Maya’s POV

This day had been the cherry on top of the ice cream, and I mean that not in a good way, so I think, the last drop to let the water overflow would hit it better.

It was the worst days since we were back with Avenged, the worst day since… ever.
I was spending all my time mostly alone, cause my best friend was playing kissy face with brown eyes and Jimmy was doing almost the same with Jess, so I was left alone feeling hangover, guilty and just completely lost.

And to top everything Larry finally showed up at the end of the concert bringing even more tension and confusion into our group.

I saw the panicked expression on Ave’s face and I really wanted to help her out, but I wasn’t on top of my game either, not really able to take the full on lie onto myself, especially when the guys showed up to make everything even worse and taking the fake story in another direction.

Larry must have known right away that we were lying and that something was up with us.
So in the end we had no other way then telling him the half truth, that Brian and Ave were back together, but keep far enough away from the may or may not be pregnant topic.

For Larry it would already be enough to find out that Ave and Brian were back together, and he might freak out about that already.

So the dinner was mostly awful but we could finally manage to tell Larry what he needed to know and then everything seemed to happen at once, Larry questioned what was going on between me and Matt, I tried to calm the situation down, which seemed to piss Matt off even more, he stormed off and left me even more confused and gapping after him…

I didn’t really pay much attention to the question Larry asked afterwards, I just heard Brian say who my boyfriend was and that Larry didn’t approve of Ben, but I really didn’t have any thoughts left over for that right now, so I excused myself away, and went after Matt.

How dare he make such a show in front of everyone, and left me in the dark the entire time, I called after him, and chased him up the stairs, I tried to confront him, get all the information out of him that I longed to have for these past days, like why he would be pushing me away, when he said he wanted to be my friend, why he was acting so loving one moment and then like an iceberg the other, why he was making me long for him, miss him and realize that… that he was…

But before I could think that thought to the end, Matt accused me of so many things, he hurt me with his words of running away from the people I loved, and even that I would do the same in the end with Ave, and I would never do that… She was my best friend, I would never leave her, and he knew better then threw those words in my face.

I had enough, if he thought he could just keep on insulting me, he was wrong, I was done with this. If he couldn’t be my friend, and thought so bad of me, maybe it wasn’t making any sense.
But as easily as I thought, he wouldn’t let go now, just like I hadn’t let go of him, we were both hot tempered and both up for a fight, we always were, that’s how our dynamic worked, and it had been one of the things, Matt and I had loved about each other…

"What the hell is your problem? Why won’t you just fucking admit how you feel? Admit that you still love me! Admit that you were wrong to leave me all those months ago!”
I looked at him with wide eyes, and huffed out a breath, trying to turn away, trying to get away from him, my brain needed time to process this back and forth between us, even though my heart was pounding so fast, feeling so much for him still, his words making it even more real, so my eyes moved up to meet his hazel eyes staring at me with determination.

Waiting for me to tell him, he was wrong, when we both knew that he was right, I did love him. I had never stopped, I knew that but I had pushed it away, I had tried to forget about it, but since he began to take his distance making me realize what I was losing when he shut me out, it was getting more and more clear.

Still I felt the need to tell him to let me think about everything, this wasn’t as easy as it seemed, at least not for me.

I could easily admit that it was wrong from me to leave all those months ago, I should have handled the situation better. I told him that much already back in the UK, but now saying to his face that I was so confused about my feelings, when he knew how hard this was for me?

He had me caged against the wall, his arms braced on each side of my head, and I held my breath for a moment before I opened my mouth and began to say,

“Matt I-” But I didn’t get any farther, Matt wouldn’t let me say anything else, he stopped my words, before I could form them, he leaned in and kissed me. It was a hard kiss, his lips were demanding, his big hands were sneaking around my head, and grabbed a handful of my hair, making this even more intense and sinful, just like it had always been between us. I gasped when a shock of electricity ran through when our lips touched and Matt took the opportunity to let our tongues dance.

