Brian’s POV

„Oh you have to be fucking kidding me...” Was it just me or this simply wasn’t my day? Meg dreamed of Matt’s dick to be deep inside her, I couldn’t keep my eyes away her tits and now this? The ex? How the hell did he know she was in Bali? This was supposed to be our time together to figure out the shit between us, not figure out everything she wants to do with everyone else except me.

I had forgotten how really good looking the dude was and now I was regretting allowing her to step her feet out of that beach house in that deep cut maxi dress. At least her legs weren’t showing, but, man, those tits?

„I didn’t know you’re here with him,” Oh great, so now I didn’t even have a name, but was referred to as a simple ‘he’. That’s the gratitude I get for making her choose this dude instead of me to bail out of the jail. But then again, if it wouldn’t have been for me, we’d probably wouldn’t be in jail in the first place and Meg probably wouldn’t have survived the night, so in the end, all’s good.

„Yeah, and I didn’t know you’re gonna be here,” Meg frowned, turning in her seat to face him.

„Well, you told me to come, didn’t you?” Wait... what? Now this was just perfect. So she figured to lead a double life and fuck him behind my back? Did that ring on her finger really meant nothing to her?

„Yea, but I didn’t think you—„

„I what? That you don’t mean anything to me and I won’t show up? That those were just plain words?” Okay, I think I’ll need another drink. I gestured for the barmaid to get me another Heineken, so I’ll have a bottle to smash his skull in afterwards. „I said I love you and I meant it.”

„Look, man, she’s engaged,” after hearing his almost vow of eternal love, I couldn’t just sit there and do nothing. I simply wasn’t that kinda guy to let go of something I fought for with my own blood and tears.

I felt his stare pierce in me, before his eyes fixed on my girl, „Is that true, Meg?”

Dude, don’t you see that expensive ass rock on her finger? Do you think it’s there just because? „Actually, he’s right Travis...” Thank you.

„So you told me to fly my way from California to here and won’t even give me a moment of your time?” Oh fuck off, dude. Moment of her time? What good was that gonna give you if she’s going to get married to me?

„I never thought you’re gonna come,” She objected, still slightly taken aback.

„So you sent me that text just because?” He squinted his eyes on her, „You really are a cold hearted bitch. That isn’t just a rumor...”

„Hey, easy...” I hissed, my jaw clenching as I tried not to jump him and kill for real this time. And I won’t say I wasn’t looking up to putting his ass in a body bag.

„You stay out of this,” He hissed back, pointing a finger at me.

„You better watch your tone with me,” ‘cause people know Synyster Gates isn’t all about hugs and kisses when someone pisses him off and this dude right here? A major kick to my anger switch.

„Can you for once step off your throne, asshole? I’m not fucking talking to you,” Had he forgotten how almost the same fucking situation between me and him ended the last time? I saw his face had healed up quite nice, but we could change that.

„Trav, you should go.” Meg spoke up silently.

„The hell I am! You owe me an answer!” After you’d called he a cold hearted bitch? Whoa, that was a new low even for me.

„She just made it clear she doesn’t give a damn about you. Can’t you take a hint?” And save me some paperwork with the cops and morgue? I couldn’t help myself when I was suddenly just inches from his face. If you want to dance tango, pal, we’ll fucking dance.

„Meg you know you won’t be with him for more than a couple months at best, before the shit hits the fan... Why are you running back to him after all he’s done to you?” After all I’ve done? Ex-the-fuck-cuse me? At least I had the decency not to call her a fucking whore, and look me in the fucking eye when I’m talking to you!

„Well don’t you just have the fucking nerve—„ I cut my own words off as I gave him a forceful push back. The hell was I about to calm down. This sack of shit was pointing out to what I’ve done to her? Really? Yeah, keep staring me down with that glare, jackass, keep pushing me... What did he really thought he’d do to me, when none of his jocks were around to save his ass? I’m not denying he could hit a good punch or two if he really wanted, but that Tullamore in his breath was too strong to really distinguish from which side my fist was about to fly.

„And what are you gonna do? Fight me?” He started, narrowing his eyes on me, „We both know how that ended the last time.”

„Yeah, with you in the fucking hospital,” I don’t know what made me want to kill his ass, but the urge in me was almost too strong to bare. I usually just shrug this kinda shit off, but, man, there was something magical about his face that just made me want to give him a real good face job. Yet again. „Let me break it down to you, she couldn’t give two shits about you even if she wanted. She’s getting married to me, can you get that through your thick skull?”

„Funny, I heard that didn’t stop her from ditching you and flying off to Japan to spread her legs for whomever,” Oh, now you’ve crossed the line.

