The day the drummer said that he wanted to marry Iris was a day that she'll never forget. It was a day embedded in her head and a day she can't wait for to happen. The rest of the band was so happy for her; she never thought she'd be marrying such an amazingly caring man. Jimmy had a heart of gold and a smile to die for; and eyes deep as the ocean to get lost in. Every time that man would stare at her, her heart would melt and beat quickly. The smile he had -- no matter the mood you're in, if he gave you that award winning smile, you couldn't help but to smile in return. It was that contagious. She loved everything about that man.

The band was so happy to see them happy. They'd tell them how much of an amazing couple they were. Shit, Jimmy's someone who would never let anyone, anyone touch his drum kit. Not even Matt. He'd yell at the vocalist to get the fuck off and he would listen. But Jimmy could never yell at his fiance. Damn, he even spent almost a year teaching her how to play drums and would even let her play on stage with him. She got the privilege to play four songs and play them herself while Jimmy stood on the sidelines and watched the woman he taught play. Scream. Critical Acclaim. A Little Piece of Heaven. Beast and the Harlot. The only four Jimmy would be willing to give up for her to have her time in the limelight. Matt taught her how to sing; so the songs that Jimmy sang in, which was most of them, she also got to sing in since she was drumming and it was a bit odd not to have that fill. She loved that. She loved it so much.

But sadly, as the months went on, Iris could see the small bits of sadness come across the eyes that made her fall for the drummer. She would ask him what was wrong, in which he would reply, 'It's nothing babe,' and give that smile that she can;t help but to smile back and drop the subject. But deep down she knew something was up but didn't want to press the subject too much and see someone get mad at her.

They never fought; she'd fight with the the other members as well as her brother but never with Jimmy. He's always be the one that would stick up for her in a voiced battle and be the one that she can always come too and cry on. He'd never deny her; she's cried several times on his shoulder and all that he would do is whisper hushed words to her, hold onto her like their lives depended on it and stayed that way until either she felt better or until she fell asleep. He never left her when she slept when upset. He couldn't anyway; the death grip she had on him was brutal -- and when she woke up after a moment with the bad, a few kisses were given to her in the morning, telling her she'll be okay and that he loved her with all his heart and soul. It made her smile. Everything he said made her smile.

But the smile Jimmy always puts on her face would never return again to it's fullest potential.

Within the next week, Iris soon to be Sullivan will never be the same ever again.

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The first day of this week the band came into the recording studio; without Jimmy for once which was quiet odd. The only thing that was remotely Jimmy was a CD on the stand with the title of 'Death.' No one knew where that CD came from. The members would shrug as Matt handed the CD to Iris; everything Jimmy the band let's Iris do. They don't know why. Maybe it's a respect thing even though they've known Jimmy so much longer than Iris has. Not much though.

Iris put in the CD and the music began with piano music with a bit of drumming involved. Iris nodded a bit, but the second the vocals hit, her heart dropped and sank, a frown on her face.

'Now I think I understand,
How this world can over come a man
Like a friend we saw it though
In the end I gave my life for you'

The second the words began, Iris and the band frown. Iris on a more personal level knows how hard Jimmy has been deteriorating and it was seen more and more every day. Iris dealt with it but it got harder and harder to where she understood it. And it hurt. The smile covered it all, but not all of it. Jimmy was a friend to everyone, even to Iris. If he would to ever leave this world, he would most likely end up giving his life for someone and it would be for reason. For the band. For someone he adored and loved.

'Gave you all I had to give
Found a place for me to rest my head
While I maybe hard to find
Heard there's piece just on the other side'

Iris frowns as she hears the next set of lyrics. She would always allow Jimmy to read his head on her, or near her; he would do the same for her so why not do it to him. The next two lines of lyrics hurt when she heard them, she knows he's never hard to find, but it seems he is now, but she hopes that he's not on that other side the song is speaking of. She'd rather have him here in her arms.

'Not that I could, or that I would,
Let it burn, under my skin,
Let it
Burn'

"Oh Jimmy.." Iris would say, the small frown on her face now a full on sad look. She loved when Jimmy sang. And hearing him sing like this hurt. It sounds like he was singing of either drinking himself to death or something much worse. He said that he wouldn't in the lyrics, but what if he actually does. That thought alone made Iris finally break down into silent sobs, causing the rest of the band to stay fully silent and comfort his soon to be wife in anyway that they can.

'Left this life to set me free
Took a piece of you inside of me
All this hurt can finally fade
Promise me you'll never feel afraid'

She listens to the words even more, her sobbing would get worse but not noisy. She has always had a piece of Jimmy in her the second the two met. And she knows he has a piece of her inside of him. If Jimmy were to leave, she knows that his hurt would fade, but what about his family? Friend? The band? Her..?

"I'm afraid, Revvy.."

She didn't know if this was just a song or something of reality that may end up happening. She's scared; so unless proven otherwise that this is just a very heartbreaking song, she's gonna be afraid.

