Roadtrip

Mia’s POV
The cab driver dropped us off at my house. I looked at the entrance and honestly it didn’t really feel like my home anymore.
We were gone for these weeks and I guess I would feel more at home wherever we have been, even some lousy hotel room just when I was with Jimmy.
But here, the old memories came back, memories of loneliness, of anxiety, and I didn’t have Jimmy with me to chase these away.
“Babe? Are you alright?” Izzie stood beside me, her bag in hand, looking at the entrance with me.
“I.. guess so. It feels weird you know?” I looked at her and Izzie nodded with a sad smile on her lips.
“I know what you mean. It feels not right to be here.. alone, right?”
“Exactly. But let’s get inside, before we catch a cold.” I took a deep breath and walked forward.
I opened the door and looked inside, all dark and I switched the light on.
“I won’t be able to sleep, honey. Would.. I mean.. do you want to sit on the couch for a while? I have so many things running around in my head..” I looked at Izzie uncertain.
“I know, it’s the same with me, babe. What do you say, we will get comfortable on the couch, maybe we can go to the shop down the street, buy a bottle of wine and talk about everything?” Izzie asked and I smiled, she knew me better than anyone else.
“Wine, really?” I asked he brows lifted.
“Fine, wine for me beer for you?” Izzie grinned and I nodded.
“Come on, let’s leave the unpacking for tomorrow, tonight it’s just us. And Izzie, I missed this, I mean… us, we need to do this, still I mean… I know we are both having a boyfriend now, and this will get more difficult, but you are everything to me, you know that, right? You won’t leave me hanging, because of the ‘perfect nose’ guy?” I asked as a joke, but I also felt a little insecure.
“Never, babe. How could you even think that, it’s better that you promise me you won’t forget me, after you spent even more time with ‘baby-blues’ Oh, and by the way, it’s more ‘perfect mouth’ guy.” Izzie grinned back but I saw the uncertainty in her eyes too.
“I promise.” I smiled and hugged Izzie close.
“Me too.” Izzie whispered back and we stood there for a while.
“Alright, let’s get the drinks and we need to have a serious talk, this was emotional enough for my taste.” I pulled away and smiled, but Izzie still looked a little sad.

Izzie’s POV
Mia and I were walking around in the store, loading up the cart with all kind of snacks we both liked. We were pushing the carts through the aisles and enjoyed the silence. I suddenly heard a voice behind me “Izzie, is that really you?” I turned around and looked at Laura, one of my old colleagues.
“Hey, How are you?” She gave me a short hug and introduced me to the man she was with
“This is Dave, my husband” I shook his hand, I didn’t even know she was married.
“Nice to meet you” I smiled back at them.
“I have kinda big news, I’m pregnant! I will stop working, Dave has a 9 to 5 job with great pay, he will be able to help with the baby when it’s born. It’s really nice to have him around you know, my life is kinda perfect at the moment. How about you, you left so suddenly, how is your life turning out?”

I told her about our journey shortly, while Mia loaded up everything else we needed. After 5 minutes we said goodbye and I went to look for Mia, I found her at the ice cream.
“I will never have that” I told her as I took out a pint of Chunky Monkey Ben & Jerry’s, I needed my ice cream.
“What do you mean?” Mia looked at me in question.
“Just like I said, I will never have that, a husband that will be home with me to take care of my baby.”
Mia put her hand on mine “Why not Izzie? Why will you never have that? You might marry one day, start a family, why wouldn’t you?”
“Let me rephrase that... I will never have that with Brian.” I sighed deeply, surprised by the feeling this conclusion gave me.
“Izzie...” I didn’t want to hear it, I was close to tears and I really didn’t want to cry in the middle of this store
“Let’s just get some things for breakfast and head home, okay?” I grabbed the last things and headed to the cash register. My confidence that Brian and I would work was getting smaller and smaller and I hated the feeling that was giving me, why couldn’t things just be easy for a change?

