Maya’s POV

The last couple of days had been a living hell… and when I thought that maybe the company of my brother would at least do me some good, it only made it worse.

I didn’t really know what happened to Trevor but each day his mood was getting worse, and he was blaming me for things I had no idea about. When in the beginning he tried to cheer me up and wanted me to forget about my trouble with Matt, or rather he told me to forget about Matt all together, I thought he only meant it in a good way, but slowly, I was thinking that… he was trying to push me into a direction that I didn’t want to go, that I didn’t even want to think about.

I didn’t want to forget about Matt, I couldn’t forget about him. I fucking loved him. Matt was the love of my life. And I wouldn’t give up on him, on us… I just had no idea when and where everything had gone so fucking wrong?!

What the hell have I done to hurt him?! Why was he so out of his mind, and why… why hadn’t he tried to contact me… Normally when we had an argument or a fight, Matt would come and talk when we cooled down, even though we were both hotheads, he was always the one to push us together, to meant us back together, but slowly I was thinking… that that was over… what if Matt had finally had enough, what if Matt really moved on… ?!

And there I was the woman who never meant to love a guy, the woman who never wanted to spend her life together with just one man, to trust one man with my heart, and then I gave it to Matt, with everything I was and am, and he stole my heart… and now he crashed it and it was gone… beyond repair, when I was the one planning to propose him… how could I have been so damn wrong?!

“Maya? Did you hear me?” Trevor’s voice interrupted my thoughts. “I cannot stand to see you like this one more day! Hear the sobbing all night, its fucking ridiculous, don’t you get it!? The man is sick of you, he moved on… you should too. It’s about damn time… Let’s go out and find someone new, I would bet Matt had already some groupies in his bed by now… you know rockstar and all, he won’t be crying after your sorry ass.”

I swallowed thickly, this was even worse than the time Ave and I were in the UK, because then I still knew that Matt loved me, but now… was Trevor right? Was he fed up? Had he moved on? Did he have other women? No, he wouldn’t… he would never…

“You make me sick… Crying after a guy like that-” Trevor started again and I widened my eyes, he had said some nasty things these past few days, but today was something new. And I was beginning to think that, maybe… and what if… Matt and Brian were right?! What if Trevor wasn’t what it had seemed to be…

A knock at the hotel door sounded and Trevor opened, then vanished without another word, that had happened a couple of times before too. He left me alone, when I needed someone, he left and came back the next day, or night, sometimes drunk… and I wasn’t losing the feeling that money was missing in my bag every now and then, I really didn’t want to think bad about this all, but it was getting more and more suspicious and I… I couldn’t shake this… Why hadn’t I listened to Brian and Matt, why hadn’t I at least thought about their words, what if parts of it had been true?!

I rolled onto my side and let the tear run down my cheeks, Avery and Brian’s rehearsal dinner was coming up tomorrow and I was nowhere near ready to act like everything was fine, or even step into close proximity to Matt and not be able to… to be with him. How would I survive that?!

Another knock sounded at the door, I didn’t reply. Then it knocked again and Ave’s voice was coming from the other side.

“Maya? Are you there?!” She asked and I sighed, at least my best friend was still there, well and Jimmy, he had been calling me daily, either him or Jess of course, but still… it didn’t really help me.

“It’s open” I said and tried to whisk the tears from my eyes and sat up on the bed, righting my clothes just when the door opened and Ave stepped in. She had a bag in her hand and two coffee cups.

“Hey” Ave looked at me and set the bag and coffee’s on the table then looked around. “Trevor is not here?” She asked the obvious and I nodded “Just went out couple of minutes ago.” I tried a smile and Ave came over to me sitting down on the bed next to me, brushing my tangled her from my shoulder.

“You look too thin… I brought you some bagels and coffee” Ave motioned to the table “You promised to eat more” She added and I nodded.

“I did, I tried…” I gave her a shrug. And Ave sighed “You know, I cannot allow you to look better than me on that day, which means you really need to eat… a lot more!” Ave joked and I snorted out a laugh that I didn’t really feel.

“Maya, why don’t you just go… and talk to him? You feel miserable, he feels miserable… You should just talk it out…” Ave started again, and we had this conversation like a hundredths time over and over again.

“And what would I say? I have no idea what he is so mad about! I wanted to propose, Ave! I wanted to make this step, but before I got the chance, he threw it away… and now he acts like I don’t exist… You know I love him, love him more than anything, but he doesn’t seem to give a damn! When I went over to get some things from our- his house, he wasn’t even home, Ave! What the hell am I to think about all this! WHAT?!” I began to sob, angry tear running down my cheeks and Ave looked at me with pity, which made me feel even worse.

