Unholy Confessions & Profound Bounds
Chapter Two
Hannah
How did I end up here?
I was just a simple girl from Scotland who read too many books and hid away from the wold far too much, and now here I am, moving out of an apartment and onto the open road with my two best friends in the whole world.
At the fresh age of sixteen, I wasn’t classed as ‘normal’ and I never have been after high school. I hated the people I had classes with, I hated the looks I got and the things people would whisper about me. I would rather have been with my computer, my phone and my books than hanging around with big groups of people so I quickly got myself a reputation as a bit of a loner, but I didn’t mind at all because it was true. The only people I were close to was my parents and my older brother, Jamie. I spent a lot of my time online while hiding out in my bedroom, and eventually I met a friend, a real friend. Erin was someone I could talk to for hours, and soon we were IM’ing all day every day and we made the time difference work since we were so far away from each other.
Over the space of four years, there was not one day where we didn’t speak to each other. We grew from teenagers into young adults together, we wrote letters, sent gifts and wished we could be together for so long. She was pretty much my only friend for four years, and we were always confiding in one another, I told her about how badly life was treating me and how much I wanted out but she was always there to remind me that I had so much left to do with my life and there were so many years ahead of me to be happy.
At eighteen, I met someone, someone much closer to home, his name was Andrew and I fell head over heels in love with him. Erin was happy for him and even gave him the best friend speech, he thought Erin and I were adorable as best friends. Andrew and I were together for two years, but after one year things started to turn sour. He became jealous over everything, especially the time I would spend talking with Erin, and eventually things got physical and Jamie found out and suddenly Andrew stopped coming around to the house.
At twenty, I was alone again, but I still had Erin and she had even introduced me to her friend, Izzy. She was just as crazy and fun loving as Erin was and we quickly became good friends, too. I spoke with Izzy almost as much as I spoke with Erin and found that the two of us could talk about almost everything.
Suddenly, my twenty first birthday was upon us and my family surprised me with a one way ticket to Nebraska as well as the key to an apartment which already had the first month’s rent paid on it. Turns out, Erin had informed my family of an apartment that was for rent down the corridor from her and they’d jumped at the chance to get me in there and over to Erin.
I’ve never cried so much in my life as much as I did when I got off that plane and Erin was there to meet me at the gates. It was a total movie moment when I walked through the gate and there she was with a sign with my name on it and a huge smile on her face. We spotted one another, I dropped my hand luggage and we ran towards one another, meeting in the middle. We dropped to the floor together, a mess of tangled limbs and tears.
Izzy travelled into town two weeks later and ended up finding herself a place not far from our building and the three of us were inseparable. We didn’t need anyone but each other.
Now, three years later, we decided that we weren’t doing everything that we could with our lives, we realised that there was more to
life than living in one place and working the same shitty jobs five days a week, so we packed everything up and left.
I decided that I would rather pay for a full tank of petrol every once in a while instead of paying rent. Who needs to eat home cooked meals every night when I can eat greasy burgers every day if I want to, I don’t need a home with a huge closet because even now I don’t have that much stuff, I’m perfectly happy living out of a duffel bag and sleeping in motel rooms. For now at least, but who knows what the future will bring.
~~~~
I don’t know exactly how many hours we’ve been on the road, but we’ve made a few toilet stops, gotten some directions and made good work on the snacks that Erin had packed up for us.
Erin was driving, Izzy was up front and I was in the back seat, sitting in the middle of the other two girls so that I could see out the front window.
Izzy had her phone plugged into the car stereo and was letting it play through all of her music, and it was at times like this that I thanked the heavens that the three of us had the same music taste because it meant there were no arguments over what we had to listen to while we drove.
~~~~
Castiel
Dean drove us to Omaha, of course I would have much preferred to have taken us there myself, but he insisted on driving and over the past few months that we have spent together I have grown to deal with the car rides across the country although I do find them time consuming.
Dean pulled outside a motel not far from where we were to meet his friend Charles and told me to stay in the car while he paid for a
room for us. I don’t know why he always insisted on making sure that I had my own bed, I don’t sleep and there is no reason for me to have a bed, he could save himself money every night on a room with one bed.
