Nothing Lasts FoREVer

“I’m sorry guys… I really need to confess that I already knew! Jimmy told me, I just didn’t believe him! I’m sorry…”, I apologized.

“You told her? Why?”, Brian asked surprised.

“Well, she’s part of the family now and I caught her humming ‘Shattered by broken dreams’. There was no need to keep this from her, besides I share my tent with her.”, Jimmy replied as if the simple fact that we shared his tent was reason more than enough to tell me this.

“You guys do not intend to set up my tent, do you?”, I accused them.

“No! That tent will remain where it is! Jimmy likes your company at night too much and the thought of you gone scares the hell out of him!”, Zacky explained holding back his laughter.

“Really? Do you Jimmy?”, I teased.

“I do, Cat! And besides, I need all the time I can get to find out all your dirty little secrets!”, he winked at me.

“It’s getting late… I better get some sleep!”, that was a lie, I was just trying to avoid Jimmy. “ See you guys tomorrow. ‘Night!”, I said over my shoulder walking towards the tent.

“Cof, pussy, cof.”, he knew my intentions so he faked a coughing fit.

Although my real intentions were to escape Jimmy’s personal questions, I was kind of tired. I fell asleep a few minutes after landed my head on my pillow.

“Cat? Are you sleeping?”, Jimmy shook me a little a couple of hours later when he stepped into the tent.

“Not anymore, I’m not!”, I mumbled annoyed.

“I’m sorry… I didn’t mean to wake you.”, he whispered.

“The hell you didn’t! Spill it out!”, he stank of alcohol.

“It’s just that I’ve been wondering what were you thinking earlier when you got absentminded.”

“Did you really needed to wake me up over this?”, I was grumpy.

“I did, because I care about you!”, he was pouting.

“If you must know… I was wondering about what my mom will think about you guys.”, I sighed.

“Why? Are you afraid she might not like us?”, he was curious.

“I know that her first impression won’t be good!”, I stated.

“Why not? “

“Too much ink for her to ignore…”, I pointed at his tattoos.

“Ohh… But you are inked too!”, he chuckled.

“But I’m her daughter, she knows me better than anyone else! And I only have two for now…”

“For now? So you’re planning adding some more…”, he implied with a huge grin on his face.

“I don’t like even numbers… Three, five, seven and nine on the other hand are very good numbers!”, I explained.

“I’ve been dying to ask you something… May I?”

“Oh, boy! That can’t be good…”, I muttered. “Shoot…”, I finally said what he was waiting for.

“What happened in your life recently?”, he asked with a serious expression on his face.

“What do you mean?”, I really didn’t understand what he was asking.

“I mean… You’ve already told me about your cheating boyfriend and your false friends, but something else happened! Something really bad, something you’re trying with all your strength to exceed, something you’re avoiding to deal with.”, he specified.

WHAT THE FUCK??? Was I that easy to read? How come did he see right through me?

“I don’t know what you’re talking about… I think a cheating boyfriend and my false friends are bad enough!”, I lied.

“You would have forgive them if you weren’t so brokenhearted about that other thing! But they weren’t there to back you up, to support you, to lift you up when you needed them the most and that was the real reason why you didn't forgive them.”, he kept reading me.

“Alcohol really messes with your head, dude!”, I tried to disguise the subject, but he wasn’t that easy to elude.

“Is that so hard to trust me? It would be good for you to talk about it; you’d take a weight out of your shoulders, trust me! You’ll have to trust someone at some point…”

“You’re such a pain in the ass when you’re drunk!”, I sighed but he was right. I would have to let someone in at some point and it better be someone trustworthy.

I thought about it for a while. Should I trust Jimmy? Should I let him in? He was already in, I was just fooling myself. They all were already in, especially Jimmy. We were bonded somehow, I wasn’t able to explain it or even fully comprehend it, but we were part of each other. So I decided to give in…

“My dad was an addict; he got clean after I was born. He really was my hero, you know? I know it’s not easy quit using, and he was able to stop for me. He was my role model, I trusted him completely, and he was my confident. Last year he and my mom got divorced, and he was completely thorn about it. They still loved each other, but my mom was never able to forgive him after he cheated on her, so she thought it was best for everyone if they just got divorced. I knew that he loved her, but I was on the same page as her, you know? I never forgave his betrayal, and kind of as revenge I stopped telling him my secrets. He overdosed 8 months ago, I found him lying dead on the bathroom floor with a syringe craved on his left arm.”, tears streamed down my face.

Jimmy grabbed my arm and pulled me close, fondling my hair, trying to calm me down. “I’m sorry, baby, I had no idea…”

“I bet you’re happy now that you finally got to know my dirty little secrets.”, I was trying to make him feel guilty for making me remember what I so hard tried to forget.

“I could never be happy with your misery, love! I knew you were hiding something; I had no idea what it was… You really need to stop blaming yourself for his death, baby! What you were feeling was completely normal… He was your role model, you felt betrayed too! You were resentful, disappointed, it would take a while before you could trust him again. It’s not your fault what he did to himself, it’s not your fault!”, he kept me in his arms, holding me really tightly, fondling my hair once in a while.

I fell asleep crying in his arms; I woke up still in his arms the next morning. I tried my best not to wake him up, but I failed.

“Hey…How are you?”, he greeted.

“I’m fine, thank you! I didn’t mean to wake you, I’m sorry! I need to go now; I’m getting a little late! I’m going home before I get to work, so…”, I tried to explain.

“It’s okay… I wanted to check on you too, so you did me a favor. Do you want me to go with you? I could meet your mom and prepared her for what’s coming next!”, he blinked at me.

Notes

Is Cat taking Jimmy to meet his mom?
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