This Crazy Ride We Call Life

I still can’t believe there is a good chance I’m going to be a dad. I mean I never saw myself as parent material but I just got to roll with the punches.

I won’t let a pregnancy put a wedge in my relationship with Gerard and I don’t want to lose him over that. It takes two to make a baby so I am in this for the long haul even if was completely unexpected.

I gave Gerard’s hand a squeeze as we walked along the walkway that was by the beach. We just enjoyed a romantic dinner. I like spoil him whenever possible because I think he really deserves it and I like showing him my more romantic side.

I felt Gerard giving my hand a squeeze and I looked over at him. “This might sound totally cheesy. But I never thought I’d be this happy with anyone in my life. When Zack and Frank got together I desperately wanted that. But I can honestly say you make truly happy Brian. I love you with all I have to give.”

Hearing Gerard’s heartfelt words made my heart race and the butterflies came to my stomach. I stopped walking and pulled my boyfriend close to my body.

“I feel the same, Gerard. I stayed in relationships for too long when it didn’t feel right. But with you I know it’s the best decision I have ever made, on top of joining my band. I love you, too and I promise I will always show you and our possible future kid all the love I have.”

I kissed Gerard softly and ran my hand over his cheek and I noticed he had tears in his eyes.

“Those words were so sweet. I feel so emotional but I love when you are a total sap.” I grinned and wiped his tears away.

“It’s okay to be emotional, baby. Just don’t tell anyone how sappy I am being.” I teased but I honestly enjoyed showing Gerard how much he meant to me. But our future was still uncertain but I had live in the now.

“Your secret is safe with.” Gerard let out a small laugh and gave me a wink. He then pressed his lips against my mine. We shared a few more kisses and continued to enjoy the beautiful night.

“Do you want to head back to the hotel? Or we can check out a nightclub.”

“It’s been awhile since I have gone out dancing. So, I think going out to a nightclub is fine with me.”

“Awesome. Let’s go see what this place has to offer.” I grinned and I took Gerard’s hand and we got a cab and found what appeared to be a good spot.

The bouncer let us in quickly when he recognized us and I looked over at Gerard as we walked inside and were escorted to the VIP area. “The perks of being rockstars.” I smirked and Gerard did as well.

“Let’s enjoy the night my love.” He gave my hand a squeeze and we got a nice spot in the VIP area and ordered a drink for myself and a virgin cocktail for Gerard.

We enjoyed each other’s company in the privacy of the VIP area and then Gerard got up and offered me his hand. I stood up and he whispered in my ear so I could hear over the loud music. “Let’s go dance.”

I nodded and followed him to the dancefloor area and it was starting to get packed and it was dark. Seeing my sexy boyfriend moving to the music was a sight to see. Seeing him on stage is always a fucking treat because damn he has quite the stage presence.

I am not the greatest dancer and Gerard looks way better than me right now. My eyes wander over his body as he sways to the music. I move closer to him place a kiss on his neck. “you look so sexy right now.”

Gerard smirked and pulled me closer to him.

“You always look sexy Bri.”

“You sure about that?”

“Yes, baby.” He ran his hands along my side as we moved to the upbeat music that was playing in the club. It wasn’t my favorite music but it was the right kind of music to party to and especially dance to.

After we walked back over the VIP area and I sat down in the booth and Gerard sat close to me.

“That was fun.”

“You looked a lot better dancing than me.” I grinned and pulled him in for a soft kiss and he slowly deepened it. We usually didn’t show too much affection in public but in this moment, we didn’t care.

Gerard slowly pulled away from our heated kiss. “I’m ready to get out of here.”

“Yeah me too.” Gerard got up first and I was right behind him. We exited the club and the night air felt nice compared to the warm air of the club.

We got a cab back to the hotel and up to the room. We both stripped out of our clothes and went into the bathroom. I got the shower started and Gerard ran a hand along my back.

“Tonight, was amazing Brian.” I smiled and turned around and I connected our lips. I ran my hand through my boyfriend’s and ran my hand down his neck as we kissed.

