*Carry On*

**Kaylyn's POV**

We arrive in NYC for the show and I honestly all I want to do is throw in the towel, crawl back to my house, and live as a shut in for the rest of my miserable life. I haven't spoken to Brian since he all but told me that I had too much baggage for him to handle...little does he know, I would dump it all in a heartbeat, so I could just live happily with him.

I just need to get out of here because it physically pains me to be in love with someone who obviously doesn't want me around. Plus, to add insult to injury, I have to stand by and watch while my best friend falls in love with his. Ugh, don't get me wrong, I'm happy for Tempe and Jimmy but my heartache over losing Brian has made me less than supportive of their relationship.

Let's face it, I've been a bitch to everyone for the last few days so most people are avoiding me...the only people who will still attempt to be around me are Jimmy and Matt. I think Jimmy is trying to make me smile with his off the wall antics and Matt probably just sticks around out of guilt for what happened. It's not his fault so I don't know why he bothers.

"Are you happy to be back in New York for a bit?" Matt asks from beside me and I involuntarily jump because I didn't realize he was standing there.

I quickly shrug off my paranoia and turn to face him. "To be honest, I think I'm going to see if Zacky would let me break my contract and just stay here" I sigh and Matt gapes at me.

"You can't be serious, right?" he asks in disbelief and part of me wonders why the hell he is so shocked by this.

I nod my head and shrug my shoulders at him, "Come on Matt, you're the only person besides Jimmy who will even talk to me...and you just do that out of guilt" I huff and light up a smoke.

"I don't feel guilty" he lies with a shaky voice that gives him away.

I raise and eyebrow at him and take another long drag off my cigarette. "Look Matt, don't feel guilty, because you weren't the one who hit me. I'm grateful that you were there, but I'm sorry for dragging you into my shit show. I think it's just best if we part ways here because let's face it, I'm doing a shitty job in regards to helping you get Brian back on track...if anything I am just making it worse." I admit and stomp out my cigarette before walking away.

"Kaylyn you can't just leave!" Matt calls out from behind me but I keep my eyes down and refuse to turn around. Unfortunately, I'm not watching where I'm going either and slam full force into the last person I want to see, Brian.

I stumble backwards and he reaches his hand out to steady me, but I shrug my body out of his reach. I can't handle his touch right now because I know it will make me change my mind. "Sorry" I mutter before quickly scurrying away from him. I wonder if he heard Matt say I was leaving? I doubt he'd care if I did, I mean, He can't handle my drama anymore, anyhow.

The worst part, besides leaving Brian behind, is going to be facing my mother. I wish he never chased her down and forced her to give him a chance or offer to take us to dinner...a dinner that won't be happening now I guess. God, I'm so not looking forward to her finding out we broke up. I know I will have to hear her gloat about how 'mother is always right' and how she just knew he would break my heart.

Unfortunately, I don't see another solution to our problem, since Brian made it evidently clear that I'm too much drama to be worth fighting for. Why would I subject myself to the heartache of watching fangirls throw themselves at him? He probably hates me enough to take them up on their offers right in front of me. Maybe he will try and show me how bad Synyster Gates really could be, to prove to me that I overreacted. Trust me, I know!

I dial a cab and grab my bags from the bus, while silently praying that Matt doesn't spread the word of my departure to the rest of the guys before I can make my escape. I hear footsteps approaching and try to duck out of sight but it's too late.

"Where the hell do you think you're going?"

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So, who caught Kaylyn trying to run?

Did Brian hear Matt and if so, will he stop Kaylyn from leaving?

Will he remember the dinner plans he made with Barbara and if so, will he show up or blow them off?

Synyster Ryn

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