Matt I don't know what got into me earlier, but seeing Lil asleep cuddled up to Jason made me incredibly angry. I didn't even realize how rude I was to him until the words had already come out of my mouth. Jason was my friend, I loved that fucker. He should've known better than to do that though...right?

I pushed those thoughts into the back of my head, and focused on the show. It wasn't as good as it could've been, I was way too distracted. Zacky kept fucking up parts he's already perfected, and Jimmy was busy using Jen as his personal waitress.

I was just looking forward to our little party in the bus, and hopefully this one won't end like the last party did. Maybe, I could finally get some alone time with Lil and get to know her better.

I sat on the couch next to Brian and he handed me a beer. "Tonight's gonna be kickass." He chuckled and looked at Johnny who was standing in the kitchen, "When the girls get here, lock the door. We don't want Jen to run off again."

Johnny threw his head back and laughed. "We won't have to worry about that as long as Zee behaves."

"You think they're gonna actually come?" I asked and Brian shrugged. "Well, they didn't agree to it yet, but Jimmy is in their bus right now probably throwing a fit."

"Yeah, there's no way Jen would agree to this without being forced by her big buddy." Johnny teased and I chuckled taking a sip out of my beer.

"If she says no, do you think Lil would still come over?" I asked again, damn, I sounded like a desperate little bitch!

Before anyone could answer, Jimmy burst through the door, towing our two new roadies along with him. "The party is here!" He screamed cheerfully and Lil was laughing behind him.

That smile..fuck. I studied her appearance, and as always, I was happy with what I saw. She looked sexy as hell, and I planned on letting her know that in more ways than one. Jimmy forced us to scoot over and squeezed his way onto the couch.

Lil sat down at the table adjacent to me and I smirked at her when we made eye contact. She rolled her eyes with a grin on her face and I just winked at her in return. "Let's get this party started!" Jason said as he emerged from the outside with the rest of the crew.

Johnny started to toss out drinks to everyone and it started to get louder and more cramped in the bus. Everyone started to spread out throughout the bus, so I took the opportunity to pull Lil aside.

"Hey, beautiful." I whispered in her ear. She pulled away from me with a smile and I took her hand. "Follow me."

I led her to the back of the bus towards the lounge and we sat down on the couches back there. She smiled at me and took another sip of her beer. "What's up, mister rockstar?"

"I just wanted to talk to you alone.." I started and smiled at her. "I thought we could get to know each other. Maybe play 20 questions."

Lil frowned slightly and I decided to take control. "I need to know about my employees, you know. So, what's your last name?" I asked and she bit her lip a little bit. Damn, that was kinda hot.

"Jackson." She said after a quick pause then smiled at me. "What's yours?"

"Sanders, what did you do before you were a roadie?"

Lil chuckled a little then answered. "I was a waitress at some shitty little bar. What made you want to start a band?"

"I've just always wanted to do this, it's something I love and I get to do it with the people I love." I rambled on and Lil smiled at me. "You know, when you're not trying to get in someone's pants, you're actually really a good guy."

"Well, I try. What's something you've always wanted to do?" I asked her and she sat up in her seat. "I've always wanted a kickass tattoo, you know? Something badass that I could see everyday and just love forever."

"Really?" Lil nodded and I smirked. "Maybe I can help you with that. Where would you want it?"
"On my back would be cool." Lil said then turned away from me and pulled up her shirt. "Like, right here." She pointed out a part in between her shoulder blades and I put my hand on it.

"Here?" I asked and Lil nodded.

I let my hand linger for a moment, her skin was so warm and soft, and I so desperately wanted to be the one to leave love bites on her bare back. Just the thought of it was getting me excited. I pulled away and smiled at her.

"Well, as you can see, I love getting tattoos. I'll make sure you're in good hands." I stated and Lil looked super excited. "That's awesome! Thanks so much!" She exclaimed and hugged me.

Normally, Lil wouldn't have done this. But right now, she was a little tipsy. So, I just savored the moment while I could. I knew Lil wanted to stay friends and nothing more, but I wanted something different.

"You could get the band's logo, it's pretty badass." I said as she pulled away from me. "Nothing says loyal roadie like getting your band permanently etched into my skin." She joked and I laughed.

"How could you not want my band on your skin? I'd love to be on your skin." I teased and she shoved me away playfully.

"Ha ha, very funny." Lil said sarcastically.

I studied her appearance once more and grinned at her. "You know, you look really sexy."

"It's a gift and a curse." Lil said with a snobby tone and I chuckled. "You don't look too bad yourself, boss."

