Baby Don't Cry
Somewhere life is good.
Holy shit. Was Brian out of his mind? Why would he ask me to marry him? Did he not understand that we hadn't even had sex yet or that we hadn't done anything together yet? What kind of a man would be so stupid to ask a girl to marry him before doing anything together?
No, wait, forget about that.
If there was one good reason for him to not ask me to marry him, it was that he was still married.
”Are you stupid?” I exclaimed and grimaced.
Brian's face fell and he put the ring box away.
”What?” he muttered.
”You're still married to Michelle!” I muttered, ”You've still got your ring on your finger and everything!”
”Oh, shit,” he muttered under his breath and quickly took the ring off. He shoved it deep into his pocket and looked at me again.
”This isn't the kind of promise that I was hoping to get,” I told him and shook my head, ”You shouldn't have asked me to marry you, Brian. Now you're ruined it all! I would've wanted it to be absolutely perfect when I first got asked to marry somebody!”
”I didn't think it was going to be such a big deal!” he exclaimed.
”It is a big deal, of course it is! We're talking about engagement and marriage! We're talking about our future!”
”So is that a no? You're not going to marry me?”
”I can't see a good reason to say yes.”
”What about love? Isn't that a good reason?”
”Well, yeah, but the time isn't right for this. What would people think if we got married right after you split with your ex-wife?” I asked him quietly.
”Who cares what people think? It doesn't matter to me so why does it matter to you?”
”I don't want people to think bad things about me, okay? And it's not even about that. We aren't dating so we shouldn't even be thinking about marriage.”
”Fine. I just... I don't want to lose you,” he admitted quietly with a sigh before sitting down on the couch.
He buried his face in his hands and took a deep breath in. I bit my lip and leaned closer to him.
”It was nice of you to do this,” I told him, ”Do that again in a year and I'll definitely say yes.”
”Promise?”
”I promise. If you don't turn out to be an asshole,” I said.
”I won't, I promise."
”Good. Look... Let's just take it slow. We don't have to rush into anything,” I whispered and leaned my head against his shoulder. I grabbed his hand and held it tightly.
”Did you really go and buy me a ring and everything?” I whispered with a laugh after a moment.
”Yes.”
”Can I see it?”
”Nope.”
”Was it expensive?”
”Yes.”
”Is it beautiful?”
”The most beautiful one I could find,” he nodded.
”That's very sweet of you,” I told him.
”You know, should we call Jimmy and let him know that you're not moving anywhere?” he asked me suddenly. Obviously he didn't want to talk about the proposal anymore and I got it. I had turned him down and it had hurt his manly ego.
”What, now?”
”Yeah. He could come over for a beer,” he said and pulled out his phone.
”I thought that we would be alone tonight...” I mumbled, ”But, you know, it's okay.”
”Are you sure? I will spend the night here, though...”
”Yeah, yeah. Call him.”
Jimmy came over about an hour later. He was already drunk so he somehow stumbled to the front door. He rang the doorbell and I went to open the door for him.
”Oh Soph!” he exclaimed as soon as he saw me and pulled me into a tight hug. I laughed.
”Please don't leave me!”
”That's why we wanted to see you, actually,” I said as he pulled away from me.
I didn't get to say anything else because all of a sudden Jimmy took a hold of my face and pulled me into a kiss.
My eyes flew wide open and before I knew it, I was pushing him away.
Jimmy seemed to be just as shocked as I was about what had just happened, and he stumbled backwards, trying to find the front door with his hands that were behind his back.
”Jimmy, what – ” I shut my mouth as Jimmy flew out of the door and started running away from the house.
”Jimmy!” I exclaimed after him.
When I realized that he wasn't coming back, I closed the door and leaned my back against it.
What the hell had just happened? Why had Jimmy kissed me? Well, okay, he had been very drunk... But come on. He knew what was going on between Brian and I.
And my god, I had to tell Brian about it, too. He had to know.
”Sophia? Is everything okay?” Brian's voice scared me and I gasped, lifting my hand up to my chest.
”God, you scared me,” I whispered and shook my head. He furrowed his eyebrows.
”Why are you acting so... Weird?” he asked as he walked closer.
I shook my head and swallowed hard, not really knowing what to say to him.
”And where's Jimmy?” he asked.
”He... He had to go,” I mumbled, ”Look, let's just... Go to bed already.”
Brian and I were both very quiet as we went up into my bedroom. I changed into my pajamas and Brian took off his jeans before we climbed into the bed and got under the blankets. It wasn't until the lights had been turned off when Brian opened his mouth.