“But that doesn’t mean, he threw it away, Maya-” Ave started again but I waved her away “Please, stop… it’s… it won’t change anything now. Tomorrow is the big rehearsal dinner, is there anything I can do to help you guys? Give me something to do, please…” I begged Ave almost and she gave me a smile “I will, but not before we ate those bagels and drank the coffee, deal?” I rolled my eyes “Fine”

Ave and I spent some time together and I was glad for the distraction, and I did get her hints and pushes into the direction of talking to Matt, when we both knew it wouldn’t get me anywhere, if Matt wasn’t ready, and it didn’t seem like that… at all. So I tried to push all the thoughts away and concentrate on Ave and Brian’s big day, before Matt and I got serious I was always able to push my feelings away and I could be that again, I had to… I wouldn’t ruin the dinner or the wedding, I would be sweet and nice and handle it well.

When I stepped out of the shower and dressed into the short blue dress I felt better, okay fine, that was a lie.. I still felt awful, but when I put my make up on and made my hair curly it felt like a mask I put on and I wanted to be strong, I wouldn’t show anyone how bad I was really dealing with everything, I wouldn’t ruin Ave’s day.

I breathed in and out, packed a bag for the next day and walked out of the bathroom where I saw Trevor packing a bag too. He seemed surprised to see me, his eyes narrowed when he saw me and then he snapped “You are still here?”

“I-I yes… why?” I stuttered completely confused. “I will be picked up every second for the rehearsal dinner, aren’t you coming too?” I asked and Trevor gave a bitter laugh “To watch Avery run into a disaster? Fuck no. I can’t understand how she wants to marry that guy, and I will definitely not be part of this freak show” He closed his bag and threw it over his shoulder.

Before he went out of the door he turned to look at me a final time, he shook his head and the door fell shut behind him, it wasn’t something new him leaving, leaving with a bag, but something from his nasty words, to the final look he threw my way said, this was something like a goodbye, though I didn’t have much time to think about it, because my phone started to ring and I picked up seeing MB’s number on the phone.

“Hey” I answered with a smile, already trying out to be on my best behavior.
“We are outside the motel, do you need my help for the bag?” MB asked and I smiled, the only good thing was that we had been in contact more often again, and we were slowly coming back to being the friends we used to be.

“No, I’m good. I will be right out. Thanks”

I was glad that Jason and MB were picking me up and I wouldn’t be arriving alone at the dinner and everyone would be turning to look at me, especially knowing all our friends were waiting for me and Matt to get back together, when nothing seemed to look like it.

We walked in and MB joked about Gates looking already nervous as hell, I couldn’t keep the small laugh inside and it had been one of the first honest laugh since days. I let my eyes wander over the group of people and saw from the corner of my eyes how Matt sat next to Brian, I was supposed to either sit on his side, as his girlfriend… but now Ave rearranged and made me sit next to her, still only two people between us. And he looked fine, he looked damn fine and I just now realized how much I had missed him, how I missed him holding me, whispering to me, making love to me, just… just being there for me, when my whole world seemed to crash apart.

When MB laid his hand on my back to guide me forward I was finally able to prey my eyes from Matt and smile at him and move forward again. When I looked up and turned into the right direction Matt and my eyes met, I saw him swallow, his eyes wandering over me, as my did over him but then he got a closed off look on his face and looked away, and I decided it was for the best. We shouldn’t be dealing out any break up problems during this dinner, this wasn’t the time and place. I breathed deeply in and out and walked forward again. I would enjoy this dinner, I would be fine, everything would be okay, the mask was in place again.

“Maya! Maya thank goodness you’re here! Come on over!” Ave called and somehow saved me, I was afraid I was about to do something stupid and head over to Matt, and that even though I told myself over and over that I wouldn’t be doing something like that, my eyes moved over to him again and again.

I was in a conversation with Ave when I saw Matt stand up and walk away from the group of people, Brian hot on his heels stopping him, but I wasn’t able to catch their talk and tried to tell myself that it didn’t do anything to me, smelling his perfume or hearing his voice since a week for the first time.

“Are you okay?” Ave asked catching how I turned to look where Matt had left too. “I’m perfectly fine.” I stated and Ave lifted her eyebrow “Little gnome, I don’t want to hear anything about it. It’s your and Brian’s day, so keep your pity and worried looks to yourself. It’s about fun and you final day in freedom. I am fine, and I feel good.” I said and put on the best smile I could.