I scooted closer to her. "Did you know, I was secretly hoping you'd say yes to the job since day one?"

"Really?" Lil looked amused and my eyes fell down to her lips. "Yeah, I would've been so disappointed if you turned it down." I scooted in a little closer and Lil suddenly noticed how close I was to her.

"Me too." She said softly, chewing on her lip. I could feel her breath on my face and I smirked.

She looked up at me and her breath hitched as I slowly pressed my lips against hers. She tasted so bitter sweet, and knowing how bad it was that we were doing this made it so much better. Lil kissed back for a moment, then suddenly pushed me away and ran off, leaving me alone to think about what had just happened.

Jen As always, I wasn't in a good mood. I wasn't even happy we agreed to the job, and here we are having another party. I just wanted to go to sleep.

"Jen?" I heard Jimmy ask. "You there?"

I looked at him and frowned. "Sorry Jimmy, I zoned out."

"That's fine, I was just saying that I have a theory!" He said excitedly and I shook my head at him. "And what's that?"

"You told me you hate parties, and you don't drink. Maybe if you had a couple drinks you would like the party!" Jimmy tried to make his statement sound logical but I just laughed.

"No thanks, I'm good." Jimmy started to whine and I groaned. "If you have at least two drinks, I'll let you go back to your own bus and you can go to bed!"

I paused for a moment and thought to myself, stay sober and deal with this party all night or brave just two drinks and go to bed?

"Alright, fine." I agreed reluctantly and Jimmy grinned.

"Finally! Now I can show you how we really party!" He exclaimed then jumped up to go get me a drink.

I know that I'll ultimately regret this, but honestly, a drink is the only thing that will get me through the night. I looked around and saw a lot of people I didn't recognize, they must be some of the other bands here to just hang out.

I noticed Zacky sitting in the corner with Johnny. I couldn't help but think about what happened before the show. He stopped me and told me he didn't mean to hurt my feelings the way he did and I appreciated that. For some reason, I didn't tell him that.

I didn't know why, or what possessed me to insult him again and walk off. What I do know, is that I liked having him hold my hand. And I liked him making an effort to be nice to me. It made me happy. I didn't understand it, and I didn't want to. I just want to forget everything I was thinking about in that moment.

He was just some dumb guy. Some asshole who I didn't even like. He's been rude to me since day one, and it was clear we didn't like each other from the start. For me to suddenly feel differently would be just stupid. But for some reason, I couldn't stop thinking about it.

Jimmy came back and reclaimed his seat, handing me a solo cup filled with some type of alcohol. I scrunched my nose in disgust and looked up at him. "What is this?"

"Don't worry, you'll like it." He said and I took a small sip. "I made it so it's not super strong, and it tastes good."

"It's alright.." I trailed off and had a little more. Jimmy laughed a little and patted my back. "You'll learn to love it. You will, as long as you're with me."

I looked back in Zacky's direction and saw him staring at me. He had this weird look on his face, like he was surprised. He made eye contact with me and gave me an awkward smile. I simply turned back around and set my drink down.

"It's pretty strong, I don't know what you were talking about." I said and Jimmy grinned. "Maybe I'm just too used to alcohol."

I shook my head at him and he tried my drink. "I could've made that a little bit better. My bad."

I shrugged it off. "It's not a big deal, I'll just make my next one."

We talked for a little more, I mostly listened to Jimmy's crazy stories. He started to tell me a story about him in Amsterdam and I couldn't help but laugh. "You know, Matt Berry told me that story when I first met him. I guess you're the one who killed that pigeon."

"Those damn pigeons! They trust humans way too much!" He shouted and laughed wildly. "And I got fucking maced 'cuz of that stupid bird!"

"I'll go get us more to drink." I said and stood up, heading towards the fridge.

I got really dizzy when I stood up but pushed through it until it passed. I was starting to get slightly buzzed. I don't ever drink, so I was a total lightweight. In the back of my mind, a second drink was a bad idea, but I just wanted to get it over with and go to bed.

At least, that's what I kept telling myself.

I stood in front of all these different bottles and rubbed my temples. I have no idea how to mix drinks, or what is best alone, or anything like that. I remember seeing my old 'friends' drink all the time, and how they always liked to drink whiskey, so I just poured two cups of it and walked back to where I was sitting.

"I don't know what I'm doing, let's just hope it doesn't taste like shit." I laughed a little and Jimmy winked at me with a cheesy grin. "Bottom's up."

He threw his head back and started to chug his drink, and I just stared at him in horror. "What the hell?"

