Ben's POV

We had gotten back from the bar and I felt somewhat better. Things were going on through my head and every time I wanted to not think about Renae, I end up thinking about her when something like a guy and girl looking at each other loving. Saying sweet nothings to one another. I missed that.

As Rhiannon and I got out of the elevator, I had noticed someone familiar. I quickly hid in the corner to not get noticed. My heart started to race as I saw her. There she was, my lovely Lam. I know I've bumped into her a few times but for some reason, I couldn't stop thinking about her. I was hurt that she had broken up with me and still I can't move on. I fucked up and wanted to make things right.

“Babe let's go!” Rhiannon had yelled out to me. I blinked and got out of my trance. I moved away from the wall and started to make my way toward her. Someone had walked passed me. This person looked awfully familiar. I shook my head and followed Rhiannon back to our room.

As we got ready for bed, she wanted to have a quickie but I wasn't in the mood. She got mad and told me to sleep on the couch. So I did. Not going to bother arguing with her.

That all happened days ago. It was a brand new day and I couldn't wait to start it off. I got out of bed and quickly through on a blue shirt that had a skull on it and jeans. I also pulled on some white socks and black converse chuck taylors. I looked around the hotel room. Rhiannon was once again out shopping like always. Does that woman ever get tired of shopping?

Today I was meeting up with Renae at the cafe not too far from the hotel called Cafe Je' Taime. I got in and ordered my coffee black with a hint of sweetness. I also got a chocolate muffin and went to go find a seat near the window, waiting for my order to be ready.

I took my phone out and sent and checked the time. Yesterday I had sent Renae a text letting her know that I'll meet up with her tomorrow. Which was today. She agreed and it made me smile.

My plan was slowly coming through. All I needed was my princess to come back into my arms and it'll be great. I knew this process will take awhile but hey I'm fine with that. I looked down at my watch and checked the time. Only 1 minute before she had to be here. I was about ready to take a bite out of my muffin when I heard the door open.

I looked up and a smile grew on my face. She was wearing a green tank top under a light jacket that was an army green color and some blue high waist denim shorts. Her feet were wearing what looked like gladiator sandals that came up to her ankles. I watched as she went to go order her drink.

She looked around and then our eyes connected. We stared at each other for what felt like hours. She took a deep breath and sat down across from me. The cashier came and gave me my drink and went back to do her job.

“So...what is it that you want that you so desperately wanted to talk to me about?” Renae said. I took a sip from my latte. “Oh you know, just wanted to catch up and see how you're doing. And that I'm very sorry for what happened at the mall as well as at the music store. Didn't mean for all that to happen.” I said. I was really sorry that things started out on the wrong foot. But was I really sorry? ...Yes and no.

Renae arched an eyebrow and the cashier came by, giving her the drink she ordered. She thanked her and took a sip. “Mmm a soy latte. Just how I like it.” She took another sip then turned her attention to me again. From the way her facial expression was, she looked like she was thinking about something.

“Well alright, apology accepted. So what else is new? You finally get rhino plastic pregnant?” She snickered. I had taken a bite of my chocolate muffin when she said that and almost choked when I started laughing. Oh I knew she never liked her and I always thought it was pretty funny when she made fun of her like that.

I quickly settled down and took a deep breath before taking a sip of my coffee. “No. Not that I ever want to be fathering her children. I actually think it's not going to work out between us since she does sleep around.” I said. Renae nodded like she understood.

“Yeah I know the feeling. You date them for a long time and then BOOM they started cheating on you when you thought things were going well.” She mumbled the last bit. Ouch. I need to fix this somehow. To let her know that I truly am sorry for what happened.

I slowly took her hand in mind. She hesitated a little but let me do it. “Ren, I'm sorry for what happened that day. I was drunk, stupid, and wasn't thinking. I-I...guess I started getting scared. Thinking of starting a family and how things were going for us made me want to back out. It's just that fear of failure.” I told her. It was true. I did have a fear of failing and didn't want to disappoint her. That still didn't give me the right to cheat on her though.

I held her hand in mine and we sat there in silence. I watched her as she closed her eyes. I did the same. It felt like the good old days when we would have little dates and just talk about nothing as well as everything. I missed this. I truly do. Just by the way she's reacting, she misses it also but doesn't want that to affect her life. I opened my eyes and she did the same before slowly pulling her hand away.

“I wish you could have told me sooner. I would have understood what was going on. We could have taken a break just to let you get things settle with what's going on within yourself. Instead of you doing...you know.” She whispered. A tear escaped her eye and I reached over, wiping it away.

“I know. It took me so long to even figure that out that I don't know what was going on with me anymore.” I sighed. She smiled at me and I slowly smiled back. I finished up my muffin then drank the rest of my coffee. “So with that aside, I'm guessing you heard about my band touring with Avenged Sevenfold next spring?” I said.

Renae nearly spat out her latte and stared at me with wide eyes. “Really? I didn't know that. Thought that was just a 1 show only thing.” She said. Probably remembering back to the sign at the mall. Hell I thought that too at first until out manager told us something else.

I shook my head. “Sadly no. It will be a short tour though but yeah. Would be awesome if you came along. Just like old times sake.” I smiled. She laughed and shook her head. “Hmm maybe. I'll have to talk to my boyfriend about that.” She said.

My blood started to boil a little. I still can't over the fact that she's dating him. Calm yourself, Ben. Maybe if you're friends with her for now she'll start to slowly come back to you. I smirked to myself. “No problem. Hey I know this is probably a lot for you but...would it be alright if we're friends?” I said.

I watched as Renae bit her lip then looked down at the table. Wonder what she was thinking of now? She slowly looked back up at me. “Possibly. This is all going to take some time to process but right now, we're at acquaintance status.” She said. I nodded.

“Well I should get going. I have some things to take care of.” She stood up and I did the same. I pulled her into a hug. She slowly returned the hug back before pulling away. Grabbing her latte, she headed for the door. “It was nice talking to you again. Take care” She said. “You too. See ya around.” I told her. She waved then left.

I stood there with a big smile on my face. So far I accomplished a lot but not enough. Acquaintance? Eh it's a start.

Notes

Another lovely chapter done. May go back on taking a break from this story for a bit. So much crap going on in my life again and I need to get rid of the drama.

It seems Ben has something up his sleeve but does Renae know that? Will she really give into being a friend with him? Stay Tuned...