'Not that I could, or that I would,
Let it burn, under my skin,
Let it
Burn'

"Make it stop..."

'I hope it's worth it
Out on the highway, yeah
I know you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you'

"I'm going to be lost without you.." She spoke to herself, not even paying attention to the other band members; they kept silent, they understood but wanted her to have to listen to this and feel it even though they didn't know she's been feeling like this for a while now. "Please don't go.."

That hurt the other band members when they herd that. Now it seems this song is getting serious.

'So tell everybody
The ones who walk beside me, yeah
I hope you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you, tonight'

"No I won't.." She probably won't be able to find her way if he's not here. He's her road; her telling her it's bad or good even though he does everything bad. He's her rock; her fiance -- her everything. She wants to keep walking beside him; even down that damn aisle. She don't want to walk this world alone. "Jimmy.."

'I hope it's worth it
What's left behind me, yeah
I know you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you'

"Stop.." The voice cannot stop; it's a recording, but this was hurting her a lot. She's never gonna find her own way and even Jimmy knew that. She's told him several times she doesn't want to walk alone and he told her personally that he'll never let her do that. He'll always be by her side through thick and thin, though the bad and good. Until death does them part. It seems by the song and the lyrics it maybe sooner than expected.

'So tell everybody
The ones who walk beside me, yeah
I know you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you tonight...'

"I want you here tonight.." She would say as the deep and meaningful song would finally end, causing her to finally break fully. It meant a lot and she knew it had a lot of emotional meaning to the other band members. Seeing her break like that hurt; she's a strong woman, but when it came to Jimmy, she's not. She's a rock but with him, she's easy to break.

---

They haven't heard from the drummer in a few days and it's starting to become worrisome. They tried everything to get a hold of the drummer but nothing worked. The television was on and what was on was the breaking point to everyone.

"In Hard Rock news, the famed Drummer of Avenged Sevenfold was found dead in his home two days ago due to an elixir of prescription drugs and alcohol. It didn't look like foul play; so most likely due to the pills and alcohol it just didn't work for him that night. Jimmy suffered from an enlarged heart; he was recorded saying that he wouldn't make it past the age of thirty due to it. But it looks like either his heart gave out or it was what he done. He's survived by the acclaimed band Avenged Sevenfold whom he considers family and his wife, Iris Sullivan. We give our prayers to the family and friends of this devastating news."

"J-Jimmy...?!" Iris began to freak out, even hyperventilating. She didn't want to believe it was true. Hearing the words on the television broke her heart; she could feel it shatter and fall onto the floor at this news. Her and Rev were supposed to get married next month. How is he supposed to marry someone who's dead?! The rest of the band looked shocked and even began to broke down, joining Iris in the sob fest. Real men cry, and they loved that man with everything they've had. He made the band, not Shadows. He did.

Everyone's world shattered that day.

"H-Hey, Iris, I found this.. It's from Jimmy.." Johnny would say as shaky hands reached out towards her to hand her a letter; it was addressed to her. So with her own shaky hands, she opened it, and read the three page letter.

"Dear Iris,

I love you with everything I have in my dying heart and body. You mean the world to me and you always will. There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do for you. You're a queen in my eyes and I've thought that ever since we've met and you came on tour with us the first day when you were eighteen and on your last days of school. I've grown to love you but seen you love the others so I stayed back to see who you'd choose. And you chose me. You could have had Syn or even Zacky. Or shit, even the damn bassist. But no, you chose the drummer. And I love you for that. I was so glad when you did you don't even know.

But, Iris, honey, sweetheart, baby, I'm not doing too good. I already know I'm not gonna make it past thirty so I want to make my life heaven for the both of us. I've wanted to marry you forever, and even though I won't be here when you read this, I still want to do this.

Iris Sanders, would you do the honor of being my wife, right now; I already asked you to marry me, but since I may not be here, I want you to know that my dying wish is for you to have my last name. I've always wanted that. Iris Sullivan; has a ring to it, yeah?

Keep that ring, babe, keep it close and keep my name. I don't want you to forget me and all I've taught you on drums or all I've ever done. I'm doing this so I don't suffer anymore. I don't want you to suffer either. You've done it enough. Tell the others that I love them and going to miss them as much as I'm going to miss you.

I love you with all my heart, Iris; don't forget that. I'll see you on the other side. I'll wait for you, okay? I'll watch over you. I'll be by your side every day and still lay beside you in bed. You probably won't see me, but know I'm gonna be there. Keep my legacy, babe. I want you to be Avenged Sevenfold's drummer. I know you can do it. I've taught you everything in that year I taught you. You got this, Iris. I believe in you.

Remember everyhting I taught you and that I'll always be by your side. I'm never leaving until you leave this world. Okay?

You're my Little Piece of Heaven. I'm watching.

Love,

Jimmy "The Rev" Sullivan."

Notes

This was hard to write and it'll be hard to read. This part is only the beginning. The next three I have planned will be even sadder. I'm sorry to make you cry, hun's. ;~;