Shared Dreams
Shared Dreams
Brian’s POV
I stared ahead of me and let my fingers run over the strings of my guitar, playing a soft melody, only barely noticeable, but so present in my mind. I never in my mind had so many song ideas, never in my life had I written so many melodies, so many songs that wanted to get out.
And all because of her… and all because of our time… and now everything seemed even worse than these shared dreams I had before, this was making me even more aware of the fact that I was missing her.
That I was missing our time together, it didn’t feel real now, when I was sure it had been real.
“Haner?” Matt’s voice interrupted my thoughts “Haner?” He tried again and I finally blinked my eyes open, when had I even closed them?!
But whenever I did… I saw her… whenever I drifted off there she was, but not in my nightly sleep anymore, just my mind was wandering back to the hotel, back to the airport, combining everything we had… leading me to this feeling of missing something.
“Damn it, Haner!” Something hit me in the chest and I put my guitar down looking at Matt and Zack who sat opposite of me with waiting expressions.
“What?” I barked not really getting what they wanted from me, I was here, I had been in time since we started and I had given them more input to this album than ever before, so we already started the recording.
“Did you listen to a word we said?” Matt asked and I sighed “What about?”
“God, he is even weirder since he is back from his ‘short holiday – to clear his head’” Zack replied and they both chuckled, making me roll my eyes.
They kept telling me that I was behaving even worse since I was back, and guess what, they were fucking right. And now I even had a reason for that, I missed the woman from my dreams, I missed the woman I met at the airport, I missed the woman I could laugh with, the woman I could love… I missed Aggie.
“I thought you wanted to clear your head, but instead you came back with even more thoughts and concerns? Will you finally tell us what you did and where you really have been? I mean it’s already 4 months since then and you said nothing.” Matt asked while he scribbled some words onto the notepad before him.
I didn’t want to talk to them about my time-out, knowing they would laugh about me, and brush it off. They didn’t know what I knew… They didn’t feel what I felt…
I remembered everything from the moment Aggie accidentally bumped into me, the moment our skin brushed, sending electric shocks all over my body, to the moment we made love for the first time, and I knew I didn’t want to let her go. I never had felt something like that before…
I can’t even believe I skipped my appointment in France and stayed the entire weekend with Aggie in the hotel, but we did! She canceled her appointment with her friend, she probably had to make something up for that later on, and she stayed…
We had so much fun together, I think I never laughed so much, never shared so much with someone I knew for such a short amount of time, but then again, I knew her…
From my dreams, I knew she was there for a reason!
And then there was the rushed goodbye, I wanted to stay, but knew I couldn’t… and so couldn’t she. She had her life, I had mine, we ran into each other and took the opportunity to share this time, but we both knew her being from there and me having to go back to the U.S., that meant we would have to part, and that came way to soon.
And instead of planning to stay in contact we had to rush away from each other and say our goodbyes quickly. We both thought it was better to make it a quick end, before suffering long, because we both knew we wouldn’t be seeing us again, not besides our dreams… but… not even there she was showing up anymore, she was gone… from my life and from my dreams.
Now I regretted not having asked her to stay in contact, maybe I would have suffered even more, but at least I knew she was fine… what I now knew was nothing… nothing at all!
“BRIAN!” Zacky’s yell roused me from my sad thoughts and he sighed loudly. “You know what?! Fuck, go home… suffer somewhere else, if you think you can be useful here, you are damn wrong!” He grabbed my arm and pulled me off the couch.
He pushed me towards the door, taking my guitar from me and opened the door sending me on my way.
What the hell!
I wasn’t that bad, was I?!
I sighed, instead of arguing with my asshole friends I decided for once, that they were right and I made my way home.
I sat in front of my TV, watching one stupid show after the other, the sun was still up and I decided sitting in my home alone wasn’t such a good idea in the end, because again my thoughts wandered to her.
If I just thought about her long enough, I could still feel her skin beneath my fingertips that smooth skin, with the tattoo on her wrist.
I kept letting my finger run over the letters on her wrist, reminding me of my best friend and about her, she giggled every now and then, when my fingers had touched the small letters.
