Brain’s POV

“How ya’ll doin’ tonight, Houston? You’ve been the best motherfucking crowd,” Sander’s screams into the mic as he jumps up on one of the risers. “We’ve got a few songs left for you this evening…” he continues as I walk to the side of the stage to get my acoustic guitar from my guitar tech for Dear God. Damn, this has been a good show and it’s about to get even better in the after party. A smirk pulls at my lips as I walk off stage, my eyes focusing on one thing and one thing only: Kaylyn Rizzo. Damn, she looks good in that little black dress. I cant wait to take it off her later.

“There’s my sexy girl,” I say, pulling her to me for a kiss as Jason hooks me up with a different guitar. “Enjoying the show?” I ask her after the kiss. I have been watching her out of the corner of my eyes the entire show and she looked like she was enjoying every second of watching my fingers fly. That dirty girl is probably imagining what they will be doing to her after the show. That’s one of the reason I fucking love her. I smirk at the thought as she grimaces at me slightly. “What?”

“You stink,” Kaylyn says, covering her nose and trying not to gag.

“Don’t act like you don’t like it, baby,” I chuckle, grabbing her around the waist and holding her close. Okay, I know that I’m sweaty, but she has never had a problem with it before. Why should this time be any different?

“Oh my god…you smell disgusting….” Her slender tattooed hand moves up to cover her mouth. My brow furs as she wretches and takes a few steps away from me. Is she okay? In the past month, she has never said that to me and we have played in much hotter and humid weather. She was looking a little pale.

“Are you okay, Kay?” I ask with concern, taking a step towards her as the crowd behind me roars with laughter. Must be the guys decided to tell jokes to stall the crowd.

Kaylyn holds up a hand to stop me from coming any closer and nods her head. “Yeah, the heat and the booze are just getting to me I think,” she says, swallowing thickly. “I’ll be fine, I promise.” Kaylyn gives me a weak smile but I cant help but feel like something else is bothering her.

Ever since we left New York, Kay and I have been inseparable. I had been an idiot to think that I could be happy without her. I fucking love the girl and I am happiest when I am with her. Sure, we fight like mad sometimes but the makeup sex is worth every foul mouth thing we’ve ever said to each other. Kaylyn Rizzo is more than I ever could have asked for and I’m glad I listened to feelings. Who would have ever thought Synyster Gates was capable of holding a long term relationship or loving again? I certainly didn’t. But here I am, head over heels in love with the feisty brunette in front of me.

“Kay—“

“Gates, stop jacking off and get back out here!” I Matt calls from the stage and I hang my head, knowing I have a job to do. I give Kay a small smile before heading back out on stage. “Bout fucking time…took you long enough. Must be hard to keep it up in your old age,” Matt laughs and I flip him off.Just at that precise moment, a flash erupts in front of me and leaves black dots flying in front of my face. Fuck Tempest and her goddamn camera. She was always catching me with a flash at the least convenient time. Though I have to admit, the pictures she gets of Zacky and Matt with their eyes half open are fucking hilarious.

“You’re just jealous I wasn’t thinking about you while doing it,” I say cheekily into my mic while starting the intro to Dear God. “I was thinking about Johnny…”

“Fuck you!” Johnny says behind me but I’m the only one that can hear him.

As I play and sing the harmony part, my eyes wander to the side of the stage to see Kaylyn nowhere n sight. What the hell? This is her favorite song. She wouldn’t miss this because she knows I always sing this to her. Now I know something isn’t right.

“We all need the person who can be true to you,” I sang into the mic just as she appeared on side of the stage. Relax, Haner, see she is here. She was probably just talking to one of the Berry’s or went to the rest room. “I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed. Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again, oh no, once again.” As I sing, I throw a wink at her and she returns my smile.

Three songs later and all five of us are standing at the front of the stage for the final bows. “Houston, you have been great! Thanks for a great fucking night!” Matt says as we give a bow. “Tempe get up here and take a picture of this badass crowd!”

