My Stockholm Love

Why did I have to fuck everything up? Life was pretty fucking fantastic before they turned up in my shop. Fuck, my shop... Emmett.... I thought as I laid in the bed confused. Zacky has this hold over me, I can't even explain it but it's like he's got me bewitched.

I decided that I should probably go and talk to them. I mean maybe I could make a run for it while they're sleeping. Then I can sell the shop and house, get away from this town all together.

I got dressed and walked out into the kitchen where all the guys were sitting around a table laughing, obviously higher than a kite. Johnny noticed me, "well look who decided to finally grace us with her presence" he giggled. Jimmy's eyes shot up to mine and he smiled warmly.

I walked warily over to the table and took a seat at the only open chair, which happened to be in between Jimmy and Zacky. "We leave next week" Zacky said as he grabbed the bottle of vodka. He had no remorse for what he has done to me.

I felt like a dog on a chain, unable to leave, always being told what to do. "I am not helping you guys, I'm leaving" I mustered all the courage I had and got up heading to the door when I was wrapped up into giant arms. "I don't think so Vivien, you belong to us now" his green eyes filled with a demonic look as he dragged me back towards the hallways.

I turned to Jimmy, he looked kind of sad, like he had sympathy for me, but if he truly did he wouldn't have let me be dragged to a room and raped. I was left broken and crying by the time Zacky was done.

The thing about this whole ordeal that scared me was that half of me hated it, while the other half craved it . Am I insane? How the hell could I like what was being done to me. He disregards my feelings and I don't bat an eyelash? He could possibly be the death of me.

Half an hour of laying wrapped up in the blanket the door opened quietly and shut again. Great he's back for more? Can't he just fucking plunge a knife in my carotid artery already and end it?! I thought as the bed dipped next to me.

I clenched my eyes together and relaxed as the atmosphere changed around me. I didn't feel that heavy, dangerous sensation, I felt relieved, and safe, so I opened my eyes and peering back at me were two beautiful blue eyes.

I burst out in tears as he pulled my sore body to his chest. "Shh, Viv, it's ok. I'm here" he murmured as he gently stroked my hair. I could even make words come out of my mouth except pain, hurt, home, and death. He wrapped me up in the blanket and carried me into the bathroom that is joined to the room.

I sat on the floor as he turned the shower on and grabbed a little purple box. No. I don't do that anymore. I violently shook my ear no when he offered that sweet poison to me. "I don't do that shit anymore Jimmy" I shoved myself away from him but he knew better than to leave it alone. "Just enough to take the pain away baby, I promise, everything will be alright" his warm voice calmed my spasmodic heart and I held my arm out to him.

"I trust you" my voice came out shaky but when he kissed my vein I felt the same way as I did all those years ago. I looked away and let him shove the needle in, the high intensified by the lack of drugs over the years. His turn. By now I was a pro aand had him feeling euphoric in seconds. "Fuck, Vivien" he moaned out as he took me into his arms.

My eyes had rolled into the back of my head and his skin felt like silk against my fingertips as they began to glide over his neck. Without thinking I unclothed him and dragged him into the shower, hot water drenching us as our bodied collided together.

He lifted me up against the cool tiled shower as he shoved into me, burying his face in my neck. My fingernails dug into the skin, leaving marks all over him. "Oh my god! Jimmy!" I screamed as he thrust harder and harder. Suddenly the door flew open and I looked out at the man that made me hate everything.

His green eyes flared with hatred as he threw his fist towards my face. I clenched my eyes together waiting for the impact. Waiting for his wrath to be unleashed. All I heard was a loud pound and yells, there was no way in fucking hell I'm opening my eyes to see the damage to my face.

Notes

Writing this on my phone so idk how long each chapter will be but it still counts right? Lol