Girl I Know

*1 month later*
Zacky’s POV:
“It’s official boys! We’re going on tour!” Matt shouts as he walks into his parent's garage; the rest of us are already here. “It is? All the venues are booked?” Jimmy asks excitedly and Johnny nods, “Fuck yeah! I can’t wait!” he says a huge grin on his face. “This is awesome! Where are we playing?” Brian asks and Johnny pulls out a piece of crumpled paper from his back pocket, “Uh, we’re playing about forty shows. We’re starting in Chicago then going all the way up to Brooklyn and then coming back to Huntington, stopping at a few places on the way to our home concert” he says before handing Brian the paper. “When are we leaving?” I ask, “Two weeks!” Matt answers. “That’s so soon, Sweet! I’m so excited. ” I add. Matt nods and grabs his microphone, “Alright, let’s practice Afterlife again and then we can play all of our songs in order?” Matt suggests and we all nod. I can't wait for this tour, it's going to be so wicked. I hope Stella will be alright with this, I’ll be gone for almost two and a half months, that’s a long time. I look up at the guys and they’re all staring at me, waiting for me to start playing. “Oh sorry” I apologize quickly before I start playing. ***

Stella's POV:
“So you’re officially going on tour?” I ask Zacky as we're walking hand in hand around downtown Huntington. “Yeah, are you alright with that?” he asks and I nod “Yeah, I’ll be ok. You’ll just have to call me every night” I say and he laughs, “I will, I promise” he says before leaning down and kissing my cheek softly. “I’m going to miss you like crazy” he says and I nod, “Me too” I say, a hint of sadness in my voice. I really am going to miss him, but I’m also nervous about being alone for two months or so… I’ll need someone to keep me company. “Are you sure you’re alright?” Zacky asks, snapping me back to reality. I look up at him, “Yeah I’m fine, don’t worry” I reassure him and he smiles. “Want to grab something to eat?” he asks and I nod, it’s around dinner time. We continue to walk until we reach a small diner, the waitress seats us and we pick up the menus. After ordering our food, Zacky reaches across the table and grabs one of my hands. He doesn’t say anything; he just rubs his thumb on the top of my hand. I stare at him, but his eyes are looking down; he really likes me. I can tell just by looking at him… I am happy that he cares about me so much, but it’s also not good. I let out a sigh and Zacky finally looks up at me, “What’s wrong?” he asks and I shrug “It’s just that, I can tell that you really care about me and that’s never really happened to me before” I admit and he watches me carefully for a few seconds before answering, “Isn’t it a good thing that I care about you?” he asks and I shrug “I guess, but I don’t think you should get too attached to me” I admit while looking down. Even though I’m not looking at Zacky, I know he has a confused expression. “Why not? Isn’t that the point of being in a relationship with someone?” he points out and I nod, “Yeah it is, it’s just that, I’m not really good at keeping relationships and I don’t want you to love me, then be crushed when I leave” I explain, while looking back up at him. I was right, he looks confused. “Why would you leave though?” he asks, “I guess I’ve never really been with someone who was worth sticking around for” I say and he nods, “Am I not worth it?” he asks slowly and I sigh “Yes you are, that’s the problem” I say and he shakes his head confusingly, “I don’t get it, how is that a problem?” he asks and I take a deep breath, preparing for the long explanation to come. “With all of my past relationships, it was more about the physical stuff then the emotional stuff. Most of my exes wanted the sex and weren’t too bothered with what I had to say or how I felt. But I didn’t really mind because I only really wanted the physical part too. I’ve never gotten attached to a guy before, and now with you, I am. It’s such a strange feeling and I’ve never experienced it before. We’re getting close and I feel it, but the problem is I don’t think that I’ll be very good at being in a real relationship” I finish and he squeezes my hand, “You’re doing a good job so far” he points out and I smile at him, “See? Like that! You care about me; you care about how I feel. I’ve never had someone like that before and I don’t want to hurt or lose you” I admit, I’ve never been so open with someone before. What I am saying is partly true, I’ve never gotten attached to a past boyfriend before but I’m also saying this because I want Zacky to feel safe when he goes on tour. I don’t want him thinking that I will cheat, which I might end up doing. I mean a whole two months without sleeping with someone? I’m not that strong. “You won’t hurt me, and as for losing me? I’m not going anywhere” he reassures me and I can’t help but smile. He’s so fucking perfect. I wish I could be as good a girlfriend as he is a boyfriend. Neither of us says anything else because the waitress appears with our food.***

Zacky’s POV:
After we eat, pay and leave, we’re walking around again. It’s getting pretty late, Stella suddenly stops walking. I turn around and look at her, confused “I’ve got an idea! Come with me!” she says before grabbing my hand and walking back the way we came. “Where are we going?” I ask and she grins evilly, oh no. “You’ll have to wait and see babe” she answers with a wink and I shakes my head while laughing. So the mystery continues…

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