Save Me I'm Tripped In A Vile World

Brian pov
I wake up not remembering much from last night. Due to the fact my addiction took over again. I notice a girl is in my arms. 'Great Lily is going to be pissed off about this.' I groan and push her off of me.
"What the fuck you dick." I hear in a whisper. My eyes widen and I flip her over. 'What did I do? Zacky is going to kill me.'
"Lily?!' I whisper freaking out.
"Brian." She smiles and sit up next to me.
"What happen last night?!"
"Well you were flirting with a girl and me and her got into a fight. I ran out and you came after me. One thing left to another." She whisper looking down.
"Did I force you?" I ask looking at her.
"No I wanted it. Don't worry Zacky won't find out." She sigh and start to cry.
"Hey what's wrong?!" I ask holding her hand but her being a stubborn ass she pull away.
"Since you don't remember you told me you still loved me!" She scream getting out of bed. Before she can walk away fully I pull her back toward me. She land in my lap. "Let me go Brian!" She scream trying to get up."
"Listen to me baby girl I do love you. I love you so much I don't want to hurt you!"
"Well ignoring me hurt me even more." She cry looking at me.
"Your brother doesn't want us together. He knows I will hurt you. I will end up hurting you!"
"I don't give a fuck about what Zacky think! Brian I love you and want to be with you. Seeing you with whores hurt me so much."
"I'm sorry I do love you. I love you so much that I'm willing to let you go to live a life without me."
"This is bullshit!" She scream getting off of me. "Why not give it a try?"
"Was I rough last night?" I ask looking into her eyes.
"Not really to be honest it felt like amazing. You think you are rough with me but you treat me like a queen. Please Brian give us a try if we don't work out then we will call it quits."
"You need to know I can't control my addiction and it need to be taken care of. Now come here and cuddle me." I growl still tired
"I understand the addiction but if you boss me around I will beat you." She smiles getting into bed. "Now let me go back to bed. Your bed is the most comfortable." She groan and pull the blanket toward her.
"If you are sleeping in my bed you are sharing the dam blankets." I laugh pulling her toward me with the blankets. She lay her head on my chest.
"Go back to bed." She whisper cuddling up to me.
"Fine I love you." I kiss her head.
"I love you too."

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