He tasted like pure heaven, he was the taste I missed so badly, nothing could make up for the way, Matt’s body felt against mine, and nothing would ever feel as good as this was feeling right now.When Matt pulled away we were both breathless but he didn’t move away, was still standing so close before me, that our bodies were still touching, but still demanded in this hard voice,

“Tell me that you didn’t feel that!” He raged “I dare you to say you don’t love me!”

So many emotions were flying through my body, so many thoughts but without a direction, just one thing seemed crystal clear now, I couldn’t tell him that I didn’t love him, cause that would be a lie.

“Maya, tell me you can just walk away from me, cause you didn’t feel anything! Tell me the truth!” Matt demanded and I opened my mouth but he interrupted me again, a hand landed softly on my cheek “Because I know I love you and I always did, and even as stubborn as you are M, you can’t deny the love between us”

His hand fell away because I still haven’t recovered from the kiss and his words, and the realization, that it was true. I love him, still did, and he was the one thing missing for my happiness, he was where I belonged, even though I needed longer to realize it.

I looked up into Matt’s loved filled eyes, combined with sadness and hurt, and I planned on making them just shine with love again, because that’s what he deserved and nothing else.

“I love you, Matt.” I said and his eyes snapped to mine “You are right, I should have never tried to deny that, I feel the same… I tried to push it away and was a stubborn bitch. God, I always loved you, missed you… longed for you… I should have talked to you and not broken up, this would have never happened… we wouldn’t have been apart for so long…” I couldn’t stand the distance between us anymore, so I snaked my arms back around his neck and kissed him hard, Matt immediately opened up to me and he smiled into our kiss.

He lifted me up into his arms, and leaned me against the wall, the kiss grew hotter and hotter, his lips demanding more, his tongue tracing my lip, his teeth scratching my skin, making me shiver all over, making my heart pound so fast it nearly burst.

“God Matt.. I missed you…so bad” I moaned into the kiss and he nodded against my neck, his lips trailing down my throat when a thought hit me or rather a name… Ben!

I pushed Matt away, panic freezing my veins, I was still with Ben, even though I now finally knew that I belonged to Matt, I had to talk to Ben, I couldn’t keep this up.
I had to set things straight before that, I couldn’t betray Ben like that, I already did enough. He knew something was up, he had guessed it, and he had been right…

Had everyone around me even Ben noticed that I was missing a puzzle piece to my heart, and that this belonged to Matt, no matter how hard I tried to deny it. I took a hesitant step back and Matt looked at me concerned.“M? What’s wrong?” He stepped forward and I swallowed thickly.
“I-I need to… I mean… this… I shouldn’t have done that… not before…” I stuttered totally confused and guilt washing all over me.
“Don’t say that… Look at me, babe. What do you mean.. not before..” He trailed off and he sighed.
“Bruce” He answered himself and I nodded.
“I need to call him… I can’t do this to him. He should… I should…” Oh god, how would I tell him? He always suspected something…

Matt took my shoulders in his hands and slowly pulled me into his embrace, he kissed my forehead and I calmed down, my hands sneaked around his body and I breathed him in, knowing right there this is what home means. And then I remembered the words Brian had said, I closed my eyes, breathed deeply in and out and pictured the thing I wanted the most, with no rush, and there was exactly this moment, and the feeling of love.

Matt holding me in his arms, lovingly whispering in my ear, his hands roaming over my body, soothingly and I knew that this was it, and I regretted that I tried too hard to hold on to something I knew wouldn’t work out in the end.

“Calm down, babe, that’s right…” He whispered as he slowly pulled away, looking deeply into my eyes, and then placing a small kiss on my lips.
“Let me take you to my room, babe. It will be okay, I promise” Matt said and I shook my head, he didn’t get it, I couldn’t come to his room, not as long as I haven’t talked to Ben.

