I don't belong here.

Nora’s P.O.V

I felt sick to my stomach, I ran off stage and headed for my room, I neede to get the fuck out of here and quick! This was just fucking brilliant, first Nikki, then Adam now matt, this defiantly wasn’t my day! I pushed through everyone back stages earning a few “Heys!” and curses but I didn’t care I needed out of here before I distract everyone with the sound of my heartache. I can’t bear to see him; I just see a monster, but a monster I love, hey guess we are Huntington’s equivalent to beauty and the beast. I barged through my door but managed to have Kol on my heels as I shut the door behind me-
“Whoa…Ana-…I mean Nora, what’s got into you?” he looked rather concerned but I was too busy pacing backing a forth having a mental breakdown. “Calm. It.” He said as he grabbed my arms and stood me still, my heart felt like it was going to burst out of my chest!

“Kol, I need to go im sorry...”before he could say anything we were interrupted by a loud comossion from outside my door.

“Im sorry sir, you can’t go in there unless Miss Ana says so”

“I don’t give a fuck! I need to see her!!” “Nora…please opens up”

Shit he was outside, Kol turned around and looked at me “You can fit through that window, your diddy, I’ll say you’ve gone home” he smiled and I kissed his cheek “But then he’ll come to mine” he chuckled “Lock that door then baby” he winked and I hugged him before whipping off my corset grabbing a vest and some jeans, how I managed to put them on as well as climb through the window and not break myself I’ll ever know. As I jumped down from the ledge, I could hear matt and Kol talking.

“Im sorry man, but she’s gone home, she didn’t feel to great”

“The name’s matt…look dude but I love that woman so I need to see her, I know she’s hear so please move out of the way!” you could tell by his tone he was frustrated and had been crying, it hurt me to hear him like this, I started crying but clamped my hand over my mouth to stop any sound being heard.

“Matt, look I swear she’s not here and im not lying she did go home…”


“Okay well if she comes back, can you tell to find me…I can’t live like this anymore”

And with that I heard my dressing room door shut and saw Kol hang his head over the ledge and give me thumbs up, that was my cue to run. Even though I was wearing my heels from the stage I could still run, I was amazed I felt like the fucking flash! Eventually my unfit body gave in and I stopped against a wall and caught my breathe, holy shit this pain, it needs to go I can’t live like this, I need my typical remedy. I pulled my phone out; I need to forget this night as quick as possible.

“Hey…are you busy? Was wondering if you fancy a drink?”
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Alex’s P.O.V

I was sat down the couch with a bottle of corona watching the crow, brilliant film…always reminded me of Nora, it was her favourite film to watch whatever mood she was in, god I missed her, she was my salt to my pepper, my tweedledee to my tweddledum and my sugar to my spice….life was not the same, but after Zacky texting me earlier about spotting her at a strip club, I could only guess what they would say, what matt would say. Maybe this was good, maybe now she'll come home. They didn’t know her as much as me so when I got a text from Zacky asking if she was stripping, it didn’t weird me out like it probably has with the lads, that’s where she started out I guess. When she was 18 he first job was working at this old gentlemen’s club back home, she worked there for ages, I waitressed and our friend Kol was bartender rand she danced, we was all underage but the boss didn’t care, we have always looked older than our years. It was good fun till Adam came into the picture, god did I hate that guy. She used to get on that stage and dance all her problems away, but when she got with Adam, he became possessive, controlling and stopped her form doing everything including dance.
Adam ruined so much for her, the first time round he stopped her form seeing anyone but as she thought she was so in love she didn’t care and the fact that she was either high or drunk due to him, by the end he landed her hospital. The second time we all though he had changed, even I was convinced, they seemed perfect until she caught him with Nikki, she wanted to leave but he wouldn’t let her and every time she tried after he would abuse her in all sought of ways, so when I heard she was running away after coming out of the hospital after the miscarriage, I was so happy. Life for her was so much better down here, if anyone this included Matt hurt her or treated he like Adam did, I’d have their bollocks on a platter, then I was distracted by my thoughts and my film by Zacky and everyone else returning home, and by the commotion and the face on matt, guess shit went down, I got up and kissed Zacky and looked out the door hoping maybe afterwards they convinced Nora to come home and her matt are back together and everything is back to normal, but no…it was just the five of them.

“So no Nora then?” I asked Zacky and he shook his head “No she went home but that was a fucking lie!!” matt shouted before sitting on the stairs with his head in hands.
“Well maybe she isn’t ready matt…give her time…break ups aren’t meant to be peachy” I went over and sat next to him and put my arms around him cradling him like a baby, jimmy walked past heading to the kitchen with short shit and Bri, was that evils I saw? What was with jimmy? Did Matt do something I don’t know about? I kissed Matt’s cheek as I switched places with Matt and went to see jimmy.


“Hey jimbo, everything ok?” he chugged his beer down pretty much in one “Yep just perfect!” was that sarcasm? “Come on what’s up?”

“I can’t stand here being quite whilst he’s whinging about Nora, he fucking deserves it!” he threw the bottle at the wall “Whoa what the fuck dude?!” Brian pulled Jim about to snap him out of whatever mood he was in, but it didn’t work so Brian dragged him outside for a smoke, I was so confused, and what does he mean he deserves it? I have a bad feeling about this.

“Hey what’s up with Jim?” Zacky came up to me and pulled me into a hug and I nuzzled my face into his neck “I don’t know Z, I miss Nora, I think it’s taking its toll everyone else too” and then out of nowhere the back door swung open and all we saw was Brian launch through the lounge and at Matt, he grabbed him by his collar and held him against the wall. We all ran too matt “Dude get off of matt!!” I was pulling him as much as I could but it was no use, I was fucking weak. I went over to Jim, and he looked incredibly guilty I guessed he was the reason for this...

