Brian’s POV

Finally I took the courage and called her, it’s been more then 2 weeks now. I knew I didn’t mean to call her and the idea of hearing her voice scared me, because I always heard her say that she didn’t want me and that it meant nothing what we had, at least that’s what my head was telling me.

But in the end my heart wanted what my heart wanted and it was her, damn it really was her.
I still wasn’t convinced that I was the right man for her, but I would never find out if we didn’t have another chance so I would need to talk to her to find out, right?

So I pushed the call button and held the phone to my ear, waiting… waiting some more, it rang and rang, and nobody picked up.
Maybe she was busy, I would try again, after the first time calling it wasn’t that bad, was it?

Still I had no idea what I would tell her and how I would handle hearing her voice over the phone but hell, I would at least ask her to meet again, that’s what I wanted, right?
Meet her and talk to her again, because I needed to see her, hear from her again why she just left me and if her decision would stay the same, maybe then I could accept it… or I would keep on hurting either way it would be final.

I looked at my watch damn it was pretty late, what the hell was I thinking calling her at a time like this, I am a freaking idiot.
I should have called her in her break! Or when she got her off time but not when she was supposed to sleep, freakin hell another reason why I wasn’t the right man for her, and yet that thought triggered the jealousy to hit because I didn’t want any other man for her, I wanted to be the one and no one else.

Maybe Jimmy was right and I should have just driven there, the more I thought about it the clearer it got… Damn, new rule for myself, listen to what Jimmy says and do it, as stupid and weird as it sounded, he was mostly right that fucker!

I sighed and turned around in my bed, tomorrow… I would think about it all again tomorrow… then I would make a final decision.

Sleep overcame me and it felt kind of familiar, but what could be familiar about falling asleep, but then it hit me and I could strangle the reason for this feeling… it was her!

“I never thought you would be so hung up on a woman… I thought you would have forgotten her by now… It’s strange to see you like this, Brian… to see you suffering. And I kept a close eye on you since you are back. It’s been more then a few weesk now and you are only getting worse, your thoughts always returning to her… It’s really… really strange.” The woman said and I kept quiet, she was right, this was weird for me.

“You agree?” She chuckled and I nodded “Yes, and what now? You are proud?” I snapped a little, because whenever she was involved she pissed me off.

“I want to tell you something, something important, but if you want to get cranky with me, I might keep that information from you.” She snapped right back and I sighed and rolled my eyes.

“Fine, what is it?” I asked and she didn’t reply. Was she gone?
“Please.” I added and she grinned, I couldn’t see her but I had the feeling that she was smiling now.
“I felt your emotions… when you were in that club, when you were alone… I wanted to make sure I make the right decision now.” She said and she sounded honest and different then before.

“And what did they tell you?” I asked curious, what would be coming now?
“You felt the heartbreak, you thought about your past lovers.. and you really regretted your behavior, I felt that and it made me realize that you actually learned your lesson.” She said and I nodded, I guess she is right.

“After suffering heartache myself, I realized what I have done, to some women who didn’t get that I just wanted one thing and they hoped for more, and that I didn’t treat them right no matter what…” I sighed, I behaved like an ass, and I had no idea if I would do it again, if I knew I would be “healed” I would head straight to Sam and conquer her back.

But the thought that she could just walk away from me again was still on my mind and it hurt, remembering she couldn’t even look at me, had I been that unimportant to her?

“Let me show you something Brian…” The woman disappeared and as did the blackness that surrounded us, different scenes were playing in my head and then one appeared that I never seen before and couldn’t place and then again… the familiar blackness.

Then I heard a voice, the one who was talking to me right now and then another voice which was the one I longerd to hear and recognized it right away, it was Sam’s voice:

“Then answer me this, Sam. Are you willing to do whatever I tell you now to free Brian? To whatever cost? And in return he will be freed, he will remember everything but hopefully then he will also remember his lesson… but that’s not up to us anymore…”

I was confused hearing this conversation in my head… but it went on:

“The only thing you have to do is, when Brian will tell you his real feelings and wants to know what you think about it, you will not reply. No matter how you really feel, and I know believe me, but you won’t tell him that. You will have to let him go… to set him free, Sammy.”

And then the final sentence:
“What? When he tells me his feelings, when he tells me how much he cares, I need to lie to him?”

Sam asked shocked and I didn’t hear more then lie to him, so she didn’t reply to help me out of the book, this was all some sick game? So she had feeling for me?! And lied to set me free, she broke her andmy heart to help me?

Why didn’t she tell me?! Now everything made sense! What the hell and why did I wait for so long! Why didn’t I call her earlier, why didn’t I drive to her?! Why didn’t she just call me, we could have talked about it, I would have believed her…
Did Selena know about this? Why didn’t she say something?!

“Brian, now do the right thing, and try to win her back… I can’t tell you if she moved on, but I set you free now… you will never hear from me again…Goodbye!” The woman’s silhouette waved and I gaped, she just goes away, leaving me with this message and then-

I woke up in my bed and the sun was shining though my windows and I gulped air into my lungs, had this been a weird dream? Or was that actually ture?
Everything since the book and meeting Sam felt like a dream and a nightmare before, nothing more.. but somehow I knew… this was more and I had to talk to someone who had more inside to all this.

I grabbed my sweatpants and a shirt, quickly dressed and pulled a beanie over my head and got into my car. I drove over to Matt’s house and rang the doorbell, after a while finally Matt opened the door and looked at me sleepy.

“What’s up man?” He asked frowning and I pushed my way inside “Where is Selena? I need to talk to her!” I asked looking around the living room and Matt chuckled.
“You know, I don’t appreciate other man coming by early and wanting to see my girlfriend before I even had a coffee, and I have to disappoint you, she is not here.” Matt said and let himself fall down on the couch.

“What do you mean?” I asked turning to him.
“You haven’t heard, have you?” Matt looked uncertain and I frowned “What? Tell me”
“Shit, I thought… anyway. Selena is with Sam, she was the victim of a crime, someone broke into her house and… shit, maybe you should talk to Selena directly, I don’t have all the details, I just know that it’s like 2 days ago but Sam is fine now.” Matt added quickly.
“A crime? Someone broke into her house? What? Why didn’t anyone tell me!I need to call her, drive to her…” I pulled my phone out and searched for Selena’s number.

I would talk to her first and afterwards I would get right back in my car and drive to Sam, make sure she was alright, tell her I knew why she did what she did and that it was over, that we could be together now, if she was still willing to have me and didn’t move on!

Notes

I got you with that Title, didnt I?
I wanted to name it 'A final dream' but thought to confuse you guys a bit :P

So only about 2 - 3 more Chapters to come... havent written them yet, but I think that will be it :)
So stay tuned for the eeeennnnddd :)