Her grace can't save you now.
Seven.
I got up a little bit earlier so that I could be on time to pick Darcy up, but nothing stupidly early so that I’d be tired all day, just an extra ten minutes. I found myself weirdly nervous to see her again, I didn’t understand the reason for the butterflies in my stomach because she’d never made me nervous before, and it irritated me that a girl could have this hold over me again, it was just like being with Rebekah all over again, and that’s why I was so averse to starting any new relationships, I couldn’t deal with that hurt all over again, when she broke up with me, it was one of the few times that I’d cried since I was about seven years old, but that I will admit to no one.
I shrugged into my jacket and shoved my wallet and keys into my pocket, my Mom was pattering around in the kitchen in her slippers, she appeared in the hallway, handing me money like she did every day like she always did, I didn’t get why she did it because I have my own money to pay for lunch, but like I’ve said before I found it sweet.
She smiled and kissed my forehead and told me to ‘have a good day’ before I left the house and jumped into my car. One thing I pride myself on is that I keep my car clean on the inside and out, it was a birthday present and I plan to keep it in decent condition because one, meaning I don’t leave crap all on the insides of the car and my Dad has the staff clean it regularly, or rather, he hires someone to come clean all our cars once a week, but I make sure it’s clean anyways, especially for situations like this.
I drove the Darcy’s and honked the horn twice, a minute later the front door opened and she came skipping down the path, there was an older woman standing at the door this time instead of the playboy bunny from last night. I reached over to open to open Darcy’s door for her, she laughed and got in.
“I’m guessing that’s your approximation of opening a door for a girl?” She said strapping
herself in.
“Yeah…” I didn’t really have an answer for it, she was right. I did a three point turn and drove off down the street. “So was that your Mom at the door?” I asked.
“Yeah why?”
“Just putting the pieces together” I said
“What pieces?” She quirked an eyebrow at me.
“Last night, I was trying to work out if the blonde was your sister or if your Dad is running a smaller version of the play boy mansion”
“Oh no that’s Marissa my sister” She frowned and picked the skin around her thumb. I reached over and put my hand on top of hers.
“Don’t do that” I said “They hurt so much when you rip the skin off entirely”
“You’re speaking from experience”
“My Mom used to have to put hot sauce on my fingers as a kid to stop me from chewing them off entirely, too bad for her I actually like hot sauce, so she got this disgusting formula stuff instead”
“Did it work?”
“Put me off chewing my skin for life” She giggled, it was light and airy and it brought a smile to my face.
I pulled up outside the school and killed the engine, we got out of the car and I slammed the door shut. I watched her as she pulled her bag over her shoulder, she looked really pretty today, her hair hung loosely around her shoulders and she had these little diamond earrings in that caught the light whenever she moved.
“Thanks Zacky” She looked up at me over the car, smiling at me “I’ll see you later” She grinned at me and skipped off, leaving me standing there with this stupid little smile on my face as I locked my car and walked to my locker to get my math textbook.
X-X-X-
“…call me later” I heard her voice saying. I pulled the headphones off and looked up to see Darcy standing in the entrance of the studio talking to a guy I knew to be called Connor, he was about my height, had curly brown hair that hung to his jaw and was known for being a bit of a player. He grinned down at her and moved, saying something in her ear, she giggled and went red before he smiled at her one last time and left the studio.
I put the headphones back on and went back to messing around on the computer with the opening part to her track. She wandered over and sat down on a chair next to me. She started to say something but I held a hand up to her signalling for her to wait a moment longer. I did one more thing then removed the headphones.
“Yes?”
“What no hello?”
“I think we’ve established our relationship isn’t that formal” I said, she gave me an incredulous look before turning her attention to the screen.
“Is that for me” I could hear the smile in her voice even though I wasn’t looking at her.
“It might be”
“You are gonna do it for me aren’t you” She really was grinning now.
“I figured I could help you out”
“Yay! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you Zacky!” She squealed throwing her arms around me and almost knocking me off the chair. I chuckled and hugged her waist for a moment before she released me. I’m not entirely sure how it happened but some of her hair got caught in my watch so when she pulled away it tugged and she yelped.
“Hold still” I said standing up and trying to untangle her hair from the wristband of my watch.
It took a few moments but then she was free and blushing like mad. “Why’re you blushing?” I asked her sitting back down.
“Because it was embarrassing” She said going even redder.
“So I make you blush now do I?” I leaned on the desk (forgetting that it was a slider) and went flying, falling off the chair and onto my ass, she snickered then burst out laughing.
“No you just make me laugh” She spluttered.