„Brian,” Meg’s melodic timbre stopped me in my track as I looked back to see her silvery orbs watching me with a frown. I knew she wanted for me to just let it go, to drop it, but... man... Fine. I sighed.

„You know, you’re not even worth the sweat,” If it wouldn’t be for Megan, who took me by hand and dragged from that trainwreck, I really would’ve reconsidered what I just said.

„I’m proud of you,” She spoke quietly, snaking her arm around my biceps.

„Don’t think I won’t be back!” I heard the douche yell after us. Yeah, and don’t think I won’t kill you the next time I see you, asshole.

„Why the fuck did you tell him to come here?” I hissed. „It seems like you just want to take my misery to the next fucking level,”

„...I-I...” I frowned, hearing her stutter for the first time. Ever. My head turned to see her looking down her feet. When I saw those moist streaks down her cheeks, I figured I’d taken it a bit too far. Good one, Gates. Nice job.

„Shit, Meg...” I started, stopping to turn her around so she’d be facing me, before I cupped both sides of her face, forcing her to look me in the eye. I can’t believe I just made her cry. My thumb brushed away the tear, before I spoke, „Sorry, you know I didn’t mean it...”

„No, you’re right,” her shoulders twitched lightly, before a sad smiled mirrored on her face. Her silvery orbs raised up to me just to show how deeply my words had cut her. „I’m the one fucking up our relationship. Always have been.”

„Baby, don’t say that,” I pulled her in a hug, holding her close, while hearing those quiet sobs. What the hell was happening here? Where was the smart ass Meg we all knew and loved? Usually she just snapped back with something as much venomous, so I was really lost in whatever the fuck was going on here. I could just stand there and caress her head, trying to calm her down, which didn’t do much by the way.

„I ran away... I should’ve figured what was going on with you...” What the hell was she talking about?

„Shhh, it’s okay,” I cooed, feeling my shirt getting wetter by each passing second. This wasn’t like her. Was she on something?

„It was all my fault we lost the baby...” Oh god, don’t go to that dark place, Meg. Please, please, just—„I knew it meant the world to you and I just—„

„Shh, it’s okay, baby, it’s okay,” I took her face to raise up so I could look in those bloodshot orbs and mentally slap myself for everything I’d said and done to her. I pushed the tear soaked bangs out of her face, before giving her a small smile, „We have Pinkly, Lady... We have them to take care of, besides my dad is getting crazier by the day, so we’ll have to take him in eventually, ‘cause Suzy clearly isn’t gonna take care of his crazy ass,”

She shook her head, gluing her cheek to my chest again. „I’m sorry...” Oh come on, you’re breaking my heart. As hard as it was to actually get over the fact that we had once had a chance of having a little McQueen or Gates running around the house and then we lost it - it was way harder to see her like this. I could only imagine what she went through back in the day, ‘cause we all know I wasn’t there to whisper sweet nothings in her ear.

„Look, don’t do this to yourself,” I started, „What’s the most important to me is that you’re safe,” and with me.

After another couple minutes of sobbing in my shirt, she finally looked up, this time a small smile pulling at her lips, before a light chuckle escaped her, frustrating me even more, „Shit...” She wiped her tears away, „I have no idea what came over me...”

„Are you okay now?” I asked, my voice full of concern.

„Yea, yea... must be PMS,” She smiled, „I really scared you, didn’t I?” Her hand got it’s way up to my face to brush lightly over my cheek.

„You really did,” I admitted, still kinda processing what the hell just happened here.

„You thought I was going crazy there for a moment, didn’t you?”

„If I say yes, are you gonna go Kurt Cobain on me again?”

„No,” She mouthed, getting on her tiptoes and giving me a small kiss. „’Cause I thought I was going crazy myself. Now come on, let’s enjoy our last day here in Bali.”

„Okay, before you go knee deep in planning us some crazy adventures I most probably won’t be able to keep up with, I think I’ll have a smoke,” I said as I reached for my Marlboro’s, „Want one?”

„Nah. Last night I kinda kindly borrowed a few of them—„

„You mean stole,”

„As I said borrowed and realized they’ve gotten really fucking disgusting.”

„Okay, are you sick?” I placed my hand on her forehead, „This is Camel. This is your brand...”

„Yea, I know.”

„No, I don’t think you do know. You used to go two packs of these a day...”

„Well, as I said – they’re disgusting, but you now what I wouldn’t give up now? A good, greasy sloppy joe...”

Doesn’t smoke Camel, wants an actual burger with meat, wets my shirt with her tears... Are you thinking what I’m thinking?

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