Her grace can't save you now.
Fifteen.
dropped Matt and Brian home and then I drove Darcy home, it kind of felt like I was dropping her home after a date, which was ridiculous because I didn’t want to date her, and so I found myself driving home with a frown on my face because I was confused.
“Hey honey how was the beach?” My Mom asked me as I walked through the door and into the kitchen.
“It was good, I think I got sunburn though” I said, the skin on my shoulder was painful.
“Zack! I tell you to wear sunscreen when you go to the beach!”
“Yeah Mom I know but I sort of… forgot” I shrugged and winced as the action caused me pain.
“Was Darcy there?”
“What?”
“You’ve got a look on your face like you just spent the best day with the girl you love”
“Mom what the hell?! I don’t love her”
“You might not think so, did you drive her home?”
“Yeah but i—“
“Did she kiss you goodnight?” I though back, she had kissed my cheek when she got out of the car and I was sat there for a good five minutes grinning like an idiot.
“Yes but I still don’t—“
“Zacky call it mothers intuition or whatever but you’re head over heels for her, I can tell”
“Not you too Mom” I whined in the most unbecoming fashion.
“Don’t whine, not go take a shower and then bring me the after sun so I can put it on your
shoulders”
“I can do it myself” I grumbled.
“No you can’t, you’ll miss or forget and I’m not having you being on your man period for a
week while it heals up”
“Whatever” And then I stomped upstairs to my room to take a shower.
X-X-X
“Darcy can I talk to you for a minute?” I asked her, she was sitting with Connor and the rest of her friends, they intimidated me, not Connor, her friends, and they were a group of giggling teenage girls that were all looking at me like I was a piece of meat or something.
“Sure Zacky” She said grabbing her purse and standing up, Connor grabbed her arm and she
winced, I watched them carefully, he gave her a dark look that said there was a lot more to that conversation than what was actually being said out loud. I waited for her to be released and then we walked out of the cafeteria together.
“What was that?” I asked her
“What was what?”
“That! Him grabbing you like that”
“Oh nothing he’s just a bit… possessive sometimes, especially when you’re around” She said
“Why me?”
“Because I think he knows… that I like you”
“I’m sorry”
“I know”
“No really I am, I shouldn’t be the cause for you two fighting” I said
“We don’t fight… we have… discussions”
“Discussions… right”
“So what did you want to talk to me about?” She asked me as we walked down the hall.
“Oh yeah you gotta come to the recording studio” I said
“Did you finish it?”
“Almost, Johnny and I put the bass on this morning” I said pushing the door open for her.
She smiled a little bit and went inside. “So yeah it’s almost done” I gently pushed her down into the chair then remembering that bruise on her shoulder I stopped. That’s something, I had to ask Matt about that, he wouldn’t have dropped her; he’s not careless like that. “Okay put these on” I said placing the headphones over her ears, she giggled and it made me smile.
I logged into the computer and plugged in the USB, I opened up the player and started the track for her, I sat down next to her and tapped in a few things while she was listening to it, turning the volume up a little she listened to it quietly, then the bass part came in and she was away, lost in listening to it. She looked so cute with her eyes closed and her hands slowly tapping out the rhythm of the song. When it was over she removed the head phones and looked up at me with tears in her eyes.
“Why’re you crying?” I asked her, frowning, confused.
“Because no one’s ever taken so much time and put so much into something for me” She
laughed and wiped the tears away from her cheeks. I smiled and wiped away the one that she missed with the pad of my thumb. I meant to pull my hand away and go back to what we were doing but I got lost in her eyes again. My hand stayed on her cheek and I stayed there staring into her eyes. I couldn’t help it, I was just… stuck there. Her eyes are what got me.
“Zacky you don’t—“ But I cut her off, I kissed her. I kissed her hard, pushing my tongue into her mouth and cradling her face with my hands. I just couldn’t help it, I lost all rational mind and thought processes and just did it. And the butterflies that erupted in my stomach weren’t helping.
It also took me a second to realise that she was kissing me back, that she had her hands over mine and her tongue was with mine doing the tango. When we pulled away we were both breathing hard and staring at each other.
“Shit” I said.
“You’re an asshole” She said
“What?”
“You know how much I like you and you go and do that”
“Darcy what are you—“
“Don’t play with my feeling Zack, I know you don’t like me back”
“But I—“
“Save it” And then she got up and left
She left me sitting there, straddling the bench, confused as fuck . I didn’t know what the worst part was, maybe that she was so pissed at me now? No I know what the worst part was.
