Trashed And Scattered
The Breakup
“It’s your fault we couldn’t make it big Heather!” Craig shouted as he paced around the room. We had just gotten word from our manager that the record label dropped us for not producing enough songs to put on the album and taking too much time to even get an album done.
“It not all my fault you stupid asshole! I wrote the lyrics but you didn’t want to stay in the studio long enough to get them recorded! Everyone except me, Raven, and Nicole wanted to be in here recording so we could be a success at it!”
“Stop it both of you! You both are acting like children!” I yell as I stand to my feet and get in between Craig and Heather.
“Shut up Raven! You didn’t even want our opinions or ideas for new songs or rhythms. So just sit your fucking ass down!”
“Don’t you dare say that to me! Have you forgotten that I took everyone’s ideas and thought about them and made a decision? I loved how everyone had their own ideas and we all used them. Why the hell would you say that to me?” I asked looking deep into his eyes.
“Because everything I just said is the truth. You would take our ideas sure but only use some of them. Heather would write lyrics for days and then not get them to us until a week after we were supposed to start recording. Damien screws up on the guitars all the fucking time and makes everything sound like shit.”
“Oh I guess you’re just the perfect one of the group then huh?” Damien said as he rolled his eyes.
“At least I don’t screw up on my work and I can play worth a damn.” Damien looked Craig dead in the eyes as he got up from his seat. He approached Craig with lightning speed and was literally nose to nose with him.
“You are not perfect. We all have bad days where we just need to unwind. I agree with Heather. You don’t even want to be here. Your mom and dad have handed you everything all your life and you don’t know what it’s like to work for something you want.” Damien said with venom dripping from his words.
“I don’t need this bullshit. I quit and I’m going back to Tennessee in the morning anyways. I have great life mother fuckers.” Craig said before leaving the room and slamming the door behind him. We tried for almost a year to find another record label that would take us and to find someone to replace Craig but we just couldn’t.
Of course that was 3 years ago. We did do one last tour without Craig and the people who liked us really well were very disappointed that we broke up. A week before the tour ended, I met a great boy named Skully Orion. He worked the Merch stands at every concert he could get and we became better friends than I had been with the others. What was really cool was that he lived in Huntington Beach like I do and only about 8 houses down from mine. I still remember the day he asked me to be his girlfriend… The tour had ended only 3 weeks ago and all of my friends had moved on and left California. I’ve kept in contact with Heather and Nicole but their texts were only occasionally. I guess they were busy with their jobs in Tennessee. I missed them terribly. Since I had gotten back from the tour, Skully and I have been inseparable. We go to the beach all the time and out to the movies.
I told Zacky about him and he didn’t seem too thrilled about me hanging out with someone I haven’t known for a while but he knows I’m over the age of 18 so I can come and go as I please but I always tell him when I’m coming home. Right now Skully and I had just finished eating at a local diner and we were walking down the beach.
“Did you have fun tonight?”
“Yes the carnival was amazing! I’m so glad we went.” I said smiling from ear to ear.
“I had a wonderful time too but there’s something I need to ask you.”
“What is it?” I asked curiously.
“I know we haven’t known each other long but I feel like I’ve known you all my life. It would make me really happy if you would be my girl.” I watched as he pulled a small box from his pocket and opened it. A beautiful gold ring with a big black stone and tiny red ones sat majestically in the box. He took the ring out and placed it on my right ring finger as I nodded my head and grinning like a mad fool.
“Oh my god this is beautiful.” I said in astonishment as I gazed down at it.
“I bought it with you in mind. A beautiful ring for a beautiful girl.” The smile never left my face as he hugged me tightly and kissed me with so much passion. Now 3 years later we’re still together but haven’t had any kind of sexual relations. I promised my mom years ago that I would not have sex until I was ready to and I aim to keep that promise. I think Skully understands the promise that I made to my dead mother but deep down there’s something telling me that he doesn’t want to wait. I guess I’m just over reacting but I hope I am.
“It not all my fault you stupid asshole! I wrote the lyrics but you didn’t want to stay in the studio long enough to get them recorded! Everyone except me, Raven, and Nicole wanted to be in here recording so we could be a success at it!”
“Stop it both of you! You both are acting like children!” I yell as I stand to my feet and get in between Craig and Heather.
“Shut up Raven! You didn’t even want our opinions or ideas for new songs or rhythms. So just sit your fucking ass down!”
“Don’t you dare say that to me! Have you forgotten that I took everyone’s ideas and thought about them and made a decision? I loved how everyone had their own ideas and we all used them. Why the hell would you say that to me?” I asked looking deep into his eyes.
“Because everything I just said is the truth. You would take our ideas sure but only use some of them. Heather would write lyrics for days and then not get them to us until a week after we were supposed to start recording. Damien screws up on the guitars all the fucking time and makes everything sound like shit.”
“Oh I guess you’re just the perfect one of the group then huh?” Damien said as he rolled his eyes.
“At least I don’t screw up on my work and I can play worth a damn.” Damien looked Craig dead in the eyes as he got up from his seat. He approached Craig with lightning speed and was literally nose to nose with him.
“You are not perfect. We all have bad days where we just need to unwind. I agree with Heather. You don’t even want to be here. Your mom and dad have handed you everything all your life and you don’t know what it’s like to work for something you want.” Damien said with venom dripping from his words.
“I don’t need this bullshit. I quit and I’m going back to Tennessee in the morning anyways. I have great life mother fuckers.” Craig said before leaving the room and slamming the door behind him. We tried for almost a year to find another record label that would take us and to find someone to replace Craig but we just couldn’t.
Of course that was 3 years ago. We did do one last tour without Craig and the people who liked us really well were very disappointed that we broke up. A week before the tour ended, I met a great boy named Skully Orion. He worked the Merch stands at every concert he could get and we became better friends than I had been with the others. What was really cool was that he lived in Huntington Beach like I do and only about 8 houses down from mine. I still remember the day he asked me to be his girlfriend… The tour had ended only 3 weeks ago and all of my friends had moved on and left California. I’ve kept in contact with Heather and Nicole but their texts were only occasionally. I guess they were busy with their jobs in Tennessee. I missed them terribly. Since I had gotten back from the tour, Skully and I have been inseparable. We go to the beach all the time and out to the movies.
I told Zacky about him and he didn’t seem too thrilled about me hanging out with someone I haven’t known for a while but he knows I’m over the age of 18 so I can come and go as I please but I always tell him when I’m coming home. Right now Skully and I had just finished eating at a local diner and we were walking down the beach.
“Did you have fun tonight?”
“Yes the carnival was amazing! I’m so glad we went.” I said smiling from ear to ear.
“I had a wonderful time too but there’s something I need to ask you.”
“What is it?” I asked curiously.
“I know we haven’t known each other long but I feel like I’ve known you all my life. It would make me really happy if you would be my girl.” I watched as he pulled a small box from his pocket and opened it. A beautiful gold ring with a big black stone and tiny red ones sat majestically in the box. He took the ring out and placed it on my right ring finger as I nodded my head and grinning like a mad fool.
“Oh my god this is beautiful.” I said in astonishment as I gazed down at it.
“I bought it with you in mind. A beautiful ring for a beautiful girl.” The smile never left my face as he hugged me tightly and kissed me with so much passion. Now 3 years later we’re still together but haven’t had any kind of sexual relations. I promised my mom years ago that I would not have sex until I was ready to and I aim to keep that promise. I think Skully understands the promise that I made to my dead mother but deep down there’s something telling me that he doesn’t want to wait. I guess I’m just over reacting but I hope I am.
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