Maya’s POV

I chuckled at Ben who more lay in my car then he was sitting, his eyes closed but his hand rested on my thigh, his finger drawing lazy circles on my pants.
“Should I just bring you home and drop you of, so you can sleep?” I asked into the comfortable silence a small smirk coming over my face, even though I hoped he didn’t want that.

I didn’t know why but Ben made me feel good even when he was just sitting next to me, and he always touched me, like he couldn’t keep his hands off of me and I liked to think that.

He could be the cocky bastard he mostly acted like, but I knew that he was just joking, sometimes it was hard to see beneath the mask someone was putting on. I knew that too well, trying to hide most of my emotions all the time. I wanted to be strong for Ave, and not show how much I still missed Matt… but I had to put a stop to that, Matt was past… and I was in the now, I had to concentrate on that.

And why not enjoy the feeling Ben was giving me, it looked like it was faith that we ran into each other on that party, like it was meant to be, him distracting me, giving me my fun back… He was good in that, even though he sometimes played the ass, when we were alone, he acted different, even though I did like his sarcasm, but I also knew Ave didn’t like Ben or rather didn’t like what Ben and I were doing.

I haven’t talked to her about it, but I saw the looks she was throwing Ben and in return I saw the annoyed look on Ben’s face when Ave was calling. I guess those two wouldn’t become best friends, but they didn’t have to.
Ben and I were just having fun, but I don’t think that we would get any far tonight in the state that he was in apparently.

“What are you talking about, babe?” His hand slipped higher on my thigh, nearly meeting my core.
“I mean, that you are drunk off your ass, babe” I replied and stretched the babe extra long and Ben just chuckled.
“Hmm.. you calling me babe, could get used to that” He slurred and I froze for a second, Matt had always called me babe, and I don’t know why, but it just popped to my mind.

“Maya? What’s wrong? You’re all stiff all of a sudden?” Ben sat up and looked at me from the side, his eyes now looking clearer than before, his slur only slightly noticeable.
“No, I’m good… all good. Should I just drop you off?” I asked again, not feeling like staying anymore.
“NO, hell no… I wanted to spend the night with you, M. I wasn’t sitting there with boring old James the entire night to just let you drop me off in the end.” Ben frowned at me when I parked into his driveway.

“What got into your mind? What did I say?” He stared at me and damn, he already knew me too well in these situations, now looking past my mask.
“It’s nothing.” I shook my head, and opened my mouth and was about to tell him goodnight so he would get out and leave me alone to my thoughts.
Thoughts that were going back to Matt and what had been…

“It’s not nothing if you got a sad expression on your face…” Ben said and suddenly he opened the door and was gone from my view, perfect now I even ruined that.
But then my door opened and Ben held his hand out for me “I don’t think that we should-”
But he had pulled me out of the car and led me towards his home before I could finish my sentence.

“Don’t think so much Maya.. I told you I will make you feel good, and I will make you forget about the things in the past… Just you and me” Ben smirked and I sighed but led him drag me into his home.

But instead of leading me up to his bedroom, he sat me down on his couch, he came back with two drinks from his bar and set them in front of us.

“You don’t have to answer me, but if you want to… I am here… We said it’s all about fun, but I can still be your friend…So what did I say that upset you?”Ben got into the space behind me, he leaned onto his couch and pulled my back to his front.
He began to massage my shoulders and every now and then he placed small kisses in between, I moaned at the feeling he caused inside of me.

“You called me babe… I know it’s not the first time, but it reminded me of… Matt” I didn’t know why I told him that and when I said Matt’s name Ben stopped and I heard his sharp intake of breath but then he continued and his lips were near my ear, dragging me back into that amazing state of total relaxation.

His hands moved around to my front, his calloused fingers slipping underneath my top and massaging my breasts, before I even knew it my bra was gone and the top lay beside us, he had moved next to me and pushed me down on my back, his mouth latched onto my hardened nipples and he sucked and bite them until I couldn’t stand it anymore.

My hands found his pants and I quickly opened them, but he stopped me and held my hands still before I could slip them inside his pants so I could reach his erection.
“No, M… It’s about you, not me…” Ben growled into my ear and I sighed “Do your worst” I had to chuckle when he lifted his eyebrow at me with a smirk, “I will, love… believe me”

He opened my pants and slipped them together with my panties down my legs, he pushed my legs apart and smirked “Another taste… I can’t wait to get another taste, you know that you make me addictive, right?” I had no idea what he was talking about, but when his tongue began to swirl around my clit and his lip piercing just intensified the feelings I moaned out loud.
“Right, Maya… moan for me, tell me what you like” He murmured near my opening and I felt his fingers lazily move up and down my wet folds.

“What?” His fingers just kept playing with me and my brain was only slowly recognizing what he was saying.
“Tell me what you want, love” Ben said and I swallowed “You… more… please…” I groaned out when one finger finally entered me.
“More?” He asked and his lips were back on my clit, sucking and licking and he added another finger into me and began to swirl them around.