‘Place and time always on my mind’
I could almost hear her laughter and damn I wished I could… Why didn’t I just ask for her number… why didn’t she ask for mine… she told me she knew me, of course she did, but she meant beside my dream appearances, she knew my band, my music, or she wouldn’t have made that tattoo.
Was she afraid I wouldn’t have given her my number? Fuck, why didn’t I think about that?!
I sat in my car and drove towards the beach, but I didn’t choose the beach right beside my home, I drove to my favorite spot that not everybody knew.
I needed time to think, I knew I thought I would get rid of all those disturbing dreams and thoughts by now… and I did, but it got only worse.
I walked along the shore letting the light breeze ruffle my hair, I put my sunglasses on so the last sun rays wouldn’t disturb my sight.
And again my thoughts wandered to Aggie, she cooked for me… or well we cooked, no she really did, but I enjoyed it, more than I should. But she was great in cooking and baking.
Matt would have flipped shit eating all her favorite dishes, he would make her head chief of our tour bus.
I smirked at the thought, having her this close… what I would give for that.
I heard some laughter from around the corner, I didn’t feel like running into someone, but the laughter hell… that sounded familiar… too familiar.
Before I knew it and even before I really made the conscious decision, my body was already moving into the direction of the laughter and voices.
I rounded the corner and saw a group of people, a student group as it seemed, my shoulder s slumped down and I turned around, thinking I was not only seeing things but now also hearing things… Maybe the guys were right and I was really going insane!
I breathed deeply in and out, I need to get my shit together!
“Brian?” A voice called and my heart immediately started to beat faster, I heard footsteps nearing and didn’t dare to turn around.
This could be just a fan, calm down, Haner! This might be just another trick from your head, nothing to be excited about, why would she be here!?
Get a fucking grip!
“Yeah” I slowly turned around and my eyes widened, was my mind really playing tricks on me, this couldn’t be, could it?!
“It is you” Aggie breathed out, her long her flying around in the ocean breeze, making her look more beautiful than ever.
“Oh my god” She smiled and I didn’t even dare to breath, was I finally gone crazy? Or was this real?!
And even if I was crazy, this was the craziness I would crave, because she was here.
I held my hand out to touch her cheek, meeting soft skin, and the electric shock was send through my body right away.
“Aggie” I said softly and then pulled her into my arms, nearly crushing her frame with the strength I put into.
“What are you doing here?” I hugged her closer and closer and then pulled away, afraid I hurt her.
“I’m making a semester aboard, for 4 more months. I chose Los Angeles” She smiled and my heart stopped.
“You planned that? To come here… you… I… we…” Smooth Haner, really smooth.
“No, I had signed in for that long ago, but didn’t get a chance, but on last chance someone canceled and I took the place. I need to travel for my job, you know” She smirked and I just had to kiss her. And without any second thought I just did that.
I pulled her to me, sealing her lips with mine, not even sparing a thought to the possibility that anything could have changed between we last saw us all those months ago.
“Why didn’t you fucking say that when we were together? If you need to travel, I am the man for you” I said and realized the double meaning, I had to smirk at that.
“I didn’t think-” She started but I interrupted her again with another kiss.
“I missed you” I let out, I wasn’t normally the guy to state my feelings right away, ask my friends they were currently going crazy because of that… speak of crazy…
“You need to come meet my friends, they think I have gone crazy… and I have… crazy for you” I whispered and leaned closer to her, inhaling her perfume, just as I remembered, everything like I remembered, and if she thought I would let her go, she was so wrong.
“Agnieszka?” A female voice called and I frowned, Aggie turned around laughing, “Don’t wait for me! We see us tomorrow” She yelled back and that someone turned back around.
“I hope that was what you were planning?” She asked and I smirked even more “I was not only planning for that, I would have kidnapped you otherwise” I said and took her hand in mine, letting my thumb run over her skin, making sure this wasn’t another dream.
“If this is another Shared Dream, please... don’t ever let me wake up”
I stared ahead of me and let my fingers run over the strings of my guitar, playing a soft melody, only barely noticeable, but so present in my mind. I never in my mind had so many song ideas, never in my life had I written so many melodies, so many songs that wanted to get out.
