I don't belong here.

Nora's P.O.V

i woke up alone this morning, just as Matt did yesterday, i stirred until i actually woke , i leaned over to kiss him to say morning but i ended up kissing the pillow, Matt was nowhere to be seen.

I pushed the covers back and leaped out of bed, i went to run out the door when i realsied i was completely naked, i grabbed one of Matt's t-shirt that was on the floor and some knickers and black leggings and headed downstairs. I heard groaning from the kitchen but it wasn't Matt, believe me i know what he sounds like when he groans. I turned to the kitchen to find zacky outside smoking and talking to someone, must be Matt.

"Morning!" i burst through the patio doors, zacky looked dead but i on the other hand felt normal just sleepy, i got a faint smile from him before he took another drag from his cigarette.

"Morning little red!" I turned to see zacky's smoking partner, not my Matt, but instead someone i didn't really expect to find standing there.

"Brian...ah...morning...um...what you doing here sweetie?" ill be honest didn't expect to see him till Friday and even then i didn't think i was going to go " Got a text from Zacky to bring some painkillers for him for his head, what did you two get up to last night, zacky looks like a corpse but you , well little red you never fail to disappoint" he smirked eyeing me up and down, realizing the top was white and my nipples were erect, shit! "do you want to keep those eyes Haner?!" he shook his head smirking once again, making me get butterflies, not matter what we fought about, he could always make me feel like that with that damn smile!!

" Well we went out, i hadn't seen Nora for a while, so i met her after work and went to johnny's and another club and probably another but i don;'t remember" he looked so innocent, bless zacky "Z you need to learn i can drink a lot , i can drink more than most guys i know, including you!" i messed with is hair and in return just got a evil glare, haha he was so cute.

"What happened to go karting?"

"Zacky sweetie, we went go karting before we hit Johnny's, darling you were wasted last night, do you even remember getting back here?" he just simply shook his head, aw bless him, it was hilarious watching him trying to remember and obviously Brian was enjoying it too, i could see him pissing him self about the whole thing in the corner of my eye.


"Oh i don't fucking know" he smirked "i feel awful whilst you look great" it was true he did look a bit green around the gills. "Its because ive been doing this since i was seventeen, it being illegal or not, and ive also been in trouble with alcohol, so guess my body has got used to it" they both looked at me confused, ah guess they didn't know everything abut my past eh, and Brian defiantly, when it came to my past and Adam, he didn't know much whereas everyone else did, some knew more than others but they all had the general outline of it all. " thank you zacky i do try!" he burst into laughter "Nora do you mind if i use your shower?".

"yeah sure but you might have to wait matt's probably using it " i smiled but i saw zacky's smile turn blank "Umm Nora he isn't here, he left when Brian turned up and hasn't been back since" oh shit, he is in a mood...fucking great..." Oh ok then well go ahead then sweetie, towels in the cupboard and im sure you could find something of Matt's to borrow, that guy has a bigger wardrobe then i do!" he chuckled before heading upstairs, leaving me and Brian alone...shit here we go...

"so hows the baby?"

Brian looked up and smiled, i guess it wasn't a show and he was excited, but who wouldn't be, he would be a great father i could feel it but Nikki, something was just off about it all, there was always trouble if she was involved and my gut was telling me Brian was going to get hurt.We now had moved inside the house and were sat on the couch.

"Yeah the baby is great, we're about a little less than a month i think, to be fair i don't know, and Nikki is doing fine"

"No Brian" he looked at me a confused look, those big brown eyes staring straight at me.

"No?"

"Brian please, i wanna just move on, from the dinner, from all the times we have fought recently, but please don't talk about her, she's trouble and i really don't want to fight with you, it hurts when we do, ive accepted your apology but please she will hurt you and i cant stand around like everyone else and pretend its all going to be ok, i will support you with the baby, i can see he excitement in your face and you'll be a great father, but please lets not mention her, not in my house"

He smiled, and held my hands in his, his touch sent shivers down my spine "OK, we wont speak about her, if that is what we will have to do so i get to have you in my life, even if it isn't the way i hoped, but i promise Nora" he smiled and kissed my knuckles, what did he meant by even it if isn't the way he hoped? "By the way last time i checked this was Matt's house" i looked away from him realizing he was right "Yeah well it might as well be mine im here most of the time, and if not then he's at mine" he chuckled, making me blush.

"So are we meeting tonight?" he edged closer to me...wait..what? we weren't meeting till Friday, and i still didn't know if it was a good idea, my body, my everything was saying go, but my conscience was saying not to, that Matt would be pissed off. "The letter said Friday , its not Friday yet " i smiled and he just smirked and shook his head, still holding on t my hands

"What's so funny?"......

"Little red, it is Friday" Oh shit? my head's so fucked im getting the days of the week screwed up, bollocks.

"Oh shit, got my days messed up, ha well i guess ill be seeing you tonight then, umm whoa ok " he widened his eyes, you could see he was happy that i had said yes, and to be fair there was a part of me that was excited to, would be nice to go back to ho we were, how we were before Adam turned up, before there was me and Matt, before there was a Brian and Nikki....before things got complicated.

"Brill, well i better be off, ill see yu at the pier at 7" Brian got up to head towards the door, i followed him to see him out "Yeah , see you later, drive safe Bri" he smiled as he stepped outside, he leaned in closer and hugged me, it was nice, i missed him, i hope he missed me....He pulled away and just stared at me, he had that glisten in his eyes as if he was going to do something...he leaned in closer and placed his hands on my waist, i needed to move, if i had any respect for Matt, i need to move from Brian's embrace, but i just couldn't, it was like i was under his spell, oh fuck....and with that his lips met mine, oh Jesus, i hope Matt doesn't pull up now, this would be war...oh fuck...Brian...why?

I couldn't move, i was under his control, and i lost all sense of what was right or wrong, i grabbed him and pulled him back inside, his hands cupped my cheeks as mine draped round his neck, oh Nora....what about Matt, what the fuck was wrong with me?....oh please someone help me...but it was so good...oh shit....

"Nora?!" it was zacky from upstairs, Brian quickly let go and mouthed the words 'im sorry' before exiting Matt's swiftly, oh shit what have i done, but i must say nicely on cue Zacky boy..."I'm coming Zacky, ill be up in a sec" i shut the door, and though back to what had just happened, holy fuck, im screwed, and with that i slid down the door to the floor, with my head in my hands., i must not make a repeat of this tonight, if i loved Matt at all....i needed to watch myself....and that's when i thought.....where was Matt anyway?

Notes

hope you like, drama will happen in next chapter :) i promise xx