I pulled my phone from my bag and my hands were shaking, but Matt put his around mine, stopping me. “I shouldn’t have kissed you, not before I talked to him. I am not like that, Matt… He doesn’t deserve to be treated that way.” I gasped out feeling all the guilt weighing me down, but Matt just lifted his eyebrow.

“That’s a topic where we disagree. But babe, wait until tomorrow it won’t make sense to call him now. You are too upset to talk, let’s calm down, you shouldn’t call in the middle of the night, he won’t believe you are thinking straight.” Matt said and he left a little more unsaid as it seemed but I shook my head, maybe… maybe he was right. Still I didn’t like to wait with such information, Ben had been nothing but good to me when we were in a relationship, so I had to come clean.

I hadn’t even noticed that I was suddenly standing in Matt’s hotel room and that he had pushed me down on the bed.
I looked around and frowned, I shouldn’t be staying here, not tonight, not before everything was really settled.

“Don’t even think about going anywhere, babe.” Matt sat down beside me and pulled me onto the bed in a lying position. He hugged me into his body and I felt like all the energy had left me, but still it was a good feeling, finally being back in his arms, letting him take care of me and just letting my body be falling and knowing to be caught by his strong arms.

“You don’t really believe, after you admitting that you love me, that I will let you go anywhere, do you?” Matt whispered in my ear, while his hands pulled my hips even closer to his.

I had to close my eyes, his evidence of arousal was poking into my back and I had to bite my lips, nothing like that would be happening tonight, I had to tell Matt that much.
“Matt, as much as I want us to-” I said between breathes but he just placed small kisses on my cheek and throat.

“I know, let me just hold you this night. I waited months, I will get through another night, even if it’s hard… and I mean… literally hard” Matt pressed a little closer, making me gasp out a breathe, he was killing me, “I just want to feel you close, knowing this is not a dream… and you will be gone the next morning” He sighed and I turned to face him.

I placed a small kiss on his lips and he opened up immediately, god… how could I ever think that I could live without this, without him. Nothing was even slightly comparable to the feelings Matt roused inside of me.

“I’m sorry, big guy.” I told him after the kiss “I didn’t realize just how much I missed you, how much I love you… I tried to replace you, when you are not replaceable… you are the missing puzzle to my heart, thank you for believing in us” I whispered in his ear and I felt Matt’s arm tighten around me, he just whispered back “I would have never given up on you”

I woke to the sunlight and disturbing music, what the hell was that? I blinked my eyes open and felt myself being in warm cocoon of hot male flesh and that’s when all the things from last night came crashing back down.

Larry showed up, Matt and me fighting, arguing, kissing, making up and sleeping here together. There were still a lot of things left unsaid between us, but the most important thing was clear, we belonged together and we both knew and realized it.

I looked up and saw his sleeping face, he had his arm around my hip, while his leg was laying between mine and I smiled, he pretty much wanted to make sure I’m not going anywhere, as it seemed and now I also knew the sound I heard, my phone…

“M?” Matt murmured and I had to smile again “Yeah?” His eyes snapped open, and he looked down on me “Oh thank god.” He pulled me closer and gave me a quick kiss, “I need to get up and call Ben” I said and Matt’s face got a sad and angry expression.

“I’ll go over to my room, I need to do that now” I slowly rolled out of bed but Matt put a hand to my arm stopping me.
“Call him from here, I promise I’ll be quiet. I just… you should get used to me not wanting to leave your side, now that I got you back, I’ll be glued to your side, babe” Matt smiled and placed another kiss on my lips and I shook my head, silly guy, but my heart was full of love for him.
“Can you really be quiet? Or I am leaving, this will be hard enough anyway.” I told him and Matt zipped his lips up and I sighed.

I got out of bed, pulled a pair of sweatpants on and grabbed my phone, seeing the missed call this morning indeed was Ben. My hands were starting to sweat when I pushed the call button, I hated to hurt Ben, but it would be the right thing to do, I shouldn’t let him wait any longer.

