Her grace can't save you now.
Seventeen.
So I hadn’t manage to tell Darcy about the fact I liked her, and I think that I had for a while and just didn’t want to realise it because I was too busy being big headed. I sighed and drummed my fingers on the dashboard. I was waiting for Brian to come outside so I could give him a lift home but he was taking forever.
Another five minutes later and he appeared through the door with Darcy by his side, it was pissing it down with rain as they ran through it. Brian made a dive for the back seat which meant Darcy had to sit up front with me, when she got in the car you could almost cut the tension with a knife.
Brian was out of the car before I could eve say goodbye to him, and then it was just the two of us left alone. I sighed and put the car in gear before driving to her home, when I pulled up outside she was about to jump out but I grabbed her arm,
stopping her.
“Darcy please don’t be mad at me” I said.
“I’m not mad” She said glaring at me.
“Yes you are”
“Gee I wonder why?” She said sarcastically. “Why do you do it Zack?”
“I can’t… explain it you just… get to me”
“Yeah well you get to me, you have for almost two years and now you decide to be a dick about it, a month before the most important show of my life” She sighed and leaned her face in her hands. “I just wish that you… wouldn’t fuck me about so much”
“So do I” I mumbled.
“What?”
“Never mind” I said “The rain doesn’t look like it’s gonna let up”
“I know” She sighed and looked at me, her blue eye swimming with sadness. I wanted so bas to pull her close to me them, to hold her tight and kiss her, make it so that she didn’t have to hurt anymore. And I wanted to kiss her and pull her into the back seat and make sweet, sweet love to her. But obviously that didn’t happen because she looked at me sadly for another few seconds before she opened the door, slammed it shut and ran through the rain to her front door and disappeared in sign.
“You’re such a fucking idiot Zack” I growled to myself.
When I got home I was thoroughly drenched and went straight to my bathroom to take a hot shower and warm up, when I was done I got dressed and went back downstairs. Mom was just putting dinner on the table and Dad was helping her by setting the table.
“Hey Zacky honey, do you want some dinner?” She asked me handing my Dad his. I nodded and she made me a plate, I sat down and ate quietly as my parents talked about their days.
“Zacky are you alright you’ve been awful quiet”
“Yeah m’fine” I mumbled pushing peas around my plate, not really eating them, I
didn’t like them much anyway. I knew that they were looking at each other, but they weren’t saying anything about it.
“You wanna talk about it?” My mom asked me.
“No”
“Is it that Darcy girl again?”
“I said I didn’t wanna talk about it!” I yelled slamming my fist down on the table.
My parents jumped, I sighed and shook my head, standing up and leaving the room. I felt bad for yelling at them, they were only trying to help but I was pissed and I couldn’t help it.
I sat on my bed and groaned, flopping back against the pillows. I could hear the rain drumming on the roof, is sighed and closed my eyes, just listening to the noises that it made. I was pulled out of my little thought bubble when the front doorbell rang. I didn’t make a move to answer it as I heard Mom go, but a minute later I heard my name being called. I got up and ran down the stairs to find Darcy standing in the front door shivering and sobbing.
“Darcy what—“
“He hit me Zacky” She hiccupped. It took a second for it to click into place. I nodded slowly. She was still sobbing and my mom had made herself scarce. “I-I didn’t mean to I just—“ She was crying too hard to actually talk properly. “I didn’t mean to make him mad” She sobbed. I sighed and pulled her close against my chest and hugged her hard. She whimpered and buried her face in my shoulder. “I didn’t mean to make him mad” She whispered again.
“I know you didn’t” I said stroking her wet hair “Come on I’ll find you something dry to wear” I said taking her hand and leading her up the stairs. “Did you walk here?” I asked her.
“I ran here from Connor’s” She croaked “We were arguing and he slapped me and I didn’t know where to go and I just ended up here” She said as we walked into my
room.
“It’s okay, just as long as you’re alright, although you shouldn’t have come here, not at this time of night, you should have called me to come pick you up” I said rummaging through my closet. I stopped. “It would probably just be better if you just took a shower” I said “I’m not trying to sound perverted or anything, but you’ll warm up faster” She nodded and sniffed, I got her a big fluffy towel and showed her where the bathroom was, while she was in the shower I left her some dry clothe son the work top and took her wet clothes down stairs and gave them to my Mom who put them straight in the washer. She asked me if she was alright and I told her I wasn’t sure and she said that if she wanted too Darcy could stay in the guest room.
When I went back upstairs Darcy was sitting on my bed towelling her hair dry slowly. I moved through the room and sat down next to her, she was wearing some pyjama bottoms and a shirt of mine that I’d lent her.
“Mom says you can stay in the guest room if you want” I said
“Yeah okay” She said. I nodded and took her down the hall to the guest room. She stood up on her tippy toes and hugged me tightly. I sighed and wrapped my arms around her waist hugging her tightly. I kissed the top of her head and let her go.
“I’m just down the hall if you need me” I said to her. She nodded and I shut the door on the way out.
X-X-X
I was still awake listening to the rain when the door cracked open, and Darcy tiptoed in.
“Darce what’s up?” I asked propping myself up on my elbows.
“I hate thunder” She whispered.
“Oh” I nibbled my snake bite. “C’mere” I said shifting over in my bed and pulled the sheets back, she climbed into the bed with me and buried her face in my chest, whimpering as a loud crack of thunder echoed over the house. “You really don’t like it do you?” I asked her, she shook her head and burrowed further under the quilt when another boom echoed out. “It’s okay you’re perfectly safe here” I said stroking her hair. I fell asleep pretty quickly after that.
