Take a Look At Yourself
Life So Reckless
Matt moved, pulling me closer to him. I saw one of his eyes pop open and look down at me and then immediately shut them again. I guess I wasn't the only one that wanted to hold onto the other for a little longer. Matt was a much better guy than I ever thought a football player would be.
"Matt, we should probably get up?" I tried to sit up when a major headache hit me. It was like someone took an ice pick to my brain.
"Oh, Carmen." Matt rubbed a hand over my back. "You probably shouldn't have sat up so fast. You drank a LOT last night. Let me get you some water."
He eased me back down on the couch and walked over to what I assumed was his kitchen. His ass moved so wonderfully in his jeans. The sight of his ass made a memory shoot through me. Oh, god! Had I really grabbed his ass last night?
Putting my head into my hands, I heard the wide receiver chuckle. "Carmen, drink the water, and I'll tell you everything that happened."
I opened an eye to see a glass of water and some Tylenol in his large hand. Gratefully, I took the items from him and chugged the water. It felt so good going down my dry throat. Water was a godsend. Once all the water was gone, I looked at my knight in shining armor.
"So, what did happen?"
Those damn dimples flashed. "Are you sure you want to know?" He sat down next to me, putting my feet in his lap.
"Well, I remembered slapping your ass. Can it really be worse than that?"
Matt's reaction told me everything. "It wasn't so much what happened at the bar, Carmen. It was what happened once I got you home."
My stomach dropped. What had happened? Did the guy I think was a nice guy actually an asshole? I pulled my feet away from him and wrapped my arms around my knees. Was Matt worse than I thought he was?
"Oh, god! Carmen, nothing happened. I would never take advantage of a woman. I just put you into one of my shirts and then... well, then you started talking in your sleep." Matt rubbed a hand over the back of his neck.
"I slept talked?" I asked. It had been years since the last time I did that. Usually I talked in my sleep if I was incredibly stressed. Those days had been behind me since high school ended. Had being around my family for only a brief amount of time already brought back the nightmares? I didn't remember having those.
"Yeah, you did. I... did someone hurt you, Carmen?" Matt stood up and started pacing the living room. "Because it sure sounded like it."
My heart sped up. No one knew about my life in Texas, not even Heather. If someone found out, they could use it against me. Vulnerability was a sign of weakness. I could not show weakness. My father had taught me that very well.
"What did I say, Matt?" Now fear was playing in my voice.
"You asked your dad to stop." Matt's voice was low. It sounded like he was ready to kill someone. "What did your father do?"
I started to shake. No one could know that. My father had made it very clear that if any one knew what he did to me, I would have hell to pay. So I kept it hidden. Matt didn't know me well enough for this.
"Matt, we... we don't know each other well enough for you to know that... no one knows that."
"That's fair... but when you're ready, Carmen. I'm here for you." Matt pulled me into a hug. "Now, let's go get some hangover cure."
Notes
Short update but important.
@overneaththepathofmisery
Awww glad to be back! I think I'll be doing weekly updates since I officially have my weekends back!
2/2/19