I didn’t look at Matt the entire time, he was still sitting in his bed, his eyes were locked on me, I knew it, and I knew why he wanted to be here when I called Ben, he was afraid I would back out. But I wouldn’t and that’s why I let him listen in… even if this was making it even worse.

“Love, I tried it earlier, wasn’t sure if you are awake already?! Did I wake you?” He asked and he sounded exhausted, I was probably putting him through this.
“Kind of, but… that’s okay. I planned on calling you as soon as I got up” I told him honestly and he chuckled.

“That’s good… Are you feeling a little better, love?” He asked and I swallowed thickly, god… How should I do this?
“I-I yes… But Ben, I have to tell you something… and I am sorry that it’s via phone. I shouldn’t do that, but… you deserve to know as soon as possible.” I said and breathed deeply in and out.
“Maya, what are you talking about?!” His voice grew pensive, and I thought it would be better to end it quick then drag it on.

“I’m sorry, Ben. It’s over… I realized that… Matt and I, that we belong together, and that I am still in love with him” I said in one rush and the line was silent, I didn’t even hear Ben’s breathing.
“Ben?” I asked carefully and still nothing.
“Ben, did you hear me?” I asked again and I heard heavy breathing next.

“Maya, you don’t mean that. I know you don’t fucking mean that, we belong together. He broke you, he hurt you, do you remember. But you and I that’s special. He is just talking you into something that’s not right. Don’t listen to the shit that asshole is telling you! Fuck, Maya. Go to the airport and get into the next fucking plane! I’ll show you what we have! You are confused!” Ben shouted and cursed and I cringed.

“I’m sorry, but it’s the truth.” I said and what else could I tell him, nothing would make this any easier for him, which made me feel bad.
“No, no! Fuck, no! I won’t accept that! We are not done, M! We are not fucking done! Did you hear me! This is not over! This can’t be over! I love you! Fuck!” Ben cursed and I knew he was pacing now, probably pulling his hair in frustration.

“Ben, please. Don’t make this harder… I really loved the time we spent together and you are an amazing guy, you were there when I needed you… but it’s not-” I stopped when he began to laugh without humor and my eyes looked up to meet Matt’s, he didn’t really look happy how this was going either.

“It’s not, what you had? Fuck that, of course it’s not! It’s better… you will realize that, once we are back together, just fucking come home!” Ben yelled again and I sighed.

“I am home, Ben. I’m so sorry” With that I hung up, not able to drag this on any longer, and I felt even worse now, knowing I had hurt him, but then strong arms pulled me against a firm chest and the pain didn’t feel as bad as before anymore.

Brian’s POV

I was glad that Matt and Maya had distracted the attention of the dinner so Ave and I were a little out of the spotlight, but that soon changed, when both Maya and Matt were gone and didn’t seem to show back up at all.

Ave and I were restless, I met her eyes every now and then and saw just how bad she seemed to feel about the whole situation.
I know how close she and her father always had been and lying to him now or keeping something like the pregnancy was a huge thing and Ave was probably feeling like shit.

I wished I could make this any easier for her, but I had no idea how. We couldn’t tell Larry, or he would never let me see Ave again, he would freak out and probably throw me out of the band, or wouldn’t want anything to do with us anymore.

We had to know for sure what was going on and then slowly ease him into it. It was good that he knew we were back together, and didn’t seem to completely freak out, so that was good thing.
That was a slowly easing him into it, right? Step by step and we were on it.

Just three more days and we were home, back in Cali, then we would have the appointment at the doc, that Ave and I chose, so we had it all settled, we would get this done.

“Brian? Can I talk to you alone for a second?” Larry asked when everyone was about to stand up and leave.

I quickly let my eyes move over to Ave, seeing her eyes widen “It’s okay, doll. I won’t rip his head off just yet.” Larry told Ave with a kiss to her forehead. “Greeting to Maya, hope she will get the things straightened out with Matt and Ben” He said and Ave nodded “I will. It was nice to see you, Daddy.”

