I've Looked To God's In The Skies

How the hell could I have gotten myself into this situation?! I’m a smart girl. 'Well clearly, you’re not that fucking smart if you’re here right now!' My inner self scolded me, she likes to do that. 'Hey, don’t you put the blame on me, you’re the one who has to swallow your pride and step forward…. Probably should have swallowed something else too.' Ok now, can you please shut the fuck up? This is hard enough as is! Ok! 'Ok, just don’t expect a positive result.' Don’t worry, I don’t.

A few months ago, my country got an unadvertised visit from the five people that I idolize. By chance, I got to meet them all. Turns out we all got along pretty well with one another. 'Yeah, maybe a little too well.' Quiet! I’m telling the story and I don’t need a commentary! So anyway, I had taken a liking to one particular Rock Star… turns out I get horny when I’m drunk, and decide to give my virginity to nearest attractive male.

Well, needless to say we never had a chance at a relationship, because he had to go back to the U.S for some R&R before he continued the last leg of his tour… he wouldn’t be returning to Australia until February/March. Today is March 7th, and I decide now would be as good a time as any to confront him. I got tickets to his concert, and also got a V.I.P pass to see them backstage after the concert.

Throughout the whole concert, people kept giving me weird and uninviting looks. I decided it was best for my safety if I stayed off to the side and away from the violent, drunk mosh-pitters. 'Hey, don’t sound so disgusted, that was you not long ago.' Whatever.

As the final chords of their last song played, I made my way over the backstage door, clutching my pass close to my heart, praying to a God I didn’t believe in. Once I got to the door, I showed the body guard my pass, and he looked it over and gave a nod of approval. Not before giving me a once over, and having his eyes latch on to one particular part of my anatomy. I just rolled my eyes at him. I’ve been getting this a lot lately. 'Hey pig! Our eyes are up here!!' Yo! Cool your jets.

Suddenly a cacophony of high-pitched screaming invaded my ears, making me cringe and back away slowly. I made eye contact with the body guard and we both rolled our eyes at the scantily dressed fan-girls. Given I was once one of them. Minus the clothes from Sluts-AR-Us. Now I just have so much shit going on in my mind. The body guard spoke into his walkie-talkie and feedback came back. I couldn’t make out what it said, but I’m guessing it was someone ordering to let us back, because the body guard motioned for us to follow him. My stomach twisted into violent knots, and I honestly thought I was going to throw up.

As we were all walking down the hall someone I recognised was walking towards us. I caught a glimpse of them, and they had their eyebrows furrowed when they looked at me. Oh God! Diz, please don’t recognize me, please! As we walked past, and got further and further away from him, I sighed in relief. However the relief was short-lived, because we seemed to have approached our destination.

Behind that door stood the man that haunts my dreams and plagues my mind 90% of the day. The door was opened for us, and the fan girls rushed in squealing and bouncing like cocaine addicts. I kind of just stood at the back of the room, whilst the guys were signing autographs and taking photos with the rest of the girls.

I waited until the hype died down, and most of the girls had left, but a few keen ones stayed to flirt with the only single member. The other guys had turned their attention from the fan girls and started to go for the catering table and mini fridge, which I just so happened to be standing next to. The first moment when they looked at me was confusion, then recognition, and then their eyes widened in shock. I just smiled kindly at them. Their girls had their hands either over their hearts or mouths.

The leader who was standing closest to him giving him a nudge, not removing his eyes from me with his mouth slightly agape. When his attention was caught he looked at his friend, saw his reaction and knitted his brows together and looked where his best friend was staring.

Once his eyes met mine, my knees went weak and I had the feeling to throw up all over again. His gaze was blank never leaving mine. He pushed past the now scowling girls and made his way across the room, before stopping directly in front of me. Eyes roaming all over, landing on the same place as everyone else’s. 'Oh shit! We’re in trouble now. There is no way we can stay mad at those eyes!'
“Akasha?” He asked in disbelief. I shot him a kind smile.
"Yes Zack, it’s me.”
“You… You’re… you’re” he stuttered.
“You’re…”
“Pregnant.”

Notes

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