Brian's mother and Michelle left later and after that (nor before that) Brian and I didn't really talk to each other. Despite him saying how ”it didn't matter” and ”don't worry about it” to me so many times, it mattered that I had just accused my husband of cheating on me. But what was I supposed to do? I didn't understand how him and Michelle could be friends again, after all that had happened to them.

”Brian? Aren't you going to eat anything?” I asked carefully.

I stood in the doorway of our bedroom and looked at my husband whose eyes were focused on his phone.

”I'm not really hungry, no,” he shook his head.

”Look, I just... I don't understand what is going on,” I mumbled and sighed.

”What is it that you don't understand?”

”I don't really think that you would cheat on me. I'm just... I don't understand how you and Michelle can act like that.”

”Act like what?” he exclaimed, finally looking at me.

I flinched and rested my hand on my stomach, trying to calm myself down for the baby.

”We're going to have a baby next month. I don't... I don't want to see you spending your time with other women,” I admitted quietly.

”I'm not spending my time with other women, Sophia. I'm always here with you if I'm not at the studio or on tour,” he said, ”I'm always here.”

”Why do you make it sound like it's a bad thing?”

”Because I'm tired of this. You've changed from who you used to be, you're not the same anymore. Maybe I miss my old friends, maybe I miss the old you.”

”You mean that you miss your ex-wife?”

”Yes.”

”What?”

”I mean that I miss knowing her but I don't miss having her as my wife,” he said.

”Maybe you should go back to her and your old friends then.”

”You don't get to be mad at me. I never accused you of cheating.”

”Where would I even go? Why would anybody want to sleep with a woman that's this pregnant?” I muttered.

”Stop being so annoying.”

”Fine,” I muttered and turned around.

I was about to walk away when I hear him calling my name. I stopped walking and turned to look at him again. He had got up from the bed and was making his way to me.

”I feel like this whole pregnancy thing has really messed up your head,” he said, ”And maybe we should both be alone for a while. I know that at least I need to think about this.”

”But what's there to think about?” I asked and furrowed my eyebrows.

”I just need some time alone,” he said.

”Last time you needed time alone you went to Miami with all of your friends and your ex...”

”Sophia,” he muttered and sighed deeply.

”I'm sorry.”

”I'm going to stay with Jimmy for a while,” he said.

”Why do you have to leave?” I mumbled and sniffled. I thought I was going to start crying.

”I'm not going to leave you,” he said quietly. I felt his hands on my shoulders.

”I just need some time.”

”I... I'm sorry,” I whispered, ”I don't want you to leave.”

”You'll be just fine for a day or two,” he told me.

”I don't want to fight with you. I don't want any of this. I just want us to be a family...”

”I know. Let's just think about this for a while, okay? Okay.”

”Okay...”

I didn't really understand why Brian felt the need to be alone. I mean, sure, we had fought but it had only been one single fight. I didn't think it was such a big deal and I didn't feel the need to be alone. I thought it was the best if we talked things through, he didn't. So I had to give him space, I had to leave him alone. So later that day he packed some of his stuff and got in his car and drove away. I didn't sleep very well that night and the next morning the baby was somewhat restless, too.

I sat in the kitchen, eating breakfast and wondering whether to call Jimmy and ask how Brian was doing. I was sure that it was the last thing Brian wanted me to do. I mean, he wanted to be left alone, he surely didn't want me to call after him.

But after a moment I picked up my phone and dialed Jimmy's number. It took him a moment to answer and once he did, I realized that I had woken him up. His voice sounded tired as he spoke.

”Uh, hey, Soph.”

”Hey, Jimmy. I'm sorry if I woke you up... I'm just... Eh... Is Brian okay?” I asked quietly.

”He's... He's not here,” he said quietly.

”What do you mean, he's not there? Where is he?”

”Look, Sophia, I don't think I should be sticking my nose into this when – ”

”Just tell me where he is, Jimmy. Please.”

”He was supposed to come here, though,” he said quietly, ”But then Michelle called him and he went to her place instead...”

”Jimmy, can I ask you something?”

”Anything.”

”Are they sleeping together? Brian and Michelle?”

”Sophia – ”

”Please, just, give me an honest answer,” I begged, ”Please.”

”Honestly? I'm not sure,” he admitted, ”I'm not sure what's going on between the two of them. I know he would never do anything to hurt you but he's started to wonder what his life would've been like if he had stayed with Michelle.”

”Is he going to leave me?” I whispered and suddenly felt a lump in my throat.

”Come on, now, let's be reasonable again. You two are married and about to have your first kid, right? Why would he walk away from you and all of that?”

”Maybe... Maybe he doesn't love me.” Even saying the words hurt my chest a little.

”You two are meant to be together, right? Right?”

”I don't know anymore... What if I was wrong all along?” I mumbled and sniffled.

”Hey, you're not crying, are you?” Jimmy's voice started to sound more awake, and worried.

”No, no,” I quickly wiped my eyes and cleared my throat, ”I'm just fine, definitely not crying.”

