Nothing lasts forever
I Love You
I walked around my living room making sure all of my guests were having a good time. I had bottles of beer in my hand, passing them around to everyone who was empty-handed. As I looked around and small talked with other people, I could see Arin talking to Jason and I smiled slightly.
I watched Jason excuse himself and walk away so I headed over there.
"Hey, you." I grinned.
"Hey, doll face." Arin said back. "Has anyone ever told you how beautiful you are? You look like God's most flawless angel."
"Are you drunk, Arin?" I joked and lightly punched his arm.
"What, I can't tell my princess how perfect she is?"
"Keep talking like that, you're getting laid."
Arin's eyes widened and his face turned bright red. I chuckled nervously, then we both were silent. I looked into his eyes and smiled slightly. After finally breaking my gaze from his, I looked around for Johnny. When I could see him in the kitchen mixing drinks with Zacky, I turned back to Arin.
As I slowly ran my hand from his shoulder all the way down his arm, I grabbed his hand lightly and said, "You..uh..wanna go upstairs?"
His face reddened even more, and he choked up, "S-sure."
I lead him into my room and shut the door behind me, after putting a sock on the door knob. Turning to face him, Arin looked extremely nervous. We had never actually done anything other than kiss before. Sure, he spent the night all the time, but he always slept on top of the covers and always kept his space. I've offered multiple times for him to come under the covers, but he always politely declined. At this point, I wanted him so bad that I didn't care how many people were in my house right now.
I walked towards him and pulled him towards me, crashing my lips into his. I moaned softly when he grabbed my hips. I could feel his breathing get heavy, his pants getting tighter. It was actually pretty hot listening to him borderline hyperventilate. He gently pushed me away and ran his fingers through my hair, looking into my eyes.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" He asked. "I don't want you to do something you might regret.."
I kissed him softly and pulled his shirt off slowly. "I've been wanting this since I first met you, baby."
He moaned and I pushed him back onto my bed, stripping down to my bra and panties as he watched. I straddled him and kissed him while blindly undoing his jeans and pulling them off.
"You're so beautiful." Arin said, breathlessly.
I pulled the covers back on my bed and motioned for him to get under with me, which he did while pulling the blankets back over us. He slid on top of me and grabbed the headboard as we made out heavily. I dug my nails into his back and he pulled his lips away from mine to moan, then move down and kiss my neck and collarbones.
Just as I was going to remove my bra, the door flew wide open. With my fucking brother charging straight for Arin. I screamed for Johnny to stop and jumped out of my bed yelling for someone to help.
"JOHNNY GET THE FUCK OFF OF HIM!" I tried to hold him back but it was no use.
He grabbed Arin and pushed him against the wall, knocking over a lamp, and pinned him.
"You motherfucker. I FUCKING KNEW SOMETHING WAS UP BETWEEN YOU TWO!" Johnny shouted while trying to choke Arin out.
"It's not what you fucking think!" I said rushing towards them.
"Shut up, whore! I'll deal with you later."
~
"Jacqueline? Are you there?"
"Huh? Oh. Yeah." I said quickly.
"So, what happened?" Jimmy asked, sounding slightly like a teenage girl waiting to her gossip.
"Just a huge fucking stupid fight over nothing at all." I mumbled while putting empty beer bottles and dirty paper plates into a black trash bag.
"If it was nothing, then why were you and Arin in your underwear, in your bed room, in bed, with a sock on the door?" He chuckled.
"I'm a grown woman, I can sleep with whoever I want."
"And I'm not saying you can't. But you made a dumb choice doing it with Johnny running around the house looking for you."
I sighed and looked over at Jimmy. He was right, but I hated to admit it. I did make a stupid choice. But it's not my fault my brother still thinks I'm a 16 year old girl who needs her big brother to protect her.
"How do you feel, Chickadee?" Jimmy asked me.
"How do you think? I just took a blow to the jaw from an angry gnome man trying to beat the guy who almost slept with me....and they broke my fucking lamp!" I whined and Jimmy laughed at me. "What? I really liked that lamp."
"It was a pretty cool lamp." He joked.
"It gave me a good 3 years of lamp-ery."
"Is that even a word?"
"It is now."
I could hear Jimmy sigh as I finished up cleaning my house and threw out the two bags worth of trash. I walked into my living room and sat on the couch.
"Why are you mad at Arin?" He asked while staring me down.
"Honestly? It's a mix between letting my brother call me a whore, and breaking his nose." I said in a sassy tone.
