Roadtrip

Izzie’s POV
Mia and I were watching the guys play their show on the big stage, it was amazing to see how these guys got to even bigger men when they got on stage, they were enjoying this immensely, playing, fooling around, it was awesome. I looked at Mia, she was beaming and had only eyes for Jimmy.

This morning we were hanging out, when Jimmy and Mia had rushed in..... “SHE IS MOVING IN WITH ME!!” he had been overly excited, and was going round the table, shaking all the guys’ hands. Mia had smiled widely, and hugged me close “I know it’s soon, but it feels so good” she whispered “can you give it your okay?” I must have looked at her with the stupidest look on my face. “Sure I can! He is the best thing that ever happened to you” her grin grew wider again “well, the best thing after me of course” We had giggled together, looking over at the guys, who were still congratulating Jimmy on his catch. Everything was just perfect at that moment.

After that things had gone downwards... Brian had to tune all his guitars, he had to make sure his amps were set correctly, he had to consult with the others about the songs, he had to do a lot of things for the band, and he forgot about me. Jimmy came running back to Mia every chance he had, to get a kiss, but Brian had only shot me a few smiling glances. The difference couldn’t have been bigger.

During dinner I had Brian’s full attention for a solid 30 minutes and my doubts faded again, he was extremely good at that, making me forget everything as soon as he kissed me. After that he had to get dressed, do his hair, his makeup.... And I could only watch. Before they went on stage, Brian came to me, his guitar already in his hand.
“I’m sorry for today Iz, it will be better tomorrow, I promise!” and I could see in his eyes he meant it. He couldn’t help it, this whole relationship thing was new for him, he had always been single when he was on tour, he told me himself. He had tried a few relationships, but only when he was home. Our moment had cut short when they were called to the stage.

And that was where he had been for the past 45 minutes. I had to admit, they looked perfect and I watched my friends being successful and incredibly amazing, but did I watch Brian as my boyfriend? I wasn’t really sure....

Jimmy POV
The concert was slowly coming to an end, I sat behind my drum kit, they brought it here and I felt home. Not only because we really were home, but because from my position here I could make out Mia and Izzie at the side of the stage looking at us.
Mia smiled the entire time and she couldn’t be any more beautiful. Every now and then I stood up just to have a clearer look at them.
I frowned a little seeing Mia and Izzie talk, Mia looked so happy and Izzie smiled as well, but something was wrong.
When Mia looked at me again, Izzie eyes wandered to Brian and she looked sad?
I pushed that thought away and concentrated on the last bit of the concert, it felt so good to be on stage and have all these kids looking at us, enjoying our music.
We even played a new song, fully and it worked out pretty good.
I think it will make it to the album… speaking of the album, we should plan that pretty quick, we had so many ideas and already finished lyrics, we had to get this rolling.

The concert was over and we went down the stage and I handed a couple of my drum sticks to the children in the front, it felt so good to do something for them that makes them feel better.
We signed some shirts and autographs as planned and when I looked over at Matt he was searching the whole stage for things he could give to the fans.

