We got to the hospital and they took me in for the night. The baby was alright, at least that was what they told me, but I was going to have to spend the whole night there to make sure that everything really was alright. Apparently I shouldn't have gotten upset because it wasn't good for the baby, just like everybody had told me. Brian spent the night by my side which made me secretly happy, even if I wasn't going to let him know.

In the morning I let him know I was awake by opening my eyes and yawning. In a heartbeat he was close to me again. He took a hold of my hand and touched my face with his other hand.

”How are you feeling?” he asked me quietly.

”I've been better,” I admitted honestly.

”Look, I don't know why you suddenly think that I'm cheating on you with Michelle but I want you to know that it isn't true and it hurts my feelings to know that you would even think so,” he said quietly and looked down.

”Even Jimmy said that might be true,” I mumbled.

He looked at me again and I could see a lot of pain in his eyes.

”Last night I realized how much you really mean to me. I don't think I could live without you in my life,” he admitted. He looked so sad that I thought he was going to cry.

”And I thought I could never hurt you, I really did. But there was a time that I didn't feel so attracted to you and... And... I don't know what to say.”

”Brian, what...” I was speechless. Was he trying to tell me that he really had cheated on me?

”I didn't do anything stupid, I swear I didn't,” he said quietly, ”I just started to think of Michelle as... As somebody that I could see myself with.”

”That's even worse than doing something,” I whispered, ”That's worse than having sex without meaning to do it. Sometimes thinking is a lot worse.”

”But I realized that I don't want to be with her. I can't even picture myself with her anymore,” he said quickly, ”It's you that I want.”

”How could you think of her like that? When you were with me? How could you?”

”I'm sorry,” he said, ”Sophia, I'm sorry. I know that you probably count that as cheating and I'm so sorry.”

”I don't know... I don't know what to think,” I mumbled and looked away from him.

”Did anything ever happen between you and her?” I whispered.

”No,” he shook his head, ”Never.”

”Would something have happened if I hadn't come last night?”

”I don't... I don't think so,” he said, ”No. I wouldn't have done anything with her.”

”Are you sure?”

”Yes...”

”Do you have any idea how all this has made me feel?” I muttered.

”Yes and I'm sorry.”

”You blamed me for accusing you of sleeping with Michelle when you really could've done that. You left me and went to spend time with her. You made me the bad guy and then blamed me for thinking that you were the bad guy,” I said.

”I'm sorry. I don't know what else to say.”

”Do you feel attracted to me now?”

”Yes, of course I do – ”

”Can you picture yourself together with Michelle now?”

”No, I swear – ”

”Do you love me? Do you want to be in a relationship with me? Do you want to be a part of our baby's life?” I asked and looked straight into his eyes.

I studied his face really hard and made sure that his answer was good enough for me. I would know by the look of his face if he wasn't telling the truth.

”Yeah,” he nodded. And I could tell he was telling the truth. His eyes looked honest.

”Do you promise to cut all contact with all of your ex-wives and ex-girlfriends?” I asked quietly.

”I promise,” he nodded and gently pushed my hair away from my face. He caressed my cheek softly with his cold fingers and looked into my eyes for a very long time.

”I can't even tell you how unbelievably worried of you and the baby I was last night,” he mumbled and bit his lip.

”You have to promise me you won't get so upset again,” he continued, ”You scared me, Sophia. I don't know what I would do without you.”

”I know but I was just so... Angry,” I mumbled, ”I don't think I've ever been so angry.”

”Being angry doesn't really suit you,” he admitted and couldn't help but grin a little.

I flashed a quick smile and felt the baby kicking. I rested my hand on my stomach and looked down at it.

”Is it the baby? Is it kicking?” Brian asked and I nodded. He placed both of his hands on my stomach and held it gently.

And all of a sudden, everything was okay... Or was it? Could I honestly ever forget about the fact that Brian could, just like that, start feeling attracted to Michelle again? It had happened before so why wouldn't it happen again in the future? Surely I wanted to trust him but it felt hard. Knowing he could've left me any day didn't exactly made life easier for me and that wasn't how I wanted to live for the rest of my days.

When Brian and I got home, there was a note taped to our front door. I grabbed it and opened it, even though it had Brian's name on it, and started reading. It was from Michelle and it was a goodbye note. It said nothing but ”We had our chance but it wasn't meant to be and I wish you all the best with your family. Goodbye.” on a little piece of paper. I stared at it for a long time, so long that even Brian got to read it before I gave it to him.

”Can she finally be in the past?” I asked my husband who was staring at the piece of paper in his hand. He tore it into smaller pieces and squished them in his hand before nodding.

”Come on, let's get inside,” he said, flashed a smile, wrapped his arm around my shoulders and helped me into our house.

Brian and I had officially made peace and slowly after that, my days got slightly brighter and happier. There was a lot less fighting and more spending time together. We both waited eagerly for a chance to hold our baby for the first time and we started to get really excited about it. Even though my due date was more than two weeks away, I had already packed my little baby bag – a bag full of my stuff that I needed to bring with me when I would go to the hospital – and everything was ready for the baby. And now, all we had to do was wait.

Waiting for something that you want really badly is absolutely awful. I mean... What can you do? There was absolutely nothing to do. Brian mostly just played video games or played guitar while I cleaned the house probably twice a day and sat on the beach and stared at the water. Life was boring and I hated it. But at least Brian and I got to be together.

One night I laid on the floor in the living room. The television was on but I wasn't really watching it. I kept my eyes on the ceiling while my back rested against the hard, cold floor. It was probably the only place and position in which my back wasn't hurting. The baby had gotten so big that it hurt me.

”What are you doing?” I heard Brian's voice and then I saw his face above my head.

I flashed a smile and reached closer to him. I tried to get a hold of his face and then he leaned closer to me. He got down on his knees as I grabbed his face and pulled him into a big kiss.

”This is the only way to make my back feel better,” I said as he laid down next to me.

He rested his hand on my huge baby bell and started caressing it gently. The baby was lazy, probably even asleep, so there was no reaction.

”Is our baby so lazy that it won't even react to me?” Brian asked with a laugh.

”Probably,” I said. I looked to my side, right into my husband's eyes, and smiled.

”I love you,” I whispered.

”I love you, too, so much,” he said and reached close to pinch my cheek with his cold fingers.

Brian and I laid there for until I really had to go pee, and when I tried to get up, at first I'd thought I'd peed myself but then realized that my water had broken. The baby was coming.

”I think... I think we need to go to the hospital,” I said and swallowed hard.

I started pulling off my pants and soon stood there in nothing but my t-shirt. Brian looked somewhat confused as he looked at me.

”What are you... What... What is happening?” he asked and rubbed his forehead.

”A baby is going to come out of me,” I whispered. I watched as his face fell and his eyes shot wide open.

”Really? Now?” he asked, ”Are you sure?”

”Yes, I'm sure,” I nodded.

I could tell he was about to start panicking really soon. He had to drive us to the hospital so he had to remain calm.

”Go outside, smoke a cigarette or something while I get ready, okay?” I said and touched his cheek with my hand. He nodded and left quickly.

I sighed dramatically and started hurrying up the stairs into our bedroom. I found my baby bag from the closet and pulled on a pair of sweatpants before making my way out. Brian was already sitting in his car when I got in and he started driving right away.

”Let's go have a baby,” I said with a grin as I rested my hand on his thigh.