Her grace can't save you now.
Twelve.
“So how’s it coming along?” Johnny asked me.
“It’s coming” I said immediately regretting my choice of words.
“Coming” Johnny giggled.
“Oh grow up” I said working with some things on the computer. “So yeah basically I need you to record the bass line for me” I said “It’s not too complicated and it wouldn’t take you that long” I said
“Yeah I’ll do it, I mean, you’ve already roped Jimmy into doing the drums” He laughed
“Hey he wanted to do it, I didn’t get the choice”
“Either way all we need now is Brian to play guitar alongside you”
“Yeah it could work, I’d have to work it in and lay it over the top somehow” I chewed my snake bite.
“So what does Darcy think of all this?”
“She said she likes what she’s heard so far”
“Not this, I meant you and her”
“There is no me and her” I said not directing my attention away from the computer screen.
“Zacky you and I both know that you like her, underneath that exterior your just as soft as she is, you like her, but you’re too afraid to admit it, and also, you’re scared”
“M’not scared of anything” I mumbled.
“You are, you’re scared that she’ll turn out like Rebekah”
“Why does everyone keep comparing Darcy to Rebekah! They’re nothing alike for one Darcy isn’t a whore and two I actually like spending time with her!” Johnny just gave me a look as if to say ‘ I told you so ’. I sighed and shook my head. “I said that I like spending time with her, I never said that I liked her”
“It’s not the fact that you said it Zack, it’s the fact that you are too afraid to admit that you like her back, you want to but you can’t because you’re stubborn and like I said before you’re scared”
“I’m not scared of anything” I said
“Except telling Darcy you like her”
“I don’t like her Johnny! I wish everybody would stop telling me that I do!”
“I’m not telling you that you do because I think you do Zack, I’m telling you because I knowyou do, Zacky why won’t you just tell her?”
I sighed and shook my head, I couldn’t bothered to argue with him about this, it was pointless and stressful.
“I’m not arguing with you about this Johnny, will you do this for me or am I going to have to find someone else to do it for me?”
“I’ll do it” He said “On one condition”
“What’s that”
“You tell Darcy you like her”
“I can’t lie to her”
“Lie to her or lie to yourself?”
***
I knocked on the door to my Dad’s office, before opening it and going inside.
“Zack” He smiled and spun around in his chair “What can I do for you?” I said in a very good New York accent. I laughed.
“Hi Dad” I said “I wanted to…talk to you about something”
“Have a seat” He said switching his computer screen off and giving me his full attention.
“What’s up son?”
“Well there’s this girl—“
“Say no more”
“No it’s not like that Dad”
“Go on”
“Well she told me about a month ago that she’s liked me since Sophmore year, and then she asked me to do the soundtrack for her final piece in the showcase. Well no actually she asked me to dance with her first because I could do the lifts but I told her I wasn’t a dancer and then Matt offered to do it cos’ he did it when he was younger. So I said I’d do the track for her and I am, but she kept on coming on to me, and then she kissed me, but she says that I like her too I just don’t realise it because I’m too stubborn and I don’t want to say anything to her because she has a boyfriend and also the guys reckon I don’t because I’m scared that it’ll end up like my last relationship” I finished.
“Who is this girl?”
“Darcy, Darcy Blue”
“Ah yes I know the girl, and her Father too, yes she’s very beautiful” I laughed.
“Yeah she is”
“So what’s stopping you? Other than the obvious boyfriend issue”
“I don’t like her back like that Dad, and I can’t date someone if I don’t return their feelings”
“I think you do like her”
“Oh God not you too”
“Let me finish, I think you like her back, but you just don’t know how to tell her this, and so you think that you don’t like her back”
“But if I did like her I’d tell her”
“I don’t think you would because you’ve spent so much time telling her that you haven’t”
“Dad you’re not helping”
“Just because I’m not telling you what you want me to”
I groaned and stood up, leaving the room, I heard him chuckle as I shut the door. I sighed and whistled for the dog; he came running and jumped up at me.
