Her grace can't save you now.
Nine.
I was half stretched across the sofa, Brian was on the other one and Jimmy was on the floor, we were sitting in silence besides Jimmy who was giggling like a maniac.
“Seriously you should see you guy’s faces though” Jimmy laughed.
“Jimmy shut up” Brian mumbled, okay so the effects of the joints we’d shared were wearing off us, and we were coming down from the high, but Jimmy was still high as a fucking kite.
“Seriously Jim, be quiet my head is killing me now”
“Aww you two are no fun” He laughed “We should go get pizza” He said looking between the two of us. Now that I thought about it I was pretty hungry, so I nodded in agreement. “You coming Bri?” He asked.
“Nah I’m just gonna… chill here” He said yawning. I nodded and heaved myself up off the couch and grabbed my jacket, it was only a short walk to the pizza place so we left pretty quick. Jimmy was still laughing his head off as we entered the joint, earning some strange looks from other people.
“Dude shut up!” I elbowed him as we lined up to order. After we placed our order I stood back, leaning on the counter, looking around the room, then I noticed them in the back corner. She was here with Connor, I rolled my eyes and groaned, burying my face in my hands.
“What’s up Zack?” He asked me as we took our orders.
“Darcy’s over there with Connor, so we’re gonna go now” I said taking the box from his hands, he whined and made grabby hands for it “Leave now and you get your pizza” I said nodding towards the door, he huffed and stomped out of the pizza place. I reached to door and opened it by walking backward into it, and that’s when she chose to look up. She saw me and her gaze lingered on mine before her attention moved back to her boyfriend who was sitting across from her, from what I could hear he sounded annoyed. I hope he wasn’t giving her shit about anything.
***
“Okay so what did you do after that” Brian asked around a mouthful of pizza.
“I told you! Nothing! Because we left!”
“Damn Zacky’s got it bad” He laughed.
“Got what bad?”
“You like her”
“No I don’t”
“Yes you do”
“I don’t!”
“You do Zack, you’re just in denial, and you don’t want to admit that fact that you’re still sore about your relationship with Rebekah”
“Kindly don’t mention that whores name in my house”
“See, I told you” Jimmy said taking a drink.
“Jimmy shut up” I said
“Just admit that you like her and be done with it” Brian said
“I don’t like her!”
“Fucking hell, grow a pair Zack, get over it, you don’t have to tell her that you do, but just admit to us, your best friends that you like this girl”
“I can’t, because I don’t, so I won’t lie”
“You’re lying by saying you don’t like her”
“Shut up”
“Stop telling me to shut up, you know that you like her Zack, and stop being an idiot and tell her that before she really does become the one that got away”
“Get out” I said
“What?”
“Both of you get out, I don’t need this from you”
“Fucking fine, call us when you grow some balls” Brian fumed, getting up and slamming out of the house, Jimmy looked hesitant to leave, but when he did he looked back a lot, his expression confused and hurt.
Which left me alone with my own thoughts, they keep telling me to tell her that I like her back, but the issue here is that I don’t like her back in the way that she likes me. Yeah she’s nice, her temper gets the better of her sometimes, but she has the ability to light up the room when she walks in, and she’s hot, okay Darcy is beautiful, any guy would be stupid not to notice that, and she’s a dancer, which makers her graceful, but I just don’tfeel that way towards her.
And then I got thinking about Rebekah, which hurt. A lot. She cheated on me with three different guys, each time lying to my face about it and then telling me that it wouldn’t happen again, and the problem was that the whole time she was telling me that she loved me and that
I was the only guy she wanted to be with, which was all just really a humungous pack of lies. I doubt she even remembers my name now to be honest, but she’s the reason I’m too afraid to love anyone else, to even get close to another girl because I’m afraid that she’ll hurt me just like Rebekah did.
But then this was Darcy, and I don’t think that she would do that to me. Too bad I didn’t like her back, right?
“Seriously you should see you guy’s faces though” Jimmy laughed.
“Jimmy shut up” Brian mumbled, okay so the effects of the joints we’d shared were wearing off us, and we were coming down from the high, but Jimmy was still high as a fucking kite.
“Seriously Jim, be quiet my head is killing me now”
“Aww you two are no fun” He laughed “We should go get pizza” He said looking between the two of us. Now that I thought about it I was pretty hungry, so I nodded in agreement. “You coming Bri?” He asked.
“Nah I’m just gonna… chill here” He said yawning. I nodded and heaved myself up off the couch and grabbed my jacket, it was only a short walk to the pizza place so we left pretty quick. Jimmy was still laughing his head off as we entered the joint, earning some strange looks from other people.
“Dude shut up!” I elbowed him as we lined up to order. After we placed our order I stood back, leaning on the counter, looking around the room, then I noticed them in the back corner. She was here with Connor, I rolled my eyes and groaned, burying my face in my hands.
“What’s up Zack?” He asked me as we took our orders.
“Darcy’s over there with Connor, so we’re gonna go now” I said taking the box from his hands, he whined and made grabby hands for it “Leave now and you get your pizza” I said nodding towards the door, he huffed and stomped out of the pizza place. I reached to door and opened it by walking backward into it, and that’s when she chose to look up. She saw me and her gaze lingered on mine before her attention moved back to her boyfriend who was sitting across from her, from what I could hear he sounded annoyed. I hope he wasn’t giving her shit about anything.
***
“Okay so what did you do after that” Brian asked around a mouthful of pizza.
“I told you! Nothing! Because we left!”
“Damn Zacky’s got it bad” He laughed.
“Got what bad?”
“You like her”
“No I don’t”
“Yes you do”
“I don’t!”
“You do Zack, you’re just in denial, and you don’t want to admit that fact that you’re still sore about your relationship with Rebekah”
“Kindly don’t mention that whores name in my house”
“See, I told you” Jimmy said taking a drink.
“Jimmy shut up” I said
“Just admit that you like her and be done with it” Brian said
“I don’t like her!”
“Fucking hell, grow a pair Zack, get over it, you don’t have to tell her that you do, but just admit to us, your best friends that you like this girl”
“I can’t, because I don’t, so I won’t lie”
“You’re lying by saying you don’t like her”
“Shut up”
“Stop telling me to shut up, you know that you like her Zack, and stop being an idiot and tell her that before she really does become the one that got away”
“Get out” I said
“What?”
“Both of you get out, I don’t need this from you”
“Fucking fine, call us when you grow some balls” Brian fumed, getting up and slamming out of the house, Jimmy looked hesitant to leave, but when he did he looked back a lot, his expression confused and hurt.
Which left me alone with my own thoughts, they keep telling me to tell her that I like her back, but the issue here is that I don’t like her back in the way that she likes me. Yeah she’s nice, her temper gets the better of her sometimes, but she has the ability to light up the room when she walks in, and she’s hot, okay Darcy is beautiful, any guy would be stupid not to notice that, and she’s a dancer, which makers her graceful, but I just don’tfeel that way towards her.
And then I got thinking about Rebekah, which hurt. A lot. She cheated on me with three different guys, each time lying to my face about it and then telling me that it wouldn’t happen again, and the problem was that the whole time she was telling me that she loved me and that
I was the only guy she wanted to be with, which was all just really a humungous pack of lies. I doubt she even remembers my name now to be honest, but she’s the reason I’m too afraid to love anyone else, to even get close to another girl because I’m afraid that she’ll hurt me just like Rebekah did.
But then this was Darcy, and I don’t think that she would do that to me. Too bad I didn’t like her back, right?
4/20/13