It was that they were all right.
“Hey honey how was the beach?” My Mom asked me as I walked through the door and into the kitchen.
“It was good, I think I got sunburn though” I said, the skin on my shoulder was painful.
“Zack! I tell you to wear sunscreen when you go to the beach!”
“Yeah Mom I know but I sort of… forgot” I shrugged and winced as the action caused me pain.
“Was Darcy there?”
“What?”
“You’ve got a look on your face like you just spent the best day with the girl you love”
“Mom what the hell?! I don’t love her”
“You might not think so, did you drive her home?”
“Yeah but i—“
“Did she kiss you goodnight?” I though back, she had kissed my cheek when she got out of the car and I was sat there for a good five minutes grinning like an idiot.
“Yes but I still don’t—“
“Zacky call it mothers intuition or whatever but you’re head over heels for her, I can tell”
“Not you too Mom” I whined in the most unbecoming fashion.
“Don’t whine, not go take a shower and then bring me the after sun so I can put it on your
shoulders”
“I can do it myself” I grumbled.
“No you can’t, you’ll miss or forget and I’m not having you being on your man period for a
week while it heals up”
“Whatever” And then I stomped upstairs to my room to take a shower.
X-X-X
“Darcy can I talk to you for a minute?” I asked her, she was sitting with Connor and the rest of her friends, they intimidated me, not Connor, her friends, and they were a group of giggling teenage girls that were all looking at me like I was a piece of meat or something.
“Sure Zacky” She said grabbing her purse and standing up, Connor grabbed her arm and she
winced, I watched them carefully, he gave her a dark look that said there was a lot more to that conversation than what was actually being said out loud. I waited for her to be released and then we walked out of the cafeteria together.
“What was that?” I asked her
“What was what?”
“That! Him grabbing you like that”
“Oh nothing he’s just a bit… possessive sometimes, especially when you’re around” She said
“Why me?”
“Because I think he knows… that I like you”
“I’m sorry”
“I know”
“No really I am, I shouldn’t be the cause for you two fighting” I said
“We don’t fight… we have… discussions”
“Discussions… right”
“So what did you want to talk to me about?” She asked me as we walked down the hall.
“Oh yeah you gotta come to the recording studio” I said
“Did you finish it?”
“Almost, Johnny and I put the bass on this morning” I said pushing the door open for her.
She smiled a little bit and went inside. “So yeah it’s almost done” I gently pushed her down into the chair then remembering that bruise on her shoulder I stopped. That’s something, I had to ask Matt about that, he wouldn’t have dropped her; he’s not careless like that. “Okay put these on” I said placing the headphones over her ears, she giggled and it made me smile.
I logged into the computer and plugged in the USB, I opened up the player and started the track for her, I sat down next to her and tapped in a few things while she was listening to it, turning the volume up a little she listened to it quietly, then the bass part came in and she was away, lost in listening to it. She looked so cute with her eyes closed and her hands slowly tapping out the rhythm of the song. When it was over she removed the head phones and looked up at me with tears in her eyes.
“Why’re you crying?” I asked her, frowning, confused.
“Because no one’s ever taken so much time and put so much into something for me” She
laughed and wiped the tears away from her cheeks. I smiled and wiped away the one that she missed with the pad of my thumb. I meant to pull my hand away and go back to what we were doing but I got lost in her eyes again. My hand stayed on her cheek and I stayed there staring into her eyes. I couldn’t help it, I was just… stuck there. Her eyes are what got me.
“Zacky you don’t—“ But I cut her off, I kissed her. I kissed her hard, pushing my tongue into her mouth and cradling her face with my hands. I just couldn’t help it, I lost all rational mind and thought processes and just did it. And the butterflies that erupted in my stomach weren’t helping.
It also took me a second to realise that she was kissing me back, that she had her hands over mine and her tongue was with mine doing the tango. When we pulled away we were both breathing hard and staring at each other.
“Shit” I said.
“You’re an asshole” She said
“What?”
“You know how much I like you and you go and do that”
“Darcy what are you—“
“Don’t play with my feeling Zack, I know you don’t like me back”
“But I—“
“Save it” And then she got up and left
She left me sitting there, straddling the bench, confused as fuck . I didn’t know what the worst part was, maybe that she was so pissed at me now? No I know what the worst part was.
It was that they were all right.
4/20/13