When Dean came back to the car for his me and his bags, I followed closely behind him and into the motel room.
“Why do you insist on spending so much money on a room with two beds every night when I don’t need a bed?” I asked “I’ve told
you forty-six times already that I don’t sleep,”
“I know you don’t sleep,” He groaned, dropping himself onto his chosen bed “But when two dudes turn up at a motel for a few nights and take a room with only one bed, it looks weird,”
“You mean that people will think that we are together?” I asked.
“Exactly,” He sighed, relieved by something “You finally get it,”
“Not really,” I frowned, cocking my head to the side “I do not understand why such a thing would bother you, Dean. We have a more profound bond than we do with other people but we know that we are not together sexually or romantically, so why should we care
what complete strangers think?”
“Dude,” He laughed, holding up his hand to stop me before I could say anything else “It matters because I don’t want people to think I’m into dudes, alright? Especially chicks, and there are beautiful women everywhere and I don’t want them getting the wrong idea,”
“You forget that I am completely indifferent to sexual preferences, but I can also see things that other people-“
“Alright,” He laughed again, stopping me from saying any more “I’m going to take a quick shower so that we can go and meet Charles, alright?” I nodded “Stay put and don’t watch any porn, catching an angel watching porn and looking confused is an event I could go without attending ever again,”
“Take your shower Dean, we don’t want to keep Charles waiting,”
~~~~
Matt
Finally, another show down and back on the bus to head to the next venue.
I could get back to drinking and looking for a way to get information on Val. She had been taken from me, of course she had been, being with me was a danger to her from the second she laid eyes on me and now she was in Hell being tortured beyond anything I could imagine.
We were all back on the bus and Jimmy and Johnny were messing around in the kitchenette while Brian and Zack went through to the bunk area and were talking amongst themselves. I sat myself on the couch with my laptop and started doing my research. By the looks of it my best bet was going to be a low level demon, I could probably summon one at the crossroads, make a ‘deal’ for the information I needed and then exorcise the fucker before selling my soul.
I poured myself another glass of scotch while typing away at the keyboard on my laptop when suddenly Brian came storming over to me, slammed the laptop closed and almost crushed my fingers before snatching the glass from my hand and throwing against the wall of the moving bus.
“That’s enough!” He yelled at me “I get it, we all get it, you’re upset over Val, we all are, and you know fine well that she would want you to carry on instead of drinking yourself to death while trying to find a way to bring her back, you know that she is good at
accepting fate,”
“This wasn’t her fate,” I growled at him “She wasn’t supposed to go like this,”
“We all want to get her back,” He told me, his voice softening a little as he took a seat across from me “We all want to help, so you have to let us in, talk to us and let us know what you plan on doing so we can have your back or talk you out of getting yourself killed, but you’re going to be absolutely no use to Val if you’re drunk out of your mind all of the time, it isn’t going to get you anywhere,”
I thought about what he was saying and it only took me a second to realise that he was right.
From the day Val was taken from me I haven’t stopped drinking. I’m messing up in everything that I do including singing on stage, it’s not a good idea to perform in front of thousands of adoring fans absolutely hammered, I can’t begin to imagine how disappointing it was for them when they realised that I was messing up, and the guys must have noticed too because Zack and Brian did a lot more singing than they usually do, they were obviously trying to cover up my mistakes.
“You’re right,” I told him “You’re absolutely right, I’m being stupid about this and I’m going about it the wrong way,”
“I’m glad you agree with all of us,” He smiled, placing a gentle hand on my knee “All of us are in this together and we all want her back just as much as each other, so talk to us, alright?” I nodded “But let’s get you some water and get you into bed, you can do some more research tomorrow, I’ll finish up here tonight,”
“You’re the best,” I slurred a little, pushing myself to my feet and stumbling, but he caught me “I’ll see you tomorrow,” I waved, walking towards the bunks.
“Night Matt!” all of the guys called out as I slipped through the curtain and into my bunk.
I was going to be sore in the morning.
How did I end up here?