”Did something happen between you and Jimmy?” he whispered quietly.
I looked to my side and saw his eyes in the darkness. I had been laying on the other side of the bed but then decided to get closer to him. I didn't open my mouth until I was laying very close to his side.
”He kissed me,” I whispered really quietly as I stared into the darkness.
Brian held his breath for a moment and as he didn't say anything, I got scared. I was afraid to move an inch. I was afraid to open my mouth.
”Did you kiss him?” Brian whispered.
”He kissed me.”
”But did you kiss him back?” he asked, raising his voice. I flinched.
”No,” I shook my head, ”I didn't kiss him.”
”Why did he kiss you?”
”I... I don't know. He was drunk and I'm sure he didn't mean to – ”
”Cut the bullshit, okay?” Brian was getting angry and I really didn't see a reason for it.
Well, I mean, of course he had a right to be angry but not at me. I hadn't done anything wrong, had I? There really was no reason to be angry at me.
”Why are you mad at me?” I whispered.
”I'm not... I just... I'm disappointed.”
”Why?”
”Why do you think? It doesn't feel exactly good when your best friend kisses your girlfriend, does it?”
”But I'm not your girlfriend.”
”But we're together,” he muttered, ”At least I thought so.”
”We are, we are. But you can't be mad at me,” I mumbled.
”I told you, I'm not mad. It's just... I fucking hate that Jimmy loves you. It makes things so much more complicated,” he muttered.
”Brian, it doesn't mean that Jimmy loves me if he kisses me when he's drunk,” I told him.
”I know he loves you. He's told me that,” he muttered.
It left me speechless. Jimmy loved me? Mine and Brian's best friend loved me? Brian had been right, it would make things a lot more complicated.
”Oh...” I sighed and rubbed my face with my hands.
”I think I'm going to sleep on the couch,” he said quietly and sat up.
”Why?” I asked and sat up as I watched as he got out of the bed.
”I want to be alone.”
”I don't want to be alone,” I mumbled and looked at him.
”Sophia, I need to think about this. So much has happened in the past 24 hours...” he mumbled and sighed deeply.
”Please don't go,” I whispered, ”I want to be with you.”
”Goodnight, Soph.”
And then he was gone.
No, wait, forget about that.
If there was one good reason for him to not ask me to marry him, it was that he was still married.
”Are you stupid?” I exclaimed and grimaced.
Brian's face fell and he put the ring box away.
”What?” he muttered.
”You're still married to Michelle!” I muttered, ”You've still got your ring on your finger and everything!”
”Oh, shit,” he muttered under his breath and quickly took the ring off. He shoved it deep into his pocket and looked at me again.
”This isn't the kind of promise that I was hoping to get,” I told him and shook my head, ”You shouldn't have asked me to marry you, Brian. Now you're ruined it all! I would've wanted it to be absolutely perfect when I first got asked to marry somebody!”
”I didn't think it was going to be such a big deal!” he exclaimed.
”It is a big deal, of course it is! We're talking about engagement and marriage! We're talking about our future!”
”So is that a no? You're not going to marry me?”
”I can't see a good reason to say yes.”
”What about love? Isn't that a good reason?”
”Well, yeah, but the time isn't right for this. What would people think if we got married right after you split with your ex-wife?” I asked him quietly.
”Who cares what people think? It doesn't matter to me so why does it matter to you?”
”I don't want people to think bad things about me, okay? And it's not even about that. We aren't dating so we shouldn't even be thinking about marriage.”
”Fine. I just... I don't want to lose you,” he admitted quietly with a sigh before sitting down on the couch.
He buried his face in his hands and took a deep breath in. I bit my lip and leaned closer to him.
”It was nice of you to do this,” I told him, ”Do that again in a year and I'll definitely say yes.”
”Promise?”
”I promise. If you don't turn out to be an asshole,” I said.
”I won't, I promise."
”Good. Look... Let's just take it slow. We don't have to rush into anything,” I whispered and leaned my head against his shoulder. I grabbed his hand and held it tightly.
”Did you really go and buy me a ring and everything?” I whispered with a laugh after a moment.
”Yes.”
”Can I see it?”
”Nope.”
”Was it expensive?”
”Yes.”
”Is it beautiful?”
”The most beautiful one I could find,” he nodded.
”That's very sweet of you,” I told him.
”You know, should we call Jimmy and let him know that you're not moving anywhere?” he asked me suddenly. Obviously he didn't want to talk about the proposal anymore and I got it. I had turned him down and it had hurt his manly ego.
