Where Do We Go From Here ?

Taking the death of my father was pretty hard and it weighed heavy like a semi truck brushing past me I tried to keep a smile on my face it was just impossible Matt and I rarely talked about my father after the funeral I just kept my distance from everyone I just felt isolated which wasn't a bad thing I just need some time to keep my mind together before I have a mental breakdown tonight we had our last tour stop in St. Louis and tonight Brian and Michelle wanted to have a family day out with Claire before returning to their perspective households and getting back into the swing of normal life.

"So what are we doing after the show ?" Zack asked looking through tonight's set list.

"I don't know what do you guys have in mind ?" Matt asked.

"Maybe we could all just hangout at the park." Alex said.

"The last time we were at a park Johnny and Brian went on an "adventure" Matt smirked.

"Really funny Sanders." Brian said plucking at his guitar strings.

I watched Michelle with a smile on her face and a gleam in her eye she wasn't taking dad's death as hard as I was... Does she even care ? I thought to myself. I watched her just smiling and not even grieving the loss of our father we need to have a serious talk about this before we head back home I had a nanny on tour with us to keep River company while his daddy was on stage sometimes I think I'm the luckiest woman in the world to have a loving husband and a wonderful son but when it all gets too much I just can't take it and sometimes I just need a break.


Waking up in the middle of the night was beyond me I had no motivation to even get out of bed River had called me around 8:00am I was excited to have him come out on this last leg of the tour Matt has no idea that River is going to be here tomorrow morning but we will talk about this another time right now I need to grieve over my father and I want to be left alone Michelle and Brian had wandered off to the nearest restaurant to have a private chat... What could be more important than grieving our father ? I thought to myself. I cleared that thought from my head as I watched Zacky and Johnny argue over Megan Fox and Angelina Jolie for the 600th time before watching Matt get lost in his thoughts again.

"What are you up to husband ?" I smiled.

"Just reviewing some destination locations for our vacation." Matt smirked.

"What vacation ?" I raised an eyebrow.

"I can't tell you it's a surprise." Matt smirked again.

"Matt River's coming just thought I'd let you know." I smiled.

Matt had a surprised expression on his face he was pissed he turned his back around to the desk without saying a word I hung my head down low I was just upset by how Matt was treating me right now I can't believe how cold and distant he was being I have never seen him this way but it had really worried me. I went to bed that night overwhelmed and overthinking a lot of things... I need a Plan A Or Plan B.

Notes

Here's an update c: sorry it took me so long Chapter 27 will be in Johnny's perspective.