"What? It's just whiskey, it's like a big shot!" He exclaimed after finishing the whole thing. He was getting really drunk, I could tell because his face was getting super red and shiny and he had bloodshot eyes. "Try it, it's fun!"

"I don't know..I've already had a lot to drink." I trailed off and Jimmy just waved it off. "It's okay, if you get too drunk I won't just ditch you. I'll help you get through it, I'm your friend!"

I looked into my cup and sighed. The quicker I drink this, the quicker I can leave. I raised it to my lips and tried to chug it like Jimmy did. I got through about half of it before choking up and coughing up a lung. I could hear Jimmy laugh and I cleared my throat. It fucking burned and tasted like shit.

"You did pretty good for a beginner." He said and I grimaced. "Why didn't you tell me it tasted so bad?"

"It's an acquired taste."

I rolled my eyes and, somehow, managed to finish off my drink. I felt the blood rushing to my head and groaned. I looked up at Jimmy and he smiled at me.

"You pushed through it, I can take you back to your bunk now." He said softly and I nodded my head.

I felt like crap, and I knew it'd be worse tomorrow. But at least I can finally get out of here. Jimmy helped me onto my feet and led me out of the bus. I kept stumbling into him and he wrapped his arm around my shoulder to help hold me up.

I honestly thought I'd throw up all over myself. Jimmy opened the door to the other bus and helped me inside.

"I can take it from here, thanks." I said with a small smile and he patted my back. "Goodnight my little drunk."

I laughed a little and said goodnight, then shut the door and groaned. This is exactly why I don't drink. My head is pounding and I feel miserable. I headed back towards the bunks when I heard the door open again.

"Did you need something, Jimmy?" I asked, slowly turning around. "Oh."

Zacky was standing by the door, just staring at me, and I started to feel uneasy. "What are you doing here?" I spat at him and he shrugged.

"I know Jimmy, when he gets drunk he gets sloppy. I just wanted to make sure you made it back alright." Zacky said and I scoffed. "Well, I'm fine. You can leave now."

He stared at me with a blank face and I started to feel bad. I was being such a bitch to him, I didn't even know why. "Are you going to sleep?" He asked and cut my eyes up at him.

"Why does it matter to you?" I asked, my voice dripping with venom. He shrugged again and I groaned loudly.

"Well, we're gonna have to deal with each other for the next couple of weeks. I figured we might as well get to know each other, maybe you'll stop hating me." Zacky said and I rolled my eyes. "Yeah, like that'll happen."

"I'm serious, Dreadlocks."

I walked over and sat down on the couch while watching him watch me. "That's not my name, you know my name. If you want me to pretend to not be a bitch, pretend to not be an asshole."

He pulled up a chair and sat across from me, still clutching his drink from the party. After a small moment of silence, he spoke up. "When I give you alcohol you freak out, but when Jimmy gives you alcohol you love it. I think that's funny."

"Maybe I just like him better than you." I hissed and his face changed for a moment. "So, do you have any siblings?"

I stared at him in silence. Does he think he gets to just waltz in here and I'm going to tell him my life story? I decided to give him the benefit of the doubt and as Lil would say, 'play nice'. "Yeah, a sister. What about you." I said dryly and he smirked. I hated that stupid grin of his.

"I've got a brother and a sister." Zacky leaned forward in his seat, setting his elbows on his knees. "How long have you known Lil?"

"A couple years." I lied and he bought it. "Why are you asking me all these questions?"

"Have you ever been with anyone before?" He continued, ignoring me. I glared at him and he laughed at me. "Lighten up, I'm just trying to have a good time."

"Maybe I want to just go to bed, Zack." I spat and he crossed his arms. "You can sleep, but that doesn't mean I'm leaving the bus."

I laughed at his attempt to annoy me and stood up on wobbly feet. He suddenly sat right up in his chair and he stared at me. "That's no skin off my back, goodnight." I griped and walked away.

I climbed into my bunk and closed the curtain, trying to get some rest. I'd hoped Zacky would leave, but instead he turned the radio on full blast, at some sort of attempt to annoy me. I pulled my pillow over my head and groaned, this was not helping my headache.

I looked out of my bunk and threw one of my pillows in his direction, hearing it knock something over and Zacky laughing over the music. I tried my best to ignore him, and after what felt like hours, I finally found some sleep.

Notes

Oooh Matt made a move on Lil!
It didn't go quite as planned though, did it?
What will Lil think of this?
And Jen let Zacky know a few things about her, was that a good idea?
Mr. Vengeance is still teasing Jen, when will he stop?!
Stay tuned and enjoy, loves!

-a7x_deathbats6661 <3