The Visions Left Inside Me Are Slowly Fading

**Savannah’s POV**

I couldn’t believe it had been two weeks since meeting Austin and yet tonight, was going to be our first date. He seriously reminded me of Jimmy in the way he looked at me. His beautiful blue eyes almost seemed to look through my soul. We had met again since the beach, there was one day that I was shopping along the pier and there he was; it just seemed like it was right to act on it. So I gave him my number, and after a week of texting back and forth almost constantly we were going out tonight, drinking and having dinner.

“Mommy, Mommy!” Landon came running into my room.

“Hey baby, what you doing?” I asked as I picked him up and held him on my hip.

“Getting ready to go with Aunt Tenney and Lyric, we’re gonna go to uncle Brian and Aunt Ember’s to see baby Damon,” Landon said animatedly. “We’re gonna go swimming, and cook burgers, and…” I kind of zoned out, it was times like these when Landon would go off on a tangent that Jimmy’s personality came through. I wish he was here to see Landon grow… “Mom you’re not paying attention to me.”

Landon was staring at me, huffing and his arms were crossed over his chest. I had to fight back a chuckle, “I am listening baby, it sounds like a lot of fun. You’ll have to tell the baby hello for me.”

Landon nodded and hugged me tightly, “I love you mommy.”

This was the kid that made my heart melt, “I love you too sweetheart. Go have a good time, okay?” He nodded and got down before running out the door.

I shook my head as I looked back into the mirror smiling, I couldn’t decide if this was the dress I wanted to wear. It was a blue sundress, had beautiful beading over parts of it, and a white flower pattern over the skirt. I looked over my shoulder in my closet, and that’s when it caught my eyes. One of the first outfits that I’d worn when I first went out with Jimmy. It as a black halter with a green miniskirt styled in a dress. It was almost like a cocktail dress, but had the casual feel to it. I took a deep breath then decided to change for good luck.

Thirty minutes later, I was alone in the house. Tennessee and Zacky had taken the boys to Brian and Ember’s for a small impromptu cook out. Matt apparently had some news, and decided that they should all meet up over there. While I had been invited, I had decided not to bail on my date with Austin. I was awoken from my thoughts of what Matt was gonna say when the doorbell rang.

I went over and opened the door, there stood Austin, holding a single red rose. “Hey,” I smiled at him, I could almost feel my heart flutter. This guy after just a week had me so close to falling for him it was un real. I felt like a teenager again.

“Wow, Savannah you look absolutely gorgeous,” Austin smiled at me looking me up and down. His eyes landing on my legs which were exposed from my mid thigh to my knee before being covered again by leather knee high boots.

I blushed, “Thank-you Austin,” I took the rose that he was offering and smelled it, “Mmm….how’d you know I love red roses?” I walked back towards the kitchen and slipped it into a vase then filled the vase with water.

“I took a guess,” he flashed his gorgeous smile at me. “Shall we?” He motioned towards the door and offered me a hand.

“We shall,” I giggled and took his hand, and grabbed my clutch that had my keys before locking up and heading out.

**Ember’s POV**

I stretched out like a kitty cat, pressing myself up against Brian. We had decided to nap while Damon did before the barbeque, I couldn’t help but smile as I watched Brian sleep. I picked up my hand to brush his hair off his forehead when our son began crying, signaling he was up from his nap.

I felt Brian shift and tense as he opened his eyes, “I’ll get him.” He said softly, still waking up.

I smiled and kissed his cheek, “It’s okay Bri, I got him.” I straddled his hips as I went to get off the bed to Damon’s cradle. Brian playfully gripped my hips and pressed up into me, “hmmmm I like this position.”

I blushed and playfully hit his chest as I giggled, “Stop, you don’t want to teach your son such things so early.”

“He’s only a month old,” Brian groaned. “He wouldn’t know,” he pouted at me.

I giggled and shook my head, “Hi baby, did you sleep well?” I slowly lifted Damon up gently bouncing him to calm him.

I took him to the nursery and put him down on the changing table, grabbing a new diaper and some wipes. I had started to change him, when I felt Brian come up behind me and wrap his arms around my waist, nuzzling my neck. “Daddy’s being silly, isn’t he,” I asked Damon as I bit my lip.

Damon, of course was smiling, and I swear I saw a hint of the same smirk that Brian currently had on his face. “Sooo, mommy, once little man goes to bed tonight…wanna have some fun?”

I giggled and pressed my ass back against him teasingly and heard him gasp then proceeded to change diapers. “Tell Daddy, we always have fun. But Mommy would love adult time.” I finished reclasping the onesie buttons and handed the dirty diaper to Brian, before taking Damon over to the rocking chair in the corner. “Will you grab me a light blanket, so I can feed him?”

Brian nodded, “You know you don’t have to cover up in our own home.”

I smiled, “I know I don’t, but Simone and Matt should be here soon and I don’t really want Matt watching me breast feed.”

Brian immediately went to the baby closet and grabbed me a light blanket, “Very true, sorry for questioning.”

Almost on cue there was the doorbell, “I’ll get that,” Brian smiled and leaned down, kissing me then Damon’s head. “Enjoy little man.”

I chuckled and shook my head, picking up the pillow that we kept that was shaped like a ‘C’ that helped Damon keep balanced while he ate. A couple minutes later there was a knock and Simone entered the room. “Hey Mama,” she smiled at me.

I grinned, “Hey sexy.” I winced slightly knowing I’d waited too long to feed him or pump.

“He really going to town?” She nodded towards the blanket.

I laughed, “Yeah, I don’t know how you did it with twins, I have to alternate every feeding.”

She chuckled, “I pumped, it was easier than having sore tits.”

“That’s a good idea, I’ll have to start pumping. So what’s the big news Mattie has?”

“Well, he asked me not to say anything…but they’re looking at setting up a tour for a couple weeks, just to promote new songs and play a couple festivals,” Simone said, clearly not the most thrilled about this upcoming tour.

“Oh,” I said a little disappointed. I had atleast hoped that they’d wait a little longer to let the new parents get more acquainted with their little ones and get more adjusted to parent life. But I also understood that the band came first and that’s what was important.

When Damon was finished feeding, we made our way out to the backlawn where we were met with lots of hoots and hollers. The boys coming up and wanting to see Damon and the twins who were in the pack and play. Damon was passed around between everyone and anyone until he got annoyed. Then he only wanted to be with Mommy or Daddy; of course I pawned him off on Brian a little, knowing the news that was still being hidden and still not being happy about it.

**Austin’s POV**

The next morning, I woke up to see sunlight flooding into the room, I was in Savannah’s house. Fuck I hadn’t planned on getting drunk enough to fuck her. That wasn’t supposed to happen…it just kind of happened. It made the plan a bit more reliable though…she was one of those girls that would get attached easily. And of course we all know that I’m definitely a god in bed. You can ask Ember.

I slowly detached myself from her and wrote a note blowing smoke about having to work, really I was going to go keep an eye on that whore Ember. Make sure she was behaving, but Savannah could never know my true identity…Not until it was time.

I stroked her face gently before leaving, fuck why was I feeling these feelings, there’s no way I could fall for her. I needed to finish this, she couldn’t be a distraction. She would NOT become a distraction. I just had to keep the façade up a little longer…just long enough to make her believe her son was safe with me. Soon.

Notes

Hey guys, sorry it's been awhile....my mom is having some health issues. She has surgery and a biopsy tomorrow...so I don't know when I'll get another chapter up. But I do have this story planned out, we got about 7 more chapters before the big finish. Thank-you guys for your patience and understanding. Love you all.