Mia’s POV
We sat on my couch, blankets covering us and both a glass in hand. Izzie was trying to avoid the conversation getting to her an Brian, so she was studying me closely.
“Babe, why do you look so uncertain? What’s wrong? You didn’t have a fight with Jimmy, did you?”
Izzie asked and I shook my head.
“No, more the opposite. I mean.. when we were in New York for the sentencing it was bad that I had to go without him, but I knew we would be going back, so that was okay, now… I don’t know how it’s going to be with us… I know he loves me and I know I love him, we can work it out, but it scares me a little.” I told her and Izzie nodded, “I know what you mean. We haven’t really seen them in their normal routine, we don’t know how they work.”
“Yes, and I don’t wanna you know, hm… just be his appendage... I don’t know how to describe it. I love Jimmy, but I’m afraid he will lose interest...Or I won’t take it, him being away from me... I don’t know if I need to back off… and if he needs that, Izzie, I don’t know if I can. I just feel so incomplete when I’m without him.”
“Oh babe, no… Believe me, Jimmy needs you. He would never want you to back off. Tell me what you wrote with him during the interviews they were doing, earlier.”
I smiled remembering Jimmy, during the interviews, he was surrounded by people but he held his hand up for the people to give him a second, he came over to me kissed me and tried to get me to walking over to him, I refused, didn’t want the main attention on me, this was Jimmy’s thing and it was about the charity, not us or me.
“He asked me to come with him, that he would be feeling better, if I was by his side. You know, why I refused… I don’t want all the attention on me, he is the one that earns that, not me…”
“Babe, see… Jimmy wants you by his side, Jimmy needs you… I talked to him, Mia. He is head over heels for you, you are worrying where there is no need to…”
“I know and I know we can make this work, it’s just I haven’t really had time to adjust to Jimmy and his normal life, everything seemed so easy being on the road with them, right? I’m just afraid he might forget about me... I don’t know” Izzie laughed loudly and I frowned at her.
“What?” I asked a little offended and Izzie looked at me with raised brows.
“Babe, that is really the dumbest thing I heard from you in a while.”
“What makes you say that?” I asked her and Izzie smiled.
“I have never seen you so happy, you and Jimmy, babe that’s it. I have no doubt in the world that nothing could separate you again, Jimmy won’t let anything come between you… believe me. I am 100 % sure of that, I know this talk is long overdue, and normally we are checking the potential partners before, but let me tell it to you now... you and him.... that is it. And I don’t want to hear anything about that again.” I smiled thinking about Jimmy, she was right, we would make this work, we were meant to be. I looked over to and she looked away and I might have seen a tear in her eye.
“Iz, what’s wrong? Sorry, I didn’t mean to make you sad, tell me…” I asked her and laid my arm around her shoulder.

Izzie’s POV
I was happy for my best friend, I really was… I wondered when Jimmy would ask her to move in with him… My thoughts were, that wouldn’t take very long. I laid in Mia’s guest room, staring at the ceiling. It was 7 in the morning and I barely slept at all. Mia had me tell her all my insecurities, about Brian not being used to having a girlfriend while doing his job, about me not being sure if we could make it and even though Mia denied everything and tried to reassure me all would be fine between me and Brian... I came this close to just throwing in the towel, letting Brian go so he could do what he was best at... being a rockstar, an exclusive girlfriend sure wasn’t part of that. Where I was sure Mia and Jimmy would make it, I wasn’t at all sure about how Brian and I would get through this. I saw him yesterday, talking to all those people, he was very good at it and I think he kinda forgot I was there. I don’t blame him, he never needed to take someone else into account. It was his work, it was what he did, but what if I just didn’t fit into that picture.

Maybe I just needed to be with him, hear him say he missed me, how he loved me, how he wanted to be with me, because despite of all the thoughts running in my head, I did love him, I did want to be with him. I hadn’t felt this strong about someone in a long time, and to be honest, that scared me too... If I would open up to him, to a man of his kind, how big a chance would there be of him just hurting me in the end. I needed him now, I needed him to hold me, I needed him to make me feel like he had been all trip, even when we were just having sex, without the feelings, he could take away every single worry I had in my mind. I decided to send him a text

“Baby, you awake yet? X”

I waited for 15 minutes without getting anything back, so I got out of bed and decided to make breakfast for me and Mia, I guess she would want to go over to the guys soon, I bet Jimmy wouldn’t be too excited to wake up without her, and neither would she. How did Brian sleep? Did he miss me as much as I did him last night?

I walked into the kitchen and started to prepare all kinds of things for breakfast, listening to some music on my phone, ‘Seize the day’ came on. Brian had send it to me, after he played it for me. I thought about that night, that amazing night, only one of many. We were both denying so hard, and now we finally admitted, we’ve only had such a short time together. Tears streamed down my face and I brushed them away angrily. Stop it Izzie! Fuck! You are making yourself crazy! I was making a batter to make pancakes when I looked outside, there was a car parked up front, I didn’t know it, and it wasn’t here yesterday. I couldn’t help it, but my breath quickened and I could feel my heart beat against my chest.

“Whatcha doing?!” I jumped at Mia’s voice, who had moved in next to me quietly.
“That car... It’s not familiar, don’t you think it’s strange it’s parked there?” I asked, looking at her worried face. Fuck, what the hell was this?!

Notes

Some serious thoughts from the girls in this Chapter...

Alright and now I wanna hear what you guys think... who is in the car?
And what will happen next?!

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