.
“Yeah… I’m fine.” He told me.
I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around him, hugging him tight.
“I’m so sorry that happened.” I told him.
“Don’t worry about it baby. He’s drunk. He’s not even going to remember what happened in the morning.” He told me and gave me a squeeze. “Go get some sleep ok? I’ll be fine.”
“Are you sure?” I asked and looked up at him.
“I’m sure.” He told me and kissed my forehead. “I’ll see you in the morning.
Zacky let me go and I back up a bit, just looking at him.
“Go! Seriously I’m ok.”
“Alright. I’ll see you in the morning then… I love you Zee.” I told him.
“I love you too.”
I followed Matt into his room. He made himself comfortable on his bed and I started to make a bed on the floor.
“Ummm, no! I don’t think so, you get up here with me.” Matt told me, patting the spot next to him.
“Are you sure?” I asked.
”Yeah. Come on.”
I laid down next to him, resting my head on his chest. He pulled the covers over the both of us. Things were different with Matt; we never felt any attraction towards each other, although he was the one I lost my virginity to at the age of 16. He was the one who protected me, made everything ok. I liked that things were like that with us and they weren’t complicated in any way.
Matt fell asleep soon after, leaving me with my thoughts. It wasn’t going to be easy for me to fall asleep now after everything that has happened. Thing’s needed to be changed, there was no way things could go on like this any longer.
When we got back to the house the guys immediately popped open a beer and sat in front of the tv flipping through channels. I took this time to let Johnny cool off more so I hopped in the shower and took my time. I needed to figure out a way to get Johnny and Zacky to get along again. I knew it wasn’t going to be easy. I loved Johnny and how he made me feel. But I don’t know what’s going to happen if they can’t get past this little glitch.
I let the water run over me as I shut my eyes. I thought everything would be different here, but there ending up the exact same way that they did with my ex. They all knew some of what I went through with my last relationship, but they only knew it to an extent. I know they want me to open up about everything but it’s just not that easy to do.
I must have stayed in the shower longer then I thought. I could hear the guys in the other room. God I wasn’t ready to listen to anymore arguing. I was beginning to think that it was a bad idea moving here.
I stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around my waist. Opening the door to the bathroom, I walked the short distance down the hall to my room without the guys noticing. I dropped my towel once I was safe behind closed doors and looked though my dresser for clothes to put on. But it wasn’t long before there was a knock at my door.
“Just a second.” I replied to whoever was knocking. I put on a long shirt and threw my hair up. “Come in.”
The door opened and Matt peeked his head in.
“Hey babe. You doing ok?” Matt asked.
“Yeah.” I replied with a sigh. “How’s everything out there?”
“Well, Jimmy and Johnny are drunk. Zackys having a beer and Brian, well, Brian is just Brian.” He told me and plopped himself on my bed.
“Do you think this was a bad idea?” I asked as I slid on a pair of short shorts.
“Do I think what was a bad idea?”
“Me moving here.”
“No! Not at all. Do you think it was?”
I went and sat by Matt on my bed, sitting Indian style.
“I don’t know anymore. It feels like I’ve ruined everything by coming here. Zacky and Johnny are constantly fighting now because of me.”
“It’s because they both like you. Zacky is just mad because Johnny beat him to asking out out.”
“I can’t take this anymore Matt. I’m seriously thinking about just moving back to New York.”
I laid my head against his arm as he put his arm around me.
“I’d hate to see you go. I love having you here, and so do the rest of the guys. And besides, what if you move back there and your ex comes and finds you?”
“I don’t know Matt.” I told him as tears began to flow. “I love Johnny, and I do want to be with him. But I don’t want him and Zacky to end up hating each other.”
“Maybe you need to sit them both down and talk to them, either together or separately.” Matt told me.
“I’ve already talked to Johnny. I told him he needs to stop getting so offensive or he’s going to end up losing me.”
“Well, then you need to talk to Zack. Set him straight and tell him you’re with Johnny and you want to stay with him.”
I sat up and wiped my eyes.
“Honestly Matt, I just feel like walking away from everything. I don’t know how much of anything I can take anymore.” I began to cry more, almost to a point where I was hyperventilating.
“Ok, babe stop. Just calm down. Take a deep breath.” Matt told me as he kneeled down in front of me. “Don’t say things like that ok?” He placed his hands on my shoulders, kneading them a bit to try to calm me down. “You are going to be ok. Thing won’t always be like this, you have my word. You just need to figure out what’s important to you.”
“I know.” I managed to say in between deep breaths.
“I think you need some sleep.”
“I don’t want him coming in here if he’s drunk Matt.”
“I won’t let him. I’ll make sure he goes in his own room later. You just lie down and get some sleep. Things will be good in the morning.”
Matt stood up and pulled the covers back for me. I lied down in the bed and he pulled the covers over me, making sure I was tucked in well.
“I’ll see you in the morning hun.” He said as he leaned down and kissed my forehead.
“Thank you. I’ll see you tomorrow. I love you Matty.”
“Love you too squirt.” He said with a smile.
He left my room then, closing the door behind him and leaving me with my thoughts. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep, but sleep didn’t come easy. I tossed and turned for about an hour or two. I guess it was a good thing that I couldn’t hear the guys in the other room. It gave me time to settle my thoughts and my nerves.
I finally fell asleep around midnight. Johnny never came in my room so I guess he either passed out on the couch or Matt did what he said he’ll do and kept him away. Either way I was glad because I just wanted some alone time.
I ended up waking up around 2:00am and made my way into the kitchen for a drink. Zacky was up still, sitting at the table nursing a beer and eating a sandwich. I looked at him and gave him a small smile.