I was just a simple girl from Scotland who read too many books and hid away from the wold far too much, and now here I am, moving out of an apartment and onto the open road with my two best friends in the whole world.
At the fresh age of sixteen, I wasn’t classed as ‘normal’ and I never have been after high school. I hated the people I had classes with, I hated the looks I got and the things people would whisper about me. I would rather have been with my computer, my phone and my books than hanging around with big groups of people so I quickly got myself a reputation as a bit of a loner, but I didn’t mind at all because it was true. The only people I were close to was my parents and my older brother, Jamie. I spent a lot of my time online while hiding out in my bedroom, and eventually I met a friend, a real friend. Erin was someone I could talk to for hours, and soon we were IM’ing all day every day and we made the time difference work since we were so far away from each other.
Over the space of four years, there was not one day where we didn’t speak to each other. We grew from teenagers into young adults together, we wrote letters, sent gifts and wished we could be together for so long. She was pretty much my only friend for four years, and we were always confiding in one another, I told her about how badly life was treating me and how much I wanted out but she was always there to remind me that I had so much left to do with my life and there were so many years ahead of me to be happy.
At eighteen, I met someone, someone much closer to home, his name was Andrew and I fell head over heels in love with him. Erin was happy for him and even gave him the best friend speech, he thought Erin and I were adorable as best friends. Andrew and I were together for two years, but after one year things started to turn sour. He became jealous over everything, especially the time I would spend talking with Erin, and eventually things got physical and Jamie found out and suddenly Andrew stopped coming around to the house.
At twenty, I was alone again, but I still had Erin and she had even introduced me to her friend, Izzy. She was just as crazy and fun loving as Erin was and we quickly became good friends, too. I spoke with Izzy almost as much as I spoke with Erin and found that the two of us could talk about almost everything.
Suddenly, my twenty first birthday was upon us and my family surprised me with a one way ticket to Nebraska as well as the key to an apartment which already had the first month’s rent paid on it. Turns out, Erin had informed my family of an apartment that was for rent down the corridor from her and they’d jumped at the chance to get me in there and over to Erin.
I’ve never cried so much in my life as much as I did when I got off that plane and Erin was there to meet me at the gates. It was a total movie moment when I walked through the gate and there she was with a sign with my name on it and a huge smile on her face. We spotted one another, I dropped my hand luggage and we ran towards one another, meeting in the middle. We dropped to the floor together, a mess of tangled limbs and tears.
Izzy travelled into town two weeks later and ended up finding herself a place not far from our building and the three of us were inseparable. We didn’t need anyone but each other.
Now, three years later, we decided that we weren’t doing everything that we could with our lives, we realised that there was more to
life than living in one place and working the same shitty jobs five days a week, so we packed everything up and left.
I decided that I would rather pay for a full tank of petrol every once in a while instead of paying rent. Who needs to eat home cooked meals every night when I can eat greasy burgers every day if I want to, I don’t need a home with a huge closet because even now I don’t have that much stuff, I’m perfectly happy living out of a duffel bag and sleeping in motel rooms. For now at least, but who knows what the future will bring.
~~~~
I don’t know exactly how many hours we’ve been on the road, but we’ve made a few toilet stops, gotten some directions and made good work on the snacks that Erin had packed up for us.
Erin was driving, Izzy was up front and I was in the back seat, sitting in the middle of the other two girls so that I could see out the front window.
Izzy had her phone plugged into the car stereo and was letting it play through all of her music, and it was at times like this that I thanked the heavens that the three of us had the same music taste because it meant there were no arguments over what we had to listen to while we drove.
~~~~
Castiel
Dean drove us to Omaha, of course I would have much preferred to have taken us there myself, but he insisted on driving and over the past few months that we have spent together I have grown to deal with the car rides across the country although I do find them time consuming.
Dean pulled outside a motel not far from where we were to meet his friend Charles and told me to stay in the car while he paid for a
room for us. I don’t know why he always insisted on making sure that I had my own bed, I don’t sleep and there is no reason for me to have a bed, he could save himself money every night on a room with one bed.
