Coming Home

Matt paced the floor, staring at the computer screen every few seconds. They had finally went live with his message after some light editing. It was on all of their social media platforms: Reddit, Tumblr, Twitter, Facebook, and Instagram. So far, the response had been pretty good, but it would only be too soon before people would start calling him out.

If I knew Matt like I thought I knew Matt, he was really close to a full-blown freak out. The man had kept his identity a secret for so long that this had to be absolutely terrifying for him. He was the exact opposite of the strong, self-assured SEAL I knew.

"Matt, you've got to stop pacing," Charlie said, "You're gonna ruin the carpet." My blue-eyed beauty told my hazel-eyed god.

Matt threw him a look. "Look, we're lucky I can walk at all after what you did to me." He winked but the nerves were still under the look.

"Matt, just come sit down. Let Rafa and the other social media guys handle the fall-out, if there is any." Patting the space on the couch next to me, I motioned for him to sit.

He ignored me and continued to pace the living room floor. I was pretty sure the man was going insane. He would bite at his thumb nail and then turn back to the laptop sitting on my coffee table. It was weirdly attractive to see such a normally stoic man nervous as hell.

"Should I read the comments?" His eyes met mine. "Should I just ignore it?"

I sighed. "Matt, there are always going to be people that think any sexuality other than hetero is a sin. There are always going to be people that think a polyamorous relationships are not real. The important thing is what your friends, family, and your loves think. I don't care that you and Charlie are bisexual. I care that we are trying to make this work."

Matt's eyes watered for a second and then he looked at Charlie. I could tell that their night together had bonded them. It was incredibly sexy to see two men love and care for each other and know that they also loved and cared for me.

"I feel the same way Rae does," Charlie said quietly. "Our sexuality is always going to be questioned. People always think that bisexuals are sluts or whores or that we are just confused and will one day decide. They think that being bi means we are pretending to be straight or pretending to be gay. Being bi just means we're attracted to two genders."

Matt's dimples popped. "You two are the greatest blessing I have ever received. I don't know what I would do without you." He finally sat down on the couch next to us and cuddled into my chest. Sometimes he could be such a big puppy dog.

"Do you want us to read some of the comments?" Charlie asked. "I think you might need to respond to the Reddit people at the very least. They have a lot of questions."

"Maybe you could pop online and do like an hour long AMA," I said and pulled my fingers through his hair.

"I like that." Matt sat up and pulled the laptop to him, announcing an AMA within the next hour. That gave the fans and others enough time to formulate some questions. I had this bad feeling lingering in my gut that the questions would just come from assholes, but I also had faith in the Deathbat Nation.
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Q: How did you know you were bi?

A: It's not something I ever really knew. I think one day I just surprised myself by staring at a dude and thinking about him in the same way I would a woman. Unlike being straight, it's something you have to think about for forever. The process is basically: okay, I'm straight. Wait, that dude is hot. Maybe I'm only attracted to that one guy. Wait, shit that lady is hot. Okay, I'm definitely straight. FUCK! That's a hot ass guy. Okay, so I'm gay? WAIT! I like both. It took me years is what I'm trying to say.

Q: What made you want to finally come out?

A: Like I said in my video, I've been hiding who I am for too long. The military is still pretty fucked up about the LGBT thing. But the Don't Ask, Don't Tell period was the absolute worse. If anyone so much as hinted you were gay, you were out and you were basically banned from any jobs. Having supportive friends, family, and lovers in my life made me realize I can't keep denying who I really am.

Q: Do you think being a veteran makes it harder to be bi?

A: I think it would surprise you how many LGBT+ are in the military. I think it would blow your mind to learn that hardened fucking Marines are gay and that badass female fighter pilots are lesbian. You'd probably shit a break to learn some of our greatest commanding officers are trans and that Delta Force guys are asexuals. Much like life, the military has every sexuality, gender, race, ethnicity, class you can think of.

Q: What does being bi even mean? Doesn't that make you greedy?

A: Bisexual just means attracted to two genders. In my case that is men and women. Does it make me greedy? No. And it doesn't mean I can't choose either. Basically, I just find people from the female and male category attractive. It's like when a hetero sees a hot lady and wants to fuck her, but with two genders.

Q: Do you think the metal community will accept you?

A: That was something I was incredibly nervous about, but if I know one thing about the metal community it's how surprisingly supportive you fuckers are. Shit, I've read enough fanfiction of me and Syn or Syn and Zacky fucking to know what you little shits all want to see!

Q: Are you in a relationship currently?

A: Yes, I am. You guys know we're pretty private with our personal lives so I won't go into more detail than that. But I'm happy and they are too.

Q: Do you prefer men more or women?

A: I've always been more attracted to women than men, but there are some men I would just give up women for.

Q: Celebrity crush?

A: HA! I wasn't expecting that question. For a man it's a tie between James Labrie from Dream Theater and Jason Momoa. I am not ashamed to admit that Jason could shoot me a look and I would fuck him. For a woman, it's a tie between the immortal Lzzy Hale of Halestorm and the fucking drop dead gorgeous Lupita N'yongo.

Q: Who was the first guy you ever crushed on?

A: I mean my real first crush on a man was in basic. He was this incredibly buff guy that you could just tell was going to do amazing things in the military. He just made my mouth water looking at him. I guess that's when I started to question if I was gay or not.

Notes

Okay, y'all thoughts?