"He did that because Johnny punched you in the face."
"But he knew it was an accident. I mean, yeah, I'm pretty steamed at Johnny for busting in there like the fucking Terminator and beating the crap out of my boyfriend; but that's not why I'm so mad." I paused, taking a drink of water. "I am 25 years old. I am an adult. But Johnny still treats me like I'm some idiot teenager ready to fuck her life up. He treats me like he's my dad."
"You know he only does that because he loves you, Chickie. He just wants to keep you safe. He's afraid you're gonna meet the wrong guy and get taken advantage of. The last thing he wants is to see you get your heart broken."
"How are you so sure?"
"I'm a fucking genius, that's how!" Jimmy laughed wildly, making me smile."He loves you more than anything in this world, you know that. Cut the guy some slack."
I rubbed my face in frustration and nodded my head slightly.
"As for Arin, I have no clue what got into him. But what I do know is, he really does care about you and he wants you to be happy all the time. I'm sure seeing you get decked in the face was like a bomb going off inside him. He probably didn't even realize what happened until it, you know, actually happened."
"I want to talk to him, really really bad. And is it bad that I'd like to pick up where we left off?" Jimmy shook his head at me and covered his eyes.
"You're quite the sex fiend." He joked.
"Yes, of course, I'm a nympho. Seriously, Jim, I don't know what to do. I don't want to talk to him but then I feel like I need him." I was glad to have Jimmy back in my life. He really knew exactly what to say.
"Don't shut him out. I can tell he really, really, really, likes you. It'd hurt him bad if you did that to him." Jimmy advised. "I'm sure he's blowing up your phone right now trying to make sure you're okay."
"I guess you're right." I confessed.
"When am I not?"
"I just need to be alone right now." I was exhausted.
"I understand. I'll be back tomorrow morning to check on you, okay? I'm gonna go talk Johnny's ear off again about treating you like an adult." He stood up. "Jeez, the last time I did that it was 2007."
I chuckled and went into the kitchen as Jimmy left. I couldn't stop thinking about what happened, before Johnny knocked my teeth out. I'm gonna need a cold shower.
I heard my doorbell ring and I groaned.
"Guess that shower's going to have to wait." I bitched as I went to open the door.
Arin stood in front of me with a bouquet of pink roses and the biggest puppy dog eyes I've ever seen.
"Val told me these were your favorite.." He mumbled before reaching for my hand. "Can I come in?"
"Yeah, come in."
I shut my door and locked it behind him. I honestly had the worst mixed feelings right now. I wanted to slap him, kiss him, and fuck him; all at the same time. Maybe I am a nympho?
"How does your face feel? Are you hurt?" He asked, hugging me and kissing my forehead.
"Don't worry, I'm fine." I mumbled and rested my forehead against his shoulder. "I'm kinda bummed our moment was ruined, but I'm fine. Are you okay?"
Arin laughed and I looked up at him. I'm just now seeing his injuries. He had a black eye and a bruise on his jawline. Also, grip marks around his neck and a small cut right above his cheekbone. I gasped and went to get a wet rag, to clean up his cut.
"I'm okay, angel." He called out.
"I don't know if I want to kick you out or rip your clothes off." I quipped and came back out to wipe the dried blood from his face.
"Well, I'd rather stay here with you. But I don't want to just screw you."
"It wouldn't be like that."
Arin was looking into my eyes with a confused look on his face and I groaned loudly.
"God, you don't get it do you?!" I yelled at him.
He just looked back at me silently.
"Arin, I fucking love you. And I want to show you how much I love you, the most intimate way I can, but every time I try you always say no! Then I finally get you to want to, and my fucking brother comes bursting in ready to kill. But even after all that, you still don't get that I want to fucking make love to you."
Arin stood up and walked over to me. I'm just now noticing how much taller he is than me. He practically stood over me, looking down with a blank face. He suddenly grabbed my face, cupping my cheeks in his hands, and kissed me passionately, and I practically threw myself at him.
~
I could hear Arin's breathing slowly fall into a steady rhythm, as he clung to my naked body. To say what just happened was amazing, is an understatement. I felt like I was on Cloud 9. I was gonna get shit from it in the morning from Jimmy but I didn't give a single fuck about that.
Arin pulled me closer and sighed happily.
"I love you so much, baby." He mumbled and kissed my head.
I smiled against his chest.
"I love you too."
I watched Jason excuse himself and walk away so I headed over there.
"Hey, you." I grinned.
