Crystal Blue Disguise

I feel tears start stinging my eyes. Why would he do that? Lead me on and then show up with another girl that he could have FUCKING TOLD ME ABOUT?! I jump out of my seat and look down at Brian.
“I think I'm gonna be sick.”
“Are you alright?” He frowns.
“I just think I had too much to drink last night.”
I lied. I had to. I don't wanna tell him the real reason why I'm feeling like this. I quickly make my way up to my room and jump onto my bed with my face in my pillow. How could Jimmy lead me on like that? Maybe he didn't know he did it... I mean he was totally fucking drunk when he came over. Well whatever the reason, I still think it's wrong. Now I regret even taking this photography job because now I have to see him every fucking day and let my heart break even more whenever I see them together. Fuck what am I saying? I haven't even known him for long and I'm already acting like I'm-- Fuck... Did I really fall in love with him? I mean, he has been my favorite member of Avenged Sevenfold since I can remember and I have been crushing on him for quite a few years. Maybe actually meeting him and spending time with him has made me realize I really am in love with him. At least that's what my heart tells me.
“Becca?”
I jump and turn to see Brian standing in my room.
“You left your door open. Are you okay? I'm worried about you. Ever since Jimmy came-- Becca?”
I burst into tears at the mention of Jimmy's name. Brian closes my door and sits next to me on the bed.
“Tell me what's going on.”
“Fuck, Brian. I think I'm in love with him. And to make matters worse, he came over last night totally fucking drunk and told me I'm beautiful. Then he fucking kissed me and he even stayed the night in my room. I woke up this morning and he was gone. Probably because he went off with his stupid girlfriend that he never mentioned to me. When the hell did she even get here?”
“Early this morning. Look, I'm sorry. When Jimmy's drunk, he tends to do things he's not supposed to.”
“So he pretty much lead me on?”
“If that's what you wanna call it.”
“Fuck I just wanna go home. I don't wanna be here.”
“You'll be alright. Just avoid them.”
I nod, leaning my head on his shoulder. Now that we're on the subject of girlfriends, I have one question to ask him
“Does Zacky have a girlfriend?”
“He recently got back with his ex.”
“When?”
“Couple weeks ago.”
“Just fucking great. Another guy to lead me on.”
I sob and Brian just pulls me to him for a hug. He must be absolutely confused right now.

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