I slowly pulled away from the kiss and lightly ran my hand over his cheek. “Anything for you.”

We got in the shower and we shared lazy, loving kisses as we both got clean. We then headed to bed and just kissed and took in the moment. Gerard was tired so we didn’t end up having sex which did not bother me at all.

(Time skip)

Our short vacation went by way too fast but that’s always the way. The time with Gerard has given me the motivation to get work done for the new material. I was going to get busy soon but the record was going to be done differently this time.

With Zacky’s pregnancy, we want to take our time and make this new record the best we can. Gerard’s voice drew me out my thoughts. “Can we stop at the pharmacy before we get home so I can pick up a couple pregnancy tests”

“Of course, babe.” I smiled over at Gerard as we continued the drive back to HB. I took one of his hands in mine as I drove one-handed.

Once we arrived back in HB I went into the pharmacy since Gerard fell asleep and I didn’t want to wake him just yet. I grabbed a few different brands of pregnancy tests, paid for them and headed back to the car.

I then drove the short distance back to the house and parked in the driveway. I leaned over and kissed Gerard’s lips. “Wake up Gee we are home.” His eyes fluttered open and he let out a small yawn.

“How long was I out for?”

“Pretty much the entire drive. I stopped at the pharmacy and got the tests”

“Thanks.” Gerard leaned over and kissed me softly on the lips. We then grabbed our bags and headed inside. I texted Zacky to let him know we were home and they could bring Pinkly back anytime.

Zacky popped by shortly after we arrived home with Pinkly and she went nuts and came right over to Gerard and me.

“Thanks for bringing her over.”

“No problem. I needed to get out of the house anyways, Frank and I had an argument and I wanted to give him some time to cool off.” I could tell Zacky was close to tears and pulled him in for a hug.

“Is everything ok?”

“Well we had an argument over Frank’s side projects and I just want to spend time with him and actually enjoy it without doing work related stuff for a few days. It was a stupid argument but I guess being away from him before and now with the pregnancy, I feel more on edge these days.”

“I’m here if you need to vent anytime okay?”

“Thank, Bri. I’ll talk to you later.” We hugged one more time and I watched Zacky leave. I could tell how much he disliked arguing with Frank but every relationship is never perfect.

I walked into the bedroom where Gerard was unpacking our stuff. “Is Zacky ok?”

“Yeah, he’ll be alright. He had an argument with Frank over his side projects and Zacky is just feeling on edge about their situation.”

“Yeah Frank can definitely be a workaholic with his music but so can I.” I wrapped my arms around Gee.

“I just hate seeing Zacky upset. I could tell he was holding back because he doesn’t want anyone to see him get emotional but it's completely understandable with the pregnancy and all.”

“He will be alright babe.” Gerard reached up and ran a hand along my cheek.

“Should I take the tests now and if I am truly pregnant?”

“Yeah go for it, babe.” Gerard grabbed the bag with the tests and went to the bathroom and I followed him. He did his thing and we read over the instructions and waited the time to see the results.

Gerard was pacing in our room as we waited for the results. “Babe can you please sit or something.”

He looked over at me. “Brian I can’t help it”

I walked over to him and ran my hand along his back. “I know.” I checked my watch and it was time to see the results. “I’ll get the tests.”

I grabbed the two tests off and I didn’t look at the results and walked back into the room. “How about we each look at one and go from there?”

“Sounds good Gee.” I handed him one test and I looked down at the other one. My heart raced, was this really happening? I am going to be a dad.

“Babe this one says you are pregnant.” I could help but smile and Gee looked over at me with tears in his eyes. “Mine does too.”

I walked closer to him and put the two tests aside. I ran my hands along his back. “This doesn’t feel real but I’m happy we get the chance to a start our own family.”

“Yeah, I feel the same, Gee. God, I love you so damn much.”

"I love you too, Brian, always."

I pulled him closer and connected our lips as processed the fact that we are going to parents, as well.

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