Ben's POV

Even though my band was here on tour for a show, I couldn't help but think back to the last time I was here. That day that I knew I made a big mistake. Renae and I had been dating for over 2 years. I thought I was happy being with her. Apparently I wasn't after I had cheated on her with Rhiannon who was only a groupie at first. I literally caved and got scared after I had been with Renae for that long. I didn't want to be committed.

From what happened yesterday, I didn't know what to do. I knew I deserved to get slapped but wow that just wasn't right. It was amazing seeing Renae again though. Memories started flooding back and I felt like I was wanting her all over again.

As for Renae's friend kicking Rhiannon's ass, I thought that was pretty funny. Though I had to make it up to her when we had got back to the hotel if you know what I mean.

When I had slept with Rhiannon the first time, that was when Renae and I had been dating for almost a year. I was really drunk when I met her at a Breaking Benjamin after party that the guys and I threw when we had the day off from touring. I regretted doing it so I told her not to bother coming around anymore.

Although I had a few slip ups whenever I saw her during after all the shows. It's like I couldn't fucking keep my dick in my pants long enough to go home and have my way with Ren.

I sat on the bed in the hotel room. Rhiannon was out with a few friends she knew here in California. I was actually glad I got to be in the room by myself. All she ever wanted was sex sex and MORE sex. Got to the point where whenever she wanted it, I just laid there on the bed and let her do whatever she wanted to me. Who knew sex would be so dull after doing it so many times. I needed a break...surprisingly.

I reached over to my backpack that had my laptop in it and pulled it out, I opened it up and started checking my email. Got a few from friends back home as well as a few from the record company.

Nothing too big. I closed out and pondered for a moment before opening up a folding on my desktop that said 'Old Memories From Then On'. I clicked on it and a small smile appeared on my face.

It contained a lot of pictures of Renae and I. We looked so happy together. Her especially. Seeing that smile on her face seemed to always put a smile on mine. Some of them were of us at parties, others were of us at the beach.

There was one in particular that stood out from the other. It was a picture of us in Hawaii and she had a lovely flower dress on where as I had a Hawaiian shirt and khaki shorts on.

We were madly in love. I continued to do a few more things on my laptop before closing it. I then closed my eyes and laid back onto the bed. I had so many wonderful memories with her. Why the fuck did I have to throw it all away for some chick who wanted me for pleasure?

I opened my eyes and stared up at the ceiling. I needed to get her back. I was about to get up from the back when the door opened. Rhiannon walks in with a few bags in her hands, her 2 friends also following behind her with the same amount of bags if not more. One of them was a brunette where as the other was a blonde.

Rhiannon and them were laughing about something but stops when she sees me. “Hey baby, I thought you went out with you friends? Unless you were waiting for me so we can have a little fun.” She said with a smirk on her face. Why was I dating her again? Gods knows I'm stupid for doing it.

I shook my head before putting my laptop back into my backpack then got up, taking my bag with me. “Actually I was just about to go...” I said before heading towards the door. A hand pulled at my arm to stop me.

“But baby, I know what you really want. I got it all right here.” She then took out some lingerie that was pink and waved it around. Her friends giggled behind her as they watched. I needed to get out of here.

I cleared my throat. “Sorry, I'm a very busy man. I'll see you later babe.” I walked over to Rhiannon and kissed the top of her head before walking out of the room. As much as I'd like to have her in bed fucking her brains out, I wasn't in the mood for it. Although I was in the mood to find her.

I took the elevator down to the first floor and headed out of the hotel. I found a cafe that was nearby and walked in. I ordered a latte and blueberry muffin before sitting down. Taking out my laptop again, I decided to look at something I haven't looked in a while.
It was a song I had written for Breaking Benjamin's Dear Agony album. Actually it was more of a journal entry Renae had in her journal. All she had was the verses which was pretty much like a poem in a way.

When I had found the page that was ripped from her journal, she had already packed her things and moved out from the apartment we shared. That happened a few days after she broke up with me and I was still on tour. One of my friends told me when he passed by and stopped to talk to her. He said that her friend Arin was with her to help out.

I didn't trust Arin, her best friend, too much. She had spent more time with him than she had with me and that got me jealous. I understand they're close but I was her boyfriend. Didn't make any sense but whatever.

After that went down, I picked up the page and decide to add a chorus and the bridge to it. The song became popular when we had recorded it and put it out as a single. From what I heard from my friend Jose, he told me that Renae was pissed that I had used something from her journal as a song to make money off of.

Technically since she had got rid of it, it wasn't really copyright infringement. I mostly did it for her anyway cause I felt like shit when she left me and it was officially over between us. I laughed to myself at that but then stopped and sighed. I didn't want her mad at me.

I did however write The Diary of Jane about her which she probably knew but didn't say anything. I wrote it after she and I got into a big fight and broke up not talking to each other for a while. When we got back together, I guess you could say we've actually been together for about 3 years or so.

Eh who's counting anymore. I've been with her for so long that it was almost like we were practically married. I wanted to married her I really did. Yet my stupid ass decided against it and ruined everything, throwing away what we had together.

I finished up my muffin and latte before getting up. I decided to go for a little walk. Walking towards a flower shop, I went in and bought a rose. Time to do what I do.

I went back to the hotel and went up to my room. I opened the door with the key and put my backpack down once I got inside. As I closed the door, I look over at the bed and stopped. Rhiannon was laying there on her side in that sexy lingerie she showed me earlier. Her friends were already gone. I walked over to her a gave her the rose.

She looked up at me and smiled before taking it. “Thank you babe. But enough of the romance, I want you right now.” The rose was tossed over onto the table nearby. She pulled me down and started kissing me. I kissed her back and pushed her down against the mattress. I needed to let some frustration out.

I have to think of something and hope this will all work out in the end. I wanted Renae back and I won't back down or let anyone get in the way. Rhiannon will just be in the past and stay there for good once I get what I wanted.

Notes

Finally there's a Ben's POV! when I had written the story, he really had nothing so I decided to put it in his perspective so that he has something within this. He is one of the main characters after all lol. Hope you lovely people enjoyed the chapter. Please comment and subscribe. ^_^

- LadyRevenge