Follow The Tides, Wherever You've Been
I've Been Up In The Air, Out Of My Head
I walked out of the hospital, and over to the SUV, where the guys were still waiting on me. Sam must've immediately noticed my state of distress, because before I even opened the door to get in, he hopped out of the vehicle, and had his arms tightly wrapped around me.
"I'm so sorry, honey. How bad is it? How are they doing?" Sam questioned, while I cried against his chest.
"They're gone." I cried, tears now cascading freely down my face. Sam grasped me tighter.
"Oh honey." The rest of the guys just sat silently in the vehicle, looking over at us, probably not knowing what to say, or if they should say anything. Jimmy was the first to speak up.
"Stop hogging her." He said playfully pushing Sam away from me. Leave it to Jimmy to try and lighten the situation. He wrapped his long, thin arms around my torso, and hugged me to him. "I'm so sorry this had to happen, Bradley. I wish there was something I could do to help. I'll just give you a 'Jimmy hug.' Everybody loves those." I let out a small, barely audible laugh between sobs.
"I love you, Jimmy. You're the best." I said, pulling myself away, and wiping my tears away.
"Aww! I love you, too, shortcake!" Jimmy yelled, and hugged me again, before jumping back in the vehicle. Surprisingly enough, he'd made me feel the slightest bit better.
One by one, the guys shuffled out of the vehicle, giving me hugs, and voicing their sincere apologies. It was nice to know they all cared so much about me.
The last one to hug me was Matt. His hug lingered a little bit longer than the others, and when he pulled away, he gave me a quick kiss on the cheek.
"I love you, Bradley." He slightly smiled at me, before climbing back into the SUV.
"How about some ice cream for the pretty lady?!" Jimmy yelled, from the drivers seat. I smiled, and climbed in the car, myself, before we headed off to the nearest sweet shoppe.
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It's been a few weeks since the passing of my parents. I still cannot believe they're gone. With each passing day, though, the pain seems to subside a little more. I know now that they are in a better place, and that they are watching over me, and, though I'll always miss them, and as much as I do, I'll get to see them again someday.
I was currently sitting on the couch, clad in my PJ's, watching reruns of Tom & Jerry, back when it was good, and the characters didn't talk so much.
"Want some company?" Matt asked, descending the stairs.
"I wouldn't mind it, I guess." I smiled at him. It was still early in the morning, at least for the guys, it was only ten o' clock, and I was surprised Matt was even up.
"Tom & Jerry?" He laughed.
"Yeah. Got a problem?"
"Nope." He stuck his tongue out at me. Just then, Brian descended the stairs, and joined us in the living room. I knew I'd eventually have to address the situation I'd almost created a couple of weeks ago, I'd already avoided it as much as I possibly could. I had almost showered with both of these men, and I probably would've done much more, which I would've regretted. I felt so bad for leading them both on. Brian sat down on the chair on the other side of Matt, and I turned to both of the men.
"We all need to talk." I said to them. Brian looked at me questioningly, and Matt just looked over at me, concern in his eyes. "I'm so sorry for leading both of you guys on. I really can't do it anymore. I'm so upset with myself. I want you both to know that I love you both, and it's such a hard decision to choose between the two of you, I don't want to have to choose. But, since I do, I'm going to choose neither of you. I refuse to tear this band apart because I like both of you, and both of you like me back. I'm not going to go on with either of you, because I'm not going to be the cause of your ending friendship. I'm sorry." I got up off the couch, and started to leave the room, but Matt caught my wrist, and turned me back towards them.
"We're not making you choose, Bradley. I know we both want you, but if you want to be with Brian, I can live with that, it won't cause a breakup of the band."
"Matt..." I started, but he cut me off.
"I'm not going to let you lose what you have with Brian, because you're afraid I can't handle seeing you two together."
"I want both of you, though! You're not making it any easier on me!"
"I'm trying. I know you want both of us, but I'm telling you. Be with Brian. He deserves to be happy with you. I will be happy if you two get together. I'll be happy for the both of you. I'll know you're both happy. And if anything ever happens, just know I'm here for you." I just looked at him, not knowing what to say. He looked over at Brian. "Are you going to ask her out, Gates, or am I going to have to do it for you?" He playfully punched Brian in the arm, and smiled. Brian smiled back, in return, and turned to me.
"Bradley, will you go out on a date with me?" I just looked at Matt questioningly, I couldn't believe he wanted me to be with Brian, over him, he caught my gaze, and nodded approvingly. It was then I realized that he would be there for me no matter what happened, I wouldn't lose him just because I chose to date Brian. I smiled at him, before turning to Brian, and smiling again.
