Brian and I were laying in my bed, almost asleep, when it dawned on me we are in the house, not some hotel room, and not at the bar I work at. We can’t fall asleep together like this. Let alone the fact we were both naked.
“Brain wake up.”
“What babe?” he mumbled, I turned on to my back and sat up and then looked at him.
“We can’t fall asleep here, like this. We have to go shower, we small like sex! They’ll find out what we’re doing.”
“Aidan, it’s not a big problem. I mean really come on -” I cut him off.

“Brian don’t argue with me, I don’t wanna deal with the drama of it all.” I got up, and started to get dressed.
“Just go take a shower Brian…” And without another word from him he got up and slipped his shorts back on and left. I sighed, wishing we didn’t have to hide like this. Being like this with him, is amazing but if someone else were to find out. I don’t know what I’d do. I can’t afford to be able to run away anymore. I sat on my bed and started writing some more, figuring that now is a perfect, creative moment.

I sat around in my room for hours; fixing songs, finishing them, or even coming up with new ones. There was a knock at my door, and then it opened to reveal Benji.

“Miss me already Benji?” I said looking up at him, smirking. He scoffed,
“Psh hell no, I forgot my wallet here.” He stated as he grabbed his wallet from off the floor. He came and sat next to me,
“What’s that smell? Why do you smell like sex?” he raised any eye brow at me.
“Why do you smell like crap” I retorted, attempting to change the subject. He was quiet for a moment, he was probably trying to put two and two together.
“Your sleeping with Brian!” he half shouted. With out much hesitation from me, I jumped up and tackled him to the floor, covering his mouth.
“Benji listen….it’s really not what you think.” he gave me that usual ‘Aidan, I’m right and what your doing is wrong’ look, so I moved my hand waiting for him to blast me with a lecture. But he didn’t he just stared at me looking at my facial expression.
“You actually like him don’t you?” I just moved off of Benji and sat next to him.
“I don’t know if I like him or not.” I lied. Benji knew I lied too, he could read me like book.
“Aidan, baby…I know you better then you think. I can tell by that distant, pained and confused look in your eye.” he sighed. “So are you gona clue me in on everything that’s going on?” I nodded before I took a deep breath and spoke, I told Benji everything that had happened between me and Brian, I told him how I was feeling about it. To say Benji wasn’t happy about the situation I put myself in would be an understatement. He was more then a little upset over it. It was right before Benji was about to launch another rant about how Brian should be a man, Val barged into my room.
“Bitch we’re going out tonight!” she stated matter of factly
“Um what if I had plans to do something tonight Val?” I stated.
“To bad.”
“But I don’t feel like going out…” I looked at Benji. Who then spoke up,
“She and I were actually going to work on her music a little more tonight.” Val rolled her eyes,
“That’s all you’ve done all day!” she whined.
“Okay Val, I promise you tomorrow we can go shopping or something” I smiled up at her hoping that would get her to chill out. She pondered for about a minute then smiled and agreed. I sighed in relief after she left.
“Thanks Benj. “ I smiled.
“I was serious though, we are going to work on your music some more now that I am here.” he stated. I rolled my eyes.

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I was sitting in the living room with Benji, Matt, Zacky, Johnny, and Jimmy. We were waiting on the girls and Brian to come down. Brian didn’t seem like he wanted to go, but was being forced to by Jimmy. After everyone came down stares they all started for the door.
“your not going?” I looked at Brian,
“No, I don’t feel like going out tonight.” I smiled softly “I’m gona work on my music”
He nodded then walked out with the others.

I turned to Benji as he just walked away from me, heading for the studio.

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“Benji can we please stop for tonight it’s like 1 in the morning!” I shouted from the sound booth.
“Just run through it one more time” he told me. I rolled my eyes as I started singing again. I hadn’t notice the Avenged gang all come in during the solo.

Jimmy came running into the sound booth after I finished,
“That was supah hot buddy!” I said picking me up and spinning me around. Everyone laughed at the scene before them.

Matt came over and asked “So what’s the song called? It’ was really good.” I looked over at him, while quickly glancing to Brian.
“It’s called The Drug In Me Is You.” I replied quickly, trying really not to talk about it to much. Because I had just recently written it, and it could possibly make things a little uncomfortable. Benji walked over with the original set of lyrics handing it off to Matt for him to read.
“here” Benji smiled as he pulled me up to the stairs, understanding the fact I did not want to discuss anything else about that song.