“Get down Tyson” I said ruffling his head. “C’mon I’ll take you out” I said grabbing his lead and hooking it to his collar. I walked with him for a while, just letting him take me where ever he wanted to go, so I didn’t realise where I was until I heard someone call my name. I turned around and saw Darcy, she was walking with a little beagle that was yapping and practically dislocating her arm in order to get to Tyson. She giggled and let her go to him.
“Hi Zacky” She said.
“Hey Darce, who’s this?” I asked crouching down so that the beagle could jump up at my knees.
“This is Lola” She said
“She’s cute” I said ruffling her ears. “Lola meet Tyson” I said as the sniffed each other curiously.
Tyson barked and ran suddenly, which pulled me closer to Darcy, and then in a circle so that the lead was wrapped around our legs.
“Sorry” I said trying to untangle us “He’s kind of stupid” I said
“It’s okay” She said looking up at me. She rested a hand on my cheek for a second, staring at me, I looked back at her, I didn’t want to admit it, but I did get lost in her eyes momentarily. But then Lola barked at Tyson and it broke my concentration.
“Sorry I need to uh… need to go”
“Zack don’t” She said “Look I’m sorry, I know you don’t… I’m sorry”
“It’s okay Darcy” I smiled at her and butted her forehead with my nose. She giggled and blushed. I ginned and felt warmth creep onto my cheeks as well. It took me a second to realise we were still very tightly pressed against each other by the leads of our dogs. So I took a moment to untangle myself and Darcy from Tyson and Lola’s leads before stepping back. I rubbed the back of my neck and laughed nervously. “I’ll uh… see you tomorrow?”
“Sure” She smiled, but then it faltered “Wait no, I’m… I’m rehearsing with Matt all day, the producers want to see what we’ve got so far so you can’t… watch” She said chewing her lip
“And then I… have a date with Connor” She said frowning. I nodded in understanding. But I
felt a little annoyed, not by the part with Matt, that was okay, but the fact Connor was taking her out, he was an asshole, I didn’t like him nor did I trust him, but I didn’t let it show.
“Okay well at some point anyway” I said, she nodded and waved a little before we both parted ways. The walk home left me with something to think about though, why did Connor piss me off so much?
“It’s coming” I said immediately regretting my choice of words.
“Coming” Johnny giggled.
“Oh grow up” I said working with some things on the computer. “So yeah basically I need you to record the bass line for me” I said “It’s not too complicated and it wouldn’t take you that long” I said
“Yeah I’ll do it, I mean, you’ve already roped Jimmy into doing the drums” He laughed
“Hey he wanted to do it, I didn’t get the choice”
“Either way all we need now is Brian to play guitar alongside you”
“Yeah it could work, I’d have to work it in and lay it over the top somehow” I chewed my snake bite.
“So what does Darcy think of all this?”
“She said she likes what she’s heard so far”
“Not this, I meant you and her”
“There is no me and her” I said not directing my attention away from the computer screen.
“Zacky you and I both know that you like her, underneath that exterior your just as soft as she is, you like her, but you’re too afraid to admit it, and also, you’re scared”
“M’not scared of anything” I mumbled.
“You are, you’re scared that she’ll turn out like Rebekah”
“Why does everyone keep comparing Darcy to Rebekah! They’re nothing alike for one Darcy isn’t a whore and two I actually like spending time with her!” Johnny just gave me a look as if to say ‘ I told you so ’. I sighed and shook my head. “I said that I like spending time with her, I never said that I liked her”
“It’s not the fact that you said it Zack, it’s the fact that you are too afraid to admit that you like her back, you want to but you can’t because you’re stubborn and like I said before you’re scared”
“I’m not scared of anything” I said
“Except telling Darcy you like her”
“I don’t like her Johnny! I wish everybody would stop telling me that I do!”
“I’m not telling you that you do because I think you do Zack, I’m telling you because I knowyou do, Zacky why won’t you just tell her?”
I sighed and shook my head, I couldn’t bothered to argue with him about this, it was pointless and stressful.
“I’m not arguing with you about this Johnny, will you do this for me or am I going to have to find someone else to do it for me?”
“I’ll do it” He said “On one condition”
“What’s that”
“You tell Darcy you like her”
“I can’t lie to her”
“Lie to her or lie to yourself?”
