“Don’t think so fucking highly of yourself Brian.” I spat angrily. After Michelle and her new guy, Andy, joined us Brians mood had taken a serious turn around. I was sick of it. He was freaking out about Michelle’s real intentions for coming here. I nearly dragged him across the beach to ask him what stick got shoved up his ass.

“Whatever, I know she didn’t just fucking show up to try and be friends with you. She’s probably just trying to get in between us.” Brian stated. I looked at him like he had lost his fucking mind, it had been made quite clear Chelle was over him, however I’m beginning to doubt how ‘over’ he is of her.
“Your not over her are you?” I asked him looking him dead in the eye. Already having mentally prepared myself for the answer.
“What are you talking about? I was sick and tired of her crap by the time you came along babe.” he stated trying to grab my hand.
“That is not answering my question Brian… Are you over her?” I asked again this time how ever my voice was a mixture of emotions and not as confident sounding. He didn’t answer me, so I took his silence as my answer.
“Well then…I guess I know where I stand in all of this.” I stated as I walked away from him, tears falling down my face.

“Aidan you ok, what happened!?” Jimmy asked frantically as I reached our group of friends. I wiped my face before I answered,
‘Nothing Jim, I’m just gonna head back to the house now. You guys stay. Have fun. I’ll see you all back at the house. It was nice seeing you Chelle, nice meeting you Andy.” I said quickly as I put my shorts back on. I decided I’d carry my shirt along with my towel. I started to walk away when I heard Jimmy shout,
“Aidan wait! You shouldn’t walk home alone. Leana and I will come with!” I turned to see Leana and Jimmy running behind me trying to catch up.

It had been a few hours since the beach, and I had been camped out in the living room having a movie marathon to cope. I surrounded myself with pillows and junk food. I was in the middle of Harry Potter and the Order of the phoenix when there was a knock on the door.
“Anybody gonna get that?” I shouted, the door bell rang. “Don’t worry I’ll get it!” I shouted to apparently no one as I got up and answered the door.
“Really Benji…walk in next time everyone else does…” I stated after I opened the door to reveal Benji, who had a bag of what looked like more junk food.
“I’ll keep that in mind next time.” he smiled, I smiled and rolled my eyes as I walked back over to the couch. “I figured you could use the company…” he stated as he sat down next to me on the couch.
“How do you even know?” I looked at him quizzically.
“First Jimmy called me, then Val.” he stated looking from me to the TV. I just made an ‘O’ face as a reply. Benji and I spent the hole evening on the couch watching movie after movie, occasionally others would join us for a movie or two.

“So are you guys still together?” Benji finally asked.
I looked up at him, seeing as I decided I would use him as a pillow, and I thought for a moment before I answered.
“I don’t know Benji. I mean I still love him and if he isn’t over Chelle then I’ll wait for him…He and I almost had a family together Benj, I’m not going to throw that away…”
“Aidan…you deserve better then this…”
“ But I love him Benji…I’m willing to wait for him.” After that answer Benji just let the conversation drop.

“What in the fucking hell is this!?” I woke up to the sound of a drunk Brian yelling.
“Brian, man, calm down.” Jimmy hushed.
“Brian it’s nothing, look she’s just asleep.” Benji defended. I sat up and looked at Brian, he looked all disheveled.
“Brian go upstairs and go to bed, I’ll be up in a minute.” I sighed.
“No, what the fuck is this?” he pointed between Benji and I.
“Brian, your drunk. Just go up stairs!” I raised my voice as I stood up.
“Whatever, fuckin bitch.” Brian muttered as he attempted to make his way for the stairs.
“Excuse me?” I shouted
“Brian that was out of line!” Jimmy shouted.
Brian didn’t answer he just drunkenly made his way up the stairs.
“I better go help him, Good night Jim. Good night Benji, thanks for coming over.” I said as I kissed each of them on the head before I made my way upstairs to go take care of my drunk boy friend. I couldn’t help but over hear Benji say to Jimmy,
“She deserves so much better then him…” I never heard Jimmy’s reply because I was already in my room with Brian. Brian was trying to undress him self,
“Baby, let me help you.” I said as I made my way over to him. He didn’t say anything as I helped him with his shoes and shirt. I was about to get him a Tylenol for in the morning, but he grabbed my hips.

“Your to good for me Aidan, and I don’t deserve you.” He stated as he looked up me, his eyes were brimmed with tears.
“Brian shh. It’s okay, just go to bed and we can talk in the morning.” I said as I placed my hand on the side of his face.
“No, it’s not ok baby. I’m sorry for how I acted today, and for how I’ve been acting. You deserve better then me.”
“Brian shut up. I love you. Nothing is going to change that ok?” He just nodded. I placed a kiss on his forehead, and as I went to pull away he brought my lips down to meet his. I wasn’t going to lie I enjoyed kissing him, however under these circumstances I didn’t enjoy it.

I woke up and looked over to see that Brian wasn’t in bed. Which disappointed me a little bit but I brushed it off as I got out of bed and made my way down stairs. I walked through the house greeting everyone that I had come across, still no Brian. I sighed as I walked out into the back yard, I loved the house they all shared together. I loved that it had a private beach for the backyard. I began to make my way down the beach to find a spot to sit and think about where I was going with my life. After I had been sitting for a few minutes, I saw a figure over to my left, he was coming closer to me. at first I was alarmed until I saw it was Brian. He had on a pair of basket ball shorts, and was covered in sweat. Any other time this would have been a turn on, right now I wasn't sure how I felt about any of this.

"Hey" He stated out of breath as he bent down slightly to look at me.
"Hello Brian." I said without looking at him.
"What's the matter babe? Look I know I haven't been myself lately but you know I still love you right?" He fired at me, I didn't answer him so he asked again,
"Right?"

"I don't know Brian...You couldn't even own up to not being over Michelle. You've been going out drinking constantly, and I know you've been going to some of the strip clubs around town. I don't know if I can do this anymore."
"Baby, please don't do this. Please. I'll change, I'll clean up my act. I can't loose you too."
"You can't loose me too?" I mocked him, "You've been acting like you haven't lost anything Brian! You're acting like nothing ever happened!" I shouted at him. I was tired of holding in my sadness and my anger. "I'm the one whose been dealing with everything while you've been out doing god knows what with god knows who!" After I was done yelling there was silence between us.

"Maybe we should take a break..." I paused holding back the sob that was building in my chest, as a single tear rolled down my cheek. "Just for a little while, to see if we really should be together." he didn't answer for awhile, but when he did I wanted to take it all back.

"Fine."