“Don’t laugh, that really hurt my ass”
“And your ego no doubt”
“My ego is just fine thanks” I said standing up and wincing. Yeah that hurt.
“Are you okay?”
“Yeah I’m a big boy I’ll survive” I said, after a moment’s pause I asked her: “So what did Connor want?” I folded my arms and raised an eyebrow.
“Connor? Oh he was asking me out on a date” She said
“So are you gonna go with him”
“That depends…”
“On?”
“You”
“Why me?” Here we go.
“Because you know that I still like you right?”
“Yes”
“So do you want to take me out on a date? Or am I gonna have to take Connor up on his offer?”
“Darcy we’ve been through this, I know you like me, and I really am flattered, but I just don’t like you that way, and I don’t think I ever will, my head isn’t in the right place for another relationship right now and I don’t know when it will be, and there is no use in you waiting because you’ll be waiting forever” I sighed, exasperated “So I think that if Connor wants to take you out on a date, let him”
“But you’re not even gonna put up a fight?”
“Jesus Darcy! Get it into your head! I don’t like you ! I never have! I probably never will, not in the sense we’re discussing anyway, and you just constantly pestering me about this is not helping the situation”
“But you flirt with me”
“I flirt with everyone”
“But you said—“
“When have the words ‘ Darcy I like you back ’ ever passed my lips?”
“They haven’t—“
“Exactly so I think you should just take this stupid idea you have of us ever being together that you have and just fucking throw it out the window because me and you” I motioned to the space between us “Is never going to happen” I spat, I knew I’d gone too far at that point, I could see it in her face, she wasn’t used to this kind of confrontation, she wasn’t used to being attacked like that.
Her eyes welled up with tears and her bottom lip began to tremble as she tucked some hair behind her ears, she kept holding my gaze for what felt like forever before she swallowed.
“W-Well you didn’t have to be so mean about it” She sniffed and desperately tried to hold the tears in her eyes, she blinked hard and they dribbled down her cheeks. “I can’t help it t-that I like you so much”
“Look Darcy I’m sorry it… that came out worse than I thought it would”
“No, it’s okay… I get it… you always liked the pretty girls anyway” What? “And it’s okay, you don’t have to finish that” She gestured to the computer “I can find someone else to do it” She said wiping her cheeks with the back of her hand.
“Darcy I—“
“No it’s okay, bye Zack” and then she was gone, and I was left standing there, feeling like the biggest asshole in the world, because I just made a girl cry, and I’d never done that before. I also hoped that I never would. But that was a hope that like I’d told Darcy to do, had just been thrown out of the window.
I shrugged into my jacket and shoved my wallet and keys into my pocket, my Mom was pattering around in the kitchen in her slippers, she appeared in the hallway, handing me money like she did every day like she always did, I didn’t get why she did it because I have my own money to pay for lunch, but like I’ve said before I found it sweet.
She smiled and kissed my forehead and told me to ‘have a good day’ before I left the house and jumped into my car. One thing I pride myself on is that I keep my car clean on the inside and out, it was a birthday present and I plan to keep it in decent condition because one, meaning I don’t leave crap all on the insides of the car and my Dad has the staff clean it regularly, or rather, he hires someone to come clean all our cars once a week, but I make sure it’s clean anyways, especially for situations like this.
I drove the Darcy’s and honked the horn twice, a minute later the front door opened and she came skipping down the path, there was an older woman standing at the door this time instead of the playboy bunny from last night. I reached over to open to open Darcy’s door for her, she laughed and got in.
“I’m guessing that’s your approximation of opening a door for a girl?” She said strapping
herself in.
“Yeah…” I didn’t really have an answer for it, she was right. I did a three point turn and drove off down the street. “So was that your Mom at the door?” I asked.
“Yeah why?”
“Just putting the pieces together” I said
“What pieces?” She quirked an eyebrow at me.
“Last night, I was trying to work out if the blonde was your sister or if your Dad is running a smaller version of the play boy mansion”
“Oh no that’s Marissa my sister” She frowned and picked the skin around her thumb. I reached over and put my hand on top of hers.
“Don’t do that” I said “They hurt so much when you rip the skin off entirely”
“You’re speaking from experience”
“My Mom used to have to put hot sauce on my fingers as a kid to stop me from chewing them off entirely, too bad for her I actually like hot sauce, so she got this disgusting formula stuff instead”
“Did it work?”
“Put me off chewing my skin for life” She giggled, it was light and airy and it brought a smile to my face.