“Yeah, and get Riz out here too!” Zacky calls, waving her on stage with us. I smile as she bashfully comes on stage and stands between Matt and I. Oh, so now she can deal with the smell of both Sanders and I but she could stand just me? I see how it is now…

“Say deathbats on three!” Tempest yells over the screaming crowd as we all pose like assholes. “One…Two…Three…DEATHBATS!”

“Goodnight, Houston!” We all say in unison before stumbling off the stage. In all honesty, we had all probably drank a little too much on stage during this show but we are not about to stop drinking now.

“Party on the bus! Party on the bus!” Jimmy screams before he grabs Tempest around the waist and throws her over his shoulder. “FUCK YEAH!” he sings, running toward the bus with the Tempest screaming, “Be careful with my camera Jimmy! No…its not for selfies! Put me down!!”

“You’re gonna Eat it! Eat it! Eat it! SMILE TEMPTY!! AHHH!!”

“Jimmy! NOO PUT ME DOWN!!!”

“She was one hundred percent correct when she told me she was crazy too,” Zacky chuckles next to me as we watch them disappear into the darkness. “Those two blockheads are perfect for each other.”

“Yeah, but you don’t have to sleep above them in a bunk,” Johnny groans. “I swear if I hear one of them scream in orgasm when I’m sleeping one more time I’m going to—“

“Going to what? Climb into bed with them?” Matt chuckles as Johnny punches him in the arm. “Jimbo would probably love a gnome hunt. And I’ve always wanted to know, how do you get into that top bunk without a ladder?”

“Fuck you guys!”
I laugh and turn my attention from the guys towards Kaylyn who is standing next to me quietly. “Hey,” I say, pulling her close after dumping a bottle of water over my head. I place a light kiss on her temple before pulling her back at arm’s length to look her over. “Are you okay?”

Kaylyn looks up at me with an amused look, her brown eyes meeting mine. She bit her bottom lip before her eyes rake over my body and instantly know she is trying to distract me. “Something wrong with little ol’ me? Never,” Kay says, batting her long lashes at me. Oh, she is good because I can feel a boner forming in my pants. “What about you?” she teases, walking her fingers down my chest.

I smirk down at her as I pull her into my sweaty body, forgetting about her odd behavior. “You are a dirty little tease, you know that?” I laugh, taking a step backwards with her so that her back is pressing firmly against my rig box. I take my hand and gently graze my thumb over her cheek, leaning my body against hers. “Do you know how irresistible you are?”

“I think you’re biased,” Kay laughs as her arms go around my neck. “But I wasn’t lying before…you do stink.” I press my nose to hers and stare into her eyes.

“Well, you’re about to be stinky too, Kay,” I breath, my tone full of lust. Hell, I would take her right here on the side of the stage and not think twice about it. I slowly lean in to kiss her but before our lips can touch, Kaylyn pushes me away and flies toward the bus.

“Kay?” I call, storming after her. What the hell is going on? I find her outside the door of the emergency exit, puking her brains out. “Kay,” I breathe, moving to hold her hair out of her face. “Hitting the booze a little too hard tonight?” I chuckle, taking a seat on the concrete steps.

Kaylyn hastily wipes her mouth with her arm and reaches for the bottle of water behind her. “Yeah, I think so…” she rasps, taking a seat next to me. Kay lays her head on my shoulder and I cant help but pull her closer. “I just haven’t been feeling well.”

“Do you need to see a doctor?” I ask as I run my fingers through her long dark hair. “We don’t have to leave until tomorrow afternoon, so we could get you in somewhere if you want. Nothing’s worse than being sick on the bus,” I chuckle, remembering when all five of us had food poisoning last tour. We puked our brains out for days and I was positive the smell never truly left the carpet.

Kay takes in a shaky breath as she puts her head in her hands. “I think I’ll be okay,” she sighs, though I can tell that something is bothering her. “I just need to go to sleep…I’m going to head back to the bus and get some rest.”

“Do you want me to come with you?” I watch as Kay stands up and shakily makes her way down the steps.

“No, I’m alright. Have fun with the guys,” Kaylyn insists before I watch her disappear into the bus.

“Something is not right…”

Notes

So is Kaylyn sick? Is it the heat? Is Brian right that she isn't acting right?