"Hey, doll face." Arin said back. "Has anyone ever told you how beautiful you are? You look like God's most flawless angel."
"Are you drunk, Arin?" I joked and lightly punched his arm.
"What, I can't tell my princess how perfect she is?"
"Keep talking like that, you're getting laid."
Arin's eyes widened and his face turned bright red. I chuckled nervously, then we both were silent. I looked into his eyes and smiled slightly. After finally breaking my gaze from his, I looked around for Johnny. When I could see him in the kitchen mixing drinks with Zacky, I turned back to Arin.
As I slowly ran my hand from his shoulder all the way down his arm, I grabbed his hand lightly and said, "You..uh..wanna go upstairs?"
His face reddened even more, and he choked up, "S-sure."
I lead him into my room and shut the door behind me, after putting a sock on the door knob. Turning to face him, Arin looked extremely nervous. We had never actually done anything other than kiss before. Sure, he spent the night all the time, but he always slept on top of the covers and always kept his space. I've offered multiple times for him to come under the covers, but he always politely declined. At this point, I wanted him so bad that I didn't care how many people were in my house right now.
I walked towards him and pulled him towards me, crashing my lips into his. I moaned softly when he grabbed my hips. I could feel his breathing get heavy, his pants getting tighter. It was actually pretty hot listening to him borderline hyperventilate. He gently pushed me away and ran his fingers through my hair, looking into my eyes.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" He asked. "I don't want you to do something you might regret.."
I kissed him softly and pulled his shirt off slowly. "I've been wanting this since I first met you, baby."
He moaned and I pushed him back onto my bed, stripping down to my bra and panties as he watched. I straddled him and kissed him while blindly undoing his jeans and pulling them off.
"You're so beautiful." Arin said, breathlessly.
I pulled the covers back on my bed and motioned for him to get under with me, which he did while pulling the blankets back over us. He slid on top of me and grabbed the headboard as we made out heavily. I dug my nails into his back and he pulled his lips away from mine to moan, then move down and kiss my neck and collarbones.
Just as I was going to remove my bra, the door flew wide open. With my fucking brother charging straight for Arin. I screamed for Johnny to stop and jumped out of my bed yelling for someone to help.
"JOHNNY GET THE FUCK OFF OF HIM!" I tried to hold him back but it was no use.
He grabbed Arin and pushed him against the wall, knocking over a lamp, and pinned him.
"You motherfucker. I FUCKING KNEW SOMETHING WAS UP BETWEEN YOU TWO!" Johnny shouted while trying to choke Arin out.
"It's not what you fucking think!" I said rushing towards them.
"Shut up, whore! I'll deal with you later."
~
"Jacqueline? Are you there?"
"Huh? Oh. Yeah." I said quickly.
"So, what happened?" Jimmy asked, sounding slightly like a teenage girl waiting to her gossip.
"Just a huge fucking stupid fight over nothing at all." I mumbled while putting empty beer bottles and dirty paper plates into a black trash bag.
"If it was nothing, then why were you and Arin in your underwear, in your bed room, in bed, with a sock on the door?" He chuckled.
"I'm a grown woman, I can sleep with whoever I want."
"And I'm not saying you can't. But you made a dumb choice doing it with Johnny running around the house looking for you."
I sighed and looked over at Jimmy. He was right, but I hated to admit it. I did make a stupid choice. But it's not my fault my brother still thinks I'm a 16 year old girl who needs her big brother to protect her.
"How do you feel, Chickadee?" Jimmy asked me.
"How do you think? I just took a blow to the jaw from an angry gnome man trying to beat the guy who almost slept with me....and they broke my fucking lamp!" I whined and Jimmy laughed at me. "What? I really liked that lamp."
"It was a pretty cool lamp." He joked.
"It gave me a good 3 years of lamp-ery."
"Is that even a word?"
"It is now."
I could hear Jimmy sigh as I finished up cleaning my house and threw out the two bags worth of trash. I walked into my living room and sat on the couch.
"Why are you mad at Arin?" He asked while staring me down.
"Honestly? It's a mix between letting my brother call me a whore, and breaking his nose." I said in a sassy tone.
"He did that because Johnny punched you in the face."
"But he knew it was an accident. I mean, yeah, I'm pretty steamed at Johnny for busting in there like the fucking Terminator and beating the crap out of my boyfriend; but that's not why I'm so mad." I paused, taking a drink of water. "I am 25 years old. I am an adult. But Johnny still treats me like I'm some idiot teenager ready to fuck her life up. He treats me like he's my dad."