Another five minutes later and he appeared through the door with Darcy by his side, it was pissing it down with rain as they ran through it. Brian made a dive for the back seat which meant Darcy had to sit up front with me, when she got in the car you could almost cut the tension with a knife.
Brian was out of the car before I could eve say goodbye to him, and then it was just the two of us left alone. I sighed and put the car in gear before driving to her home, when I pulled up outside she was about to jump out but I grabbed her arm,
stopping her.
“Darcy please don’t be mad at me” I said.
“I’m not mad” She said glaring at me.
“Yes you are”
“Gee I wonder why?” She said sarcastically. “Why do you do it Zack?”
“I can’t… explain it you just… get to me”
“Yeah well you get to me, you have for almost two years and now you decide to be a dick about it, a month before the most important show of my life” She sighed and leaned her face in her hands. “I just wish that you… wouldn’t fuck me about so much”
“So do I” I mumbled.
“What?”
“Never mind” I said “The rain doesn’t look like it’s gonna let up”
“I know” She sighed and looked at me, her blue eye swimming with sadness. I wanted so bas to pull her close to me them, to hold her tight and kiss her, make it so that she didn’t have to hurt anymore. And I wanted to kiss her and pull her into the back seat and make sweet, sweet love to her. But obviously that didn’t happen because she looked at me sadly for another few seconds before she opened the door, slammed it shut and ran through the rain to her front door and disappeared in sign.
“You’re such a fucking idiot Zack” I growled to myself.
When I got home I was thoroughly drenched and went straight to my bathroom to take a hot shower and warm up, when I was done I got dressed and went back downstairs. Mom was just putting dinner on the table and Dad was helping her by setting the table.
“Hey Zacky honey, do you want some dinner?” She asked me handing my Dad his. I nodded and she made me a plate, I sat down and ate quietly as my parents talked about their days.
“Zacky are you alright you’ve been awful quiet”
“Yeah m’fine” I mumbled pushing peas around my plate, not really eating them, I
didn’t like them much anyway. I knew that they were looking at each other, but they weren’t saying anything about it.
“You wanna talk about it?” My mom asked me.
“No”
“Is it that Darcy girl again?”
“I said I didn’t wanna talk about it!” I yelled slamming my fist down on the table.
My parents jumped, I sighed and shook my head, standing up and leaving the room. I felt bad for yelling at them, they were only trying to help but I was pissed and I couldn’t help it.
I sat on my bed and groaned, flopping back against the pillows. I could hear the rain drumming on the roof, is sighed and closed my eyes, just listening to the noises that it made. I was pulled out of my little thought bubble when the front doorbell rang. I didn’t make a move to answer it as I heard Mom go, but a minute later I heard my name being called. I got up and ran down the stairs to find Darcy standing in the front door shivering and sobbing.
“Darcy what—“
“He hit me Zacky” She hiccupped. It took a second for it to click into place. I nodded slowly. She was still sobbing and my mom had made herself scarce. “I-I didn’t mean to I just—“ She was crying too hard to actually talk properly. “I didn’t mean to make him mad” She sobbed. I sighed and pulled her close against my chest and hugged her hard. She whimpered and buried her face in my shoulder. “I didn’t mean to make him mad” She whispered again.
“I know you didn’t” I said stroking her wet hair “Come on I’ll find you something dry to wear” I said taking her hand and leading her up the stairs. “Did you walk here?” I asked her.
“I ran here from Connor’s” She croaked “We were arguing and he slapped me and I didn’t know where to go and I just ended up here” She said as we walked into my
room.
“It’s okay, just as long as you’re alright, although you shouldn’t have come here, not at this time of night, you should have called me to come pick you up” I said rummaging through my closet. I stopped. “It would probably just be better if you just took a shower” I said “I’m not trying to sound perverted or anything, but you’ll warm up faster” She nodded and sniffed, I got her a big fluffy towel and showed her where the bathroom was, while she was in the shower I left her some dry clothe son the work top and took her wet clothes down stairs and gave them to my Mom who put them straight in the washer. She asked me if she was alright and I told her I wasn’t sure and she said that if she wanted too Darcy could stay in the guest room.
When I went back upstairs Darcy was sitting on my bed towelling her hair dry slowly. I moved through the room and sat down next to her, she was wearing some pyjama bottoms and a shirt of mine that I’d lent her.
“Mom says you can stay in the guest room if you want” I said
“Yeah okay” She said. I nodded and took her down the hall to the guest room. She stood up on her tippy toes and hugged me tightly. I sighed and wrapped my arms around her waist hugging her tightly. I kissed the top of her head and let her go.
“I’m just down the hall if you need me” I said to her. She nodded and I shut the door on the way out.
X-X-X
I was still awake listening to the rain when the door cracked open, and Darcy tiptoed in.
“Darce what’s up?” I asked propping myself up on my elbows.
“I hate thunder” She whispered.
“Oh” I nibbled my snake bite. “C’mere” I said shifting over in my bed and pulled the sheets back, she climbed into the bed with me and buried her face in my chest, whimpering as a loud crack of thunder echoed over the house. “You really don’t like it do you?” I asked her, she shook her head and burrowed further under the quilt when another boom echoed out. “It’s okay you’re perfectly safe here” I said stroking her hair. I fell asleep pretty quickly after that.
4/20/13