“It was a nice surprise, even though I hoped you would tell me earlier if something like this happened in your life again” Larry chided her and Ave looked guilty her cheeks flushed.
“I know, I’m sorry. We are just back together and didn’t want to-” She said and trailed off but her father seemed to get it.

“It’s okay, Avery.” He nodded and patted her cheek lightly. “Next time I’ll call you more and keep you updated” Ave said and I saw her cringe a little, knowing she was lying to him yet again.
“Okay, have a good evening. We see us back at home… I love you, baby girl” Larry kissed Ave’s cheek and she smiled at him “Love you too, Daddy.”

When Ave slowly and reluctantly moved away Larry sat back down with me on the table, his eyes moved over me, but he didn’t say anything.
I was getting a little more nervous, did he know something, and that was why he wanted me to stay?

“Ave left you not without a reason.” Larry finally said and I was nearly sighing, that it was that topic again.
“I know. We talked it out, and I apologized, something like that won’t ever happen again. I love her, and I will never risk losing her again. I suffered so bad when she was away from me, nothing in this world would make me want to go through that again.” I told him honestly and Larry nodded.

“You know how I think about you and your behavior, your reputation Brian. If I see you mistreating my little girl again, I will make you pay for that, dearly. And that won’t be only in losing the love of your life. I will make sure, that you think the time you suffered before were a piece of cake, message received?” Larry’s narrowed eyes and I swallowed thickly.

“Got it.” I nodded quickly and Larry smiled “Good, tell Matt the same, cause I know this will end probably the same way. Make sure he got the message as well. I won’t accept anything happen to Maya either.” Larry added and I nodded.

“Sure, will make him get the message, no problem. We will keep your threatening words in mind, at all times.” I grinned and Larry smirked.
“Perfect, see you back in Cali” I waved a final time, when Larry made his way out of the hotel and whistled for a cab.

I sighed and when I walked up the stairs to the room that Ave and I shared, she was already waiting for me at the door.
“Babe!” She yelled and threw herself in my arms “What did he want? Was it bad? Oh god I felt so bad” Ave rushed out and I sighed.

“It’s okay. He just threatened my and Matt’s life if we hurt his girls again, so nothing new.” I smirked and Ave hid her face in my chest.
“I’m sorry.” She mumbled, but I put my hand underneath her chin and made her look at me.
“Don’t be.” I kissed her lips “Now, let’s finally move to the plan that I had for us all along” I guided her towards our room and was glad when I finally had Ave all to myself again.

After Ave and I made sweet love and I had her all cuddled up into my side, I could finally let sleep overcome me, just a few more days and we would be home.
We still had some talks to do and some things to settle… but we would manage, that was the last thought before sleep overtook me.

When I woke up Ave was gone from my side, and the instant panic set right in that something happened, but when I instantly sat up, I saw Ave coming out of the bathroom already dressed, just combing her wet blonde hair.

“Hey babe” She smiled when she saw me looking at her. “Hi love, why are you up already? Where are you going?” I swung my legs out of the bed and watched her with interest.
“I was about to go over to Maya’s room. I feel bad about not checking in on her yesterday, and you should do the same with Matt.” Ave suggested and I nodded, she was right, we should check up on our best friends.

“Alright, but first, we should get us some breakfast, maybe they had a fight and they are still sleeping. We shouldn’t wake them right away… it’s still early.” I told her and Ave nodded “Fine, we get a quick breakfast and then we will check on our best friends. I’m afraid everything escalated yesterday. Maya was already so sad and feeling hurt and I don’t know if she would do something drastic if… you know… it escalated” Ave said and I nodded.
“I don’t think so… but let’s find out… I bet it’s not even half as bad” But I wasn’t too sure myself, I was just glad that Ave and I were past all that, and she was safely tucked into my side.

Notes

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