I was woken up by my mother in the middle of the night, or so I thought. Actually it wasn't even midnight yet but I'd gone to bed so early that I couldn't help but feel confused about the time. Mom shook me awake and once I opened my eyes, I saw the disappointment on her face.

”Sophia, you've upset your husband-to-be. You're going to get up right now and make things right, do you hear me? That is not how a responsible woman behaves,” she told me. Her voice was cold and she was really serious about it.

”Mom, leave me alone,” I mumbled and sat up.

I rubbed my eyes and turned on the lights. I noticed that it was already dark outside but I could still hear music and the loud noise of people chatting coming from outside of the house.

”No. We've all come all the way here to celebrate your wedding and you're not going to ruin that, not now. If you didn't want to marry him, you should've thought about that a lot earlier. You're not going to let us down,” she said.

”Well, where is he? What does he want?” I mumbled, talking about Brian.

Of course I didn't want to fight with him, in fact that was the last thing I wanted. But he shouldn't have been so rude to me. He shouldn't have treated me like that and he shouldn't have doubted me.

”He's outside,” she told me, ”You better go and do what's right.”

”Fine,” I muttered.

I didn't want to fight with my mom, either, so I let her have the last word. I didn't think that she had a right to tell me what to do but like I said, I didn't want to fight so I let it be.

I got up from the bed and followed mom all the way to the backyard. Brian saw me but he acted like he didn't, so I had to walk all the way to him and ask him if we could talk alone. He finally agreed and we walked back into the house. He led me into the kitchen and closed the door and then we were alone.

”I'm going to apologize but not for the right reasons. I'm only doing this because I was told to do so. I'm sorry about the way I acted,” I said. He started shaking his head.

”Do you think that's good enough for me? You don't even want to apologize.”

”Because I don't think I did anything wrong,” I said, ”I still think that you should be the one apologizing to me.”

”Why?”

”Because you were being extremely rude to me. You didn't respect me.”

”We've got so much to talk about, obviously, but this isn't the right place for that,” he said and sighed deeply. I agreed. It wasn't the right time to fight over something like that. We were supposed to be as happy as can be, I mean after all, we were getting married the next day.

”So what are we going to do?” I asked him finally.

”This is stupid. It's stupid to fight. We love each other, don't we? So why are we even fighting?” he mumbled.

He took a few steps closer to me but didn't stand close enough to touch me. He seemed to be scared of my reaction if he came any closer.

”What are we going to do?” I asked, repeating my question.

”Can you at least pretend that you're excited about the wedding?”

”I am excited about the wedding, Brian.”

”No you're not and everybody can tell that,” he said.

”Well maybe I'm not as excited as I could be,” I admitted finally, ”But I do want this. I just... I would've thought that I'd be pregnant by now. And... And I'm scared that I won't be able to have children and you're going to be disappointed.”

”Sophia... I need you to talk to me about these things. I know you don't want to be a bother but I want to know if something's bothering you,” he said quietly.

He finally took another step to me and pulled me into his arms. I looked up at his face and bit my lip. His eyes looked sad as he looked down at me. I felt like I wanted to cry but I tried my best to stay strong.

”This is absolutely horrible,” I mumbled and sniffled, ”I've failed as a woman. I don't think I'll be able to have children. It would've happened already if it was going to happen.”

”Don't say that, baby, we can't know that,” he murmured and caressed my cheek with his long fingers.

”But I know it's true and it breaks my heart,” I whispered.

I grimaced slightly as a single tear started rolling down my cheek. Before I could wipe it away, Brian was already brushing my cheek with his thumb.

”Please don't cry,” he whispered and without another word he pulled me against his chest. He held me tightly like he was afraid of letting go of me. Like I would disappear if he let go.

”Sophia? I think you should go to bed and we'll see how you feel in the morning, okay?” Brian's voice sounded muffled as he murmured into my ear.

I sniffled and nodded, pulling my face away from his shirt. He took a hold of my face and held my head tightly between his hands.

”I'm going to ask my mom to make sure you're alright when you've gone to bed,” he told me. I nodded before he leaned in to kiss me.

”I'd do it myself but we're not supposed to see each other before tomorrow,” he murmured and flashed a quick smile, ”But if you need me, just let me know and I'll be there.”

”I love you,” I whispered. He smiled softly.

”I love you too, Sophia, so fucking much. It breaks my heart to see you like that,” he said.

”Thanks for being like that. Thanks for being there for me.”

He only kissed my forehead before leading me up into the bedroom. He made sure I was alright before telling me how much he loved me and then leaving the room.

I laid in the bed for a few minutes before the door opened. I saw Brian's mother standing in the doorway with a sad smile on her face.

”Sophia, honey? Are you awake?” she whispered. She closed the door and came closer.

”Yeah,” I mumbled. She sat down on the bed and placed her hand on my foot.

”How are you feeling?” she asked me.

”I don't know,” I admitted and sat up, ”I'm scared.”

”What are you scared of, honey?”

”Lots of things... I'm scared that all of this fighting will make Brian realize that he doesn't really want to look at my face for the rest of his life,” I told her. She laughed softly.

”That's the last thing you should worry about. I've never seen my son so in love. He adores you, Sophia.”

”That's very nice of you to say but... I don't know, I just... What if I won't be able to have children? Surely he would like to have a child one day, right?”

”Maybe you're right but right now he only wants you. The future will work itself out so there isn't a need to worry about that. You two are strong and you can work this out,” she said. Her words made me feel slightly better.

”He's really too good to me,” I said and laughed softly, ”He's just... Perfect.”

”Oh honey,” she sighed, ”You two are perfect for each other. I'd suggest you get some sleep and when you wake up tomorrow, you're going to put a smile on your beautiful face because it's the best day of your life. Just think about it. It's your day.”

”I guess you're right,” I nodded, ”I do need some sleep.”

”Sophia? Promise me one thing.”

”Anything.”

”Promise me to never leave Brian. Promise me that even if you weren't ever able to have children, you wouldn't leave him. That would absolutely break him,” she said quietly. I had to think about it for a moment.

”Do you think he will want to be with me if I can't have babies?” I whispered.

”He's never leaving you, I'm sure of that,” she said. I could see a small, sad smile on her face as she stood up.

”Goodnight, Sophia.” After hearing those words, she was gone. I laid back down and did some hard thinking. I barely slept at all that night but once the night turned into morning, I was ready to marry the man of my dreams.