My Heart Lied
It Feels Like I'm Going Insane
Matt
What did I just do? Why would you be so stupid! Now she’s going to freak out and tell Zack. I just fucked everything up for myself. I never should have said anything to her. I looked at her and she just had a look of surprise on her face. “Please say something?” I asked her.
Rowan
Matt just told me he loved me… I blinked my eyes a couple times before leaning across the table. I grabbed his face and kissed him deeply. I could tell he was shocked because he took a minute before finally kissing me back. Sadly we were interrupted by the sound of my phone going off. I pulled away, Matt’s face full of shock.
“Hello?” I said
“Hey Rowan, you still with Matt?”
“Yeah babe. Why?”
“We’re heading back to the tour bus to get ready for the show.”
“Alright, I’ll make sure to tell Matt”
“Alright babe. Love you”
“Love you to Z”
I hung up the phone and put it back in my pocket as our coffee arrived. Matt and I took a drink at the same time and scrunched up our faces before switching. “That’s better” I murmured.
“Why’d you kiss me”
“I wanted to see if there was anything there”
“Was there?”
“Yes”
He stared at me in disbelief and sighed quietly. “What about Zack?” he asked me. “ What are you going to do? You can’t exactly tell him that we just made out in a coffee shop” he said. “I’m not sure what I’m going to do Matt. I need to stay with him because of Leigha and the baby. But I just….I don’t love him anymore and he doesn’t deserve to be hurt again…” I said quietly.
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Matt and I walked down the road, the tour bus coming into view. I sighed quietly and pulled my hand away walking towards the bus. I froze. What was that? Was Zack kissing some other girl. Once I got closer my eyes went wide. Not only was he kissing another girl but he had her up against the side of the bus, with her legs wrapped around his waist, and on top of it, his hand was in her shirt.
“What the hell is wrong with you!”
What did I just do? Why would you be so stupid! Now she’s going to freak out and tell Zack. I just fucked everything up for myself. I never should have said anything to her. I looked at her and she just had a look of surprise on her face. “Please say something?” I asked her.
Rowan
Matt just told me he loved me… I blinked my eyes a couple times before leaning across the table. I grabbed his face and kissed him deeply. I could tell he was shocked because he took a minute before finally kissing me back. Sadly we were interrupted by the sound of my phone going off. I pulled away, Matt’s face full of shock.
“Hello?” I said
“Hey Rowan, you still with Matt?”
“Yeah babe. Why?”
“We’re heading back to the tour bus to get ready for the show.”
“Alright, I’ll make sure to tell Matt”
“Alright babe. Love you”
“Love you to Z”
I hung up the phone and put it back in my pocket as our coffee arrived. Matt and I took a drink at the same time and scrunched up our faces before switching. “That’s better” I murmured.
“Why’d you kiss me”
“I wanted to see if there was anything there”
“Was there?”
“Yes”
He stared at me in disbelief and sighed quietly. “What about Zack?” he asked me. “ What are you going to do? You can’t exactly tell him that we just made out in a coffee shop” he said. “I’m not sure what I’m going to do Matt. I need to stay with him because of Leigha and the baby. But I just….I don’t love him anymore and he doesn’t deserve to be hurt again…” I said quietly.
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Matt and I walked down the road, the tour bus coming into view. I sighed quietly and pulled my hand away walking towards the bus. I froze. What was that? Was Zack kissing some other girl. Once I got closer my eyes went wide. Not only was he kissing another girl but he had her up against the side of the bus, with her legs wrapped around his waist, and on top of it, his hand was in her shirt.
“What the hell is wrong with you!”
Notes
Sorry it's so short, I have to share the computer so it's hard to write long chapters. but hey, why not listen to Zack sing a song about pot and coke? Title credit goes to Five Finger Death Punch, From the song "A Day In My Life"
Zacky's drug song
Oh man oh man oh man!!! I think Rowan will be fine but lose the baby. :'(
1/13/15