“Okay, but-” Ave started and I put my finger in front of her lips “Sssshhhh, stop it now!” I pulled my hand away “I will leave again if I hear one more word. You see, Matt and I are going to act like adults, and everything is fine. We will have to get used to seeing us anyway, right? You will lean back now, and I get us something to drink, okay?” I asked and Ave smiled, even though I knew, she didn’t believe a word I said. “Alright”

I watched Matt walk by, my eyes followed him, like I couldn’t help it. I tried not to look so longingly in his direction, but I didn’t know if I succeeded. My mind was playing through different scenarios.

Should I get up and walk after him, try and talk to him? Or would he brush me off just like he had done in our last talk? Would he accuse me of not caring, when he was the only man I really loved, ever?!

Would he even care? Or would he tell me that everything was said and done?! I wouldn’t stand that, he would crush the last pieces of me that I was barely holding together, and that just before Ave and Brian’s most important day, when I was supposed to accompany him everywhere since we were Brian’s and Ave’s maid of honor and best man?!

I stood at the table and poured a drink for me and Ave, then downed the first one, and the second one for Ave as well, when the alcohol burned down my throat I felt a little better, because some of the pain was easing some other pain inside of me. I poured two more drinks and put another smile on my face, turned around and headed back to the table, I would get through this day and the next… I would manage… somehow… I just had to.

Brian’s POV

It was hard seeing your best friends like this, especially when this was just the beginning of the romantic and happy days to come, and for them to witness.

While Ave and I were having the best days of our life’s, and our love was only growing and soon to be official through her wearing my name and ring, Matt’s world was apparently just crashing down.
I hated seeing my friends in distress and foul mood, and I hated seeing him trying to hold it up to please me. But I also had no idea what to do… how to solve their problem, when the only solution was for them to fucking talk to each other.

I had talked to Matt a couple of times already about it, tried to convince him, I knew Zack and Jimmy had tried the same, but that stupid pighead of Sanders wasn’t listening to any of us.

And the same was with Jess, Ave and Maya. I hadn’t told Ave about the plans from Matt, it wasn’t my story to tell, but it almost slipped out yesterday. Maybe that would solve the problem, maybe telling Maya why Matt had been this upset about everything would help her understand, problem was… I promised Matt not to say a word, and it really wasn’t my story to tell.

I sighed watching as Matt got up as soon as Maya arrived. I saw them looking at each other, saw how they were drawn together like magnets, and still neither of them would walk over and break the spell.

Maybe they were trying not to let another discussion go out of hand since those two were famous and fights and make up scenes. But really I wouldn’t care if they made a scene right here right now, as long as they made up and were back together and happy in the end…

Because, did they really thing tomorrow on Ave’s and my wedding day it would be any easier to stay away from each other? To stay neutral?

“I really don’t know what to do anymore, Brian” Ave’s voice sounded close to my ear as she leaned over to me. She wore a magnificent dress, showing just the right amount of cleavage and with the way she was leaning over to me, I saw just enough to make the little Brian stir to life.

“Well, I would know just what to do with you” I whispered back, licking my lips. I still couldn’t believe I was about to marry this sexy and lovely creature next to me.

Ave giggled and rolled her eyes “I don’t mean that… I mean with Maya and Matt…” She slapped my shoulder, settling back on her seat.

“I know… still you look gorgeous, did I tell you that already? Mrs. Soon to be Haner” I asked, letting my eyes wander over and over her again.

“Just a couple of times, but I am not getting tired of hearing it again” Ave smiled, her blue eyes shining at me with love.

I sighed watching Matt walk away, and I saw Ave looking so sad watching our friends, so I thought about talking to him again, maybe… after seeing her here it would get us somewhere. “I’ll be right back” I kissed Ave’s slightly opened mouth and smirked at her “Don’t run away”

“Wouldn’t dare” She smiled and waved Maya over to her when I pushed my way after Matt, calling for him.

I saw the annoyed look on Matt’s face as called for him and he turned to look at me. He turned and walked out and I followed behind him.
“What? Is it not allowed to get some fresh air?” Matt snapped and then sighed “Sorry, I didn’t mean-” He rubbed a hand over his face and I clapped his shoulder, in a show no harm done.

“It’s hard to see her, huh?” I pulled a cigarette from the pack and stuck it between my lips. I saw Matt’s longing look but then he looked away. He had quit smoking a long while ago, but I sometimes saw him struggling with it still.

“You have no idea” Matt admitted and kicked a rock that was in front of his shoe. “I do, actually… and you know it.” I said remembering the time where Ave and Maya had vanished on us, hiding in the UK, without any notice, that had been the hardest time of my life actually.