"I'd love to."
"I'm so sorry, honey. How bad is it? How are they doing?" Sam questioned, while I cried against his chest.
"They're gone." I cried, tears now cascading freely down my face. Sam grasped me tighter.
"Oh honey." The rest of the guys just sat silently in the vehicle, looking over at us, probably not knowing what to say, or if they should say anything. Jimmy was the first to speak up.
"Stop hogging her." He said playfully pushing Sam away from me. Leave it to Jimmy to try and lighten the situation. He wrapped his long, thin arms around my torso, and hugged me to him. "I'm so sorry this had to happen, Bradley. I wish there was something I could do to help. I'll just give you a 'Jimmy hug.' Everybody loves those." I let out a small, barely audible laugh between sobs.
"I love you, Jimmy. You're the best." I said, pulling myself away, and wiping my tears away.
"Aww! I love you, too, shortcake!" Jimmy yelled, and hugged me again, before jumping back in the vehicle. Surprisingly enough, he'd made me feel the slightest bit better.
One by one, the guys shuffled out of the vehicle, giving me hugs, and voicing their sincere apologies. It was nice to know they all cared so much about me.
The last one to hug me was Matt. His hug lingered a little bit longer than the others, and when he pulled away, he gave me a quick kiss on the cheek.
"I love you, Bradley." He slightly smiled at me, before climbing back into the SUV.
"How about some ice cream for the pretty lady?!" Jimmy yelled, from the drivers seat. I smiled, and climbed in the car, myself, before we headed off to the nearest sweet shoppe.
--
It's been a few weeks since the passing of my parents. I still cannot believe they're gone. With each passing day, though, the pain seems to subside a little more. I know now that they are in a better place, and that they are watching over me, and, though I'll always miss them, and as much as I do, I'll get to see them again someday.
I was currently sitting on the couch, clad in my PJ's, watching reruns of Tom & Jerry, back when it was good, and the characters didn't talk so much.
"Want some company?" Matt asked, descending the stairs.
"I wouldn't mind it, I guess." I smiled at him. It was still early in the morning, at least for the guys, it was only ten o' clock, and I was surprised Matt was even up.
"Tom & Jerry?" He laughed.
"Yeah. Got a problem?"
"Nope." He stuck his tongue out at me. Just then, Brian descended the stairs, and joined us in the living room. I knew I'd eventually have to address the situation I'd almost created a couple of weeks ago, I'd already avoided it as much as I possibly could. I had almost showered with both of these men, and I probably would've done much more, which I would've regretted. I felt so bad for leading them both on. Brian sat down on the chair on the other side of Matt, and I turned to both of the men.
"We all need to talk." I said to them. Brian looked at me questioningly, and Matt just looked over at me, concern in his eyes. "I'm so sorry for leading both of you guys on. I really can't do it anymore. I'm so upset with myself. I want you both to know that I love you both, and it's such a hard decision to choose between the two of you, I don't want to have to choose. But, since I do, I'm going to choose neither of you. I refuse to tear this band apart because I like both of you, and both of you like me back. I'm not going to go on with either of you, because I'm not going to be the cause of your ending friendship. I'm sorry." I got up off the couch, and started to leave the room, but Matt caught my wrist, and turned me back towards them.
"We're not making you choose, Bradley. I know we both want you, but if you want to be with Brian, I can live with that, it won't cause a breakup of the band."
"Matt..." I started, but he cut me off.
"I'm not going to let you lose what you have with Brian, because you're afraid I can't handle seeing you two together."
"I want both of you, though! You're not making it any easier on me!"
"I'm trying. I know you want both of us, but I'm telling you. Be with Brian. He deserves to be happy with you. I will be happy if you two get together. I'll be happy for the both of you. I'll know you're both happy. And if anything ever happens, just know I'm here for you." I just looked at him, not knowing what to say. He looked over at Brian. "Are you going to ask her out, Gates, or am I going to have to do it for you?" He playfully punched Brian in the arm, and smiled. Brian smiled back, in return, and turned to me.
"Bradley, will you go out on a date with me?" I just looked at Matt questioningly, I couldn't believe he wanted me to be with Brian, over him, he caught my gaze, and nodded approvingly. It was then I realized that he would be there for me no matter what happened, I wouldn't lose him just because I chose to date Brian. I smiled at him, before turning to Brian, and smiling again.
"I'd love to."
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