“Oh god.. Ben.. more” I lifted my hips up to give him better access and he used it, “BEN! YES!” His fingers began to pound in and out of me, while his tongue played with my little nub making me moan again and again.
“Close.. so close” I moaned out and when he changed the angle and his lips sucked even more vigorously, he sent me over the edge and I had to close my eyes so intense was the orgasm.

When I opened my eyes again, I looked into Ben’s smiling face “Come on, love. Let’s bring you to bed” He got up and I saw the straining erection in his pants, “Shouldn’t we take care of that” I smiled and Ben shook his head “Just give me a moment, before I climb in bed with you”

Then he stayed true to his words, he brought me to bed, gave me one of his shirts to sleep in and cuddled up behind me and we went to sleep, and my thoughts stayed in the here and now.

James’ POV

Why wouldn’t Danny’s and Ben’s word not leave my head, I knew I shouldn’t be listening to these assholes.
They didn’t want the best for me, they wanted to confuse me and wanted to fuck with my head, I knew that much.
And Danny especially, he just wanted me to fuck up so he had a chance with Avery, but I wouldn’t let him get near her… over my dead fucking body.

He just didn’t get when a woman said no, he had to try again and again, why in hell did he chose Avery and not Maya?
Because he was into blonds? Maybe… Because she was the shyer type? Most probably…
Because Maya had already told him to go to hell… Most likely…

And then again, my thoughts always returned to that night at the club, now a week ago when they had their first working night… and Ben and Danny made me drunk off my ass and then they talked into my conscious.

“I’m telling you Cass, you gotta find something dirty about Gates… if you find something show it to her… Avery needs to realize that the past is the past and that he is moving on…” Ben slurred and I saw his eyes wander to Avery and Maya standing at the bar.

“Why?” I asked back, my voice a little rougher than normal, which always happened when I got drunk.
“Because, you stupid shit, she is still stuck in GATES LAND! And you need her out of there, or she will never let you out of the friendzone and into the OH JAMES zone” Danny laughed loudly, and damn did he always talk this loud?

“What do you mean? I should find pictures of Brian and other women and point them out to her? How sick is that? That could only be a thought only coming out of your sick brain, Worsnop” I shook my head, not believing what they were telling me.

“God James, if you want her to move on… you should take everything in account” Ben shrugged and I narrowed my eyes at him.
“If there are pics from Brian, there might also be some from Matt, will you show them to Maya… Remind her of the past? You remember what I told you earlier” I asked and Ben’s eyes narrowed to slits, I could see his jaw muscles working, so he didn’t like that I pointed that out, did he?

Did he think he could keep this a secret, how often did Ben Bruce fuck a girl more than twice and let her come to his home whenever she wants… haven’t seen that one before, so he could say whatever he wanted, something was going on with him…

“We should concentrate on Blondie and not on the other hottie” Danny slurred and his eyes moved to Ave, lingering there way too long for my taste and then moved over to Maya “Hey! M, get your ass over here and bring us more drinks, will you?” Danny yelled and Maya showed him the finger.

“She has fire, right Ben? You should know” Ben just grinned and when Maya indeed came over bringing us more drinks Ben stole a kiss from her before slapping her butt when she walked away, and I let my eyes wander to Avery, she looked at me as well, she gave me a smile, and I wished I could do the same to her, kissing her and maybe do other things… because, damn that skirt was riding high when she was sitting there at the bar, her legs looking delicious and-

“And will you do it James? I bet it’s easy to find something on Gates, he is a manwhore, he will be already on the hunt for his next lay… Just keep your eyes open… show her, and BOOM she lays in your arms and wants to forget everything but you and your coc-” I held my hand in front of Danny’s mouth when Avery walked past our table, afraid she could hear what these fuckers had been talking about.

I mean, I couldn’t do that… that was just a dumb idea, she would be crushed seeing more pictures of Gates and other girls… and what if there weren’t any pictures… what if Gates realized he made a mistake?

Fuck, maybe I wouldn’t be thinking about this bullshit, if Ave would be at least giving me something, but since the past week, she was again having these mood swings, but it rather went downhill then up.

I really really tried to be a friend, but it was getting harder and harder, she was so fucking gorgeous and she didn’t even realize it, I had taken her out to get breakfast with me, almost every morning, because Maya had been to her classes or absent by that one band mate of mine.
And I didn’t want Avery to be alone, when one morning we had a band meeting, and showed up together with Maya and Ben at their home afterwards, Avery had been still in bed watching sad movies.

Maya had thrown me and Ben out which earned me a bruise to the arm from Ben, cause he still thought I wasn’t putting enough effort in it, but hell I did… I just didn’t want to push her away, she became too important for me then just act like an anonymous fuck, she was way more than that.