I was fully aware of the fact that people change, and I felt like I had changed too. But Brian had become something – somebody – that I didn't recognize anymore. If he really had cheated on me with his ex-wife... Well, I wasn't exactly sure what I would do if it was true.

I was eight months pregnant with his child so there was really no way of getting out of it. No matter what, in over a month, I would have a baby with him, whether he was there for me or not. I wasn't going to go anywhere, how could I even? But he didn't have anything holding him back. He was free to leave, he wasn't the one carrying a baby inside of his body.

What kind of a man was he, after all? How could he leave me when I needed him the most? How could he go and spend a night with his ex-wife, with a woman who had once truly hated me and him, too? The more I thought about it, the angrier I got. How could he do this to me and then blame it all on me? He had gotten angry at me for doubting his loyalty.

Before I knew it, I was sitting in my car and driving to Jimmy's place. Once I got there, I called him and told him to come outside. He walked to my car and I told him to get in.

”I don't think you should be so upset when you're that pregnant,” he said as I started driving.

”I can't help myself,” I muttered.

”Where are we going?” he asked.

”Where does Michelle live?”

”With Val and Matt,” he said but then froze, ”Wait, no, Sophia. Oh no, no, no. Stop the car. Stop the car!”

”No! We're going to settle this now, once and for all,” I exclaimed.

When we got to Val and Matt's house, I stopped the car in front of it and got out. I started marching to the front door and rang the doorbell a hundred times before somebody opened the door.

And when I saw Michelle's face in front of my eyes, I knew that that was the time to grow some balls. If I had ever been shy or insecure, it was in the past now. Now was the time to speak my mind, now was the time to get some answers.

”Where the hell is my husband?” I exclaimed and gave her my best death glare. She flinched, obviously surprised by my words. I thought I even scared myself a little.

”Excuse me? I think you should really calm down, Sophia. It's not good to be that upset when you're pregnant,” she said and flashed a smile.

”Do not tell me what to do! I've had enough of you and your stupid games! Brian is a married man, how dare you try and break what we have?” I shouted to her.

”Sophia, please,” Jimmy whispered into my ear.

”Where is he?” I shouted.

Before Michelle could answer, I saw my husband standing behind her with a very disappointed look on his face.

”What the hell is going on?” he asked, ”Sophia, stop shouting.”

”She's just a bit out of her mind,” Jimmy said and grabbed my arm, ”Could somebody get her some water or something?”

Michelle nodded and turned around. She disappeared into the house and I turned to look at Brian.

”You're a liar,” I muttered, ”You said you'd be at Jimmy's place so why are you here?”

”Calm down, Sophia, please,” he said, ”This isn't good for the baby.”

”You don't care about the baby, do you? You only care about yourself!”

”We both know that's not true,” he said. Even though he remained calm the whole time, his words were cold and he sounded disappointed.

”Well? Did you have fun with your ex-wife last night?” I exclaimed, ”Huh, did you?”

”Stop fucking shouting, stop making me the bad guy!” he finally shouted, getting annoyed and frustrated.

”If you want to leave me, you can just grow some balls and say so,” I muttered.

”Why would I want to leave you? You're the best thing I've ever had. Are you out of your mind?” he shouted.

”How would I know about that when you're always with Michelle?”

”I'm not always with her.”

”Fine, whatever,” I muttered, ”Are you coming home with me or staying here?”

”After this whole scene out here you still believe I would come home with you?”

”If you don't come, I can promise you that this is it, that this is the end,” I said. He furrowed his eyebrows and just looked at me for a long time.

”I swear I'll end this if you choose to stay away,” I muttered, ”You can have Michelle again if she's so important to you.”

”You're out of your fucking mind,” he said and shook his head, ”I don't need to choose between my wife and my friend.”

”Really?”

”Yes, really. Now, will you finally calm down?” he muttered just as I felt sharp pain in my stomach.

I groaned and my hands went down to my stomach.

”Sophia?” Brian exclaimed.

Tears streamed down my cheeks and I started to panic. What if the baby wasn't okay? What if something had happened to it? I tried to take deep breaths in but failed miserably.

Soon I found myself running back to my car. I ignored Brian and Jimmy as they shouted my name. What the hell was I even doing? I got into my car and started it but couldn't start driving because my eyesight went black. God, I thought I was going to die. I had to use all my strength to stay conscious.

Black dots blurred my vision and I couldn't really see the person that had opened the car door. Soon I felt a pair of arms pull me out of the car.

”She really is out of her fucking mind.” I heard Brian's muffled voice near my ear and I soon realized that it was him who was holding me up.

”Hey, come on, she's had a rough time,” Jimmy muttered and helped him put me on the backseat of my car.

They both got in and Jimmy started driving.

”Hurry up, man,” Brian said, ”I don't want anything to happen to my wife or my baby.”

And all I could think about was that that man, my husband, had probably cheated on me the previous night. I couldn't figure out what I had done to deserve it.