***
I knocked on the door to my Dad’s office, before opening it and going inside.
“Zack” He smiled and spun around in his chair “What can I do for you?” I said in a very good New York accent. I laughed.
“Hi Dad” I said “I wanted to…talk to you about something”
“Have a seat” He said switching his computer screen off and giving me his full attention.
“What’s up son?”
“Well there’s this girl—“
“Say no more”
“No it’s not like that Dad”
“Go on”
“Well she told me about a month ago that she’s liked me since Sophmore year, and then she asked me to do the soundtrack for her final piece in the showcase. Well no actually she asked me to dance with her first because I could do the lifts but I told her I wasn’t a dancer and then Matt offered to do it cos’ he did it when he was younger. So I said I’d do the track for her and I am, but she kept on coming on to me, and then she kissed me, but she says that I like her too I just don’t realise it because I’m too stubborn and I don’t want to say anything to her because she has a boyfriend and also the guys reckon I don’t because I’m scared that it’ll end up like my last relationship” I finished.
“Who is this girl?”
“Darcy, Darcy Blue”
“Ah yes I know the girl, and her Father too, yes she’s very beautiful” I laughed.
“Yeah she is”
“So what’s stopping you? Other than the obvious boyfriend issue”
“I don’t like her back like that Dad, and I can’t date someone if I don’t return their feelings”
“I think you do like her”
“Oh God not you too”
“Let me finish, I think you like her back, but you just don’t know how to tell her this, and so you think that you don’t like her back”
“But if I did like her I’d tell her”
“I don’t think you would because you’ve spent so much time telling her that you haven’t”
“Dad you’re not helping”
“Just because I’m not telling you what you want me to”
I groaned and stood up, leaving the room, I heard him chuckle as I shut the door. I sighed and whistled for the dog; he came running and jumped up at me.
“Get down Tyson” I said ruffling his head. “C’mon I’ll take you out” I said grabbing his lead and hooking it to his collar. I walked with him for a while, just letting him take me where ever he wanted to go, so I didn’t realise where I was until I heard someone call my name. I turned around and saw Darcy, she was walking with a little beagle that was yapping and practically dislocating her arm in order to get to Tyson. She giggled and let her go to him.
“Hi Zacky” She said.
“Hey Darce, who’s this?” I asked crouching down so that the beagle could jump up at my knees.
“This is Lola” She said
“She’s cute” I said ruffling her ears. “Lola meet Tyson” I said as the sniffed each other curiously.
Tyson barked and ran suddenly, which pulled me closer to Darcy, and then in a circle so that the lead was wrapped around our legs.
“Sorry” I said trying to untangle us “He’s kind of stupid” I said
“It’s okay” She said looking up at me. She rested a hand on my cheek for a second, staring at me, I looked back at her, I didn’t want to admit it, but I did get lost in her eyes momentarily. But then Lola barked at Tyson and it broke my concentration.
“Sorry I need to uh… need to go”
“Zack don’t” She said “Look I’m sorry, I know you don’t… I’m sorry”
“It’s okay Darcy” I smiled at her and butted her forehead with my nose. She giggled and blushed. I ginned and felt warmth creep onto my cheeks as well. It took me a second to realise we were still very tightly pressed against each other by the leads of our dogs. So I took a moment to untangle myself and Darcy from Tyson and Lola’s leads before stepping back. I rubbed the back of my neck and laughed nervously. “I’ll uh… see you tomorrow?”
“Sure” She smiled, but then it faltered “Wait no, I’m… I’m rehearsing with Matt all day, the producers want to see what we’ve got so far so you can’t… watch” She said chewing her lip
“And then I… have a date with Connor” She said frowning. I nodded in understanding. But I
felt a little annoyed, not by the part with Matt, that was okay, but the fact Connor was taking her out, he was an asshole, I didn’t like him nor did I trust him, but I didn’t let it show.
“Okay well at some point anyway” I said, she nodded and waved a little before we both parted ways. The walk home left me with something to think about though, why did Connor piss me off so much?
4/20/13