When I kissed her, I mean when I really kissed her after her first day of work, I had no idea what had come over me, I was so drunk and she looked so damn appetizing that I couldn’t stay away, and that kiss, god she had tasted like heaven… a heaven I wanted to go right back to, but hell I didn’t dare…

So what should I do now? Listen to my friends, or just wait some more and hope that Avery would come around and realize that we were good together?

Brian’s POV

“Hey Syn, you sitting here all alone?” An unknown voice whispered in my ear, and I lifted my head to look where that voice was coming from.
“Who are you?” I slurred, the alcohol had been flowing and it went down my throat like fucking honey.
“Jenny” The voice said and she moved from beside me to sitting nearly on my lap, her lips moving back to my ear and whispering what she could do to me that I have never had anyone do before.

Her lips brushed my ear “accidentally” of course and I grinned, this was what I needed a lot of alcohol, my best friend… fuck where was my friend.. Oh there…

“Yo Matt” I held my glass up to toast to him and he nodded at me, also a girl sitting on his lap.
“Cheers” He slurred right back and I grinned, this is really what we needed, something to numb the pain from the inside, and something to distract me from the outside.

The girl began to rub herself on me and her hand wandered to my pants, maybe this time I would get through with it?
We have been in clubs since 5 nights in a row, I believe, or was it 6? 4? I lost count, but who cares anyway, not that I had a girlfriend who would care about that, right?

Shit, there.. my own fucking fault again, making me think about her. “Syn, don’t you want to leave and talk in a more private area” The girls who’s name I already forgot whispered in my ear.

Her hand rubbed over my crotch and her lips were back on my ear, biting and sucking, but my lust had suddenly vanished, only the thought of Avery made me not want to be with any other woman, and again I would be going home alone… fuck this, why would my thoughts always return to her, when I was here just to prove I didn’t need her?!

I looked at the girl beside me and she had green eyes and blonde hair, not at all reminding me of the woman I still tried to forget, I tried to remember the fact that Ave was in someone else arms right now, so I grabbed Kelly? Or Whatever her name was, face and crashed my lips against hers, her tongue went into my mouth almost immediately and her hands were on my shoulders, she moved onto my lap when I suddenly felt a hand on my shoulder.

“Brian, we gotta leave” Matt stood there, his eyes looking red from too less sleep and too much alcohol.
“Who says that?” I asked looking at the girl.
“We leaving in a few, we need to get to the bus” Matt motioned to his phone and I nodded, right, next bus right…
“Sorry, babe, gotta go” I set the girl away from me and when she wanted to hand me her number I told her I wouldn’t call anyway, she huffed and then stormed off.

When we reached the bus all lights were still on and when Matt and I stumbled up the steps we saw all our band mates including Jess, Matt and Jason Berry sitting there staring at us.“Did we miss a birthday?” I joked and I saw only shaking heads.
“What’s wrong? Someone died?” Matt asked behind me and Zack stood up making space on the bench.
“Will you guys sit down for a moment, we gotta talk to you… both of you” Jimmy announced and I haven’t seen Jimmy look this serious.. like.. in forever.

“Why? What’s wrong?” Matt asked and followed the instructions, while I shook my head “Can’t we do that tomorrow, I don’t think I am able to process any of the things you want to tell us, this sounds like serious shit”I said but Jimmy stopped me with a hand to my jeans and pulled me back.
“Sit Haner” I rolled my eyes, “Fine, but don’t Haner me.”

“We have been watching you these past days… and it’s really not funny anymore.” Zack said and I looked up to him.
“What? What is not funny?” I asked confused, what was this shit about?

“You two, and your behavior. We know you are having a hard time, but it’s fucking months ago and you guys behaving like fucking morons.” Zack said and rubbed a hand over his face.
“What?” Matt nearly yelled and I agreed, what the fuck did he know!? And why did he care?!

“He is right, I wouldn’t have used his words, but…” Matt Berry announced “Have you even realized that your shows suck? And that you two are the reasons for that?! Matt forgets more lyrics than ever, he doesn’t even talk to the crowd anymore, and you fuck up solo’s, forget to start a song and sit all evening on the steps on the stage, fuck guys.. I have never seen you like this before, it’s fucking scary.”

“What? That’s not right… Tell him, Jimmy!” I looked at my closest friend of all, but he wouldn’t meet my eyes “Damn… I wish I could, but he is right, you guys are just from partying to drinking and back around in that circle, and I know what I’m talking about, I missed shows because of being drunk, but do you remember what we said? We said, those kids are paying money for shows, for shows to see our fucking best behavior, our best shows, from one to the other, no matter what… A drink or two, fuck no one would say anything about that, even three or four, but you guys didn’t just push the limits, you crossed them…” Jimmy shook his head and I couldn’t believe that, we couldn’t have been that bad, could we?

“Do you even remember everything from the shows? From the party?” Johnny asked and Matt closed his eyes “Yeah… but I also remember the other shit” He sighed and wanted to react pissed off and scream and tell them to go to hell, but I couldn’t, I just felt empty… what if they were right?
What if this got out of hand?!

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