Save Me I'm Tripped In A Vile World

Lily pov
It's been a few months since me and Brian talked about just being friends. Ever since then he have been distant toward me. It break my heart because deep down I know I'm in love with him. I've been spending more time with Zack and Matt. Matt is like my best friend, we spend everyday together and just talk about life. They got me a job at their studio, I take calls and boring stuff like that. It's beyond boring but it the first step of starting an actually life. Today my day off and I'm just going to lay in bed then later go out with Matt and Jimmy. I check my phone and see I have time to get ready and time to eat. I walk out of my room and to the bathroom. I open the door and see Brian naked stepping out of the shower.
"Oh hey Bri I'm so sorry I didn't see you." I blush and close the door.
"It's okay Lily I'm just going to grab a towel and get out okay?" He say wrapping himself up in a towel. He start to head to the door. I look at him and bite my lip. I just stare at his body as he walk out of the bathroom. I get undress hopping in the shower. I wash my hair and body. After my shower I wrap myself in a towel walking out of the bathroom.
"Oh Lily!" I hear Brian say in a deep husky voice. I walk past Brian room and notice he didn't shut the door all the way. I peep my hand in and see he is touching himself.
"Oh my god Brian!" I yell and run to my room. I lock the door and walk into my closet. I pick out my outfit making sure a dress. I do my hair and makeup.
"Hey Lil let me in!" I hear Matt yell as he pound on my door. I open the door and look at him. "You okay?" I shake my head no and shut the door after he walk in. "What happen?!" "Something happen with Brian?"
"Yes" I whisper and look at Matt as he sit on my bed.
"What happen?!" He ask looking at me kinda angry like Brian did something bad to me.
"I went to use the shower and I walked in on Brian. He was fully naked and then I heard a sound coming from his room and he was jerking off. I seen everything Matt."
"Oh god are you okay?"
"Just having mix feelings I guess." I sigh and look at him.
"What are these feeling about?"
"I still have feelings for him but then again I wanna stab him in his pretty face for being so distant and bringing other girls around and clearly being a dick to me."
"Have you tried talking to him about it?" Matt ask patting the bed for me to sit. I sit down by him kinda close.
"Well of course but he won't talk to me." I sigh and look at him.
"It's going to be okay want me to beat his ass?"
"Nah love I will try and talk to him tonight before he find a girl." I smile and look into Matt hazel eyes.
"What are you looking at?" He smiles and pull me into his lap.
"You just have really pretty eyes."
"So do you." He smile and tuck my hair behind my ear. I lean in close and look at him.
"You smell really good."
"Thank you love." He smiles and kisses my head. "So I have a question."
"I may have answers." I say in a giggle.
"Is Zacky still seeing that one guy?"
"No why?" I smile and see him blush.
"I may have a crush on him." He whisper and looks up at me. I smile so big and scream
"I FUCKING KNEW IT MOTHER FUCKER!"
"Woah calm down! I think I'm going to ask him out tonight."
"That makes me so happy! I ship it so hard!" I laugh and jump off of him.
"Yeah and I also ship you and Brian!" Matt laugh and looks at me.
"Well that ship will never help, Brian only care about one thing now. And that's sex he used to care about me when he saved me but now that I can do things on my own he only care about sex." I sigh and look at Matt. "I just wish he would return to the guy he was before Zacky had to fuck everything up!"
"It's going to be okay! Once Brian stop thinking with his cock you and him will be together!"
"Maybe you are right. So are we meeting everyone there?"
"Yeah are you ready?" He ask cocking an eyebrow back.
"Yeah I'm ready don't be a dick." I smile and get up. I put my shoes on I look at Matt. "Let's go get fucked up!"
The car ride was very short I get out of Matt car and notice Brian is already at the bar. I walk in with the guys and find a table I sigh and see Brian is already with two girls. I try not to bust out in tears. I just stare at him heartbroken he won't even talk to me. I notice Jimmy is looking at me.
"What's wrong?" He ask pulling me close to him.
"Why does he do this to me?!" I cry and hug him tightly. He hold on to me and smiles.
"It's going to be alright love. Just have fun with me tonight! I will get you drunk as fuck!"
"Alright I will try." I smile and take a shot of whiskey. "Thanks Jimmy Jay!"
"Where is Matt and Zacky?"
"Matt is finally asking him out!"
"Are you serious!!"
"Yes!" I laugh and take another shot.
"Good thank Fucking god!" He smiles and take a shot. I look at Brian with his girls and sigh as one looks at me. She walk over to me and smiles.
"Do you have a problem?!" She yell getting in my face.
"N-no I don't." I start to shake some.
"Why are you looking at us??"
"I'm n-not!" I stutter and look away from her.
"Good that what I thought!" She slap me and pour her drink on me. Rage take over making me get up as she walk away. I turn her around and punch her hard. I start to get a flashback of my dad beating me. I tackle her down and start beating the shit out of her. Jimmy and Brian try to pull me off but I keep beating her.
"Stupid fucking bitch!" I scream as they finally get me off.
"Jimmy you go make sure the cops aren't called! I will take her outside!" Brian throw me over his shoulders and take me outside. He take me to the ally and put me down.
"What the fuck is wrong with you?!" He ask looking at me.
"She slapped me and I put that slut in her place!" I growl looking up at him. "What the fuck is wrong with you?"
"What do you mean?!"
"Every since we talked about being friends you left me. Won't talk to me and when you do you are a fucking dick!" I scream and slap him.
"Because I might hurt you! I'm still fucking in love with you! But I also want to fuck you like crazy!" He growl showing the lust in his eyes "I know you liked what you saw earlier."
"That's not the point! You broke my heart. Brought whores to the house! Walls are thin asshole!" I scream and slap him hard. He pin my hands growing. He kisses me hard and let go of my hands, I wrap my arms around him and kiss back.
"I love you Lily and I don't want to hurt you, remember I have a fucking addiction I have to feed it."
"I love you too Brian and I believe you won't hurt me." I smile and hold on to him. "You seen what I did to that slut!"

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