Unwritten

Tomorrow was Christmas and every one decided to have a group Christmas party, it's a good thing i brought things for everyone. Normally i just get the roadies and tech's a box of chocolates or something and the boys something special, because i've known them for so long. It was kind of awkward being with Zacky alone because of that thing and our thing, but every now and then he'd cover for Jim and I. Sometimes Val and Chelle would go take turns on the guys bus to have some "quality time" and we'd all move around and bus hop, sometimes Jimmy would sneak off onto our bus right before we leave so Matt couldn't do anything and we'd be sure to get there at least 10 minutes before they do. I've been front row with the girls at every single one of their shows, trying to advertise for them but most of the time i just get hit on and Matt calls them out or flips them off. It depends. Why not put that appeal to good use? After every show Jimmy would always come and hug me all sweaty, i didn't mind it, i was sweaty too.
"So guy's anything planned for Christmas Eve?" I ask the remaining boys, they're on my bus now.
"Nah. Just waiting till Christmas." Johnny responds.
"Gonna get a Christmas kiss anyone?" I say trying to get something out of these guys.
"I know my hand's are going to be full of presents." Jimmy yells out loudly. I look at him with wide eyes as Johnny just wriggle his eyebrows at me.
"Fuck you."
"You already did."
"Keep that shit up and you're not getting any presents.....well from me anyways."
"Damn, i do not want to risk that."
"It's alright Jim, I can always take them for you." Zacky steps in. Now things just got a little awkward.
"Sorry man, my names has already been written all over them...permanently." He eye's Zack.
"That's alright, i can just cover up your marking with mine."
"What the fuck are you guys even talking about now?" Were they still talking about presents or other things.
"Let's just say you can't unfuck what's already been fucked...over and over again."
"Okay TMI." Johnny yells. "She's like my fucking sister too man, now i kind of get how Matt feels."
"Psht. You guys already know what happens when two people go out, if not with me it'd probably be with some one else, but not as good."
"Alright well i'm going to go to sleep now because i don't really want to be involved with you guys talking about my sexuality." I hug them all goodbye and escape to my little bunk.
10:03. I would've figured that they would throw a party till midnight but i guess they weren't catching my drift. I'll just sleep it in so i can open presents early. I doze of for an hour and a half and awoke to someone coming in bed with me.
"Hey." I mumbled as i wrapped my arm around him.
"Want to know what i want from Santa."
"What?"
"A kiss, from you."
"I may not be Santa but i can make that happen." I straddle him and leaned down for a kiss. This kiss felt different it didn't feel like the lips i knew, but maybe i was too tired to notice. My hips started grinding against him as we started making out. That's when it hit me, his body feels totally different. This isn't Jimmy!!!
"Who the fuck is this!" I whisper-yelled.
"Wait who is this?"
"I asked you first asshole. Besides i'm the only girl on this bus you know who the fuck this is." I could taste the alcohol on my mouth, so they were getting drunk till Christmas. In this case i can forgive him, but this is something that can never be mentioned. I quickly got off of him and pushed him out of my bed, when he was in the light i saw it was Zacky, to play it off i yelled, "Yo Z i know you're on my bus this time but this is my assigned bed your's is over there." I pointed and he just walked along. Damn, fuck, i need to tell Jim about this. This whole relationship is about trust, i just won't tell him on Christmas, i don't want to ruin that. I walked out to the little "living room" area and saw that it was empty except for Jimmy drinking a beer alone on the couch.
"Though you went to bed."
"I did, but Zacky was drunk and making a lot of noise so i had to help him and i couldn't find you soo."
"Well here i am haha."
"You seem upset." I took a seat on his lap and grabbed the beer to put it down.
"No, i'm fine, i'm cool." I grabbed his cheeks to face him with me.
"No you're not. Tell me. I don't want you to be upset, especially with Christmas happening in like 10 minutes." He hesitated.
"It's just i feel like shit for cheating on you still. I don't know why you came all the way out here for me. I just feel like any second you're going to leave me for someone else. I see you trying to advertise us in the crowds and getting hit on by a ton of random guys, i don't want you to be taken from me. And Zacky, he's my brother and i love him but he threatens him. Of course i trust you with him but i know how much of a better person he is than me. He doesn't cheat and today kind of made me realize that he might actually take you from me. Fuck." He put his head down in his hands and brushed his hair back. I had to tell him.
"You don't have to worry. But while i lied. Zacky did wake me up but not for that reason. He rolled into my bed and i thought it was you so i gave him and kiss and made out with him but then his body didn't feel like yours so i pushed him out. He was drunk and i know he would never do that if he had his senses. Please don't be mad at him."
"I was fucking right. He does like you. I'm not pissed but i am pissed. I'm fucking going to lose you to Zacky. You guys made out man, i don't know if i should be killing him or what?"
"Or break up with me? I told you because i made a promise and as i soon as i realized it wasn't him i pushed him away. I DID NOT keep on going because i love you. I came all the way out here so i could be with you. YOU. On Christmas and New Years. I love you and nobody's going to take me away from you."
"Not even Zacky."
"Not even the thought of Zacky." He smiled and wrapped his arms around me, then i saw the clock. 12:00.
"Well would you look at that." Jimmy whispered.
"Merry Christmas." I looked into his eyes and gave him a deep kiss and then....

Notes

i took a nap while writing this so my sex drive kind of just vanished.