“I just… I don’t know what to do. I can’t understand how she just threw everything away, how she believes her brother more than me… How she doesn’t want to spend her life with me, when I would give my life for her” Matt said and I nodded.

“You gotta tell her that, Matt. You two need to talk, and I bet it’s gonna be alright again. We all know you love each other… Ave talked to Maya and-” I started but Matt waved it away.

“I don’t… I don’t wanna hear how good a time she is having, look how beautiful she is, like this is no big deal for her, how she laughs and enjoys her time, when all I feel is emptiness and loneliness, I’m a walking disaster, I know that.” I rolled my eyes at his dramatic answer.

“Maya is living in a freaking motel, Matt. As Ave told me, she isn’t happy at all, Ave brings her food she barely eats, her brother is as good as never there and I think she said something of them fighting a lot. It has been so much that Ave asked Maya to move into our house as soon as we leave for the honeymoon.”

Matt looked at me confused, his mouth opening and closing without a word coming out, like the wheels in his heads are turning, but then shook his head.

“It was her decision” He looked away, I saw his hands clenched and I sighed. “And what is your plan now? You will do what? Try to avoid her? How is that going to fly with you being planned as couple for the wedding?” I asked and yes I knew, it was kind of a low blow because I was putting him on the guilt trip for the wedding now, but hey, you gotta do what you gotta do, right?!

Matt turned back to me “I don’t know. But for today, it’s avoiding, as long as she doesn’t come and speak to me. Apologize to me, I don’t see any way how this will be solved. And yes, I know it’s your wedding, and believe me I will act accordingly, you will not have to worry about it. I’m a big man, I can handle seeing her and talking to her like an adult.” Even though his voice wavered at the end and he doesn’t sound too sure himself.

“Fine, if you say so… Just keep in mind that tomorrow you will be dancing along with Maya as the best man and maid of honor with Maya, there is no avoiding at the wedding… and maybe… I mean, you could try and talk it out, you say you are and adult and a big man, step over you-”

“Stop it. I told you, it’s enough… now go back to your woman or she will be worried you escaped” Matt pushed my shoulders and sent me back inside, while he stayed outside alone.
I walked back towards Ave and set down beside her “And? How did it go?”

“Not so good… But they cannot avoid each other tomorrow.” I winked at Ave and she smiled “I hope they gonna find back together… do you think… I mean, what if-” I stopped Ave’s concerns with sealing my lips over hers.

“Let’s not worry about them today and tomorrow. It’s our days and we will enjoy them. They will come back together, they always did, it’s gonna be fine, I promise” I told her, with my lips still almost touching hers and I felt Ave melt against me.

The rest of the dinner went over quickly, some funny stories were shared, the food was delicious and everyone was having fun, or at least it looked like that. Matt and Maya were both avoiding each other all evening, but that’s about all I witnessed about them for the rest of the event.

When Ave and I were about to head to our car and drive home, I was stopped from Jess and Jimmy from climbing in. Jimmy pulled me away, and Jess got a hold of Ave. I frowned, “What the hell Jimbo? We need to get home, tomorrow is the day!” I tried to pull free but Jimmy held firm.

“Well, duh… That’s what we gonna do. Keeping you from staying up all night and ruining a tradition.” Jimmy pushed me away, and I was caught by Zack and Matt standing on the other side.

I looked over to Ave and shook my head “Do you have any idea what he is talking about?” I asked and saw how Maya and Jess took Ave’s by the arms and guided her away from the car.
“I-I don’t know… But I might have a guess” Ave said and rolled her eyes.

“The wedding pair isn’t allowed to spend the last night together, so you… Mr. Haner will be spending the night with us.. while your bride-to-be will be spending the night with Maya and Jess. So they have all the time tomorrow to get ready and you will only see your bride at the church during the ceremony, like it is supposed to be… or maybe I will jump in and plan an extra special adventure-” Jimmy went on but Zack elbowed him in the side “He will not. We will make sure everything is fine and in place.”

“And we will make sure Ave is where she is supposed to be tomorrow…” Maya said with a wink and then the girls turned around and jumped into a waiting cab and didn’t even give me a chance to say goodbye or tell her how much I loved her, well at least I could still call her, phones were allowed, right?!

“Let’s go Haner… You will need your beauty sleep” Matt clapped my back and pushed me forward to the waiting car, and tomorrow… the big day was coming! Ave would officially be mine!

Notes

So here is the update :D
Hope u like it, the wedding is coming closer!
What do u think will everything work out fine?