After the show we were doing interviews, we stood behind the stage and all the press people were running around trying to get interviews with us.
First we planned on doing the interview together, but soon we could see that too many people were around and that wouldn’t work out.
So Matt split us up and we were doing solo interviews more or less.
I looked over to Mia, she stood beside Izzie and they looked lost, I didn’t want her to be alone and standing to the side.
Actually I wanted her to smile, smile all the time just like I did.
“Mr. Sullivan, you played new songs, when can we plan with a new album?” One reporter asked.
“We got inspired during this trip and I can tell you that we will have to hit the studio soon, because all the energy and ideas have to become into more songs. After this Race is now completely done, we will all sit together and plan the next album. So you better be prepared.” I smiled and saw a woman approach.
“The Rev, we could see that you had a good time on stage, did you miss all your fans and the whole stage feeling during your trip?” She asked with a smile, I nodded and turned around, searching for Mia again.
“Well, we always have a good time on stage, and we always miss our fans. We love to do music and we love to talk about it, we did some small shows which was pretty cool but today we really got the feeling back, amazing. And Thanks to everyone coming out here for us.” I answered and saw Mia and Izzie in the corner of my eye moving a little to the side.
Damn, I should have told Jason or Matt to spend some time with them, this was pure boredom for them. But I got an idea, whenever I had the chance I would slip away and go to Mia and steal a kiss and ask if everything is alright.
“For all the girly fans, another question for you Mr. Sullivan.” Another woman asked and I nodded.
“Sure, what?” I asked and didn’t know what she would want to know for the girly fans…
“Let us in on a secret, who is single and who is not in the band. We could see beside the stage was someone that caught your eye a couple of times, is that a family member or something else?” She asked with a wink.
I frowned, they really had a good eye for that, huh… so this was my cue anyway. I grinned “Wait a second, I will be right back, I know where you are getting to.”
I went to Mia and kissed her, grabbed her hand and pulled her towards the waiting reporters. Mia looked a little shocked but I told her already I would make it official and since she asked the question, why not now… with everyone around.
“This is the person beside the stage that caught my eye. Reporter and World, this is Mia. Mia, this is my job and you will be part of it. Mia agreed to move in with me. So, she will be with me on all the interviews and concerts and shows and god knows what, whenever she can. I love her and she loves me. I think that answers your questions of me being single. I am not, and hopefully never will be.” I smiled and gave the reporters another show, couldn’t help it. I saw Mia looking at me, she had a shy smile on her lips, not the shocked one when I announced us being together at the signing, I saw pride and love and how could I act any different than kissing her.
I leaned towards her, grabbed her cheeks in my hand and softly kissed her, when the kiss intensified, just like always when we did, I turned us around and showed my back to the reporter and just heard the click of the camera.
I pulled away and stared at Mia, she looked happy just like me.
“Mia, can we ask you a question?” The next reporter asked and she looked a little shy at me and shook her head.
“Just ask, Mia is new to all this, give her a little time. I will get her there, she is just like me, needs a little time to warm up but when she is,... a hell of a ride… oh don’t write it like that, that sounded way too dirty and saucy.” I grinned and Mia rolled her eyes, this would be funny interviews now.

Izzie’s POV
As I stood alone behind the stage and watched Brian do one interview after the other, it finally hit me. This was never going to work, we were never going to work, now we were back to normal. I loved him and I think he believed he loved me too, but our relationship wouldn’t stand all the distractions, all the temptations of real life.
It would be a matter of time before he would realize what he had to give up to be in a relationship with me, he was a rockstar, a damn good rockstar and his needs were different, I got it.

I watched all the guys doing separate interviews on their success in this race, Mia and Jimmy, radiant of happiness telling about their plans to move in together, planning to never let each other go ever again and then Brian... my handsome, amazing Brian... flirting with the woman that was interviewing him now, wrapping her around his finger quick. I smiled, this was what he was best at, I couldn’t stand in the way of this, I didn’t want to hold him back.

I made my decision, and a strange calm came over me, I would close this chapter, but I couldn’t tell Brian the reason for breaking up with him, he would fight me on it, he wouldn’t get it... not yet. I watched him walk over to me.
“Babe, I have one more interview and then I’m taking you out to a late dinner, okay?” He pulled me close and kissed me softly, just a quick kiss in the promise of more, but I knew this would be our last one and I couldn’t stand to end it like this. I locked my lips with his again and pushed myself to him, making Brian open up to me immediately. Our tongues were moving in a slow rhythm and I sighed
“What was that for?” he asked, smiling at me.
“Just you being you... go... they’re waiting for you” He pecked my lips and walked away.
I swallowed the lump in my throat and gave myself one more look at him, before I turned around and walked out of the venue.

The doorman greeted me “miss, can I call you a cab?” I nodded, not trusting my voice enough to answer him. I got a piece of paper and a pen out of my bag and wrote a little note

“My dearest Brian,
I’m so sorry, but I can’t do this. I thought we could make it work, but I don’t think we can.
Thank you for these weeks together, it was amazing, so were you.
This isn’t your fault, it’s mine. I will leave town for a while, please don’t be mad at me.
Izzie”

I folded the piece of paper and scribbled his name on the outside, he deserved a goodbye, even though it was all a lie. The doorman had halted a cab and kept the door open for me.
“Thank you very much, can I ask for a favour? Could you maybe give this note to the guitar player? Synyster Gates?” I handed him the note and a 10 dollar bill.
“Sure miss, no problem, goodbye” He closed the door and tapped the roof, motioning the driver to go.
“Where to miss?”
“The airport please”

I stared out of the window, and watched the town I just got back to a little over 24 hours ago, passing by, I made one phone call, securing my destination and send a text to Mia.

“Babe, I’m sorry, I can’t do it... I will leave town for a bit...Please let me go. I love you”

Notes

Did we just fuck things up?

...I guess we did....