And all because of her… and all because of our time… and now everything seemed even worse than these shared dreams I had before, this was making me even more aware of the fact that I was missing her.
That I was missing our time together, it didn’t feel real now, when I was sure it had been real.
“Haner?” Matt’s voice interrupted my thoughts “Haner?” He tried again and I finally blinked my eyes open, when had I even closed them?!
But whenever I did… I saw her… whenever I drifted off there she was, but not in my nightly sleep anymore, just my mind was wandering back to the hotel, back to the airport, combining everything we had… leading me to this feeling of missing something.
“Damn it, Haner!” Something hit me in the chest and I put my guitar down looking at Matt and Zack who sat opposite of me with waiting expressions.
“What?” I barked not really getting what they wanted from me, I was here, I had been in time since we started and I had given them more input to this album than ever before, so we already started the recording.
“Did you listen to a word we said?” Matt asked and I sighed “What about?”
“God, he is even weirder since he is back from his ‘short holiday – to clear his head’” Zack replied and they both chuckled, making me roll my eyes.
They kept telling me that I was behaving even worse since I was back, and guess what, they were fucking right. And now I even had a reason for that, I missed the woman from my dreams, I missed the woman I met at the airport, I missed the woman I could laugh with, the woman I could love… I missed Aggie.
“I thought you wanted to clear your head, but instead you came back with even more thoughts and concerns? Will you finally tell us what you did and where you really have been? I mean it’s already 4 months since then and you said nothing.” Matt asked while he scribbled some words onto the notepad before him.
I didn’t want to talk to them about my time-out, knowing they would laugh about me, and brush it off. They didn’t know what I knew… They didn’t feel what I felt…
I remembered everything from the moment Aggie accidentally bumped into me, the moment our skin brushed, sending electric shocks all over my body, to the moment we made love for the first time, and I knew I didn’t want to let her go. I never had felt something like that before…
I can’t even believe I skipped my appointment in France and stayed the entire weekend with Aggie in the hotel, but we did! She canceled her appointment with her friend, she probably had to make something up for that later on, and she stayed…
We had so much fun together, I think I never laughed so much, never shared so much with someone I knew for such a short amount of time, but then again, I knew her…
From my dreams, I knew she was there for a reason!
And then there was the rushed goodbye, I wanted to stay, but knew I couldn’t… and so couldn’t she. She had her life, I had mine, we ran into each other and took the opportunity to share this time, but we both knew her being from there and me having to go back to the U.S., that meant we would have to part, and that came way to soon.
And instead of planning to stay in contact we had to rush away from each other and say our goodbyes quickly. We both thought it was better to make it a quick end, before suffering long, because we both knew we wouldn’t be seeing us again, not besides our dreams… but… not even there she was showing up anymore, she was gone… from my life and from my dreams.
Now I regretted not having asked her to stay in contact, maybe I would have suffered even more, but at least I knew she was fine… what I now knew was nothing… nothing at all!
“BRIAN!” Zacky’s yell roused me from my sad thoughts and he sighed loudly. “You know what?! Fuck, go home… suffer somewhere else, if you think you can be useful here, you are damn wrong!” He grabbed my arm and pulled me off the couch.
He pushed me towards the door, taking my guitar from me and opened the door sending me on my way.
What the hell!
I wasn’t that bad, was I?!
I sighed, instead of arguing with my asshole friends I decided for once, that they were right and I made my way home.
I sat in front of my TV, watching one stupid show after the other, the sun was still up and I decided sitting in my home alone wasn’t such a good idea in the end, because again my thoughts wandered to her.
If I just thought about her long enough, I could still feel her skin beneath my fingertips that smooth skin, with the tattoo on her wrist.
I kept letting my finger run over the letters on her wrist, reminding me of my best friend and about her, she giggled every now and then, when my fingers had touched the small letters.
