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Dear God


Dear God the only thing I ask of you is to hold her
when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
and now I wish I stayed

Matt and Caroline have known each other for years. They were the best of friends before they started dating. What happens when Caroline has to go back home and Matt has to leave for tour? Will they stay in touch? Will things be different? Will they ever see each other again?

*Disclaimer: I do not own Avenged Sevenfold, their music/song titles, or anyone or anything you may recognize. I do own the original characters.

Also Jimmy is very much alive in this story. It takes place somewhere around 2010.


Brian and Michelle Haner

Brian and Michelle Haner

aka Synyster Gates. Lead guitartist of Avenged Sevenfold. Michelle is his wife.

Caroline "Carrie" Harper

Caroline "Carrie" Harper

Age: 23 Moved to Cali from Iowa. Big sister to Lilly

Jesse and Carly Sanders

Jesse and Carly Sanders

Matt's kids. Jesse: 6 Carly: 4

Jimmy "The Rev" Sullivan

Jimmy "The Rev" Sullivan

Crazy drummer of Avenged Sevenfold

Johnny "Christ" Seward

Johnny "Christ" Seward

Bassist in Avenged Sevendfold.

Lilly Harper

Lilly Harper

Age: 5. Frozen obsessed. Little siter to Caroline

Matt Sanders

Matt Sanders

Aka M. Shadows. Age: 26. Lead singer of Avenged Sevenfold. Father to Jesse and Carly

Zacky (Vengeance) and April Baker

Zacky (Vengeance) and April Baker

Rhythm guitarist of Avenged Sevenfold. Creator of Vengeance University. His wife, April


  1. Prolouge

  2. Chapter 01

  3. Chapter 02

    Matt's POV

  4. Chapter 03

  5. Chapter 04

  6. Chapter 05

  7. Chapter 06

    Matt's POV

  8. Chapter 07

    WARNING: NC-17!

  9. Chapter 08

  10. Chapter 09

    Matt's POV

  11. Chapter 10

  12. Chapter 11: Part 1

    WARNING: NC-17!

  13. Chapter 11: Part 2

    WARNING: NC-17!

  14. Chapter 12

    *WARNING: NC:17 content*

  15. Chapter 13

    Multiple POVs


Loved loved loved the updates!! More soon please!

Nicole Nicole

I loved writing Jesse so much, I love the relationship between he and Carrie and I can’t wait to develop it more.

Im glad you and @Buggaloo liked the ending, I really wasn’t too sure about it. It seemed rushed and just thrown together so I’m really happy it didn’t come across that way!

Le sigh.
I have no idea why you were unhappy with that ending for this chapter. It felt natural and perfect. I loved it!

Buggaloo Buggaloo

Oh, man. What a chapter. Jesse's so frickin' adorable when he's all shy and finally asks! SO MANY HEARTY EYES. Matt's POV so sweet! Then you're a fucking tease (although I have to admit the jokes about him jerking off are HILARIOUS). Then Care practically kung fu's that bitch! YAS!!! Glad Matt reassured her that the abortion business didn't have to do with him.
And YAY they're moving in together!!! That part was so awwwwww and cute and adorable and siiiighhhhh. And, I like the ending!!

The "if Zacky and BDSM is your thing" made me chortle so hard. I'm like, is this not a thing to everyone with eyes? Oh, right.....it is definitely my thing though! SO GET WRITING!!! haha. *grabs whip and gets cracking*

violetshade violetshade

I love how she went all mama bear.

BeccaBearSc BeccaBearSc