When Dean came back to the car for his me and his bags, I followed closely behind him and into the motel room.
“Why do you insist on spending so much money on a room with two beds every night when I don’t need a bed?” I asked “I’ve told
you forty-six times already that I don’t sleep,”
“I know you don’t sleep,” He groaned, dropping himself onto his chosen bed “But when two dudes turn up at a motel for a few nights and take a room with only one bed, it looks weird,”
“You mean that people will think that we are together?” I asked.
“Exactly,” He sighed, relieved by something “You finally get it,”
“Not really,” I frowned, cocking my head to the side “I do not understand why such a thing would bother you, Dean. We have a more profound bond than we do with other people but we know that we are not together sexually or romantically, so why should we care
what complete strangers think?”
“Dude,” He laughed, holding up his hand to stop me before I could say anything else “It matters because I don’t want people to think I’m into dudes, alright? Especially chicks, and there are beautiful women everywhere and I don’t want them getting the wrong idea,”
“You forget that I am completely indifferent to sexual preferences, but I can also see things that other people-“
“Alright,” He laughed again, stopping me from saying any more “I’m going to take a quick shower so that we can go and meet Charles, alright?” I nodded “Stay put and don’t watch any porn, catching an angel watching porn and looking confused is an event I could go without attending ever again,”
“Take your shower Dean, we don’t want to keep Charles waiting,”
~~~~
Matt
Finally, another show down and back on the bus to head to the next venue.
I could get back to drinking and looking for a way to get information on Val. She had been taken from me, of course she had been, being with me was a danger to her from the second she laid eyes on me and now she was in Hell being tortured beyond anything I could imagine.
We were all back on the bus and Jimmy and Johnny were messing around in the kitchenette while Brian and Zack went through to the bunk area and were talking amongst themselves. I sat myself on the couch with my laptop and started doing my research. By the looks of it my best bet was going to be a low level demon, I could probably summon one at the crossroads, make a ‘deal’ for the information I needed and then exorcise the fucker before selling my soul.
I poured myself another glass of scotch while typing away at the keyboard on my laptop when suddenly Brian came storming over to me, slammed the laptop closed and almost crushed my fingers before snatching the glass from my hand and throwing against the wall of the moving bus.
“That’s enough!” He yelled at me “I get it, we all get it, you’re upset over Val, we all are, and you know fine well that she would want you to carry on instead of drinking yourself to death while trying to find a way to bring her back, you know that she is good at
accepting fate,”
“This wasn’t her fate,” I growled at him “She wasn’t supposed to go like this,”
“We all want to get her back,” He told me, his voice softening a little as he took a seat across from me “We all want to help, so you have to let us in, talk to us and let us know what you plan on doing so we can have your back or talk you out of getting yourself killed, but you’re going to be absolutely no use to Val if you’re drunk out of your mind all of the time, it isn’t going to get you anywhere,”
I thought about what he was saying and it only took me a second to realise that he was right.
From the day Val was taken from me I haven’t stopped drinking. I’m messing up in everything that I do including singing on stage, it’s not a good idea to perform in front of thousands of adoring fans absolutely hammered, I can’t begin to imagine how disappointing it was for them when they realised that I was messing up, and the guys must have noticed too because Zack and Brian did a lot more singing than they usually do, they were obviously trying to cover up my mistakes.
“You’re right,” I told him “You’re absolutely right, I’m being stupid about this and I’m going about it the wrong way,”
“I’m glad you agree with all of us,” He smiled, placing a gentle hand on my knee “All of us are in this together and we all want her back just as much as each other, so talk to us, alright?” I nodded “But let’s get you some water and get you into bed, you can do some more research tomorrow, I’ll finish up here tonight,”
“You’re the best,” I slurred a little, pushing myself to my feet and stumbling, but he caught me “I’ll see you tomorrow,” I waved, walking towards the bunks.
“Night Matt!” all of the guys called out as I slipped through the curtain and into my bunk.
I was going to be sore in the morning.
Ummm I think that this story needs to continue!!! This is so far the best crossover I have ever read!
2/13/19