“Hey hun, what are you doing awake?” He asked.
“Just getting a drink. Having kind of a hard time sleeping tonight.” I told him as I poured myself a glass of juice and went to sit by him. “Are you drunk?”
“No! Not at all. I’ve only had two beers. Johnny and Jimmy on the other hand, they are completely shit faced.”
“Oh great.” I said shaking my head.
“I’m sorry about earlier tonight. I didn’t think he would of reacted like that.”
“No, it’s fine Zee. Don’t worry about it.”
“Well, I just wanted you to know that I am.”
“I know you are hun.” I said and looked at him. He smiled a bit and looked down.
“So…” He began, but didn’t seem like he knew what to say. “That’s a nice ring on your finger.”
“Thanks, Johnny gave it to me for Christmas.”
“Can I see?” He asked, holding out his hand.
“Yeah.” I told him and placed my hand in his.
He looked at the ring closely, I watched as he looked it over. He looked up at me and smiled a bit then continued to look at it.
“God, can’t you ever leave her the fuck alone?”
We both looked up to see Johnny standing in the doorway. Teetering a bit from being drunk, he walked over to the table. Zacky dropped my hand.
“Chill out man, I was just checking out her ring.” Zacky told him.
“Don’t fuckin’ tell me to chill out ok?” Johnny replied.
“Seriously, you need to back off.” Zacky said to him.
“Fuck you.”
Johnny grabbed Zacky by the collar of the shirt, pulling him up out of the chair and pushed him against the wall.
“What the fuck are you going to do Baker? Are you gonna fuckin hit me?” Johnny asked getting close to Zacky.
“Johnny, Johnny stop.” I told him as I tried to pull him away by his arm.
He pulled his arm away and continued to go after Zacky.
“MATT, BRIAN.” I yelled to get the other guys attention.
“Back the fuck up Johnny before I hurt you.” Zacky said to him.
“Then fuckin’ hit me.” Johnny told him. “HIT ME.” He yelled in his face.
Matt and Brian came running into the kitchen and pulled Johnny away from Zacky.
“Calm down man.” Brian told Johnny.
“I don’t fuckin’ need to calm down. Fuckin’ let me go.” Johnny told them.
“Not until you calm down.” Matt told him.
“I swear if someone else tells me to calm down… just one more person I’ll fuckin’ lose it!”
“Johnny, please stop. You’re scaring me.” I told him and walked over to him as tears ran from my eyes.
Jimmy walked in then, stumbling just like Johnny from being drunk.
“Whoaaaaa, what’s going on in here?” Jimmy asked.
“Nothing Jimmy, everything’s ok.” Brian told him.
“No! Everyhing’s not ok.” Johnny said, still heated.
“Whoaaa short shit. Don’t bite my head off, calm down.” Jimmy told him.
“Don’t fuckin’ tell me to calm down.”
Johnny pulled away from Matt and Brian and pushed past me so I hit into the wall. He walked over to Zacky, standing close to him again.
“Are you going to fuckin’ punch me? Go the fuck ahead. Fuckin’ get it over with.” Zacky told him.
Johnny raised his fist but hesitated a bit.
“Johnny don’t.” I told him.
Instead of punching Zacky he instead punched the wall, hard enough to leave a dent in it.
“FUCK!” Johnny yelled, holding on his hand as he stumbled out of the kitchen and down the hall to his room.
“Someone wanna tell me how this started?” Brian asked.
Zacky explained everything to them as I stood at the sink trying to calm myself down. I can’t believe what just happened, I can’t believe he took it as far as he did. This is definitely going to change a lot now.
“Matt, can I stay with you in your room tonight?” I asked.
“Sure, of course you can babe.” He said as he walked over to me and embraced me in a hug.
“I think everyone just needs to go to bed, forget tonight ever happened and move on with their lives.” Jimmy told us.
“Yeah Jim… that’s what we need.” Brian said as he patted Jimmy on the back.
“Good to know you agree with me.”
Jimmy walked, or should I say stumbled out of the kitchen and to his room.
“Go get some sleep hun. We will talk about everything later alright?” Brian asked and gave me a hug.
“Alright.” I told him, hugging him back.
He too went to his room.
I looked at Zacky, who was still backed against the wall.
“You ok?” I asked.
“Yeah… I’m fine.” He told me.
I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around him, hugging him tight.
“I’m so sorry that happened.” I told him.
“Don’t worry about it baby. He’s drunk. He’s not even going to remember what happened in the morning.” He told me and gave me a squeeze. “Go get some sleep ok? I’ll be fine.”
“Are you sure?” I asked and looked up at him.
“I’m sure.” He told me and kissed my forehead. “I’ll see you in the morning.
Zacky let me go and I back up a bit, just looking at him.
“Go! Seriously I’m ok.”
“Alright. I’ll see you in the morning then… I love you Zee.” I told him.
“I love you too.”
I followed Matt into his room. He made himself comfortable on his bed and I started to make a bed on the floor.
“Ummm, no! I don’t think so, you get up here with me.” Matt told me, patting the spot next to him.
“Are you sure?” I asked.
”Yeah. Come on.”
I laid down next to him, resting my head on his chest. He pulled the covers over the both of us. Things were different with Matt; we never felt any attraction towards each other, although he was the one I lost my virginity to at the age of 16. He was the one who protected me, made everything ok. I liked that things were like that with us and they weren’t complicated in any way.
Matt fell asleep soon after, leaving me with my thoughts. It wasn’t going to be easy for me to fall asleep now after everything that has happened. Thing’s needed to be changed, there was no way things could go on like this any longer.
