The next morning I woke up around 9:30am to the sound of Jimmy screaming about seeing stallion ducks flying in the sky. I sighed and rolled over to see that Brian was still asleep and that he had his arm still tightly wrapped around me. I groaned and gently pushed his arm off of me and attempted to climb over him. The attempt was pointless because he woke up and pulled me close to him to where our faces were only a few inches apart.

"Good morning baby. Going somewhere?" Brian asked playfully, his voice a little scraggly from sleep.

"Well, I had to pee, if you don't mind dear," I said, trying to be as polite as possible without shouting that I had to use the facilities.

"Sure babe, go ahead. But can I have a good morning kiss first?" Brian inquired, one eybrow raised along with a sexy smirk on his face.

I may be falling hard for Zack, but that didn't mean that I wasn't attracted to Syn nor did it mean that I didn't still have some sort of feelings for him. I just had a stronger attraction to Zacky. None the less I gave Syn a nice, long passionate kiss before leaping over him and rushing to the bathroom. I heard him chuckle as I shut the door and sighed in relief. I didn't know how much longer I could keep this up.

Once I finished relieving myself I walked out to the lounge area to see that everyone was awake and sitting there minus Matt S. and Johnny. The Berry boys were sitting at the table across from Jimmy and Brian and Lacey was sitting in the small LaZboy across from Zacky who was sitting on the couch. Matt and Johnny were up front, Matt driving and Johnny keeping him company. I greeted everyone with a simple good morning and they all gave some sort of a reply back before I sat next to Zacky, who smiled when I did so.

"Hey Zacky. How did you sleep last night?" I asked him, a grin on my face stretching from ear to ear.

"Like a fucking baby," Zack replied, a toothy smile plastered on his face.

"I didn't know babies fucked, Vengeance," Jason piped up from his spot next to his brother.

"Oh believe me, this baby fucks like an animal," Zacky replied; a quick wink in my direction went unnoticed.

I blushed a tad, hoping no one noticed the discreet wink.

"Oh we believe you V, we've all heard you pounding into girls senseless on previous tours," Brian put his word in.

"Like you haven't Gates. You're the one that always was bringing girls back at least 5 times a week while on tour. And that was just four months ago," Matty B said with a chuckle.

I was growing more and more uncomfortable in this heated conversation about the guys fuck record, my body sinking lower and lower in my seat. I didn't care about the stupid whores that Brian had fucked. In fact I could care less about them, it was the ones that Zacky had fucked that made my blood boil. I was jealous, I'll admit, and that just made the guilt rise more and more. I had to talk to Lace about this soon before I spilled the beans at the wrong moment.

"Okay guys, that's enough. Obviously this conversation is making poor Coree uncomfortable over here. Look at her, she looks like she's gonna go out and rip all those girls Syn fucked limb from limb," Lacey said, though she was dead wrong about which whores limbs I wanted to rip apart.

"Sorry babe. All of those other girls meant nothing. You're the only girl that means anything to me," Brian said with a smile adorning his god-like face, but that's all it was, just a face that I kissed every day.

"Yeah, sorry Reena, we didn't mean to start anything," Matty B piped in.

Jim got up and came over, smothering me with kisses on my cheek while repeating over and over, "Jimmeh loves Ducky! More than Brian! Ha ha ha!"

"I love you too Jimmothy!" I replied, giggling at the name he had started calling me.

He called me Ducky because of the duck face I made whenever he said hello to me.

"What about me?" Lacey whined in faux despair.

Jimmy dropped the kissing on my cheek and ran over to Lacey and gave her a huge, smoochy kiss on the lips which she happily returned.

"I love you, baby," Jimmy whispered to her, smiling that trademark Jimmy smile.

She smiled back and replied, "I love you too, my wild stallion."

"Okay enough with the mushy love you too," Brian said jokingly before coming over to sit next to me.

He smiled before pecking me on the lips and I had no choice but to smile back when he pulled away. I felt fake, horrible, like an absolute fraud. But I couldn't let him know that just yet. The guilt was eating away at me; I needed to have a private girl to girl chat with my best friend.

"Hey Lace, can I um, talk to you privately? Like, uh, now?" I asked my friend who was currently making goo goo eyes with Jim.

"Sure hun. I'll be right back baby," she said to Jimmy before joining me in the back where the bunks were.

We sat in her and Jimmy's shared bunk Indian style facing each other.

"What's up, lovey?" Lacey inquired, her eyes full of concern.

I sighed, not sure how to tell her about my dilemma.

"Lay lay, I, ugh, I don't want to be with Brian," I began, my friends eyes went from concern to shock, her mouth forming a slack jawed 'o'.

"Well why the fuck do you two seem to be so peachy keen with each other?" she asked me.

"Well, it started out that way. But after I came home from our first date, when I went to go check on Zacky, he told me that he really liked me. I was shocked at first, but the more he explained things to me, the more I thought about how much I liked him. And I told him that I liked him as well but I also really liked Brian and that I had to give him a fair chance. But Lace, every single fucking day I've been falling more and more for Zacky and Brian has become more of a love sick leech to me and I feel so guilty.

"Whenever Brian shows affection to me in front of him, the pained and saddened look that is etched on his face just makes it all the more worse. I don't know how much more of this I can fucking take Lacey. I feel like complete shit," I told her all in a hushed tone so that none of the guys could hear us.

Lacey listened quietly and patiently like the best friend she was until I had stopped talking, tears threatening to spill over my eyes.

"Oh honey, you've dug yourself into quite a shit hole haven't you. Hmm, well I suggest that you sit both Brian and Zacky down at the same time and explain to them how you feel. I'm sure they'll understand, Coree. There, there lovey, don't cry. It'll be okay," Lacey said, pulling me into her lap, brushing away the tears that were pooling from my blue green orbs.

"If you say so Lace, if you say so," I croaked out.

"Okay, that's my tough girl. Come on, honey, let's get ready for the day."

I nodded my head and we both got up and picked out our outfits and then got dressed for the day before returning to the guys who were now having a heated debate about Schechter’s and Les Pauls. Us girls shook our heads and just sat down, listening to the guys' nonsense.

Lord I hope we get to the next venue soon.

Notes

So she finally spilled the beans to her best friend. Now all that's left is for her to spill it to the two men involved in her guilty secret. What's gonna happen? I don't even know, because I haven't writen that far yet. Ha! I hope my readers enjoyed :]

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