”What, now?”
”Yeah. He could come over for a beer,” he said and pulled out his phone.
”I thought that we would be alone tonight...” I mumbled, ”But, you know, it's okay.”
”Are you sure? I will spend the night here, though...”
”Yeah, yeah. Call him.”
Jimmy came over about an hour later. He was already drunk so he somehow stumbled to the front door. He rang the doorbell and I went to open the door for him.
”Oh Soph!” he exclaimed as soon as he saw me and pulled me into a tight hug. I laughed.
”Please don't leave me!”
”That's why we wanted to see you, actually,” I said as he pulled away from me.
I didn't get to say anything else because all of a sudden Jimmy took a hold of my face and pulled me into a kiss.
My eyes flew wide open and before I knew it, I was pushing him away.
Jimmy seemed to be just as shocked as I was about what had just happened, and he stumbled backwards, trying to find the front door with his hands that were behind his back.
”Jimmy, what – ” I shut my mouth as Jimmy flew out of the door and started running away from the house.
”Jimmy!” I exclaimed after him.
When I realized that he wasn't coming back, I closed the door and leaned my back against it.
What the hell had just happened? Why had Jimmy kissed me? Well, okay, he had been very drunk... But come on. He knew what was going on between Brian and I.
And my god, I had to tell Brian about it, too. He had to know.
”Sophia? Is everything okay?” Brian's voice scared me and I gasped, lifting my hand up to my chest.
”God, you scared me,” I whispered and shook my head. He furrowed his eyebrows.
”Why are you acting so... Weird?” he asked as he walked closer.
I shook my head and swallowed hard, not really knowing what to say to him.
”And where's Jimmy?” he asked.
”He... He had to go,” I mumbled, ”Look, let's just... Go to bed already.”
Brian and I were both very quiet as we went up into my bedroom. I changed into my pajamas and Brian took off his jeans before we climbed into the bed and got under the blankets. It wasn't until the lights had been turned off when Brian opened his mouth.
”Did something happen between you and Jimmy?” he whispered quietly.
I looked to my side and saw his eyes in the darkness. I had been laying on the other side of the bed but then decided to get closer to him. I didn't open my mouth until I was laying very close to his side.
”He kissed me,” I whispered really quietly as I stared into the darkness.
Brian held his breath for a moment and as he didn't say anything, I got scared. I was afraid to move an inch. I was afraid to open my mouth.
”Did you kiss him?” Brian whispered.
”He kissed me.”
”But did you kiss him back?” he asked, raising his voice. I flinched.
”No,” I shook my head, ”I didn't kiss him.”
”Why did he kiss you?”
”I... I don't know. He was drunk and I'm sure he didn't mean to – ”
”Cut the bullshit, okay?” Brian was getting angry and I really didn't see a reason for it.
Well, I mean, of course he had a right to be angry but not at me. I hadn't done anything wrong, had I? There really was no reason to be angry at me.
”Why are you mad at me?” I whispered.
”I'm not... I just... I'm disappointed.”
”Why?”
”Why do you think? It doesn't feel exactly good when your best friend kisses your girlfriend, does it?”
”But I'm not your girlfriend.”
”But we're together,” he muttered, ”At least I thought so.”
”We are, we are. But you can't be mad at me,” I mumbled.
”I told you, I'm not mad. It's just... I fucking hate that Jimmy loves you. It makes things so much more complicated,” he muttered.
”Brian, it doesn't mean that Jimmy loves me if he kisses me when he's drunk,” I told him.
”I know he loves you. He's told me that,” he muttered.
It left me speechless. Jimmy loved me? Mine and Brian's best friend loved me? Brian had been right, it would make things a lot more complicated.
”Oh...” I sighed and rubbed my face with my hands.
”I think I'm going to sleep on the couch,” he said quietly and sat up.
”Why?” I asked and sat up as I watched as he got out of the bed.
”I want to be alone.”
”I don't want to be alone,” I mumbled and looked at him.
”Sophia, I need to think about this. So much has happened in the past 24 hours...” he mumbled and sighed deeply.
”Please don't go,” I whispered, ”I want to be with you.”
”Goodnight, Soph.”
And then he was gone.
You made me cry!:(:(:(
I loved the story, right from the first chapter. Sofia and Brian's first time, them separating, Brian marrying Michelle, Jimmy having feelings for Sophia, Sophia falling for Brian, Brian getting a divorce and marrying Sophia, the couple losing their child, and finally separating.
Loved it! But ending was really sad:(
10/25/15