“YOU DON’T EVEN FUCKING DERSERVE HER, WHY MATT!! YOU’RE A PRICK!!” and with that matt earned a blow to the side of his head from Brian, now he was getting the shit beaten out of him by Brian, I was so confused, what just happened? I stood back as Zacky, jimmy and Johnny peeled Brian off of matt with much effort “GET OFF OF ME!! HE DERSEREVS HIS HEAD SMASHED IN, YOU FUCKING HIT HER!! MATT YOU BASTARD YOU HIT HER!” wait what?!.

Brian was crying a lot, jimmy was fuming you could tell by his face “How the fuck do you know?” matt looked confused “SHE MET WITH JIM EARLIER YOU FUCKING TWAT!!” he what? “Thanks for the update Jim” Zacky stated, my blood was boiling and I was ready to explode “yeah thanks” I mumbled, makes me feel weaker, why not me, why didn’t she meet me? “IM GONNA BREAK YOUR NECK SANDERS!” gates shouted again but the boys held hold of him keeping him in his place, we were so overwhelmed by everything. Johnny went blank and just stared, Zacky looked from me and matt…he leaped across matt and ran for me as I saw blood and launched at matt, but Zacky was to slow…

“WHAT! YOU FUCKING HIT HER, YOU SCUMBAG!!” I slapped him straight across the face, the sound made the boys wince, I started hitting his chest over and over again, but eventually sadness took over my anger and my attempts of hurting him became useless and weak “Matt she loved you…” my voice was stuck in my throat but I managed to get that out “No she didn’t…” whack went my hand on the other side of his face “Alex..”

“No shut it Zacky!!”

I grabbed hold of his face “look at me matt” I calmed down now, as much as it angered me he laid a hand on her and I won’t ever let that go, but she loved him, no matter what he was trying to say, this was different I could tell by his lack of defence that guilt had consumed him, he kept avoiding my eyes “Matt!!” now he looked at me “Im sorry, I was drunk, I don’t know what came over me, yes I do…” he looked away “Matt? What made you snap?” his gaze left mine and he looked next to me, I followed his gaze and saw it land on brian….mde all sense now “Brian?” he nodded “What did he do?”

“I DIDN’T DO ANYTHING YOU SON OF A BITCH!!” he went to go for matt but jimmy dragged him out back to cool down, the boys including Zacky went with him, leaving me and matt alone.

As much as he infuriated me, there was something so easily forgiving about him, yes he launched at her before but he apologized and that was to do with Brian, and so was this time, I know matt was devoted to her, must have been if he went and bought a ring for her, of course I know about that, he told Zacky who then told me. So what im getting from this is matt has anger issues and Brian doesn’t help the situation, and what I know from Nora, she’s stuck or was stuck on both lads.

“What did he do matt?” he started crying “They…the. Kissed…in front of me” okay understandable slightly “But did you let Nora explain?” he shook his head “Of course not, were you drunk?” he nodded “So you were angry, drunk and things got out of hand?”

“Yep, im sorry Alex, I truly am, I keep fucking up, can’t believe I hurt her, as soon as I did I woke up, it was like I was in a trance, I ran after her but she slammed the door in my face and said we were done, I don’t blame her though, I would have done the same, but Brian I love him but he gets under my skin, I want a life with Nora, I want a family everything and no matter what he has, he is always sin the way stealing her affection and love, I couldn’t even tell you who owned her heart..” I felt a lump form in my throat, even though he pissed me off I believed him.

“Matt, you need to calm down when things get out of hand, talk to her, don’t turn into a monster, she dated Adam and he life was ruined because of abuse and every time you get pissed it’s just a reminder of what was, now I know he is still bothering her, even if she didn’t tell me much, im not stupid but I know she felt complete and safe with you, I’ve never seen her the way she was with you, she had this look in her eye which was stunning, and only you gave her that look matt, you was special to her, yes she has a connection with gates, even I can’t deny that but forget him, show her how much better you are, I love both of you lads, but in the end, you’ll be the one that makes her happy, gates is temporarily, don’t ruin you and Nora and you and Brian over your intense jealousy and anger issues” he chuckled at the last part then pulled me into a hug.

“Thankyou Alex, I was expecting you to fill me in!” I pulled out of the hug “I don’t forgive you but I know what’s best for my sister, and that is you matt, hope to god you didn’t scare her off and that she come tomorrow for Z’s birthday” “Oh yeah I forgot, does she know?” I smiled and stood up holding a hand out to a bloody and battered matt “Im guessing jimmy told her, but if not I did text her but no reply” he smiled and wiped the blood off of his lip, and with that Zacky walked back in alone.

“Where’s Brian?” matt spoke earning a sigh and a stern look from Z “He went home, Johnny and Jim took him home, you’ve caused a lot of shit tonight bro, but I still love you and we work through this, you are crashing at mine tonight, go head up stairs and get your head down, no ifs or buts, do as I say “ he winked and hugged us both “Yes dad!” as he slowly walked up the stairs. Then Zacky turned to me and I wrapped my arms round his neck “How’s you babe?” I smiled me loved how he spoke to me and how when he smiled his snakebites looked amazing “Very tired, overwhelmed, angry, hurt, everything…can we go bed?” he chuckled and kissed me on my nose “I love how you handled matt...” “Someone’s got to do it, yes im pissed but he loves her, I can feel it, we all know it, even Nora” he kissed me softly and then looked straight at me again “Well yes and I love you now shall we?” he motioned to the stairs, I started walking but I felt myself being flipped about as he put me over his shoulder and walked up stairs “Thanks Zacky!”

“Love you!!”

“Love you too”

Notes

right will this took me bloody ages to right but loved every moment of it, hope you like this chapter i know i sure do!! please free to comment, love you all !! x