I pulled up outside the school and killed the engine, we got out of the car and I slammed the door shut. I watched her as she pulled her bag over her shoulder, she looked really pretty today, her hair hung loosely around her shoulders and she had these little diamond earrings in that caught the light whenever she moved.
“Thanks Zacky” She looked up at me over the car, smiling at me “I’ll see you later” She grinned at me and skipped off, leaving me standing there with this stupid little smile on my face as I locked my car and walked to my locker to get my math textbook.
X-X-X-
“…call me later” I heard her voice saying. I pulled the headphones off and looked up to see Darcy standing in the entrance of the studio talking to a guy I knew to be called Connor, he was about my height, had curly brown hair that hung to his jaw and was known for being a bit of a player. He grinned down at her and moved, saying something in her ear, she giggled and went red before he smiled at her one last time and left the studio.
I put the headphones back on and went back to messing around on the computer with the opening part to her track. She wandered over and sat down on a chair next to me. She started to say something but I held a hand up to her signalling for her to wait a moment longer. I did one more thing then removed the headphones.
“Yes?”
“What no hello?”
“I think we’ve established our relationship isn’t that formal” I said, she gave me an incredulous look before turning her attention to the screen.
“Is that for me” I could hear the smile in her voice even though I wasn’t looking at her.
“It might be”
“You are gonna do it for me aren’t you” She really was grinning now.
“I figured I could help you out”
“Yay! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you Zacky!” She squealed throwing her arms around me and almost knocking me off the chair. I chuckled and hugged her waist for a moment before she released me. I’m not entirely sure how it happened but some of her hair got caught in my watch so when she pulled away it tugged and she yelped.
“Hold still” I said standing up and trying to untangle her hair from the wristband of my watch.
It took a few moments but then she was free and blushing like mad. “Why’re you blushing?” I asked her sitting back down.
“Because it was embarrassing” She said going even redder.
“So I make you blush now do I?” I leaned on the desk (forgetting that it was a slider) and went flying, falling off the chair and onto my ass, she snickered then burst out laughing.
“No you just make me laugh” She spluttered.
“Don’t laugh, that really hurt my ass”
“And your ego no doubt”
“My ego is just fine thanks” I said standing up and wincing. Yeah that hurt.
“Are you okay?”
“Yeah I’m a big boy I’ll survive” I said, after a moment’s pause I asked her: “So what did Connor want?” I folded my arms and raised an eyebrow.
“Connor? Oh he was asking me out on a date” She said
“So are you gonna go with him”
“That depends…”
“On?”
“You”
“Why me?” Here we go.
“Because you know that I still like you right?”
“Yes”
“So do you want to take me out on a date? Or am I gonna have to take Connor up on his offer?”
“Darcy we’ve been through this, I know you like me, and I really am flattered, but I just don’t like you that way, and I don’t think I ever will, my head isn’t in the right place for another relationship right now and I don’t know when it will be, and there is no use in you waiting because you’ll be waiting forever” I sighed, exasperated “So I think that if Connor wants to take you out on a date, let him”
“But you’re not even gonna put up a fight?”
“Jesus Darcy! Get it into your head! I don’t like you ! I never have! I probably never will, not in the sense we’re discussing anyway, and you just constantly pestering me about this is not helping the situation”
“But you flirt with me”
“I flirt with everyone”
“But you said—“
“When have the words ‘ Darcy I like you back ’ ever passed my lips?”
“They haven’t—“
“Exactly so I think you should just take this stupid idea you have of us ever being together that you have and just fucking throw it out the window because me and you” I motioned to the space between us “Is never going to happen” I spat, I knew I’d gone too far at that point, I could see it in her face, she wasn’t used to this kind of confrontation, she wasn’t used to being attacked like that.
Her eyes welled up with tears and her bottom lip began to tremble as she tucked some hair behind her ears, she kept holding my gaze for what felt like forever before she swallowed.
“W-Well you didn’t have to be so mean about it” She sniffed and desperately tried to hold the tears in her eyes, she blinked hard and they dribbled down her cheeks. “I can’t help it t-that I like you so much”
“Look Darcy I’m sorry it… that came out worse than I thought it would”
“No, it’s okay… I get it… you always liked the pretty girls anyway” What? “And it’s okay, you don’t have to finish that” She gestured to the computer “I can find someone else to do it” She said wiping her cheeks with the back of her hand.
“Darcy I—“
“No it’s okay, bye Zack” and then she was gone, and I was left standing there, feeling like the biggest asshole in the world, because I just made a girl cry, and I’d never done that before. I also hoped that I never would. But that was a hope that like I’d told Darcy to do, had just been thrown out of the window.
4/20/13