"You know he only does that because he loves you, Chickie. He just wants to keep you safe. He's afraid you're gonna meet the wrong guy and get taken advantage of. The last thing he wants is to see you get your heart broken."
"How are you so sure?"
"I'm a fucking genius, that's how!" Jimmy laughed wildly, making me smile."He loves you more than anything in this world, you know that. Cut the guy some slack."
I rubbed my face in frustration and nodded my head slightly.
"As for Arin, I have no clue what got into him. But what I do know is, he really does care about you and he wants you to be happy all the time. I'm sure seeing you get decked in the face was like a bomb going off inside him. He probably didn't even realize what happened until it, you know, actually happened."
"I want to talk to him, really really bad. And is it bad that I'd like to pick up where we left off?" Jimmy shook his head at me and covered his eyes.
"You're quite the sex fiend." He joked.
"Yes, of course, I'm a nympho. Seriously, Jim, I don't know what to do. I don't want to talk to him but then I feel like I need him." I was glad to have Jimmy back in my life. He really knew exactly what to say.
"Don't shut him out. I can tell he really, really, really, likes you. It'd hurt him bad if you did that to him." Jimmy advised. "I'm sure he's blowing up your phone right now trying to make sure you're okay."
"I guess you're right." I confessed.
"When am I not?"
"I just need to be alone right now." I was exhausted.
"I understand. I'll be back tomorrow morning to check on you, okay? I'm gonna go talk Johnny's ear off again about treating you like an adult." He stood up. "Jeez, the last time I did that it was 2007."
I chuckled and went into the kitchen as Jimmy left. I couldn't stop thinking about what happened, before Johnny knocked my teeth out. I'm gonna need a cold shower.
I heard my doorbell ring and I groaned.
"Guess that shower's going to have to wait." I bitched as I went to open the door.
Arin stood in front of me with a bouquet of pink roses and the biggest puppy dog eyes I've ever seen.
"Val told me these were your favorite.." He mumbled before reaching for my hand. "Can I come in?"
"Yeah, come in."
I shut my door and locked it behind him. I honestly had the worst mixed feelings right now. I wanted to slap him, kiss him, and fuck him; all at the same time. Maybe I am a nympho?
"How does your face feel? Are you hurt?" He asked, hugging me and kissing my forehead.
"Don't worry, I'm fine." I mumbled and rested my forehead against his shoulder. "I'm kinda bummed our moment was ruined, but I'm fine. Are you okay?"
Arin laughed and I looked up at him. I'm just now seeing his injuries. He had a black eye and a bruise on his jawline. Also, grip marks around his neck and a small cut right above his cheekbone. I gasped and went to get a wet rag, to clean up his cut.
"I'm okay, angel." He called out.
"I don't know if I want to kick you out or rip your clothes off." I quipped and came back out to wipe the dried blood from his face.
"Well, I'd rather stay here with you. But I don't want to just screw you."
"It wouldn't be like that."
Arin was looking into my eyes with a confused look on his face and I groaned loudly.
"God, you don't get it do you?!" I yelled at him.
He just looked back at me silently.
"Arin, I fucking love you. And I want to show you how much I love you, the most intimate way I can, but every time I try you always say no! Then I finally get you to want to, and my fucking brother comes bursting in ready to kill. But even after all that, you still don't get that I want to fucking make love to you."
Arin stood up and walked over to me. I'm just now noticing how much taller he is than me. He practically stood over me, looking down with a blank face. He suddenly grabbed my face, cupping my cheeks in his hands, and kissed me passionately, and I practically threw myself at him.
~
I could hear Arin's breathing slowly fall into a steady rhythm, as he clung to my naked body. To say what just happened was amazing, is an understatement. I felt like I was on Cloud 9. I was gonna get shit from it in the morning from Jimmy but I didn't give a single fuck about that.
Arin pulled me closer and sighed happily.
"I love you so much, baby." He mumbled and kissed my head.
I smiled against his chest.
"I love you too."
Notes
Yes, I know Arin left the band.
No, I'm not stopping this story because of it!
My philosophy is, he helped the boys and was apart of the HTTK album so he's still going to be a part of my stories.
So Arin and Jacqueline did the dirty, and I'm sure Johnny will find it because why not!
What will happen if, OR WHEN, Johnny finds out?
Is there going to be tension between the guys because of what happened?
Stay tuned and enjoy!
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