‘Place and time always on my mind’
I could almost hear her laughter and damn I wished I could… Why didn’t I just ask for her number… why didn’t she ask for mine… she told me she knew me, of course she did, but she meant beside my dream appearances, she knew my band, my music, or she wouldn’t have made that tattoo.
Was she afraid I wouldn’t have given her my number? Fuck, why didn’t I think about that?!
I sat in my car and drove towards the beach, but I didn’t choose the beach right beside my home, I drove to my favorite spot that not everybody knew.
I needed time to think, I knew I thought I would get rid of all those disturbing dreams and thoughts by now… and I did, but it got only worse.
I walked along the shore letting the light breeze ruffle my hair, I put my sunglasses on so the last sun rays wouldn’t disturb my sight.
And again my thoughts wandered to Aggie, she cooked for me… or well we cooked, no she really did, but I enjoyed it, more than I should. But she was great in cooking and baking.
Matt would have flipped shit eating all her favorite dishes, he would make her head chief of our tour bus.
I smirked at the thought, having her this close… what I would give for that.
I heard some laughter from around the corner, I didn’t feel like running into someone, but the laughter hell… that sounded familiar… too familiar.
Before I knew it and even before I really made the conscious decision, my body was already moving into the direction of the laughter and voices.
I rounded the corner and saw a group of people, a student group as it seemed, my shoulder s slumped down and I turned around, thinking I was not only seeing things but now also hearing things… Maybe the guys were right and I was really going insane!
I breathed deeply in and out, I need to get my shit together!
“Brian?” A voice called and my heart immediately started to beat faster, I heard footsteps nearing and didn’t dare to turn around.
This could be just a fan, calm down, Haner! This might be just another trick from your head, nothing to be excited about, why would she be here!?
Get a fucking grip!
“Yeah” I slowly turned around and my eyes widened, was my mind really playing tricks on me, this couldn’t be, could it?!
“It is you” Aggie breathed out, her long her flying around in the ocean breeze, making her look more beautiful than ever.
“Oh my god” She smiled and I didn’t even dare to breath, was I finally gone crazy? Or was this real?!
And even if I was crazy, this was the craziness I would crave, because she was here.
I held my hand out to touch her cheek, meeting soft skin, and the electric shock was send through my body right away.
“Aggie” I said softly and then pulled her into my arms, nearly crushing her frame with the strength I put into.
“What are you doing here?” I hugged her closer and closer and then pulled away, afraid I hurt her.
“I’m making a semester aboard, for 4 more months. I chose Los Angeles” She smiled and my heart stopped.
“You planned that? To come here… you… I… we…” Smooth Haner, really smooth.
“No, I had signed in for that long ago, but didn’t get a chance, but on last chance someone canceled and I took the place. I need to travel for my job, you know” She smirked and I just had to kiss her. And without any second thought I just did that.
I pulled her to me, sealing her lips with mine, not even sparing a thought to the possibility that anything could have changed between we last saw us all those months ago.
“Why didn’t you fucking say that when we were together? If you need to travel, I am the man for you” I said and realized the double meaning, I had to smirk at that.
“I didn’t think-” She started but I interrupted her again with another kiss.
“I missed you” I let out, I wasn’t normally the guy to state my feelings right away, ask my friends they were currently going crazy because of that… speak of crazy…
“You need to come meet my friends, they think I have gone crazy… and I have… crazy for you” I whispered and leaned closer to her, inhaling her perfume, just as I remembered, everything like I remembered, and if she thought I would let her go, she was so wrong.
“Agnieszka?” A female voice called and I frowned, Aggie turned around laughing, “Don’t wait for me! We see us tomorrow” She yelled back and that someone turned back around.
“I hope that was what you were planning?” She asked and I smirked even more “I was not only planning for that, I would have kidnapped you otherwise” I said and took her hand in mine, letting my thumb run over her skin, making sure this wasn’t another dream.
“If this is another Shared Dream, please... don’t ever let me wake up”
Notes
So here it is, the final chapter!
The end to your birthday story!
I hope you like the story idea and how its written!
And I hope to enlighten your birthday and day before and after as long as this story lasts :)
Lots of love :) <3
@Hollie
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9/13/16