So far away

Matt pulled his bloody body off the soaked floor and we ran out the door. Hannah following us. She climbed in the car with Jasper's body laying across her lap. He knows Jasper's all I have. That's why he did this. Tears fell from my cheeks as I peeled out of the driveway. "Can someone please tell me what the fuck just happened?" Hannah screamed.

"Wrap this blanket around him. Keep him warm." Matt replied handing her a blanket and ignoring her question. Please don't die. Please don't let go. You promised me you would never leave me. I started crying harder and trying not to lose my sanity. It took every fiber in my being.

"Please just tell me whats happening?" Hannah cried. I listened to her sobs. It was making it harder not to lose control. I looked at Matt begging for him to do something.

"He got what he deserved not stop talking and worry about him." Matt told her. I know I was slipping just as well as Hannah. I rushed to the hospital as Brian and the rest of the guys went home. They didn't need this.

Once we were there, Matt carried Jasper inside. We ran to the reception desk. "Please help us. He's losing blood." I cried pleading for someone to do something. Nurses grabbed him and put him on a gurney running him to wherever. Literally running. We chased after them but they stopped us at the door.

"Please wait over there. Someone will be with you shortly." The nurse ordered directing us to a waiting room. Hannah sat across from me looking at me for answers I couldn't give her. I sat with my head in my hands. Matt rubbed my back telling me it was going to be okay. I wont break. I wont let them see me like this.

"Please be okay." Hannah whispered. She was losing everything. I could see the look in her eyes. I stood up not being able to hear anymore. I went to a restroom and sank down in a corner. I completely lost it.

If I lose you, I swear to god. You better not leave me. Keep holding on. Please, Im begging you.

I dried my eyes and washed my hands washing the blood off of me. I looked down at my shirt with blood all over it. I pulled it off and put it the trash leaving me in a tank top and jacket. I washed the dried blood and sweat off my head. I reapplied makeup and looked in the mirror. I was drained.

I walked back out to see a nurse waiting to talk to me. She looked upset. That's not a good sign is it? I walked slowly to her. "He's going to be okay. We had to repair a few broken ribs. He has a concussion and both of his shoulders were dislocated. He's in a lot of pain." She spoke softly.

"When can we see him?" I asked on the verge of tears. I covered my mouth and started crying again.

"Theres only two at a time but I think we can squeeze all of you in. Given your situation." She replied leading us to a hall with the sound of heart monitors. We walked past them looking in some. It was quiet. Way too quiet. She opened a door and let us in. Hannah collapsed at the sight of him. I picked her up and placed her in chair. I sat on his bed and looked at him. He was broken and it was my fault.

"Hey. Don't cry. I'll be okay." He whispered I realized I was still crying. I pushed tears away and forced a smile.

"This is my fault and I am so sorry." I whispered choking back a sob.

"I'm just glad you got there at some point. I'm glad she's okay. But, where is he?" He asked looking around. I sat down in a chair ignoring him. He looked at me with a look that said he knew.

Hannah sat next to him and took his hand in her hand. Matt sat next to me taking my hand.

"I hate to interrupt but visiting hours are over in ten minutes." A nurse said breaking me out of my daze. I nodded standing up. I didn't want to leave him but I knew he was safe here. With Hannah.

"I guess we gotta go. I will be back tomorrow." I replied smiling at him. He nodded and pushed Hannah away.

"You need rest and you wont get it here. Go with Ivy. You'll be safe." He whispered kissing her. I pulled her along with us. Once we were out of the hospital she quieted her sobs. We got in the car and headed to Matt's house. We had to talk but I didn't know if I can trust Hannah.

I couldn't help but think that this wasn't over. I was so tired of being put through hell. I was tired. I couldn't feel anything as Matt drove looking over at me every once in a while. I looked out the window.

Dear agony, let go of me.

Notes

Sorry I was listening to Dear Agony. But here it is!